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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Thursday, May 16, 2019

My Older Writings Have Been Being Wiped Out!

   My old writings have been being wiped off of the web!  Those who target me have been infiltrating and interfering with my writings in multiple ways. They have been wiping out most of the contents of the Announcement pages of my primary websites - www.poeticpublications.com and www.heartbud.com and www.targetedinamerica.com. In the past year or so they wiped out my www.sharonpoet.com site, which explained a lot about my work...etc. They recently wiped out my www.heartbud.com website, which was an important part of my work. And I just found that they blocked and redirected my www.sharonsbud.com site, which is where the first 2007 version of my Heart Bud paper was posted.

   Also, in the past year, all of my published books were removed from yet another publisher's website! (This is the second time my books got wiped out of a publisher's website, forcing me to start over with new current dates of publishing, even though they were originally published a long time ago.) Dates in my devices have even been being changed all along, as well as the wiping out of files in my computers. These sorts of things should be stopping since I realized them happening and have been even publicly exposing them, but it has continued as if they think they can freely do whatever they want with my work...etc....and this is extremely disturbing!

  The first loss of my work, due to their interference, was the destruction of the final manuscript to my Embracing Feelings book, in a suspicious fire in 2001. Every aspect of my work has been being sabotaged, in multiple ways, from the start of it. I have felt desperate to get the targeting to stop so that I can retrieve and fix what is left of it and freely continue with other aspects of my work as well. At this point I feel desperate for the targeting to stop so that I can survive - so that I can recover my own health...and then get back to my work...etc.

P.S. I had erased my web posting of my Into the Light book,  in order to tone down possible issues it  could raise in others, because I had actually never intended to share it before doing some serious editing. The targeting vamping up had pushed me into posting it to begin with and it was not finished. And I have erased few things like web postings of my first Technological Holocaust papers and web postings of my earliest blog writings, because some of the info I shared was not accurate due to my learning as I went along...and I did not want it to create issues...etc.  But perhaps erasing them was the wrong thing to do. Perhaps I should have left them all up and just explained them. The other files I have saved are not safe either, because they can just be confiscated and altered too....but I hope they aren't. I should have a safe place to save what is left of my writings, but I do not know how to create one, at this point. I have been way too much at the mercy of those who seem to have ill intentions. 

Tears of a Torture Victim

 This picture grew from a doodle. It represents the tears of a Torture Victim.

Tears of a Torture Victim
copyright Sharon R. Poet

  Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
 and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.



Friday, May 10, 2019

Will We All Be Saved


Will We All Be Saved
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Friends enlisted
Thoughts twisted
Pain seething
Barely breathing

Shot with microwaves.

Empty groping 
Help hoping
Shaking hand
Sabotaged stand

Loved ones now enslaved.

Time losing
Too abusing
So much gone
Can't go on

Shoved toward the grave.

Strength falling
Heart calling
Grief pining
Light shining

Will we all be saved?




No Covert Side For Me

I want to make it VERY clear that, no matter what I write or do not write or say or do not say or do or do not do...I am not on any side of the covert war stuff. To me, this has never been about choosing sides, its been about waiting for genuine and - NON-covert help to arrive here in our lives.

   We victims should have good, decent, honest, uncontrolled, aware officials here for us. When we do there will finally be someone on our side - the side of standing up in the Light for the victims and for freedom from all levels of the targeting. When that happens a reachable Light will finally be shining at the end of this horrible torturous holocaustal tunnel.

P.S. The covert stuff tries to make me choose a side and tries to declare me on this side or that, depending on what I write. I am on no side in the covert stuff. I wish there were Hearts here on my side who were into standing in the Light with Truth and Compassion...etc. It is just too sad and discouraging that this has not happened yet.

Satanic Framing, Threats and Blackmailing to Force Victims Into Enslavement "Forever."


I am NOT leaving my life so that they won't 
succeed, because if I leave my life they will. 

    I have received many different threats against myself and my loved ones, in efforts of those who target all of us to force me into silence or into agreeing to leap out of my life and into enslavement "forever." The first one, that I am aware of, was issued in 2006. This threat was issued through one of my rare V2K experiences (as I woke) and said, "Your daughters will be OK if you leave." I am now realizing that this was right after the bank thing could have happened, so I now think it was about that.
   As puzzle pieces now click together about the bank account set up, it appears to be another one of the things to force me to leave my life and appears to have been connected to some of the confusing covert "help" stuff in the past six years or so. In 2013, an incarceration and drugging of my daughter was threatened, in an attempt to force me to leave my life, "forever." At that time I did not know what it was about, but I now think it was about the bank thing. Other threats have included framings of pedophilia, murder, porn, prostitution, thieving, lesbianism, insanity...etc. Its all just fabrications and I have thought that they can not succeed with making them even look true, but they have obviously been setting things up to slam me (or us) for decades now, and when they drug and brainwash and use people, I guess they can accomplish almost anything....in a world that pretends the technological mind control is not really happening! I pray for absolute Truth to not only win, but also stop any of this from even continuing. We have all already been hurt too much and it all just has to stop.
   I am very concerned that the bank set up, with them brainwashing and using my daughter to deprive me of my money, could be later used against her no matter what I do or do not do about it now. When I am no longer alive will they use it to blackmail her out of her life and into enslavement, even though what THEY used her for was not even her free choice? Is she already being tormented about it, not even realizing that she is a mind control victim and that it was not her fault? Is she such a target, because she was spiritually gifted as a child? My other daughter was gifted with a huge, deep Heart too. Has she also been set up to be incarcerated and drugged and used or blackmailed into leaving her life and being completely enslaved forever? I have known from the start that I have never been the only heavy target, although covert "help" has tried to make me think I am and tried to force me to reflect this in my writings. I'm glad I did not comply, because it is not true.
    My daughters, and everyone else whom I was closest to, have ALL been heavy targets. It has been excruciatingly painful for me to not be able to be there for them and protect them and help them to understand, without it making things even worse for all of us. We have desperately needed good, honest, aware professional help and I have done everything in my power to get it for us. But things are now looking even more hopeless. Is there any hope for that darkness to not succeed with their criminal set ups and continued destruction of our lives? Will the Heart of good, aware, uncontrolled officials ever really be here for us? Do they even exist in my situation, although many officials are aware?

   I feel that far too many victims have been threatened or blackmailed into complete enslavement in the sadistic covert program - their lives, as they lived them, wiped out as if they did not ever even exist. When will it end? Is anyone really on our side - the side of Truth and Freedom and Genuine Compassion for victims, right here in our own lives and that of our loved ones? 

I am NOT leaving my life so that they won't 
succeed, because if I leave my life they will. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. As for the man who was used to deliver the covert messaging in 2013...etc.; I got what appeared to be a death threat about "blowing his cover" after the 2013 incident. Two witnesses of things happening around that incident were also targeted, one dead and the other met up with an "accident" and the loss of his business...etc. This is all very difficult to deal with and I do not even know if the bank set up was performed in the past few years or back in 2005....or if they have completely stolen it by this point or if they are waiting for me to act on it to implement the framing....etc. I hope that neither happens.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

She Cried, "I Don't Know Why I Do That."

     My heart bleeds every time I look back at episodes of what I now feel certain were results of technological mind control being performed on my loved ones, against me. Some of these are small things, but have had a huge impact. One of the saddest happened in 2006 when I was on an important outing with both of my daughters. My oldest daughter had suddenly said to me, "look at that," but she did not  tell me what to look for or where to look for it. Then, as I looked around and started to ask, she angrily started degrading me for not seeing whatever it was. (Other people had been doing this same thing to me. It was part of the targeting.) My other daughter actually stood up for me and angrily confronted her older sister with, "Why do you do that to mom...etc." and it made her stop and think.
   After we reached our destination on the Saint Lawrence river in New York, my oldest daughter stood by herself looking out at the river. I went over to give her a hug and ask her to join us on a walk. She looked at me and cried, "I don't know why I do that." She said she wanted a bit of time alone and I let her have it, but stayed near and kept her in sight. At that time my heart ached for her as she stood looking out at the river, tears streaming down her cheeks...not knowing why she launched into episodes of treating me badly. Its like a part of her beautiful heart and spirit was breaking. It was heart wrenching. And my heart aches, literally aches, even more for her since I've realized that she is a victim of technological mind control and that cruel criminals have been using her to badger me and disrupt our relationship...and that this is why she did things like that against her own understanding and will.
   This whole scenario is heart wrenching for both of us, but mostly for her. And similar things have happened with my younger daughter, like in 2011 when her heart rose up and literally screamed, tears streaming down her cheeks, "I want my mother back," after she'd been brain washed into, and while she was actively in the process of, abandoning me and pushing me even farther away.
   The technological mind control has vamped up on both of my children, at strategic times and has, in some ways, hurt them far more than it has hurt me, because we were all very close before those who targeted us started taking over and manipulating everything more drastically and tearing us apart. They need me more than I need them, because I am their mother, and they should have me...free and clear of ALL types of interference within any of us.
   It always hurts the unaware victims more, because it confuses them and they tend to blame themselves...adding to their own suffering. I know, because I spent many decades being one of those unaware victims as well.

There is a desperate need for global realization of, and the complete ending of, all levels of technological mind control. The damage it has been causing to people's Hearts and Spirits is holocaustal and they can not even start recovering until they know what has been happening to them and that its not something wrong with them. Please help bring it to an end.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. I appears that they repeatedly prevented me from posting this. Finally it is done.

The Saddest Looking Victim

   The covert harassment part of the targeting is horrible and very difficult to deal with. I do my best to ignore it, but have been repeatedly forced to notice or suffer the results of it. It can not be fully ignored, but should be fully stopped.  I recently witnessed a man being harassed in one of the same ways that I have been...
   This man was in the bathroom of a Market Basket store and I was sitting outside of the bathrooms at a table. An employee came barging toward the bathrooms. Someone told her that both the men's and woman's room were occupied. And then she barged over to the men's room door and roughly slammed the handle down and rattled the door, as if trying to break in, just like what they have repeatedly done to me. She was not in a hurry to go to the bathroom, because when the man came out she confronted him with, "How are you doing?" and started a conversation with him. (This question may seem normal but its actually part of the covert harassment, which is done at strategic times and really intends to say, 'You are not doing good.')  The man courteously answered and walked out of the store. When he walked by the window I sat near, I was struck (literally struck) by the look of sadness that his face and whole posture carried. I started crying. I walked out of the store in tears and climbed into my car and drove and cried for many miles. I cried for him. I cried for me. I cried because no human being should be forced to tolerate being harassed by fellow human beings who are controlled or lead by the sadistic criminals who hold us Torture Victims under surveillance and judge everything we do or don't do...etc. And I cried because I was too deeply struck with grief to run after him and give him a hug and help him to know that someone cares and that not every human being is a cruel puppet, because I think he needed to know that...just like I do.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. The last time they did this to me was not very long ago and the Bedford, NH Market Basket  employee actually waited for me outside the door and asked, "Did you feel scared? Did you think that someone was breaking in?" Very sadistic. I have tried to defuse it by teasing her about it since then, but its no joking matter. Its a small part of the targeting, but when it is repeatedly done, and almost everywhere we go, it wears on us. The saddest part - being treated so rudely and cruelly by our fellow human beings and some of those human beings seeming enslaved and heartless. Its sad for them too. The episode with the man happened last Saturday afternoon - May fourth 2019.

Technological Mind Control Must Be Fully Realized and Stopped

Technological Mind Control is the most important part of the targeting for the whole world to be fully realizing and stopping from continuing.

   The mind control can make people perceive bad things as good and good things as bad. It can make people think or feel things that they would not naturally think or feel. It can make people behave in ways that they would not naturally behave. It can make people say things that they would not normally say. It can make people believe things that are not true or blindly disbelieve things that are true. It can make sane people look crazy and good people look bad. It can make people fight or stand for freedom in ways that actually help to destroy it. It can block people's Hearts and make them seek vengeance instead of feeling compassionate understanding. It can plug thoughts or dreams into a person's brain. It can alter a person's personality. It can interfere with or completely block a persons natural process of personal or spiritual growth. It can block people's Hearts and tear loved ones apart. It can even completely enslave and use people against their will...etc.
   These sorts of things have been happening to masses of people all around the globe, especially in heavily targeted families. And all victims, especially those who are not aware, have been suffering horribly.

Technological mind control is the most dangerous, holocaustal thing that humanity has ever been inflicted with and it must be fully realized and stopped as quickly as possible. When this happens all other parts of the targeting will stop, because humanity will be free and returning to it's Heart.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, May 6, 2019

Remnants of the Heart Bud

Since they took down my www.heartbud.com website, I feel sad and like another important part of my work is gone. But its not completely gone. I have the Heart bud book and the Heart Bud blog.


Heart Bud Book (on Amazon)


Heart Bud Blog



This is What They Say

   They still appear to be trying to torture me into joining the covert program, while claiming that the torture is because they are not protecting me - that this is what its like without them, but it feels to me  like they are doing the torturing, in order to force me to join and obey the covert hell.

This is what they say,
If I follow them
Help will come
And I will be OK.
This is what they say,
While torturing me
And preventing help
From coming my way.
This is what they say.

I have erased recent posts to officials. Perhaps they were misunderstood? My intention was to beg for all this covert stuff to stop... and to let any possible good/uncontrolled officials know that I would be willing to help in other ways that do not leave us to continue suffering in various ways; that do not continue to torture and torment me, and do not include me having to start listening to and obeying covert messaging, and do not involve me being forced to leave my life...etc., but that I'd also have to talk to officials about it and gain an understanding and trust in who and why...and then be allowed to make my own free choice. It was NOT a door opening for the torturing of me to get even worse! And NO I do not want this to continue even longer! I have been hurt by it for too long already! Please stop!

Friday, May 3, 2019

Example of Mind Control

Lately, I am reminded of how effective the mind control can be. As I focused on a puzzle, in order to take my mind off of the hell I am trapped in, they started literally making me write down the wrong numbers...etc. I know this was not just me making mistakes, because this is not the norm for me and they even make a little noise in my car just before they do it...to let me know its them messing with my brain. This is a horrible devastating reality that I have been forced to live with, but shouldn't have to. I should be free to think and feel and grow, even with little meaningless things like doing a puzzle...etc.

This blatantly obvious round of mind control could be happening so that I write about it and so that they can use it to discredit me. Or it could be just to disturb me.

All levels of the mind control are just too horribly intrusive and destructive and should not be happening to anyone. Please set us free!

P.S. I added an important PS to the post about the bank set up.

Am Being Radiated Horribly

   The radiation I have been hit with in the past few weeks feels destructive and lethal. They the the usual things of backing off for a little while after I posted it here, but are back at it. They hit me really hard while I was doing the Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine article. Then it backed off after I prematuraely posted it, as usual. But now it vamped back up severely as I try to take care of myself with some herbal medication. I know that its not the plant that is hurting me. I know its the microwaves (radio waves) they are blasting me with, which are the same as at other times.
   It appears that they are trying, again, to torture me into going to a facility where worse could happen - complete enslavement and being torn from my life forever, as has happened to too many other aware victims.

This should be stopped and I should be allowed to survive and to regain my freedom and to recover and heal and live out the rest of my life in peace...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

Horrible Framing Set Up?

   Yesterday was a very disturbing day of puzzle pieces clicking together and painful realizations. It appears that at least one of my daughters was framed. In one scenario, it appears that I have been being held in a state of destitution (living in a car and being tortured...etc.) with those who target me pushing me to take actions, which would enable them to have my daughter arrested, in order for me to get out of this torturous destitution prison. As I look back this appears to have been happening for a long time and I find it extremely disturbing. It appears that if I do not go along with this I will lose my bank account and hope for my survival. Needless to say, I am not going to do anything that will enable them to implement the framing of my daughter, hurting both her and I even more. No amount of money is worth sacrificing her.
  Last week., while I wrote my article on "Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine" they had tortured me horribly and repeatedly had their people come near me and loudly say my daughters name, which appears to have been a threat against her, and I now think it was probably about them implementing the framing, which was set up in 2005. There is a lot more to this, but I am being too painfully tortured and am too distressed to get into it all right now...and puzzle pieces are still clicking together.
   I beg officials to be here for victims like us instead of being used to perpetuate the sadistic framings. Both of my daughters are severe mind control victims who have been being used by the forces that target us all. I have been fighting to get help for them to be set free and for them to realize what has been happening to all of us...etc. We have all desperately needed help with this, and it appears that only the opposite has been happening. Our continuing to be left to suffer, and even being framed and played against each other, is more excruciating than words can express. This just should not continue. It shouldn't.


We ALL should have our freedom and
safety restored and our suffering to end
.

P.S. It appears that they had changed the name and social security number on my account, as well as literally brainwashing me into forgetting that it even existed, in order to deprive me of it and shove me into a torturous destitution form of prison. I realized this a couple years ago. But now, I am wondering if they used my daughter to make those name and number changes in the bank she worked for. What a horrible set up for both of us if they did. I believe it may be true, due to dreams I had a about a umber being changed and a name being changed and that daughter ending up imprisoned. The dreams did not show these things being connected or being about my lost bank account, but I feel they probably are.       But then, since I realized that this may have happened, I am also wondering if those who target me, and do brainwashings, just want me to think my daughter would get into trouble if I got my bank account...as another way of depriving me of it. The account was sixty thousand dollars in the year 2001 and would have gained a lot of interest since then....and could enable me to take better care of myself and even deliver some forms of desperately needed protection from them. It could save my life right now, literally. And Its just too horrible that there seems to be this horrible set up around me retrieving it, which may even be why they allowed me to remember it and have even been pushing me to go get it. From the start of my remembering the account I had felt that it would be safest to wait for officials to be here for us before I even try to retrieve it, but it now appears that they are not going to be...etc.
   No matter what is or is not happening in the details of this lost bank account situation, THEY have taken control of my bank account (no matter who they USED to gain that control or for what purpose) and I hope they do not end up with it and that it is returned to me, without it being used as a way to harm me or any mind control victim that they may have used in that process.  We have all already been hurt too much. It just has to stop.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Please Stop!

I am experiencing severe levels of torture lately. Mostly to my brain. But my left hand was painfully lasered last week and is still healing.

I have erased recent posts to officials. Perhaps they were misunderstood? My intention was to beg for all this covert stuff to stop... and to let any possible good/uncontrolled officials know that its not because I do not want to help, but just can't in this way, because its hurting me too much...etc. I would be willing to help in other ways that do not leave us to continue suffering in various ways; that do not continue to torture and torment me, and do not include me having to start listening to and obeying covert messaging, do not covertly try to pick me up, and do not involve me being forced to leave my life...etc., but that I'd also have to talk to officials about it and gain an understanding and trust in who and why...and then be allowed to make my own free choice. It was NOT a door opening for the torturing of me to get even worse! Please stop!

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Denial Doesn't Work

Sometimes, like today, I want to flip into denial and aim to get myself back onto my feet and out of this destitution prison they have held me trapped in. But as I aim to do so I am reminded of how they vamp up weapon attacks on my brain when I try to talk to people about a place to live or job...etc. This just happened again and is still happening.
   And there is no safe place for me to work...etc. If I go to a place where they have control they could and surely would use it as a place to either abduct me or harm me in some other way. And if I go to a place that they do not control,  it would be just a matter of a little time. And I am just so worn out and overwhelmed and sick of going in circles trying to figure out what to do when there is no safe place to go to help me start over and get back onto my own feet. I don't feel comfortable, at all, going to any place that the covert world tells me to go, because bad operates in that covert world, which is why it stays covert...etc.

Monday, April 22, 2019

They Appear to be sending emails from my account!

They appear to be sending emails fro my account. Am still getting bounce backs of undeliverable mail although I've not sent any emails. 
   When they wiped out my Heart Bud websites they also wiped out all of the documents I had saved on it. This is yet another sad loss for me - over a decade of my work gone and important evidence gone.
  Within an hour after the PI lady showing up at the Amherst library, and before I realized or wrote about my Heart Bud websites being wiped out after I'd accessed them there, the library did an update of their whole computer system.

Today, it appears that they blocked my Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom blog. I hope it is restored. It is a sacred part of my work and it should not be tampered with. None of it should be tampered with.

Saturday, April 20, 2019

The PI Lady Shows Up Again

   The PI Lady, which I had written about a year or two ago, showed up at the Amherst library again this morning and seems to be actually wanting me to either negatively react or call the police. She seems to control this whole situation. I told her that I'd be open to having a conversation with her if she is honest with me about who she is and what she did, but that otherwise, I'm not. She pretended that she did not know what I was talking about...and I walked out.
   Before she showed up, or as she did, a puppet said, "Excuse me." If she deserved excusing she'd have walked up to me and been honest instead of the same old dark games...etc. How can she expect excusing without her even delivering the excuse - without her explaining herself to me IF she was not really doing what she WAS doing in 2011? Its beyond me. I still think that she is a murderer type of person who intended harm and is still covertly harming me, which does not deserve excusing. Someday I will forgive her though, for my own sake.

Important Websites Gone!

The heart bud websites appear to have been removed from the web - completely taken out from under my Poetic Publication hosting - blocked from the web. They were an important part of my work. And I don't know if this is part of the plagiarizing stuff or something else. Please put them back.

My Heart Bud Sites:

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Another TI song

I cried all the way through this song.I'm still crying. The words... "Radiation penetrates you to the depths of your soul. The people sense the fear inside you, but they are mind controlled. You feel your body shake and tremble as they tear you apart. Because they unleashed every demon to steal your soul and heart... It hurts to see their desperation and hear they're lonely cries."  I know so well how it all feels.



https://youtu.be/1gvtzbPbx_o

A TI Song

I found this video about Targeted Individuals today. It has nice light hearted lyrics for our dark and heavy situation.



https://youtu.be/Fae1aT8YyU8

For all levels of Officials

 I am truly sorry if things I've written on this blog seem offensive or disturbing to any of you. I hope you will understand that my heart feels for you, especially those who may have had good intentions...etc., This is not about going against you or pointing a finger at you. In my heart I feel for you and want to understand and forgive...etc. I really do. I know I'm not doing a very good job with my writings, or with handling this confusing situation, but my intention is for this hell to completely end...for all of us - for you and me and my loved ones and America and the rest of humanity, in a way that does not let the darkness succeed. Too many have been being tortured or used by or influenced by or enslaved by the forces that intend harm to us all. And Freedom must be restored for all of us. I hope my stand helps far more than it hurts. I hope it does not hurt anyone at all.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, April 15, 2019

Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine

 Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine blog
 https://returntowisdomoftheearthsmedicine.blogspot.com

   I've been working on this for about two weeks and going through hell with the targeting in the process, including heavy interference with brain function as well as painful physical tortures of a few different kinds. Its still not finished, and is not all that it should be, but it can't be under these conditions. I hope this blog of it is allowed to help people.I hope I can publish it.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Another Computer Disabled

   I had gotten another lap top, but it was infiltrated. The day before yesterday, they disabled it. All my files have been wiped out now. Originally they only wiped out the first one of the early stages of the book. And then they prevented me from using my Quark program - forced me to use the Word, as usual lately. I need to use Quark in order to do it the way I want to...etc. But I have had no choice.

I have been working on my Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine book, which has yearned for creation for decades. And I have experienced a lot of torture and computer interference as well as severe levels of interference with my brain.


 Return to Wisdom of the Earth's Medicine blog

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Scary Torture Since Yesterday

   It feels like my whole neck and upper spine has been being radiated, causing a lot of pain and concern about a spinal damage.  I can sometimes feel the energy hitting me from the front and passing through my neck. Either they are damaging me for writing the statement below....etc, or they want me to think they are...

Please excuse my directness here. I was feeling very emotional due sensing a few things and just blasted this out. (I hope pharmaceuticals have not been being put into herbal remedies.) I will edit this part soon, but only because I knew I would have to.... not because I am being tortured.

Brainwashing Undermines Free Choice
   The call for choosing pharmaceuticals for health care has been the opposite from the one with using natural plants. Individuals using natural plants has been being discouraged, although it clearly is the healthiest way. There has even been an inconspicuous fight against it, which has been trying to make people believe that using natural plants is not safe. And using pharmaceuticals has often been pushed to the point where it can accurately be called brainwashings, which render people without a free and fully educated choice.
   We have been being brainwashed for many decades, with the "Doctor knows best," scenario. This has already been so deeply instilled that most people just take the pharmaceuticals without even questioning their safety or knowing that there is most often a far safer alternative in Natural Plants. And then people believe that the pharmaceutical/drug is what they have to have, in order to get healthy or to survive the illness...etc.
   There are many pharmaceuticals that have helped many people, including myself. They are not ALL bad. But I also feel that there are huge numbers of the pharmaceuticals (probably most) that are harming people and the brainwashings prevent people from even acquiring the levels of awareness that must be delivered, in order for free and educated choices to made.
   The brainwashings are VERY evident in the pharmaceutical commercials on TV, which should be illegal! In the commercials, they follow the law of listing the harmful side effects, BUT while they do this they displaying sweet, peaceful, loving types of scenes...which draws people to it. The impact of a scene can be stronger than the words and they know this, which is why they do it. Its a form of brainwashing that convinces a person it is good for them, even while words say that it isn't.
(Wouldn't it be horrible if the chemicals, in many of the pharmaceuticals, interfered with brain function in ways that make people more susceptible to various types of brainwashings? It is.)
When a person has been brainwashed into believing that they have to take a pharmaceutical, (or yet another pharmaceutical) in order to have a nice peaceful and loving life, they are not acting of their own free. And when they are even more directly told that they have to take the pharmaceutical, for the sake of their own health and survival, its just too horribly wrong, because there is often a far safer way, which those whom they have been convinced "know best" are not informing them of. There are other types of brainwashings happening as well.
   People should be completely free of all levels of brainwashings and fully informed of ALL known risks of the pharmaceuticals, and also fully informed when there are safer alternatives with directly using Natural Plants. When this is done they have a free and educated choice..., as long as their instincts are not too blocked by the pharmaceuticals that are already in their system, which is a serious problem too. Are you getting the picture?

This pharmaceutical situation obviously hit a point, long ago, when the aim to help people heal was mostly replaced with the aim to make money from their suffering. . .and the damages of this have been holocaustal. No exaggeration. May the full Truth be quickly shown.

And doctors do not always "know best", because (in general) they too appear to be brainwashed into thinking that the pharmaceuticals are the best or only way. A pharmacist once tried to convince me that ocean water would hurt my eyes if I used drops of it to heal an eye infection. Her training (or brainwashing) to stand against natural cures and push pharmaceuticals very obviously even overrode her common sense. People often swim in the ocean, and even open their eyes under water, and do not get hurt by it. Ocean water is not harmful at all. Its VERY healing and very safe. The ocean water quickly cured my eye infection. I'm glad I realized that I'm the one who knew best. But sadly, many people would have followed her advise and gone to a doctor to get a pharmaceutical. Things like this happen a lot.
   The doctor does not only not always know best, but has even often pushed people away from what is 100% good and healthy and toward what isn't....and who is benefiting from it? Not their patients. I feel that there is such extreme corruption in the whole medical system, especially in the arena of administering medication for illnesses, and the results of it can accurately be called a holocaust. And I suspect that the companies who do most of the pharmaceuticals may be behind the ones that have been aiming to take over the unstoppable movement toward natural healing...offering pre-made remedies of all sorts and still discouraging direct use of the plants - the safest and most effective way. Are some (or most) herbal remedies too weak to be effective...pushing people back to the pharmaceuticals? I think so. And worse than this may be happening. It feels horrible to even think that illnesses could be being inflicted upon people for the sake of just a few human beings getting extremely rich, but its not at all far fetched. I feel that this is a reality, which we all must realize and stop from continuing as quickly as possible.

We must take responsibility for our own health care and stop depending on others to do it for us, whether its done with pharmaceuticals or herbal remedies. We just must, and the only way to do that is to start growing our own medicine and directly use the Natural Plants.

When we can listen to our own instincts, we know what is best for us more than anyone else can.


Wednesday, April 10, 2019

When Pharmaceuticals Began Replacing the Use of Medicinal Plants

 Last week my state of overwhelm and my yearn to do something constructive, drove me toward focusing on something good and healing - Medicinal Plants. But... I ran into another interesting chain of events, which did not surprise me much at all. I have felt it all along. But I figured I should share it.

Natural plants were being heavily used for healing illnesses, up until around the late 1800s and early 1900s. Around the late 1800s and early 1900s was also when the birth of pharmaceuticals began, through combining chemicals with the plant remedies. Ironically this was also around the time when scientists, like Nikola Tesla, were experimenting with the effects of radio waves (scalar waves/microwaves/WIFI) being shot into the human body. In his experiments he studied their effect on the human brain and other body parts, and the Xray machines were invented. The use of pharmaceuticals, instead of plants, to heal illnesses, as well as the use of radio wave technologies, rapidly grew since then.

And


There was a time when using herbs for healing became dangerous and could actually cost a person their life, after being labeled as a witch for using them. According to a report I've read, much of the documentations of medicinal herbs were being destroyed around this time.


Different address from first posting here, due to it being altered on blog.
They took the word Wisdom out of my original address!
https://returntowisdomoftheearthsmedicine.blogspot.com

Monday, April 8, 2019

Lyrics Shared for Targeted Individuals

   I hope the lyrics of this song help sooth the pain of Targeted Individuals who are watched and judged and shamed while being tortured and harassed or drugged and controlled...etc. There really is a Light/Love that shines for all of us. I hope these lyrics remind you of that Light Love that is always here for us, that we do not have to go anywhere to find, and that is far stronger than the darkness that tries to blame us and shame us and then offers a helping hand...pretending to be God."On the nights when the dark lasts a little bit longer... When the fear in my heart digs a little bit deeper... Even when I've had more than I can take I know.... Your with me even then... When the days up ahead look a little bit brighter, but the grip of the past holds a little bit tighter. I'm reminded Your Grace never asks for perfection... I stand, forgiven."

A real Light/Love is shining for us, and our loved ones, to be set free - all levels of the targeting stopped, so that we can live our lives the way we were supposed to. It is.

Micah Tyler - Even Then 

https://youtu.be/bR9UsXgIAjg


Closer to the real Light

  A couple Christian songs really touched my heart this morning, in my car, which launched me into listening to others on youtube at a library. I couldn't find the one I heard this morning because, oddly, as it ended there were two horn beeps and the lyrics that I was about to write down completely vanished from my mind. But I found some other nice lyrics and parts of the one above reminded me of what many of us Torture Victims (TIs) need to reminded of.
   Even though many songs seem to be set up by the dark force that wants us to turn to it, as if it were God, and leave our lives in order to be set free, (which is really about being tortured into enslavement)...the lyrics can touch our Hearts and help give us strength to carry on and not let that darkness succeed. Its all a matter of perception. Some of what they do, through people whom they use, can actually work against them.

I picture the real God's Love/Light when they play a song for me that is about trusting and following them...and it actually brings me further away from them and closer to where I need to be - closer to the real Light.


P.S. I also share this for all other people, including (and perhaps even especially for) the officials that I have written about. My fear really does run away with me sometimes, because there is much to fear that has been hurting us all. My situation is extremely difficult for me and there is much that has been too confusing and scary and questionable. And I just want it all to end so badly that I can hardly stand another day, sometimes. In my heart I know that real Light/Love is shining for them too; It is shining for Obama and Senator Shaheen and the FBI and our Military and the Sheriffs and the State Police and the Local Police...etc. It is shining for their freedom and safety too. We all need it and we all have it. Its already here for us. It is.

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Dear God,

   I still feel that technological and pharmaceutical mind control is the most destructive part of the targeting of humanity, and that complete awareness and Freedom from it will solve most, if not all, of the other problems we are faced with, because it will restore our Hearts and instincts and intuition and conscience...etc. Please take action and help pray...

Dear God, 
Please shine a strong Light for all victims of enslavement to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all of us torture victims to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all targeted families to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all mind control victims to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all citizens to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all government officials to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all countries to become aware and regain complete Freedom. Please shine a strong Light for all of the world to become aware and regain complete Freedom.


Please help expose and stop technological
 and pharmaceutical mind control
www.targetedinamerica.com/mindcont.html 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, April 3, 2019

Freedom's Beacon


Please share my Freedom's Beacon blog with people. I took my name off of it for those of you who are ashamed of my other writings. Please at least let this part of my writings reach and help people. Please.

Freedom's Beacon Blog

We Should NOT Be Forced to Leave Our Lives

Its not us torture victims that should be torn from our
lives - its the targeting that should be torn from our lives.

I am still deeply concerned that genuine, long term victims, have been vanishing, seemingly without a trace of them left behind...for decades now, and that this still appears to be the plan for me. I am still certain that the covert rescue leads to complete enslavement in the same program that does the targeting. This should not be happening. It should be stopped and enslaved victims set free and returned to their lives.

It has been only the victims who become aware who get the "rescue" and torture victims who do not know what is happening to them keep on being tortured...because its not a real rescue - its about silencing and enslaving. Please! We need more to realize this and stop it from continuing.

The targeting should be stopped -
It can be and should be - all of us set free.

Follow up on Official Stuff

      After my recent post about my experiences with officials, I want to make it clear that my stand is not an aim to go against them. I have no intention of doing a lawsuit...etc. And this is not about blaming them.
   Part of what has helped me to hang in here for as long as I have has been the hope of it all ending with the officials who have had good intentions talking to me in person, explaining things and helping me to feel better about it all. Intentions are more important to me than anything else in this situation. Even after all the hell they have put me through (or held me in) I could forgive good officials who proved to have had good intentions. In my heart I know that this complex crisis must be hell for many of them to deal with as well. I feel for them, especially the ones who have been unwittingly used or completely enslaved, because they are victims too...like many of my loved ones are.
   The problem is that I do not know their intentions or if they are even free to follow only their own hearts and instincts and if the higher level officials even want Freedom from the most damaging parts of the targeting - the technological and pharmaceutical mind control. I wish I knew for sure. The lower levels of officials appear to be too unaware and victimized themselves. Awareness and Freedom is desperately needed for everyone.
   And I count too. This covert situation has been going on for too long and I am feeling too damaged by it and it APPEARS that it has no intention of ending and appears to intend to just finish destroying me or continue trying to torture me into leaving my life "forever"...etc.
   I can accept that officials do not want to be fully here for me. But I can't accept this covert hell continuing, especially since they leave no light at the end of this horribly torturous tunnel. I just need it all to end.
   I feel that its actually been happening since at least 2011 and probably even sooner than that. I became aware of it in June of 2013. Its now 2019. Its been at least almost six years of being tortured even worse than I had been prior to that, and of being kept too destitute and isolated and imprisoned in the vehicle I live in...,after desperately reaching for help so that the opposite could happen. Its a miracle that I have survived it this long. It really is.
  I hope there are some officials who can care about me and how hard this is for me and what it has been doing to me. But I don't know if there are any. For years I figured that time would tell. And I feel that I have given it enough time. I'm hurting here - I'm hurting so bad that I can hardly stand it and I am imprisoned in a situation where I can not even freely process my feelings...etc. And I sense a lot of other people who are continuing to suffer...no help ever intending to arrive for them. Even aside from the technological tortures, and harassment and terrorizing that has been being inflicted upon me, this whole situation is excruciatingly painful for me. I know that I can not hang on much longer and still hope to recover from it in this lifetime. I just can't. Its been hurting me too much and I need it to end.

I want the official covert stuff to completely end and not with it continuing with new/different officials. This really is not about being against the officials I listed. However, I do not believe in the covert wars and ways and I have never wanted to be used for bait in wars, which has made this all very difficult to tolerate and I just can't tolerate it anymore, no matter what really is or is not happening, because it has never been clearly and directly explained to me. I have waited and waited with only the hope that it would prove to be at least some good that was happening, in the end. But it never ended at the uncountable number of times that it promised to. As it continued, year after year, after year...I have been barely surviving and being slowly destroyed, in the ways that are most important to me...and have not been really living my life at all. This can't go on forever or until I am completely destroyed. It just can't, but it seems to intend to. I feel that there are things I can do to help humanity with this crisis if I were not isolated and imprisoned by it and were not still being tortured and drugged and terrorized...etc. There are things that I need to do with what is left of my life and I have been so wounded, at this point, that I do not know if I will be able to fully recover and carry on with my life and I can't feel good about this.
I am being extremely objective here. I hope it is deserved and appreciated.

P.S. No, I can not change my feelings due to what appears to be either covert coercions or threats naming one of my daughters. Both of my daughters (as well as the rest of my loved ones) are victims too, just in different ways, and they should also be set free. It appears that most of my loved ones have been being completely enslaved and a lot of witnesses and evidence destroyed, while I wait for this covert stuff to end and for officials to be here for us and America and the rest of humanity. This, too has been extremely painful for me.

My losses have been excruciating - my grief too immense to handle while remaining trapped in this situation. I need it all to end even if officials are not going to ever be here for me/us. We should be totally set free right here in our lives. It is possible and should happen.

Actually, all levels of the targeting should completely stop for the rest of humanity too.
It can happen and should. I'm not nearly the only one who needs it, but I count too. 

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Inconspicuous Microwave Attack

   Last night I was inconspicuously attacked with microwaves aimed at my whole lower torso, effecting an organ function. This whole official covert situation, which I wrote about in this blog yesterday, has often appeared like it is ending with getting rid of me, one way or another, if it can not silence me and continue using me...which is partly why I am writing it out and begging for it to stop. I hope all of this reaches good officials who can help set the victims and America and the rest of humanity free. Its not too late for others, even if is too late for me...but I hope its not too late for me too. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, April 1, 2019

Universities Involved or Used?

I have sensed that, aside from medical facilities, Universities have also been being either used for or involved in, the enslavement of human beings.  If its true, I hope it is stopped.

My Experiences With Officials

    I don't mind publicly saying this, because I know that nothing happens to me without those who watch and listen knowing, even when it is covert. I'm sure that those who target me know a lot more about the covert stuff that happens around me than I am. (Covert works for the bad, but not for the good, in situations like this, which has raised concerns and doubts in me.) This is just a quick overview from my heart....
   My experiences with officials, which have been mostly covert, have been confusing, sometimes building hope and sometimes destroying hope and sometimes scary and painful. My stand is for their freedom too.
   The local police, state police and sheriffs have often appeared to have been being used in the covert program that targets me. Many of my experiences with them have felt confusing or scary and sometimes even threatening. I feel that most of them had good intentions and that most are unaware victims of the dark covert program. Many have even been completely enslaved, which is horribly sad. I hope they regain their freedom.
   My experiences with the FBI have been similar to that of lower levels of law enforcement - its been  confusing and even painful on many occasions. . .constantly building hope and then crushing it, both covertly and overtly, and sometimes even seeming to be a threat to my safety, as they covertly aimed to set me up to be arrested and appear to have often used police officers to threaten me or set me up in various ways...etc.  They appear to be heavily infiltrated and into the covert war stuff (like the others) and seem to have no real intention of ever being here for us in the ways that we need it. Most seem to be used in or are a part of the dark covert program. I have felt that some have had good intentions, but appeared to have been prevented from standing up for us. Some appear to have been completely enslaved. I hope they regain their freedom and can become all that we need them to be.
   My experiences with Senator Shaheen and President Obama were confusing and mostly covert, but with some direct contact. Both gave me hope. But then that hope was torn away with a conference call from Senator Shaheen, which covertly stated that, "Officials are not going to make a stand on this" and then seemed to be supporting the "mental illness" aim/threat, instead of the truth, like the FBI has done. Like with everything else, I have been concerned about what the intentions really are and have been waiting for them to be proven to be good, if that is the truth. (I don't know for sure if things are getting better or worse and this makes it all extremely difficult for me, especially since they SEEM to be getting worse.)  Two of her secretaries appear to be victims of complete enslavement, which makes it impossible to get past them to her even if she really would be here for me/us. I hope some of this was my misperception, but some could not have been. Hope was also torn away when I found that my print out of Obama's email was stolen and the print out of my blog post about it was swapped with another one as well as the date and content changed on my blog. I had initially thought that Obama was going to make a stand for the victims and for freedom to be restored in America, but it ended up going in the opposite direction and this was heart wrenching for me.
    Over and over again I have thought that officials just need time. This would surely be understandable. But its been years. Many years! Many times, I have vented and given them hell, in the privacy if my car, especially during times when I am being painfully tortured and my brain function interfered with in ways that induce extreme anger. In 2012 I had even angrily barged into an FBI office, after getting no response to many reports and calls, and said, "You have a responsibility to the citizens of this country!" That probably did not help my situation. But I would think that they would understand that my anger comes from the excruciating pain that I am being inflicted with. But it seems like all officials have sometimes been misjudging me, while I am being tortured and my brain function interfered with and sometimes even drugged, instead of being here for me/us, and this has felt horrible. My heart has repeatedly cried, why on earth would they not understand that a torture victim is not going to be perfectly functional while still being trapped in and hurt by the targeting...etc.?
    I'm sorry that my pain, and the suffering that continues to be inflicted upon me, makes me impatient. But who wouldn't feel this way in my situation? Its an indescribable hell that I have been forced to continue enduring, year after year after year.... and its hurting me, even slowly destroying me as well as others, and I want it to stop ASAP, because it has been hurting me too much and I don't even have trust in it and I want to be able to recover and have my life back and do the things that I am supposed to be doing with my life.
   But the covert messaging from officials switched from repeated promises to make a stand and be here for us (which proved untrue and kept me hanging and waiting for many years) to covert declarations stating that they never will be making a stand to be here for us and that things will remain the way they are. This has been discouraging beyond description, especially since, from the start of all this (even every new aspect of it as it happened) I have not felt sure of official intentions and if things are getting better or worse. In and around my situation things have been have been getting worse, and they seem to be getting worse in other places too. And I have had an extremely hard time with covert methods. I just really can't even deal with them. I don't belong in a covert world or situation. I was desperate for the targeting to stop by the year 2012. I was begging for the official covert stuff to stop since it began. And I was severely desperate for the official covert stuff to completely stop by the end of 2013. I don't feel comfortable with covert stuff. I don't trust it. I don't believe in it. I have been painstakingly waiting for it to be stopped since it started. And my heart has been telling me to not trust anything that is not openly standing in the Light, since around the end of 2013 and I still feel the same way. I am deeply sorry that my feelings have not matched that of these officials who have been involved in my situation. I do not want to unfairly blame or judge any of them. I have been waiting for reassurance of good happening and not just bad, but it seems to have no intention of ending in a functional way that is good for me too. And I do have a right to feel the ways I do and I think they would feel the same way if they were in my situation and had been through what I have for as long as I have. I actually do not know if the official covert stuff is something good happening or if it is just part of the targeting. It has seemed more and more like its just part of the targeting that wants me to be silent or forced to leave my life one way or the other. If I were sure it was all good I'd feel differently, but I'm not at all. This has been hurting me, as well as others, and I have tolerated it for many long and excruciating years. And I do not want to be forced to tolerate anymore, especially since it appears to want to either continue forever or end with getting rid of me one way or another. At this point, I feel so wounded, and my life has been so sabotaged, that I do not know if I will be able to fully recover and do what I need to do with the rest of my life.

P.S. If there were good/uncontrolled officials who needed my help, I needed it to not be covert (I needed it to happen in person and with a chance for trust to be built) and for their expectations to be clearly and directly explained to me and then for them to give me a free choice. I have felt, from the start, that I could help far more if I were not still being tortured and drugged and harassed and threatened...etc. I wish this is the way it was, but this could only work with officials who have good intentions...etc.  I wish things had not gone the way they did. But, because they did, and due to some of the ways that I have been being treated, it has often seemed like it has actually been a 
vengeance and them trying to wear me down and force me into enslavement or silence in some other way. It has often felt like it was all about controlling me under the guise of it being to help. And some of it has felt like covert wars between different people and different officials, and I do not believe in wars, so this has felt horrible to me. I hope to find out the absolute Truth and I hope it is not what it has already started proving itself to be. Things don't look good for me...or many others and this is very hard to face.
   I have hoped for a positive resolution with at least some of officials who have been covertly involved in my situation, but their Hearts would have to be free and they'd have to be willing to stand behind their actions and talk to me about it, in order for that to happen. A positive resolution obviously can not happen with those who had ill intentions and/or prefer to pretend that I am either not really being targeted or am a bad person or am just "mentally ill"...etc. It probably can not happen with those who just want to keep engaging in covert wars, instead of standing up for freedom for each other and us and America and the rest of humanity. I don't believe in wars and want no part in them, but can respect the fact that others feel differently as long as its not using me.
   Overall, I feel indescribably sad about this whole situation. I wish things were not the way they are or seem. ALL of the covert stuff has been so confusing and so hurtful/damaging to me and so questionable (as for real intentions) and so untrustworthy and has continued for so long (with no end in sight) that I just can not do anything but beg for it to completely stop and hope that my wishes are respected. I wish the covert stuff and all other parts of the targeting would now come to a complete end, at least for me even if it truly can't for everyone.

Please stop. Please set me free.

P.S. The evening after posting this I was inconspicuously attacked with microwaves aimed at my whole lower torso, effecting an organ function. This whole official covert situation has appeared like it is ending with getting rid of me, one way or another, if it can not silence me and continue using me...which is why I am writing it out and begging for it to stop. I hope all of this reaches good officials who can help set the victims and America and the rest of humanity free. Its not too late for others, even if is too late for me...but I hope its not too late for me too. 

Aware Victims vs. Unaware Victims


 Aware Victims Have Been Being Silenced and 
Unaware Victims Left to Continue Suffering.

This should not be happening. Please stop it from continuing. 

   If torture victims who become aware (Targeted Individuals) continue to either vanish or be threatened or tortured into silence or be falsely declared "mentally ill," how is help ever going to reach all the UNaware victims, since "officials are not going to make a stand on this" like Senator Shaheen covertly said to me? This is a question that has been bleeding in my heart for almost six years now. It appears that the only Torture Victims who get "help" are the ones who become aware, and that "help" is covert and aims to either get rid of or recruit or to falsely declare "mentally ill"...because its about silencing and not really about helping. This should change no matter what does or does not intend to happen in my situation.




The Covert Paper Thing

   For almost six years now, (since I started realizing more of the covert stuff) they have had a lot of puppets suddenly displaying news papers near me at times when I am begging for the covert stuff to stop and for officials to stand up. I used to think it was part of the demand for me to alter my writings or to erase my papers that were about the targeting from the web, in order to get help - in order for officials to stand up, because these sorts of things have been happening.
   But, yesterday, due to a dream I had and the news paper display thing VERY obviously happening again, I realized what its really about. Its another one of the threats to find me at fault with something if I do not join the covert program and be happy/silent with it. According to this dream, and another one I had long ago, there is something that is possibly about an advertisement in my work papers, that officials want to use against me if I do not conform and accept remaining trapped in this horrible situation forever. What is it? I don't know for sure and I am too overwhelmed to figure it out. Its probably something they set up from the start. I was being heavily targeted when I started creating those papers in 2007, and I was not yet aware of the computer infiltrations...etc.
   This actually does not concern me much, except for what they could do to me if they get a hold of me on some drummed up charge, because I know I did nothing wrong, or certainly did not intend to. And this is not nearly the only threat that has been being delivered, in order to force me either into leaping out of my life forever or into being silent about key parts of the targeting or into joining and being happy/silent with the covert program. If they have their way I could be framed and publicly displayed as a pedophile, a prostitute, a lesbian, a thief, a murderer, a perpetrator instead of the torture victim that I am... and now something bad about one of my work papers...and possibly imprisoned in an extremely unsafe place. I hope they do not get their way with any of it. I hope TRUTH wins.

I still want to be set free.

   They also recently had officials in a town office say things like, "Nothing else is going to be done," and repeatedly "You have to take the next step," which appears to be about officials never standing up for us and about pushing me to either leap out of my life and into perminent enslavement/silence or accept and join and obey the covert program. This was done while offering help and then depriving me of it. They also seemed to be trying to trigger me into anger in front of two witnesses. I walked out in tears after saying, "The covert program that uses you is dark as hell, I hope you soon realize..." 

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Please Set Me Free

Please set me free. There are many things that I should be doing with my life. I am not getting any younger and I have been so wounded by the targeting that I am concerned about being able to fully recover from it in this lifetime. Please set me free. Please.

I'm asking nicely.
Please fill my need
To be set free.

And please do not think that you can set me free through abducting me or torturing me into leaping out of my life, as has been the way. I should be free right here in my life. Its the targeting that should be removed from our lives, not us. I want real freedom. Please set me free.

I'm Sorry for Negative Implications in Past Writings

   Please understand that it is sometimes impossible for people in my position to be completely objective and clear and functional while being tortured or threatened or drugged and inflicted with interference of brain function during times of exposing the most important parts f the targeting. And I have been being hit with all these things, especially during the initial exposing of important parts of the targeting. I'm sorry for all other misperceptions and mistakes also. Please forgive me. I wish I had the freedom to fix my past writings, and have them stay the way my heart wants them to be, but I don't yet. :-(

 P.S. It looks like someone sent an email from my account in the past day or so. Today I got a bounce back of undeliverable mail, even though I'd not even accessed and use my account since the day before yesterday and had not sent any emails then. This has happened many times and it just should not be happening.

Plea for Official Investigations on Water Problem

   I beg officials to look deeper into the problem of pharmaceuticals being found in drinking water. I strongly feel that there is more to it than the run off of pharmaceuticals that have been dispensed of. Due to a dream I had, I strongly feel that the chemicals have been being intentionally placed into the water, in order to aid Technological Mind Control and its enslavement of America and the rest of humanity.
   The problem of water contamination due to used pharmaceuticals, points to the core problem being that too many pharmaceuticals have been being consumed by humanity. I strongly feel that this has been doing far more harm than good, especially when the pharmaceuticals are prescribed for illnesses that have been intentionally inflicted with microwave weapons...etc. Both the targeting and the distribution of un-needed pharmaceuticals should be completely stopped.
   I have a vision of a world where all people, who are able to, grow their own medicinal trees, shrubs and herbs...and community gardens are be constructed for all who can not grow their own. And this NON-harmful, healthy medicine is freely available to everyone. I hope my vision  becomes a reality very quickly.

   One of the things that I am supposed to be doing with my life is creating at least one garden, that is filled with medicinal trees shrubs and herbs and then left for public use. The bank account, which I have been being deprived of, was to be used for this to be done on the property of my next home. I hope the account is returned to me and I am able to make that dream come true. And I hope this idea of public medicinal gardens spreads and is done by many other people as well. Our world needs this and every community should have at least one, so that far less pharmaceuticals are used, and safer and more healthy Earth medicine used, for the sake of humanity's health and safety.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


P.S.  I am sorry that some of earliest writings, about the problem with pharmaceuticals being in our drinking water supplies, implied that the publication of it being from "run off" was not true. When I look at it objectively it is just common sense that the dispensing of the pharmaceuticals could be thought to have caused the problem, because there has been such a un-Godly amount of them prescribed to people. And if those who realized the problem were not aware of the drugs aiding Technological Mind Control there is really nothing else that they could have thought it to be. I hope you accept my apology. I still strongly feel that the vast majority of the water contamination problem, if not all of it, is actually being caused by the intentional contamination of drinking water for reasons stated in the previous post.
   Please understand that it is sometimes impossible for people in my position to be completely objective and clear and functional while being tortured or threatened or drugged and inflicted with interference of brain function during times of exposing the most important parts f the targeting. And I have been being hit with all these things, especially during the initial exposing of important parts of the targeting. I'm sorry for all other misperceptions and mistakes also. Please forgive me. I wish I had the freedom to fix my past writings, and have them stay the way my heart wants them to be, but I don't yet. :-(

We Can Not Join Something In Order to Be Free From It

We Can Not Join Something In Order to Be Free From It.
It just can't work that way.

And we can't free ourselves from something through joining it either! ;-)

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Freedom's Beacon Blog


Please share my Freedom's Beacon blog with people. I took my name off of it for those of you who are ashamed of my other writings. Please at least let this part of my writings reach and help people. Please.

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Threat to Disable My Car?

Today there appear to be another round of threats to disable my car, using a radio advertisement, librarian puppets and a tow truck. The car I am now living in was donated to me and does not really feel like it is truly mine, but I needed it for my survival and its all I have. I'd rather be in my Oldsmobile, but it vanished....appears to have been stolen by them! I hope they find their Hearts and I hope they do not succeed with doing anything to inflict me with more distress or hardship. I need the car until the targeting is stopped and I can get back onto my feet. And I do not want to be forced into a shelter and abducted. And I should not be forced to leap out of my life, in order for the targeting to stop. It is the targeting that should leave my life. I wish I had help with forcing the targeting out of my life and that of others, because there are many things that my heart yearns to be doing. I am not supposed to be being targeted/tortured and tormented and harassed for the rest of my life and this has already gone on for too long.

I know its too late for too much in my situation, but I am still trying to preserve what is left of my life,  my conscience, my integrity, my sanity, my heart...etc. I hope they do not succeed with disabling this car and forcing me into an unsafe shelter or onto unsafe streets. I hope they find their hearts.


Movie Portraying Covert Sabotage

   I have heard that there are many fiction movies, which portray parts of the VERY REAL covert targeting of people. I have not watched most of them and I ran into this one by accident.
   "The Bookshop" movie really touched my heart, because I could relate to so much of it. It is a fiction movie, but the problem of cruel covert sabotage, which a variety of community members are involved in, has been a devastating reality to many people, including myself.
   In this movie a kind woman's home and business is sabotaged. Those involved in the sabotaging include a seamstress who sets her up with an inappropriate dress, a banker who delays important proceedings, a "friend" who offers to "help" her in her shop but does the opposite, and an influential woman who has a nephew in the government whom she has manipulated into passing certain laws that seemed generally appropriate, but were slyly to adversely effect the targeted woman.
   This targeted woman had a good man on her side, a man who knew how that society worked and had strictly avoided it, due to its cruelty. False rumors were being spread about him. He came out of seclusion, in order to openly stand up for the kind woman and then suddenly died of a heart attack. So sad, especially since these sorts of things really have been happening to real people. But we must keep standing up for each other, because we need many more people standing up for victims of covert targeting and less joining in or being used by the dark forces, in order for things to start getting better.


The Bookshop Movie Trailer

     This movie was based in England, which has a historical reputation of the wealthy wanting to have complete control. But this sort of horrible covert sabotaging/targeting is also really happening throughout the world, even in free countries like America. It is not only being done by the wealthy and it is being greatly aided by technological and pharmaceutical mind control as well as space based technologies that can shoot a laser beam into a person and create things like a lethal heart attack as easily as they can shoot radio waves down for internet access.

The sweet old man said to the kind woman, "You make
me believe once more in things I thought forgotten."


 I can look at my deeper past and relate very deeply to the scenarios that the kind woman in this movie was sabotaged through. I have experienced similar things. But I can now also relate to the old man who realized what the society was like and wanted to completely stay away from it all. What is deeply needed, and what should be happening, is more people realizing the core of the problem and more people standing up for and supporting the victims, so that the dark forces stop succeeding.


Freedom's Beacon Blog


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Too Many Used and Too Many Abused

  There are many good decent people, both inside and outside the government, who have been being unwittingly used by the dark/sadistic covert program. There are many good decent people, both inside and outside our governments, who have been completely enslaved and used by the dark/sadistic covert program. And there are many good decent people, both inside and outside the governments, who have been being tortured and tormented and have not had the types of help that are desperately needed. There are many good decent people, both inside and outside the government, who are suffering, indescribably and do not even know that they are being technologically targeted by dark forces that also use their own community members and comrades and loved ones and government places against them...etc. And my heart cries so much....

Oh Dear, God please set us all free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.