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Sunday, October 28, 2018

My Declaration About Covert Help

   I feel extremely uncomfortable with covert stuff and covert messaging. I always have and still do, irregardless of who is doing it or for what reason. This is not against anything or anyone, its just the way I feel, and for good reason. Aside from it all being extremely confusing, at a time when I have been desperate for the opposite, those who have ill intentions and do the targeting and seek revenge on me are covert and everything else (IF there really is anything else that is not into torturing, controlling and using and hurting) just blends in with the bad from my vantage point...etc. I have been being beat up with it all for so long that I desperately need it all to completely stop. I've felt this way from the start. I have received covert threats and dreams that insinuate intentions to deprive me of help or to set up (frame) either a loved one or I if I do not obey and conform and join the covert stuff or leap out of my life into the enslavement "home." There have been many covert attempts to set me up for reasons to have me arrested, like trying to make me run through security doors (in order to get help) during times of desperation...etc. I have also been physically tortured for not being happy with the covert hell that surrounds me, and for begging officials to stand up, more times than I can count. And none of this can feel good to me, in any way or form, irregardless of who is or is not actually doing it. I don't trust any of it. And I still want it all to stop.    I have been waiting for good* officials to openly stand up and be here for me/us, irregardless of what organization they are with, (as long as there are not too many jurisdiction issues and they have an awareness of all aspects of the targeting) but it appears that none have this intention. And I have some serious concerns, at this point, because I've had precognitive dreams forewarning of me being lured to official places with aims to either physically kill me (in a tunnel collapse) or to inject me with something or to completely enslave me - kill me spiritually and emotionally or to fabricate a reason to have me arrested and imprisoned. And I do not want any of these things to happen to me. I do not want to be hurt anymore.

    Since around 2003 - (Since I started reporting something wrong) I have had many confusing experiences with various levels of officials - from local through presidents...etc., especially in the past several years with the FBI and Senator Shaheen and President Obama, whom had all responded to my reports in various ways. (Some of my experiences with the FBI have been very disturbing and I have lost valuable trust in everything. I hope it can someday be restored.) I have been waiting and hoping for all levels of officials to be here for me/us with good, honest explanations that can help me to feel better about it all and assure me that their intentions were good and that they are on the side of regaining freedom, although some of them (especially on the lower levels) seem to have lost their freedom and are victims too. But this has obviously not happened yet and I do not know if any of them really intend for it to, although it has been being promised for about five years. Some seem to have ill/vengeful intentions toward me and I hope this honestly proves to be untrue but I need to know the real Truth. Is real help ever really going to be here for us? I hope so. ( I was painfully tortured after posting this.)
    However, I don't want to blame good officials who have good intentions and have not been able to be here for me in the ways that I need them to be. I don't even want to blame those who have been controlled or enslaved and not able to follow their own Hearts and instincts, and have hurt me in various ways. I just want it all to stop. I know this whole situation has been extremely difficult for everyone and has been hurting everyone to some degree. I wish things were different for all of us, but none of it has been my choice. I wish we were all free. I wish this hell would end now and that our Hearts could be here for each other. My heart feels for you. It really does, no matter what.

   My loved ones have been being more deeply enslaved in the past few years and they are not safe for me to turn to either. Its all just too sad. I have been groping for hope for me, but sometimes have a hard time finding it. Everywhere I look there is either confusing cryptic covert stuff with questionable intentions or controlled people (puppets) whom they use or suffering victims who are not aware that their brain or body functions are being technologically interfered with or clueless/unaware people or vengeful mind control victims...and I can't stand it. I can't stand the way the world is right now. It shouldn't be this way. It just shouldn't. And my only consolation, right now, is that I know the real God is shining a giant Light for the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from further destruction. Please let that Light into your Heart. I have been letting in the Light, but some days it works better than others, depending on how drugged or tortured I am.

   When the good covertly blend in with the bad it creates a confusing sort of hell that has often been the worse part of the targeting for me. Most of the time it seems like the criminals just want me to trust them and think they are good and that its all about getting me to join and obey and be used, while my loved ones continue to be hurt or enslaved, instead of all of us being helped...etc. ALL of becomes too confusing and I can never be sure of the real intentions. I don't trust covert and I don't ever want to. I don't want to be tortured and threatened into joining the covert program, like they have been trying to do to me, I want good* officials to be here for me/us.

*Good is those whose Hearts and instincts are in tact and are not controlled by those who do the targeting. Many who are controlled are good people also, but they just are not free enough to be a safe source of help. And organizations that are too infiltrated to be a safe source of NON-covert help are not necessarily bad either - they just need their freedom restored also.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.