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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Please Set Me Free

Please set me free. There are many things that I should be doing with my life. I am not getting any younger and I have been so wounded by the targeting that I am concerned about being able to fully recover from it in this lifetime. Please set me free. Please.

I'm asking nicely.
Please fill my need
To be set free.

And please do not think that you can set me free through abducting me or torturing me into leaping out of my life, as has been the way. I should be free right here in my life. Its the targeting that should be removed from our lives, not us. I want real freedom. Please set me free.

I'm Sorry for Negative Implications in Past Writings

   Please understand that it is sometimes impossible for people in my position to be completely objective and clear and functional while being tortured or threatened or drugged and inflicted with interference of brain function during times of exposing the most important parts f the targeting. And I have been being hit with all these things, especially during the initial exposing of important parts of the targeting. I'm sorry for all other misperceptions and mistakes also. Please forgive me. I wish I had the freedom to fix my past writings, and have them stay the way my heart wants them to be, but I don't yet. :-(

 P.S. It looks like someone sent an email from my account in the past day or so. Today I got a bounce back of undeliverable mail, even though I'd not even accessed and use my account since the day before yesterday and had not sent any emails then. This has happened many times and it just should not be happening.

Plea for Official Investigations on Water Problem

   I beg officials to look deeper into the problem of pharmaceuticals being found in drinking water. I strongly feel that there is more to it than the run off of pharmaceuticals that have been dispensed of. Due to a dream I had, I strongly feel that the chemicals have been being intentionally placed into the water, in order to aid Technological Mind Control and its enslavement of America and the rest of humanity.
   The problem of water contamination due to used pharmaceuticals, points to the core problem being that too many pharmaceuticals have been being consumed by humanity. I strongly feel that this has been doing far more harm than good, especially when the pharmaceuticals are prescribed for illnesses that have been intentionally inflicted with microwave weapons...etc. Both the targeting and the distribution of un-needed pharmaceuticals should be completely stopped.
   I have a vision of a world where all people, who are able to, grow their own medicinal trees, shrubs and herbs...and community gardens are be constructed for all who can not grow their own. And this NON-harmful, healthy medicine is freely available to everyone. I hope my vision  becomes a reality very quickly.

   One of the things that I am supposed to be doing with my life is creating at least one garden, that is filled with medicinal trees shrubs and herbs and then left for public use. The bank account, which I have been being deprived of, was to be used for this to be done on the property of my next home. I hope the account is returned to me and I am able to make that dream come true. And I hope this idea of public medicinal gardens spreads and is done by many other people as well. Our world needs this and every community should have at least one, so that far less pharmaceuticals are used, and safer and more healthy Earth medicine used, for the sake of humanity's health and safety.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


P.S.  I am sorry that some of earliest writings, about the problem with pharmaceuticals being in our drinking water supplies, implied that the publication of it being from "run off" was not true. When I look at it objectively it is just common sense that the dispensing of the pharmaceuticals could be thought to have caused the problem, because there has been such a un-Godly amount of them prescribed to people. And if those who realized the problem were not aware of the drugs aiding Technological Mind Control there is really nothing else that they could have thought it to be. I hope you accept my apology. I still strongly feel that the vast majority of the water contamination problem, if not all of it, is actually being caused by the intentional contamination of drinking water for reasons stated in the previous post.
   Please understand that it is sometimes impossible for people in my position to be completely objective and clear and functional while being tortured or threatened or drugged and inflicted with interference of brain function during times of exposing the most important parts f the targeting. And I have been being hit with all these things, especially during the initial exposing of important parts of the targeting. I'm sorry for all other misperceptions and mistakes also. Please forgive me. I wish I had the freedom to fix my past writings, and have them stay the way my heart wants them to be, but I don't yet. :-(

We Can Not Join Something In Order to Be Free From It

We Can Not Join Something In Order to Be Free From It.
It just can't work that way.

And we can't free ourselves from something through joining it either! ;-)

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Freedom's Beacon Blog


Please share my Freedom's Beacon blog with people. I took my name off of it for those of you who are ashamed of my other writings. Please at least let this part of my writings reach and help people. Please.

Freedom's Beacon Blog

Threat to Disable My Car?

Today there appear to be another round of threats to disable my car, using a radio advertisement, librarian puppets and a tow truck. The car I am now living in was donated to me and does not really feel like it is truly mine, but I needed it for my survival and its all I have. I'd rather be in my Oldsmobile, but it vanished....appears to have been stolen by them! I hope they find their Hearts and I hope they do not succeed with doing anything to inflict me with more distress or hardship. I need the car until the targeting is stopped and I can get back onto my feet. And I do not want to be forced into a shelter and abducted. And I should not be forced to leap out of my life, in order for the targeting to stop. It is the targeting that should leave my life. I wish I had help with forcing the targeting out of my life and that of others, because there are many things that my heart yearns to be doing. I am not supposed to be being targeted/tortured and tormented and harassed for the rest of my life and this has already gone on for too long.

I know its too late for too much in my situation, but I am still trying to preserve what is left of my life,  my conscience, my integrity, my sanity, my heart...etc. I hope they do not succeed with disabling this car and forcing me into an unsafe shelter or onto unsafe streets. I hope they find their hearts.


Movie Portraying Covert Sabotage

   I have heard that there are many fiction movies, which portray parts of the VERY REAL covert targeting of people. I have not watched most of them and I ran into this one by accident.
   "The Bookshop" movie really touched my heart, because I could relate to so much of it. It is a fiction movie, but the problem of cruel covert sabotage, which a variety of community members are involved in, has been a devastating reality to many people, including myself.
   In this movie a kind woman's home and business is sabotaged. Those involved in the sabotaging include a seamstress who sets her up with an inappropriate dress, a banker who delays important proceedings, a "friend" who offers to "help" her in her shop but does the opposite, and an influential woman who has a nephew in the government whom she has manipulated into passing certain laws that seemed generally appropriate, but were slyly to adversely effect the targeted woman.
   This targeted woman had a good man on her side, a man who knew how that society worked and had strictly avoided it, due to its cruelty. False rumors were being spread about him. He came out of seclusion, in order to openly stand up for the kind woman and then suddenly died of a heart attack. So sad, especially since these sorts of things really have been happening to real people. But we must keep standing up for each other, because we need many more people standing up for victims of covert targeting and less joining in or being used by the dark forces, in order for things to start getting better.


The Bookshop Movie Trailer

     This movie was based in England, which has a historical reputation of the wealthy wanting to have complete control. But this sort of horrible covert sabotaging/targeting is also really happening throughout the world, even in free countries like America. It is not only being done by the wealthy and it is being greatly aided by technological and pharmaceutical mind control as well as space based technologies that can shoot a laser beam into a person and create things like a lethal heart attack as easily as they can shoot radio waves down for internet access.

The sweet old man said to the kind woman, "You make
me believe once more in things I thought forgotten."


 I can look at my deeper past and relate very deeply to the scenarios that the kind woman in this movie was sabotaged through. I have experienced similar things. But I can now also relate to the old man who realized what the society was like and wanted to completely stay away from it all. What is deeply needed, and what should be happening, is more people realizing the core of the problem and more people standing up for and supporting the victims, so that the dark forces stop succeeding.


Freedom's Beacon Blog


Please share my Freedom's Beacon blog with people. I took my name off of it for those of you who are ashamed of my other writings. Please at least let this part of my writings reach and help people. Please.

Freedom's Beacon Blog

Too Many Used and Too Many Abused

  There are many good decent people, both inside and outside the government, who have been being unwittingly used by the dark/sadistic covert program. There are many good decent people, both inside and outside our governments, who have been completely enslaved and used by the dark/sadistic covert program. And there are many good decent people, both inside and outside the governments, who have been being tortured and tormented and have not had the types of help that are desperately needed. There are many good decent people, both inside and outside the government, who are suffering, indescribably and do not even know that they are being technologically targeted by dark forces that also use their own community members and comrades and loved ones and government places against them...etc. And my heart cries so much....

Oh Dear, God please set us all free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

More to Say

More to Say

The Sun rises upon another imprisoned day,
But the ocean glows strong in this sad bay.
And there is more my heart yearns to say
When it is free of the games they play
And it's broken pieces together stay.







Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Please Completely Stop All Covert Stuff


You can't expect me to understand
What you don't stand to explain.
It's all like inflictions of chaos and pain,
Over and over and over again,
Until the Sun melts beneath your rain,
And all that's left is called "insane."

Please completely stop all covert
stuff and all other parts of the targeting.




   For almost six years now there have been official promises to be here for me/us. Its repeatedly been going to happen, "next week" or "next month" or "next Spring". . . or "in two years," which was over four years ago. It was obviously never true and does not intend to really happen. And there seems to be a push for me to accept the way things are and for me to become happy with and join the covert stuff that surrounds me...etc. I just still want it all to completely stop. It has been hurting me too much, especially in ways that are most important to me. I feel uncomfortable with it and I do not believe in it. Even if good/uncontrolled officials can not ever be here for me I deeply want and need it all to stop. I can not accept the way things are. . .not of my own free will and I hope it does not happen any other way. Please stop.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Caffeine Greatly Aids Technological Mind Control

  I think that caffeine greatly aids technological mind control and that this is why it has been being so heavily pushed onto people, in the form of coffee...and why it is even being put into sodas that children drink. Caffeine can be as bad for adults as it is for children...and there is something wrong with the fact that so many consume it - practically the whole population! It is true that people "run on" caffeine, but they would be more free without it.
   In the 1990s, I had listed caffeine as one of the drugs which aid the blocking of our hearts, because I had witnessed and experienced this process with it. Now I think it not only helps to block our hearts but also helps to shift our brains into a state of being more easily manipulated by technological mind control, in the same ways that many pharmaceuticals do.

Please help stop technological mind control 
and the consumption of all that aids its success.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tortured Yesterday

    I experienced painful, torturous microwaving through most of the day yesterday. It appears they are still trying to torture me into trusting the covert program...etc., even though their doing so is one of the things that prevents me from trusting it. I do not trust or feel comfortable with covert stuff. I do not believe in it. I do not want it in my life, even if there really are genuinely good/uncontrolled officials in parts of it. Please completely stop all levels of the targeting.

I do not believe that humanity will be saved
Through us continuing to be tortured and enslaved.


P.S. There is some sort of organism that they have been infecting me with in places that I frequent for herbal teas. Other people have been being hurt by it too.
UPDATE 3-28-2019: They stopped putting the stuff in the honey and milk and/or water two days after this posting - covering it up and validating that it was not just natural particles. Hopefully no more having to pull it out with the large straws that it clung to, so that I could have my tea.
   But, in the past two days, they appear to have socked me with something in the cream cheese that is making my nose and throat bleed...etc., This may be being done technologically, just to make me think its the food. But a lot is put into foods, especially inexpensive foods that poor people tend to buy, in all types of stores.
   I have also recently experienced vamp ups in what appears to be aims to drug me. Among other things, there is both a sticky type of substance and yellow stuff that they put on surfaces that I touch, including toilet seats. It also seems to have been put in the air around me a number of times.
   I have been experiencing uncountable numbers of heavy rounds of all of the parasite and chemical and organism types of targeting in the past six or so years. It seems to be a cover up for the technological targeting, which still happens too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, March 18, 2019

My Heart Tells Me

My heart keeps telling me that genuinely good intentions, in professional help, would not abandon me or lie to me about what has been happening or play cruel covert games that try to threaten and torture me into joining and blindly trusting the covert program...etc. My heart keeps telling me that good intentions would be here for me as quickly as possible, and in ways that are kind and validating and understanding and honest and helpful and NOT mysteriously covert. It is horribly discouraging that, in all these years, none have shown up.

But I know that God's Light is shining for humanity. 
The darkness will not win. This hell will be stopped 
and all of humanity will be set free.



To Make Me Look and Feel Bad

   I am going through another round of set ups to make me look bad; vamp ups in covert harassment, to the point of puppet messaging being extremely loud and degrading...while they are technologically effecting my brain in ways that inflict agitation and a draw to say whatever pops into my mind. They are clearly trying to get  negative reactions out of me, when they do this. I try hard to not react, no matter how much pain they are inflicting upon me...etc., and I succeed with this most of the time. On those rare times when I do react, like I did yesterday, they degrade me even more, trying to make me feel bad. During these times it sometimes seems like they may be trying to pretend to someone else that I am bad - that I am one of the stalkers...etc.
   I do feel bad when I negatively react, even though I know I wouldn't if they were not interfering with my brain function and if I had not been too tormented by them, for too long. The little verbal slings, that I rarely direct at their puppets are nothing compared to what they do to me.

The truth is that I am not the bad guy - its the ones who want me to look like I am and feel like I am who are the bad guys. But I am wounded and I am still in deep need of their hell to get out of my life and leave me, as well as everyone I associate with, in peace and safety and freedom...etc. Criminal use of the technologies that interfere with brain function and criminal use of people should be completely stopped. And a torture victim who feels hurt and scared and angry is not the one who is in the wrong. We are humans who have aright to have feelings. Its not our feelings that should be stopped - its the targeting that should be stopped.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. Lot of physical torture lately. Severely painful laser shot to my hand just before this round. And they have been doing more than the usual painful laser shots to my feet, mostly my toes, in the past month or two.

Sunday, March 17, 2019

Street Lights Remotely Changed

I am experiencing another round of them changing street lights too quickly or not letting them change at all. They started out stopping red lights from changing to green, twice, forcing me to run the light. Then it switched to the opposite - lights VERY quickly turning from green to yellow and then red before I can get through an intersection. This has been periodically happening for several years, during vamp ups in all levels of the targeting. They should not be able to control anything that is needed to function properly for the sake of safety.

Sunday Driver Rock

Sunday Driver Rock

   I grew up on a farm, about four miles from the center of a small town, and at the end of a short dead end road. Although we lived so far into the countryside, a lot of vehicles would pull into our yard and very slowly turn around or even just sit there sometimes. This was often a nuisance to us as well as our neighbors. We called them the "Sunday Drivers", although they also came on other days of the week, because more came on Sundays. We had assumed that they were people who were just taking a joy drive in the country.
   There were so many Sunday Drivers that they had an unusual amount of accidents at a spot where the narrow dirt road sharply curved and a large boulder jutted into the road's edge. So many of those drivers hit that rock that it was named "Sunday Driver Rock."  One of our neighbors painted a sign on the rock, which basically said, "You Sunday drivers stop to think. Think to stop." 
   Now that I am aware of my family, as well as several neighboring families, being covertly targeted, (by at least around the year 1970) I cannot help but wonder if most of the "Sunday Driver" intrusions into our privacy were part of the targeting. It is actually extremely odd for so many people to have been going out there, without going to visit anyone, because there were no heavily populated areas nearby, no unusual attractions in the area, and we had the kind of dusty and bumpy dirt roads, which most people would normally avoid driving their vehicles on when they didn't have to. And the area was surrounded by only small country towns and should not have drawn in many (if any) joy riding or sightseeing people. 

 "You Sunday drivers stop to think. Think to stop."
The painted sign was appropriate if they were stalkers too.


P.S. In those days there had also been an escaped convict from the County Farm who was found looking in the windows of our home...etc., and everyone wondered how he made it out there, with so many turns on back roads to reach it, and without bothering any of the places he'd had to have passed on the way there. 
   Then there was Mr. Baker - one of our nicest and friendliest neighbors. Mr. Baker was reported to have committed suicide through shooting himself with a rifle in his yard. This was a shock to everyone. I now wonder if he was being targeted too and if really committed suicide or if was it just set up to look like one. What really happened to Mr. Baker? I wish I knew for sure.

Thursday, March 14, 2019

It Must Be Stopped

It Must Be Stopped!
They are like vultures
Tearing at what remains
Of the good and untamed.
It Must Be Stopped!

   Officials around the globe, please do everything in your power to stop criminal use of satellites, and connected radio wave and laser weapon technologies that have been being used to harm and/or control people. Please let your Hearts rise up to expose and stop all levels of the horrible targeting - please help set humanity free and enable recovery to begin. 

Sunday, March 10, 2019

Another Round of Set Ups

In short;
   Recently there has been two draft text messages stored on my phone, to unknown numbers, which I am not being allowed to erase. And I did not put them there.
   As I recently tried to look back over the book of this blog, there became a yet another heavy push for me to quickly upload a too extremely edited version of it, under the guise of it being, in order to get help or in order for things to get better.  (Librarians and a police officer were used for the covert messaging with this.) I was not going to bite the hook, and am glad, because when I looked at the pdf  I noticed that they had swapped it with another one, inside my infiltrated computer, and had plugged something into the end of the book. I'm sure this was not the only alteration done to it. It appears that they want me to make them look better, and that, while I am doing this, they are altering my writings to make me look crazy or bad in some other way.
    I experienced painful technological torture of my brain, to the point of inducing nausea, after I refused to change the newest Ramblings of a Targeted Individual book on Amazon and take down the rest. Members of the FBI appear to still be involved in doing this to me. And their intentions are clearly not good to ward me. They seem to want to make me look crazy or bad instead of being here to help us. They seem to want to have me put away and silenced. This feels terrifying to me.

FBI, please stop. I should not have to worry about you too, on top of everything else. I should have been getting the opposite from you. Please stop.

The Hawk

You dove, talons open,
As I drove on a street.
A vicious display 
Of forcing us to meet,
With manipulations
I do not want to greet.
Please stop.

   Also, today I found that they damaged my hiking boots - pried the heel of the sole off of one and did obvious damage while doing it - VERY obviously not from wear and tear. And this is not nearly the first time this sort of thing has happened to my favorite or enjoyed belongings, especially those which I need.
  

Thursday, March 7, 2019

Finally! Microwave Weapon Attack on Individuals Reported In the Media

  So glad to hear this being publicly reported. Many of us have been victims of these types of weapon attacks. Targeted Individuals have been assumed to be mentally ill when explaining them, which has been extremely frustrating. Finally there is hope for the Truth to be realized - the fact that we are indeed being targeted with microwave weapons. Hope is seeping into my aching heart - Hope for the hell to finally be realized and stopped for all of us. http://www.targetdinamerica.com  (These attacks were also Called Health Attacks and Sonic Attacks")

CNN News Report on Microwave Weapon Attack 

https://youtu.be/Su0uc5UvLvg

Victim Of Microwave Weapon Attack Speaks Out

https://youtu.be/pOdXVye-4X0



Wednesday, March 6, 2019

My Phone and Websites About to be Taken Down?

   Aside from recently forcing me to use spare lap tops, at the Rye, NH library, which were set up to retain passwords to my email and primary blogs... they now also appear to be intentionally preventing me from gaining financial help to keep my phone and websites running. I hope they do not succeed with any of it. What will happen to me if they finish wiping out my writings about the targeting and leave me without a phone? How can I not be scared?
   They made it clear that this round of deprivation is because I refuse to agree to "work" for the covert program - to listen to and obey covert messaging that often comes through mind control victims and is from unknown people with extremely questionable intentions. I have no trust in in the covert program. Back when I did give it the benefit of my doubt for a while, it proved to be completely untrustworthy. They even sometimes torture me and intentionally deprive me, through controlling other people and places, for not joining them...etc. They say that I am not being kind to them, although it is I who has been being too hurt and too trapped by them. They control too many places and too many people. I don't know how I am going to continue surviving much longer.

Primary Website About the Targeting

Old Backup Blogs About the Targeting

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Wisdom’s Beacon for Freedom

   I had to repost this on its blog, because the first posting was blocked from being viewed and printed. I started writing this in the spring of 2016 and first posted it on its own blog around December 26, 2018. I am being too heavily targeted to finish it now, but here is what there is of it so far. It is copyrighted with ALL rights reserved.

Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom





New Important Updates in Freedom's Beacon



Freedom's Beacon







   Lot of difficulties and physical tortures happening to me. Yesterday they intentionally tried to retain  passwords to my blogs in library computers. I'm glad I realized what they were doing. But it took a lot of persistence to make them erase them, and I hope they really did. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.