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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Letting Go of the Fight

I was going to be letting go of most of this blog, (and wrote;) but NOT for those who threaten me to do so and have so obviously made alterations to it, in the past few years, in order to try to push me into completely shutting it down. I am doing so for my heart's need to let go of the fight.
Parts of this blog have not remained authentic and what my heart wanted it to be, due to the targeting's effect on me and criminal infiltrations into my writings, which appear to have changed the dates of some posts, altered contents of others and even sometimes manipulated things through the orchestration of events they knew I'd write about...etc. I have wanted to comb through it and try to fix it, but this is impossible for me to accomplish while still being targeted. I have felt that its probably better than nothing, the way it is, but I do not know if it really is.

This blog started out being a fight for my life (literally) as well as a fight for the safety and wellbeing of my loved ones and other victims of the horrible covert targeting, especially the technological and pharmaceutical parts of it. It reflects my process of learning about the targeting and how to deal with it. I still don't know how to deal with it. The targeting is an indescribably horrible hell that desperately needs far more Hearts peacefully standing up against it, especially those who have the capability of protection from the technological mind control and covert harassment. I am sorry that my heart has not held up very well. I have been being hurt too much for too long and it has damaged all aspects of my life - my work, my heart, my spirit, my soul, my body...etc. I hope to be able to recover, but the targeting would have to be stopped, and other miracles would have to take place, in order for that to happen.

As I write this they have their librarian puppets repeatedly thanking me! (And as I aimed to they had a postal puppet sweeping the floor in front of me as I entered my post office, which is their usual covert way of telling me to clean up my writings.) I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR ANYONE WHO USES THE POOR CONTROLLED PUPPETS! Now I feel reluctant to let go, because I prefer to defy them. Isn't this ironic?! My intention is to let go of the fight and then I end this post, and may not follow through with my plan, due to being harassed and forced to fight against what has not respected my rights and may not even let me do it without them interfering!!! There is the nagging question; will I be able to even put posts into drafts without them erasing other things while I do it on the infiltrated computers? Probably not. So, I am again second guessing my decision. I am far too trapped! I definitely can not even attempt to fix my books of this blog on infiltrated computers. And I am not in good enough condition to even make decisions as to what is or is not important to keep up, at this point, even of there was no chance of them interfering with my brain or my blog as I did it.


More is explained in my "about" page which has sometimes been hidden by those who target me. Hopefully it will remain up.