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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

About this Blog

The previous page "about this Blog" appears to have been erased.
 
    This blog is an example of what a Targeted Individual goes through in the process of struggling to figure out and expose the targeting while still being targeted. 
   Not all of the original blog is here on this website. Some has been erased or altered, especially in my earliest writings. I have tried to resurrect it into books, but have had a lot of interference with this. My computers appear to have been infiltrated for longer than I have realized. Consequently some of it is not as I wrote it. There are also apt to be things that I've misperceived and I can not fix these things until I am free and safe and able to bring more clarity into the covert craziness that has surrounded me.


    Because my writings have been being sabotaged, and because I wrote some of them before I knew much or while my brain was being lasered or drugged...etc, I can understand that there could be issues with some of them. Much of it is not written very well and were rushed desperate attempts to get help to those of us who have been being literally tortured and destroyed. Now, my writings, and all their imperfections, are an example of what a Targeted Individual goes through, while trying to figure it all out and while still being targeted...etc., like I have already said many times before.

   My writings hope to help prove the targeting and what it has been done to ALL of us, including people in these organizations. I am sorry if this offends anyone. I hope that, someday soon, we will ALL regain our freedom

  This blog has been a process of my figuring out the targeting, proving it and publicly exposing it. . .while I'm still being targeted - microwaved, lasered and threatened. So please excuse my mistakes, my moments of confusion...etc. We, long term Targeted Individuals, are suffering in ways that most of you probably can not even imagine.
   The book contains more of the original posts than that which is on the web. These blog posts reflect; periods of misperceptions as well as deep insights;  periods of the indescribable pain, which I am still forced to endure - periods of begging for help, which often faded into an excruciating silence;  periods of deep realizations of the Truths, which were often followed by rounds of technological torture;  periods of confusion around desperate gropes for solid information and proof where almost none exists - periods of unwittingly sharing disinformation;  periods of assuming the wrong things as I was surrounded by confusing manipulations;  periods of uncharacteristic dysfunction and anger, which rose from microwave intrusions into my brain as well as my own fear and pain;  periods when I foolishly forget that my blog is public and freely wrote as I would in my personal journal;  periods of begging America to openly stand up against the crimes;  periods of feeling angry with our government for not being here for us, until I realized that many government officials are also victims of the targeting;  periods of disgust with the media and America for not openly standing up against these crimes, until I realized that America is being targeted/infiltrated and then started praying and crying for America to regain its freedom;  periods of foolishly trying to expose perpetration puppets and their plate numbers, until I realized that they often use false plates and are mind control victims who need to be set free;  periods of using this blog as a report to law enforcement, due to a concern that they were not getting all of my reports; periods of pouring my heart out into poetry...etc.;   periods of mistakes, which probably extend beyond what I now realize; a period of time when I called my papers “news papers,” until I learned that this may not have been appropriate, because they are not formal “News Papers”;    periods of criminal infiltrations, which have aimed to alter or erase some of my writings...etc.
   Please excuse my mistakes and read this book with an open Heart and mind, and understand that it truly is exactly what it is called, “Ramblings of a Targeted Individual.”

    I have tried to remove plate numbers, names and towns that I had listed, because there appears to be a horrible covert war happening around me. (It appears that people on all sides are being targeted! I pray that the covert war stops. The last time I begged for it to stop, in the summer of 2015, the targeting on me vamped up!) I have left a line where I erased names...etc. Hopefully I have gotten all of them. Please excuse me if I havn’t.  My original posts can be made available to honest officials if the miracle of GENUINE, solid help ever arises. (Such officials have my permission to access and copy my writings on the web, especially if anything happens to me.  Hopefully they have not all been altered. Some have.)

   My realizations and perceptions have gone through changes as I figure things out. In the early years of this blog, I wrote with a rushed desperation that only a heavily targeted Individual can fully understand. This is reflected in some of my posts. There was a period (In 2012) when I was at a motel and appeared to have been being drugged on top of experiencing heavy laser weapon attacks to my brain and body. During this time they had many operatives, disguised as fellow Targeted Individuals, feeding me misinformation. . .as I desperately groped for explanations and reasons why this was happening to us. During this time I started blaming only HAARP, although it is actually impossible for us to be sure of which technologies are used, especially when we are being hit from the sky - from what appears to be from satellite types of technologies. During this time I also fell into a pattern of over catastrophising - saying that “THOUSANDS” of victims are crying out for help, because I’d believed what was being told to me. That I know of, only a few victims have been crying out for help. Some have dissapeared. Some have been inconspicuously murdered. Some are too scared to reach out for help, because it has proven to vamp up the targeting and no officials are even acknowledging these crimes at this point in time.  And I feel that most victims do not even know what is happening to them.
   Judging by what has been happening around me, it is probably safe to say that there are uncountable numbers of thousands of unaware victims of various types of microwave targeting. And much of the population, appears to be under the influence of technological mind control. This is truly a Technological Holocaust.
 In 2012 I was told that I am a "victim of the Patriot Act." For a short while, during the early stages of my grope to figure out why I was being targeted, I had believed it. But, as looked into my past, puzzle pieces began clicking together, revealing that I have been being targeted since the 1970s, and it became obvious that the 2005 "Patriot Act" is not responsible for the targeting I've been experiencing through the past several decades. But my experiences have made me wonder about the issues people have with the Patriot Act. I don't know much about it. But I've been told that it legalized levels of surveillance that some people feel threatened by. I have a hard time understanding why there are such issues with it, but my perspective is an unusual one.
   As puzzle pieces continued clicking together I realized that I've been held under satellite surveillance since at least the 1980s. Those who target my loved ones and I have been using surveillance systems, in conjunction with microwave and laser weapons, long before the surveillance part was made legal. Those who target us  obviously have no regard for the laws. So, from my point of view, the Patriot Act merely enables more respectable, law obiding people to have the same freedoms that the criminals had already stolen.
   As I struggle to survive the targeting I actually find comfort in knowing that decent, respectful people, who would not target/harm anyone, now have the same freedoms that the criminals do. Some may say, "We can only hope that all who use the new freedom of surveillance, will do so with integrity," but the sad truth is that there already were far too many who use it with criminal intentions, long before the Patriot Act was passed. Because I have been so hurt by the criminals who have disregarded the laws, in order to target us, I hope that the Patriot Act will help stop the horrible crimes and actually bring more safety and privacy into our homes and communities.

   I have had to rely on my own instincts and intuition more than anything else, due to the lack of information and intentional disinformation campaigns. This is extremely difficult, (sometimes impossible) while my brain is being heavily lasered. But I have done the best I can.
    Since my early posts I have realized a lot. Some of my greatest realizations are that; those who target us often use unaware people in the foreground of their operation. (I call these  “gang stalkers” puppets); the more criminal types of puppets use fabricated or stolen license plates, when obviously zooming in to cause harm. So it is best to not report the plate numbers; those who target me seem to want me to think that this is all being done by my own government, but I feel that the core of it is being done by those who are infiltrating America and appear to have control of too many citizens and government officials, at this point in time. My fear for our safety and humanity’s freedom has grown as I realize the scope of what is happening with mind control technologies through the past several decades.
   In my fight to expose the crimes I have focused primarily on the bad and not mentioned much of the good, like the good conversations I’ve had with an FBI agent, who appears to have been targeted and left the office he’d been in. . .and the good police officers who had wanted to help me but couldn’t and also oddly left the department.
   There has been some good mixed in with the bad experiences, but unfortunately, some of it now appears to have been perpetration pretending to be helpful while delivering abuse. This abusive “help” appears to be part of the psychological targeting, which I am only recently starting to figure out. I had not posted many of these ‘abusive help’ events, which happened on a massive scale around the last half of 2013 and in 2014, due to my hope that there really was genuine good, mixed in with the bad, and was really trying to covertly help me. But this appears to be part of the targeting scheme as well - the helpful abuse makes us feel guilty for reporting it or saying anything about it and this helps them to get away with it. I have experienced severe levels of this, which is intertwined with repeated attempts to abduct me under the guise of a “rescue.” Apparently this is how they enslave their victims - they attack with weapons, disabling my car...etc., and then zoom in to “help.” Its a horrible thing to be experiencing at times when there is a desperate need for genuine, kind, honest, real help. Actually, it hurts like hell and this scenario had been so persistent for so long, and with such obvious ill effects on me, that its really impossible for me to perceive it as anything but abuse. But there are surely things that I have misperceived. Its all a confusing mess and I hope that someday it can be made clear and victims of all kinds can be either set free or protected from further control and harm.

   There are many other things in this blog (and in its book) that I'd like to explain. Much of it is an example of what a heavily Targeted Individual go through in the process of trying to figure it all out while still being targeted and fed misinformation. But I am not able to clarify all of it, due to being too heavily targeted, and due to my computers being infiltrated, as well as many things not yet being clear to me.  I hope that, someday, I will be able to do more to explain my questionable posts, because some were due to my own misperceptions and desperate gropes for answers in a world that still has too few valid ones. . . and some of my posts were altered or erased by those who target me.

    Please do not look for fault in me or in any other long term Targeted Individual. We have been through so much hardship, and are surrounded by such deceitful manipulations, that we can not look perfect under the eyes of scrutiny. If you look hard enough perhaps you'll find a part of our lives that has not yet been battered, bruised, degraded or slandered. But I hope you do the opposite - I hope you listen to your Heart - I hope you can care to realize our plight and find the courage to stand with us so that the crimes can be stopped. 

    I have been feeling sad that many of my past writings, especially those which I'd written in 2005, had been sabotaged. Perhaps someday, I will have the freedom to resurrect their better parts. Until then, I hope that those who have read them, will understand, instead of assuming and judging, because some had merely been uncensored releasing of past pains. . .for the heart that could have been gained. (This is what my work is about.) And some had been altered by those who target me and infiltrate my computers. But they were also filled with truths that have been weaving their way into my more recent writings. Though I no longer publicly share some of them, and have never had some on the web, they can be made available to honest officials who may need them for a good purpose. 

Please read more in the introductions of the book of this blog;