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Friday, May 31, 2019

A Leary Leap

   What I really desperately need, for a long time now, is to be free of the targeting and have my own bank account back (without this being used to hurt me) and take time to recover and set myself up with a safe place to live...etc., before launching into a new start with my work and whatever else I have to do to fund it....etc. The sabotaging of both my life and my work has been too huge for me to even begin to get past it while still in this destitute situation and everything being infiltrated and controlled...etc. I should have these needs met. But, genuine help with the targeting stuff still appears to not plan to ever really be here for me and I just don't know what to do.
   Other jobs, (that I have been forced to turn to, in order to survive and support my primary work,) have been sabotaged, throughout the past, as well. They have also been used as avenues to harm me even more. I have felt like I no longer have the strength to try again, without a lot of recovery time and freedom from the targeting. But I dug up some strength, as well as some courage, and went to a staffing company, which the state of NH Employment Security office recommended - Bonney Staffing. And I pray that a decent door will open for me to be able to earn enough money to not only survive and be able to take better care of myself, but to also quickly get back onto my feet with a home and my primary work and start paying off my debts...etc. I know that this new job venture could be dangerous for me, which is why I am posting this. Please help pray that it does not open doors for me to be abducted or hurt in any way or form.

P.S. In recent years they have VERY obviously sabotaged my attempts to earn my own money, Like I have stated before, they have literally forced me to be dependent on them for survival money and they have used this to deprive me at strategic times for several years now. This has been extremely difficult for me, to say the least. To saboatage my efforts to earn my own money, they have done things like painfully lasered me (to the point of excruciating injury) or vamped up the general nuking, or disabled my car....etc. The last time I had actually been hired for a job, my car suddenly stopped running (August last fall), leaving me stranded in a parking lot for months forcing me to lose the job. In the deeper past, they had let me get jobs in places that they used to hurt me more, including drugging and raping me.
   So, I am suspicious that nothing happened to prevent the job interview this time, and that the targeting even actually backed off, as I went to Bonney Staffing. They didn't even interfere with my brain function or inflict me with physical pain during the interview, like what has been done at many other times. Should I go and just hope that the girls at Bonney Staffing are safe and kind and respectful and fair and will send me places that also have these qualities? Is there a plan to get me placed at a job and then suddenly vamp up the targeting while I am already there, so they can have me hospitalized or institutionalized or abducted...etc. Is it worth the risk? But what do I do if I do not take the risk? A puppet recently again pushed me toward retrieving my bank account, but there have and still are set ups around it. The recent ones seem to be that they will allow me to have my own money back if I become their obedient and non-"complaining" puppet "on the road...etc. (This was said, using a bank employee and a customer for the covert message the last time I made rounds to try to retrieve it.) It appears that if I refuse to join them and "stop complaining" they will either follow through with the framing of my daughter or steal my money and pretend that it never really existed! The recent dream I shared seems to be implying that the framing of my daughter is recent, and being done with the altering of bank records, rather than mind controlling her into doing it in 2005. But no matter how they have done it, or who they used, the general outcome is still the same - my money is being held hostage, in order to force me to join the sadistic program that has been targeting all of us all from the start. I should be able to go to officials and get help with this. But many already know. It now appears that the FBI knew long before I did, and that this has been am axe being held over my head for years before I even realized what had happened or what it was about. I can not help but wonder if it was an FBI agent who set the whole thing up this way to begin with. And recent emails I sent let other officials know, but (like my recent dream implies) those who are good decent officials and would want to help me appear to be being influenced (or taken over) by the ones who do the set ups to hurt us and do not want anyone to help me. I'm really at my wits end with this whole situation. The distress is HUGE on top of everything else. My survival, on all levels, is also being held hostage, with yet another sudden drop in financial help as well, forcing me to either leap into the job trap or the bank trap...and I am sure this is VERY intentional. There seems no way out of this situation. This just really should not be happening, especially since that covert world claims to be "all good" officials. It just should not be happening.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Torture and Another Attempt to Cause Auto Accident

    Yesterday, after the blog post about the dream I had, I experienced painful torture in the form of laser shots to the top left part of my head as well as some of the more usual nuking. This morning I experienced another lasering of my lower let abdomen. And then, after updating some of the previous post I drove to a store and saw a vulture swarming and then a vehicle leaped right out in front of me and stopped in the road, seeming to try to get me to hit the car.

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Dream of Psycho Fisherman

    I recently had the following dream after praying for answers. Before having it I was in a place of wanting to know the Truth about the official covert stuff and was actually hoping and wanting to be wrong about some things. I was in an objective place and had even sensed the Light shining in for me just before I had the dream. I know that this dream is not a reflection of my fears or my beliefs or my mis-perceptions and that it is not a projected dream. I know it was an answer to my prayers...to show me what has really been happening to me.

Dream of Psycho Fisherman 

I go to a man who is in a place where he does not want me to stay at. I leave. Then he is next to me, fishing with a large Liberty bell on the end of his fishing line. I notice and stay away...on the other side of trees. I tell him that, “I am staying over here," - Not joining him - not in agreement with the fishing. He suddenly starts casting the heavy liberty bell toward me, instead of out into the water like he had been doing. He keeps smashing it into me over and over again. Its a big heavy cast iron type of bell. I fall onto the ground. He keeps smashing me. He is a psychopathic type of personality. I am barely breathing and struggling to keep my head above the water. He suddenly stops and pretends to be good and pulls out his cell phone and says, “I’ll call 911 to get help for you.”
   I aim for help someplace else and run into another fisherman. I feel really scared that he will thrash me too. He doesn’t – he does not even notice me or my plight – he’s just there to fish. Both of these places were in darkness and the fishing was all happening in the dark. I'm staggering and all beaten up. 
   I go to another official’s office, one that is lower and more on a state level. The Light is shining in that office. People are moving furniture out of his office while I talk to him. He says that he cannot help me because I was “not thinking positive.” I feel shocked.
   Then I am in a cafe with my youngest daughter. (She is faded, as if there only in my thoughts or in spirit.) There is a group of women bragging, “It’s OK. We just helped him bury someone else.” Then I am cornered by a group of male thugs who are very threatening. One says, right in my face, “He had his way with your daughter last night.” I feel really scared – terrified and desperate for help that is not here for me. ~ end of dream

   I’m sure that there are those who may want to perceive this dream as something other than a symbolic portrayal of a horrible and painful situation that I have been trapped in. But the Truth is still the Truth. For me, the dream was validation for many things. (Too much to explain it all here.) It has saddened me terribly. And it has raised more fear for myself and my loved ones as well as good officials who have been being taken over - brainwashed into not being here for us...etc.

   In my dreams the dark is bad and the Light is good. Its always been this way and I do not think it means covert vs. not covert, which is another way it can be perceived.

    The fishing is symbolic of officials using me for bait, (supposedly for the sake of restoring Liberty, which is why the Liberty bell.) This has really been being done without my permission and against my will for many years now.  I have been begging for it to stop, and for officials to stand up and be here for us,  since I realized it had begun. Things have seemed to be getting worse and not better and I have desperately needed the opposite of what has been happening. But its been years and at least one official has been seriously hurting me and even appears to have been preventing help from other officials. I desperately need it ALL to end.

The official covert fishing stuff is not “all good.” It really isn’t.

Who is the psycho fisherman? That part of the dream was very dark and I could not see the face, but a name was in the dream and was the name of a man whom I know to literally be a psychopathic type of personality and possibly even a killer. But he is not anyone whom I had turned to for help and I am sure that he is not one of the officials who have been using me for bait 'for the sake of Liberty'.... which means the fisherman is not literally the man named in the dream, but that he has a serious psychopathic type of mental problem, like the man named does.
   The official fisherman could be one of many different people, whom I have turned to for help. I think he is most likely one of the two FBI agents, whom I suspect. But then... I had also turned to a retired state trooper and Senator Shaheen and President Obama and they ALL have been turning me away and they now ALL also appear to be using me for bait (fishing near me) instead of being here for me. And there are many other places that I have turned to for help as well.
   The psycho fisherman appears to have far reaching levels of control over others, even other officials. He appears to have also been intentionally sabotaging chances for me to get genuine help...etc.

The Official Office that is in the Light in my dream; The dream symbology of someone's belongings being moved out of their space is either a literal physical moving or a taking over of that person internally. I believe that other people moving him out of his office, and the statement he made in the dream, is about him being taken over with mind control, in order to prevent him from being here for me. I AM DEEPLY CONCERNED THAT THIS MAN MAY BE IN DANGER OF BEING BRAINWASHED OR ENSLAVED RIGHT NOW. I HOPE OTHER GOOD OFFICIALS GET THIS AND HELP HIM TO RETAIN HIS FREEDOM. I think he is most likely the Attorney General office, in Concord, NH, but it could be a Sheriff office as well. I hope the dark forces do not succeed and that he stays in the Light.
   This sort of thing appears to be happening in my situation from the start, good officials whom I turn to appear to be pulled away from me and silenced in various ways, in order to prevent them from helping me and some have even been completely enslaved (possibly under the guise of it being for "protection"). I have strongly felt, from the start, that it is safest for officials to quickly and openly stand up. It seems that when people are whisked away and hidden, under the guise of it being to protect and help, is when they are completely enslaved.


   I hope that all good officials in my situation, as well as that of other torture victims, realize what has really been happening to me and that a victim writing things about the government or other officials does not always mean that they are part of the crew who is just against and targeting the government. Some people are really being hurt by parts of the government. Its not perfect, especially since it has been a target too...and the mind control and enslavement being kept so secret has made it run rampant everywhere...etc. Please let your Hearts be here for us no matter what we say or write. We need your Hearts to be here for us so badly.

   I’m sorry of there have been genuine officials, which I have perceived as bad, due to this situation I have been held trapped in and due to what only one, and his followers, have been doing to me. But I can’t help it. I have no trust in the covert stuff and I do not want to be used for bait while our lives continue to be destroyed...etc. If good does not want to look bad it should be separate from the bad and not doing the same things that the bad does – it should be in the Light and here for us and stopping the bad from continuing.

More may be added later. I am being painfully tortured for posting this!

One Psycho Fisherman
Copyright Sharon R. Poet

One psycho fisherman
Pretending to be good
One psycho fisherman
Not doing what he should

One psycho fisherman
Beating with a Liberty bell
One psycho fisherman
Casting me in his hell

One psycho fisherman
Making it all look bad
One psycho fisherman
I should have never had

One psycho fisherman
Manipulating the show
One psycho fisherman
Everyone should know

One psycho fisherman
Don’t blame the victim
One psycho fisherman
For what is done by him
For what is done by him

P.S Two weeks later: I have felt overwhelmed with feelings coming up since having this dream. I have flipped from feeling the pain of validation to feeling the fear for myself as well as my loved ones and officials who have been being brainwashed into not standing up for us as well as themselves. I am still overwhelmed with it all, especially since, after I initially posted it, I experienced rounds of torture and then intentional deprivation of financial help and demands to erase it. I will possibly add more when I have finished processing it and can follow only my own heart.

Thursday, May 16, 2019

My Older Writings Have Been Being Wiped Out!

   My old writings have been being wiped off of the web!  Those who target me have been infiltrating and interfering with my writings in multiple ways. They have been wiping out most of the contents of the Announcement pages of my primary websites - www.poeticpublications.com and www.heartbud.com and www.targetedinamerica.com. In the past year or so they wiped out my www.sharonpoet.com site, which explained a lot about my work...etc. They recently wiped out my www.heartbud.com website, which was an important part of my work. And I just found that they blocked and redirected my www.sharonsbud.com site, which is where the first 2007 version of my Heart Bud paper was posted.

   Also, in the past year, all of my published books were removed from yet another publisher's website! (This is the second time my books got wiped out of a publisher's website, forcing me to start over with new current dates of publishing, even though they were originally published a long time ago.) Dates in my devices have even been being changed all along, as well as the wiping out of files in my computers. These sorts of things should be stopping since I realized them happening and have been even publicly exposing them, but it has continued as if they think they can freely do whatever they want with my work...etc....and this is extremely disturbing!

  The first loss of my work, due to their interference, was the destruction of the final manuscript to my Embracing Feelings book, in a suspicious fire in 2001. Every aspect of my work has been being sabotaged, in multiple ways, from the start of it. I have felt desperate to get the targeting to stop so that I can retrieve and fix what is left of it and freely continue with other aspects of my work as well. At this point I feel desperate for the targeting to stop so that I can survive - so that I can recover my own health...and then get back to my work...etc.

P.S. I had erased my web posting of my Into the Light book,  in order to tone down possible issues it  could raise in others, because I had actually never intended to share it before doing some serious editing. The targeting vamping up had pushed me into posting it to begin with and it was not finished. And I have erased few things like web postings of my first Technological Holocaust papers and web postings of my earliest blog writings, because some of the info I shared was not accurate due to my learning as I went along...and I did not want it to create issues...etc.  But perhaps erasing them was the wrong thing to do. Perhaps I should have left them all up and just explained them. The other files I have saved are not safe either, because they can just be confiscated and altered too....but I hope they aren't. I should have a safe place to save what is left of my writings, but I do not know how to create one, at this point. I have been way too much at the mercy of those who seem to have ill intentions. 

Tears of a Torture Victim

 This picture grew from a doodle. It represents the tears of a Torture Victim.

Tears of a Torture Victim
copyright Sharon R. Poet

  Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
 and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, May 10, 2019

Will We All Be Saved

Will We All Be Saved
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Friends enlisted
Thoughts twisted
Pain seething
Barely breathing

Shot with microwaves.

Empty groping 
Help hoping
Shaking hand
Sabotaged stand

Loved ones now enslaved.

Time losing
Too abusing
So much gone
Can't go on

Shoved toward the grave.

Strength falling
Heart calling
Grief pining
Light shining

Will we all be saved?

No Covert Side For Me

I want to make it VERY clear that, no matter what I write or do not write or say or do not say or do or do not do...I am not on any side of the covert war stuff. To me, this has never been about choosing sides, its been about waiting for genuine and - NON-covert help to arrive here in our lives.

   We victims should have good, decent, honest, uncontrolled, aware officials here for us. When we do there will finally be someone on our side - the side of standing up in the Light for the victims and for freedom from all levels of the targeting. When that happens a reachable Light will finally be shining at the end of this horrible torturous holocaustal tunnel.

P.S. The covert stuff tries to make me choose a side and tries to declare me on this side or that, depending on what I write. I am on no side in the covert stuff. I wish there were Hearts here on my side who were into standing in the Light with Truth and Compassion...etc. It is just too sad and discouraging that this has not happened yet.

Satanic Framing, Threats and Blackmailing to Force Victims Into Enslavement "Forever."

I am NOT leaving my life so that they won't 
succeed, because if I leave my life they will. 

    I have received many different threats against myself and my loved ones, in efforts of those who target all of us to force me into silence or into agreeing to leap out of my life and into enslavement "forever." The first one, that I am aware of, was issued in 2006. This threat was issued through one of my rare V2K experiences (as I woke) and said, "Your daughters will be OK if you leave." I am now realizing that this was right after the bank thing could have happened, so I now think it was about that.
   As puzzle pieces now click together about the bank account set up, it appears to be another one of the things to force me to leave my life and appears to have been connected to some of the confusing covert "help" stuff in the past six years or so. In 2013, an incarceration and drugging of my daughter was threatened, in an attempt to force me to leave my life, "forever." At that time I did not know what it was about, but I now think it was about the bank thing. Other threats have included framings of pedophilia, murder, porn, prostitution, thieving, lesbianism, insanity...etc. Its all just fabrications and I have thought that they can not succeed with making them even look true, but they have obviously been setting things up to slam me (or us) for decades now, and when they drug and brainwash and use people, I guess they can accomplish almost anything....in a world that pretends the technological mind control is not really happening! I pray for absolute Truth to not only win, but also stop any of this from even continuing. We have all already been hurt too much and it all just has to stop.
   I am very concerned that the bank set up, with them brainwashing and using my daughter to deprive me of my money, could be later used against her no matter what I do or do not do about it now. When I am no longer alive will they use it to blackmail her out of her life and into enslavement, even though what THEY used her for was not even her free choice? Is she already being tormented about it, not even realizing that she is a mind control victim and that it was not her fault? Is she such a target, because she was spiritually gifted as a child? My other daughter was gifted with a huge, deep Heart too. Has she also been set up to be incarcerated and drugged and used or blackmailed into leaving her life and being completely enslaved forever? I have known from the start that I have never been the only heavy target, although covert "help" has tried to make me think I am and tried to force me to reflect this in my writings. I'm glad I did not comply, because it is not true.
    My daughters, and everyone else whom I was closest to, have ALL been heavy targets. It has been excruciatingly painful for me to not be able to be there for them and protect them and help them to understand, without it making things even worse for all of us. We have desperately needed good, honest, aware professional help and I have done everything in my power to get it for us. But things are now looking even more hopeless. Is there any hope for that darkness to not succeed with their criminal set ups and continued destruction of our lives? Will the Heart of good, aware, uncontrolled officials ever really be here for us? Do they even exist in my situation, although many officials are aware?

   I feel that far too many victims have been threatened or blackmailed into complete enslavement in the sadistic covert program - their lives, as they lived them, wiped out as if they did not ever even exist. When will it end? Is anyone really on our side - the side of Truth and Freedom and Genuine Compassion for victims, right here in our own lives and that of our loved ones? 

I am NOT leaving my life so that they won't 
succeed, because if I leave my life they will. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. As for the man who was used to deliver the covert messaging in 2013...etc.; I got what appeared to be a death threat about "blowing his cover" after the 2013 incident. Two witnesses of things happening around that incident were also targeted, one dead and the other met up with an "accident" and the loss of his business...etc. This is all very difficult to deal with and I do not even know if the bank set up was performed in the past few years or back in 2005....or if they have completely stolen it by this point or if they are waiting for me to act on it to implement the framing....etc. I hope that neither happens.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

She Cried, "I Don't Know Why I Do That."

     My heart bleeds every time I look back at episodes of what I now feel certain were results of technological mind control being performed on my loved ones, against me. Some of these are small things, but have had a huge impact. One of the saddest happened in 2006 when I was on an important outing with both of my daughters. My oldest daughter had suddenly said to me, "look at that," but she did not  tell me what to look for or where to look for it. Then, as I looked around and started to ask, she angrily started degrading me for not seeing whatever it was. (Other people had been doing this same thing to me. It was part of the targeting.) My other daughter actually stood up for me and angrily confronted her older sister with, "Why do you do that to mom...etc." and it made her stop and think.
   After we reached our destination on the Saint Lawrence river in New York, my oldest daughter stood by herself looking out at the river. I went over to give her a hug and ask her to join us on a walk. She looked at me and cried, "I don't know why I do that." She said she wanted a bit of time alone and I let her have it, but stayed near and kept her in sight. At that time my heart ached for her as she stood looking out at the river, tears streaming down her cheeks...not knowing why she launched into episodes of treating me badly. Its like a part of her beautiful heart and spirit was breaking. It was heart wrenching. And my heart aches, literally aches, even more for her since I've realized that she is a victim of technological mind control and that cruel criminals have been using her to badger me and disrupt our relationship...and that this is why she did things like that against her own understanding and will.
   This whole scenario is heart wrenching for both of us, but mostly for her. And similar things have happened with my younger daughter, like in 2011 when her heart rose up and literally screamed, tears streaming down her cheeks, "I want my mother back," after she'd been brain washed into, and while she was actively in the process of, abandoning me and pushing me even farther away.
   The technological mind control has vamped up on both of my children, at strategic times and has, in some ways, hurt them far more than it has hurt me, because we were all very close before those who targeted us started taking over and manipulating everything more drastically and tearing us apart. They need me more than I need them, because I am their mother, and they should have me...free and clear of ALL types of interference within any of us.
   It always hurts the unaware victims more, because it confuses them and they tend to blame themselves...adding to their own suffering. I know, because I spent many decades being one of those unaware victims as well.

There is a desperate need for global realization of, and the complete ending of, all levels of technological mind control. The damage it has been causing to people's Hearts and Spirits is holocaustal and they can not even start recovering until they know what has been happening to them and that its not something wrong with them. Please help bring it to an end.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. I appears that they repeatedly prevented me from posting this. Finally it is done.

The Saddest Looking Victim

   The covert harassment part of the targeting is horrible and very difficult to deal with. I do my best to ignore it, but have been repeatedly forced to notice or suffer the results of it. It can not be fully ignored, but should be fully stopped.  I recently witnessed a man being harassed in one of the same ways that I have been...
   This man was in the bathroom of a Market Basket store and I was sitting outside of the bathrooms at a table. An employee came barging toward the bathrooms. Someone told her that both the men's and woman's room were occupied. And then she barged over to the men's room door and roughly slammed the handle down and rattled the door, as if trying to break in, just like what they have repeatedly done to me. She was not in a hurry to go to the bathroom, because when the man came out she confronted him with, "How are you doing?" and started a conversation with him. (This question may seem normal but its actually part of the covert harassment, which is done at strategic times and really intends to say, 'You are not doing good.')  The man courteously answered and walked out of the store. When he walked by the window I sat near, I was struck (literally struck) by the look of sadness that his face and whole posture carried. I started crying. I walked out of the store in tears and climbed into my car and drove and cried for many miles. I cried for him. I cried for me. I cried because no human being should be forced to tolerate being harassed by fellow human beings who are controlled or lead by the sadistic criminals who hold us Torture Victims under surveillance and judge everything we do or don't do...etc. And I cried because I was too deeply struck with grief to run after him and give him a hug and help him to know that someone cares and that not every human being is a cruel puppet, because I think he needed to know that...just like I do.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. The last time they did this to me was not very long ago and the Bedford, NH Market Basket  employee actually waited for me outside the door and asked, "Did you feel scared? Did you think that someone was breaking in?" Very sadistic. I have tried to defuse it by teasing her about it since then, but its no joking matter. Its a small part of the targeting, but when it is repeatedly done, and almost everywhere we go, it wears on us. The saddest part - being treated so rudely and cruelly by our fellow human beings and some of those human beings seeming enslaved and heartless. Its sad for them too. The episode with the man happened last Saturday afternoon - May fourth 2019.

Technological Mind Control Must Be Fully Realized and Stopped

Technological Mind Control is the most important part of the targeting for the whole world to be fully realizing and stopping from continuing.

   The mind control can make people perceive bad things as good and good things as bad. It can make people think or feel things that they would not naturally think or feel. It can make people behave in ways that they would not naturally behave. It can make people say things that they would not normally say. It can make people believe things that are not true or blindly disbelieve things that are true. It can make sane people look crazy and good people look bad. It can make people fight or stand for freedom in ways that actually help to destroy it. It can block people's Hearts and make them seek vengeance instead of feeling compassionate understanding. It can plug thoughts or dreams into a person's brain. It can alter a person's personality. It can interfere with or completely block a persons natural process of personal or spiritual growth. It can block people's Hearts and tear loved ones apart. It can even completely enslave and use people against their will...etc.
   These sorts of things have been happening to masses of people all around the globe, especially in heavily targeted families. And all victims, especially those who are not aware, have been suffering horribly.

Technological mind control is the most dangerous, holocaustal thing that humanity has ever been inflicted with and it must be fully realized and stopped as quickly as possible. When this happens all other parts of the targeting will stop, because humanity will be free and returning to it's Heart.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, May 6, 2019

Remnants of the Heart Bud

Since they took down my www.heartbud.com website, I feel sad and like another important part of my work is gone. But its not completely gone. I have the Heart bud book and the Heart Bud blog.

Heart Bud Book (on Amazon)

Heart Bud Blog

This is What They Say

   They still appear to be trying to torture me into joining the covert program, while claiming that the torture is because they are not protecting me - that this is what its like without them, but it feels to me  like they are doing the torturing, in order to force me to join and obey the covert hell.

This is what they say,
If I follow them
Help will come
And I will be OK.
This is what they say,
While torturing me
And preventing help
From coming my way.
This is what they say.

I have erased recent posts to officials. Perhaps they were misunderstood? My intention was to beg for all this covert stuff to stop... and to let any possible good/uncontrolled officials know that I would be willing to help in other ways that do not leave us to continue suffering in various ways; that do not continue to torture and torment me, and do not include me having to start listening to and obeying covert messaging, and do not involve me being forced to leave my life...etc., but that I'd also have to talk to officials about it and gain an understanding and trust in who and why...and then be allowed to make my own free choice. It was NOT a door opening for the torturing of me to get even worse! And NO I do not want this to continue even longer! I have been hurt by it for too long already! Please stop!

Friday, May 3, 2019

Example of Mind Control

Lately, I am reminded of how effective the mind control can be. As I focused on a puzzle, in order to take my mind off of the hell I am trapped in, they started literally making me write down the wrong numbers...etc. I know this was not just me making mistakes, because this is not the norm for me and they even make a little noise in my car just before they do it...to let me know its them messing with my brain. This is a horrible devastating reality that I have been forced to live with, but shouldn't have to. I should be free to think and feel and grow, even with little meaningless things like doing a puzzle...etc.

This blatantly obvious round of mind control could be happening so that I write about it and so that they can use it to discredit me. Or it could be just to disturb me.

All levels of the mind control are just too horribly intrusive and destructive and should not be happening to anyone. Please set us free!

P.S. I added an important PS to the post about the bank set up.

Am Being Radiated Horribly

   The radiation I have been hit with in the past few weeks feels destructive and lethal. They the the usual things of backing off for a little while after I posted it here, but are back at it. They hit me really hard while I was doing the Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine article. Then it backed off after I prematuraely posted it, as usual. But now it vamped back up severely as I try to take care of myself with some herbal medication. I know that its not the plant that is hurting me. I know its the microwaves (radio waves) they are blasting me with, which are the same as at other times.
   It appears that they are trying, again, to torture me into going to a facility where worse could happen - complete enslavement and being torn from my life forever, as has happened to too many other aware victims.

This should be stopped and I should be allowed to survive and to regain my freedom and to recover and heal and live out the rest of my life in peace...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

Horrible Framing Set Up?

   Yesterday was a very disturbing day of puzzle pieces clicking together and painful realizations. It appears that at least one of my daughters was framed. In one scenario, it appears that I have been being held in a state of destitution (living in a car and being tortured...etc.) with those who target me pushing me to take actions, which would enable them to have my daughter arrested, in order for me to get out of this torturous destitution prison. As I look back this appears to have been happening for a long time and I find it extremely disturbing. It appears that if I do not go along with this I will lose my bank account and hope for my survival. Needless to say, I am not going to do anything that will enable them to implement the framing of my daughter, hurting both her and I even more. No amount of money is worth sacrificing her.
  Last week., while I wrote my article on "Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine" they had tortured me horribly and repeatedly had their people come near me and loudly say my daughters name, which appears to have been a threat against her, and I now think it was probably about them implementing the framing, which was set up in 2005. There is a lot more to this, but I am being too painfully tortured and am too distressed to get into it all right now...and puzzle pieces are still clicking together.
   I beg officials to be here for victims like us instead of being used to perpetuate the sadistic framings. Both of my daughters are severe mind control victims who have been being used by the forces that target us all. I have been fighting to get help for them to be set free and for them to realize what has been happening to all of us...etc. We have all desperately needed help with this, and it appears that only the opposite has been happening. Our continuing to be left to suffer, and even being framed and played against each other, is more excruciating than words can express. This just should not continue. It shouldn't.

We ALL should have our freedom and
safety restored and our suffering to end

P.S. It appears that they had changed the name and social security number on my account, as well as literally brainwashing me into forgetting that it even existed, in order to deprive me of it and shove me into a torturous destitution form of prison. I realized this a couple years ago. But now, I am wondering if they used my daughter to make those name and number changes in the bank she worked for. What a horrible set up for both of us if they did. I believe it may be true, due to dreams I had a about a umber being changed and a name being changed and that daughter ending up imprisoned. The dreams did not show these things being connected or being about my lost bank account, but I feel they probably are.       But then, since I realized that this may have happened, I am also wondering if those who target me, and do brainwashings, just want me to think my daughter would get into trouble if I got my bank account...as another way of depriving me of it. The account was sixty thousand dollars in the year 2001 and would have gained a lot of interest since then....and could enable me to take better care of myself and even deliver some forms of desperately needed protection from them. It could save my life right now, literally. And Its just too horrible that there seems to be this horrible set up around me retrieving it, which may even be why they allowed me to remember it and have even been pushing me to go get it. From the start of my remembering the account I had felt that it would be safest to wait for officials to be here for us before I even try to retrieve it, but it now appears that they are not going to be...etc.
   No matter what is or is not happening in the details of this lost bank account situation, THEY have taken control of my bank account (no matter who they USED to gain that control or for what purpose) and I hope they do not end up with it and that it is returned to me, without it being used as a way to harm me or any mind control victim that they may have used in that process.  We have all already been hurt too much. It just has to stop.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Please Stop!

I am experiencing severe levels of torture lately. Mostly to my brain. But my left hand was painfully lasered last week and is still healing.

I have erased recent posts to officials. Perhaps they were misunderstood? My intention was to beg for all this covert stuff to stop... and to let any possible good/uncontrolled officials know that its not because I do not want to help, but just can't in this way, because its hurting me too much...etc. I would be willing to help in other ways that do not leave us to continue suffering in various ways; that do not continue to torture and torment me, and do not include me having to start listening to and obeying covert messaging, do not covertly try to pick me up, and do not involve me being forced to leave my life...etc., but that I'd also have to talk to officials about it and gain an understanding and trust in who and why...and then be allowed to make my own free choice. It was NOT a door opening for the torturing of me to get even worse! Please stop!