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Saturday, April 28, 2018

Painful Lasering of my Brain...etc.

   Late yesterday I experienced another round of what felt like lasering of the top/left/front part of my brain. My head even hurt to touch it. I hope my brain is not damaged any more than it may have already been. I have also been experiencing more rounds of painful laser shots to other parts of my body, including sexual assaults. Among other things, a few weeks ago they had a puppet yell out, "Arthritis," just before starting another round of the painful lasering of some of my joints. This sort of thing has happened a lot and often with heart attack types of symptoms. I never have REAL heart attacks, but feel the pain and the threat and the gross lack of safety. With this and other types of lasering, there are obvious physical mutilations of my body taking place, which are not natural, including my skin being effected since they said they were going make me age for not leaping into their enslavement "home" where they had been promising to keep me young looking. Apparently they can do both with technologies.
     It feels horrible to be so completely at the mercy of those who can hurt or violate me any time they want to and there being no way for me to protect myself. Words can not even begin to describe how horrible this often feels. And then there are the other parts of the targeting too! Its all just too horrible and it has gone on for too long and it should be stopping, not just for me, but for all who are being tortured. . .and ultimately for all of humanity to be set free from all levels of the targeting. Why isn't it? Why? Please help break the silence that surrounds these crimes.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Dangers at the End of the Road

   Things are really difficult for me. I am experiencing another round of threats to disable my vehicle. It appears that, one way or the other, they may accomplish this very soon. The night before last they had a tow truck drop a car off in a parking lot in front of me. Then last night they had a tow truck break down and not be able to start in a parking lot in front of me. I know this was not a coincidence, because it mimics the types of things they do to terrorize me through threatening to disable my vehicle. This had been done a lot in the past several years and was followed through with on a massive scale, around 2013 and 2014. Now they know that even just the threat of it inflicts me with distress. Sometimes they had even disabled or broke my car and had it towed under the guise of it being "help", sometimes even using good and unaware people in the foreground of these episodes that always hurt and scared me and  never helped me get away from the targeting. It just added to it. . .becoming another difficult part of it.
   Right now they appear to have multiple things set up for me to lose my vehicle/home, and the types of freedom and safety it provides me with. They could just not let it start, like they did for a few minutes this morning or they could legally force me to take it off the road, which there have been set ups to do...etc. My days in it seem extremely limited for sure, at this point.
   This is really scary because there are no safe options for me. It appears that they want to either dump me on the streets where I'd be far too vulnerable to those who target me, or shoved deeper into the welfare system that provides housing for the poor...etc, which I do not feel safe with or good about. I've hoped for the hell to be ending and not getting worse - I'd hoped for things to be heading in the opposite direction from what is happening - I'd hoped that help would eventually be HERE for me and that I'd be able to recover some of my losses and at least buy a peace of land that is in a peaceful, private, safe location, where I could at least build a camping shelter...etc. But this is looking more and more unlikely as years creep by.
   I have no loved ones left, that I know of, who can not be controlled or who wouldn't quickly be if I went to live with them, particularly if they remain unaware of the targeting. Some of them appear to have been completely enslaved and are not themselves. There seems to be nothing I can do to make things better, at this point. I don't know what is going to happen to me and its really scary to be too completely at the mercy of whatever and waiting to see what they do to me or force me into.
   I wish the Heart of good/uncontrolled officials, who are already aware of the whole targeting situation, could be here for me and protect me from further harm, but it appears that the chances of this have been steadily vanishing in the past few years. My heart keeps reassuring me that they do exist and just have not been able to yet, but its been so long and things are not looking good for me. . .and someone keeps telling me that my life is going to remain this way "forever". Its can't. It just can't. Its hurting me and has been preventing me from doing my work...etc.

Please pray for me. . .and all of humanity. . .that we quickly gain
all levels of safety and freedom from all that harms and controls...etc.

P.S. For about two years now, I have been trapped in a vehicle to the degree of not even being able to take normal walks without obvious threats and aims to abduct me, and without being concerned about them raiding my vehicle or shooting those little dart types of things, or ticks into my body, which has happened to me. This has all been extremely difficult. I have been desperately groping for answers - to figure out what I can do to keep surviving. A week or so ago I planned to go up the coast of Maine to a place where I may have been able to take long walks in more peace (without being swarmed by vehicles anyway) and be able to leave my car under a security camera, but had realized, a few days ago, that this would most likely not be safe, due to the threat of them possibly creating a tidal wave if I go too far up the coast of Maine. I think I already avoided this tidal wave situation, which I'd had a precognitive dream about, but am not completely sure that they would not try again, in certain areas. There seems nothing I can do to try to regain my physical strength and inner balance, at this point. I am too trapped. Although this is horrible, things could get even worse, in some ways, if I did not have the freedoms that a vehicle provides me with - if I was forced to stay in a stationary place, it could be worse in some ways although better in other ways. There seems no good answer to my dilemma, without the proper kinds of help and protection that obviously are still not available for me.

P.S. 5/8/2018; There is also another place I was going to go to in Maine, but it now appears that the recent threats to disable my vehicle applied to if I left New Hampshire.

Attempt to Block My Phone

   Before the 20th of this month there was a charge to my phone that would have prevented it from renewing and continuing to function if I had not caught it on time. Then, after I caught it and fixed it, a charge was drummed up to still prevent it from renewing. Was this to prevent someone from reaching me or was it yet another attempt to make me lose my phone number or possibly part of another aim to force me to get another phone - a "smartphone"? I don't want another phone, especially not the ones that the satanic covert program uses, and I should be able to keep my phone number, which is in many of my publications.
   I have been forced, many times in the past, to lose or change my phone numbers and I have been fighting to not let them do this anymore. But every now and then they sneak in something like this month and I do not know for sure what the reasons behind it are. Maybe just to harass me and make things difficult, which works. I want it to stop.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Waiting

 Waiting

Another stormy day in a winter
That's too reluctant to leave.
We impatiently await the Spring
They tucked up it's sleeve. 

I wrote this about a week ago.

Friday, April 13, 2018

Publishing Problems

   My publisher has just blocked my Yearn for Freedom, book. They said they found some of its content on the web. I am the one who has its content on the web! But even if someone else did why would I be blocked and have to prove its my material? I have given permissions for other people to share some of my writings. This is not the first time this has happened and it feels like harassment. Hopefully they will reinstate it quickly.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

To Silence my Singing?

   I have been hit hard with attacks on my throat and lungs and sinuses since the beginning of January. The reasons could be many but it also started shortly after I started playing and singing one of my new songs more often more fluently. They started with painful laser shots to my body as I sang. And then I started getting sick in ways that prevented my singing. I am not doing very well on any level. And I feel scared of the ways this seems to be headed. But I am still praying for a miracle and protection from further harm of all kinds.

My Freedom's Peace song is the one they had an issue with; https://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2017/11/yearn-for-freedoms-peace.html I hope I can sing it again, someday.

Is There Something in Certain Vitamins Which Aids Technological Mind Control?

    I know a targeted woman who had odd symptoms around her monthly cycles and was advised, by a doctor, to take a certain type of vitamins. Her symptoms went away when she took the vitamins but she changed in ways that now seem to me like she became more controlled. So, I can not help but wonder of her symptoms were technologically generated and if the prescribed vitamins had something in them to aid technological mind control.

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Birth Certificate Changed In City Hall?

   While I recently tried to find my money I noticed a misspelling of my name on my birth certificate. (An N was typed in as an M in one of my name changes)
   Today I went to the City Hall where I was born and the clerk there told me that my last two name changes were not even on my birth certificate in her computer system. She then looked for the physical file and could NOT find it. "It must have been misfiled" she said. She was a bit sarcastic, trying to tell me that "name changes do not just appear on a birth certificate" without me reporting them and bringing in the proper paperwork...etc. But I had brought in the proper paperwork and HAD gotten a copy of my birth certificate WITH the name changes on it in 2007 and then again in 2011. Between 2007 and 2011 my married name (Sharon Buck) had been wiped off of my birth certificate. And between 2011 and now BOTH of my legal name changes had been wiped off of my birth certificate in their system. Why?
   She called Concord who came up with the same thing at first. Then I showed her the copy of my birth certificate, which they gave me in 2011, and then, after she told Concord (two times) that I had produced a copy WITH the name changes on it, they were able to find a physical file that affirmed the name changes. Before I left she said its all fixed in the system, including returning the M to an N. But I am still finding this all really disturbing. How can important, legal birth certificate information get wiped out and files get lost? What would have happened if I had not produced the last copy that THEY had given me through their system? Is it because I am being targeted? What were the intentions behind it? Is it part of the abduction process and its aims to wipe out our existence or was it all really just an honest mistake or is someone fabricating these things and using puppets in official places just to harass me?
   Even if that was really fixed, and stays fixed, there is still the problem of my Buck name being wiped out. She told me it was never on my birth certificate, but it really was and how would she even know it wasn't since NONE of my names were even in her system? While I talked to her a security guard came to talk to people next to me, and loudly said, "Its crazy" just like they did at the DOT during the problems with my replacing my VALID license. I looked at him and said, "Me too," but I was not in the mood to laugh at my own joke like I usually do.

Lost Bank Account!

   I recently checked on my lost bank account and found that my Bank did not keep records and underwent a merger in 2005, which complicates things even further. They said that the money should have gone to the state I live in after it being assumed that it was abandoned. But it does not appear to be in any of the states I lived in either. One government clerk told me that it could be under a different name if there was a spelling error, which is like looking for a needle in a haystack. But it was not listed under my social security number either, and how could both have been misspelled in their system?
   This is really discouraging, because, since I remembered my back-up bank account, I had hoped to get at least this bit of my money back and perhaps be able to buy a piece of land and build a little camping/writing shelter. Even just this could have felt like heaven to me right now. Do I have to let go of that hope too? It appears so. But I hope it is found. I'd asked the man to help me look for it and call me if he finds it.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Free Download of my Yearn for Freedom book

   Since things aren't going well for me I feel I should also offer this book for free. But please do not freely download it unless you honestly can not afford to buy it.







Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Its Time for Safety


    In this grueling stand for freedom from technological and pharmaceutical mind control; I feel that the front rows already went down, in the past few decades, and its time for our Hearts to safely stand for Freedom.







Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.




I'm Sorry. I Can't.

   For many years now, I have gotten different types of threats due to things in my writings, which exposes key parts of the targeting. I can not erase from my writings anything that can prove the targeting, which has not yet been proven. And I can not even consider erasing anything connected to the pharmaceutical and technological mind control and the enslavement of human beings - the destruction of the Heart and Soul of humanity, which my life's work had aimed to remedy. Asking me to do this is like asking me to defy the real God and join the evil forces. I can not do it of my own free will and I hope it does not happen any other way.

I believe that those who try to force me into the lethal silence are those who perform the targeting. I hope that officials can be here before too many more of us are silenced in any of the ways that it has been being done.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Dream of My Death Due to Something About Water

   Over a decade ago I had a dream that I die due to something connected with water or my saying something about water. And I now think that it is probably about my exposing the 2008 news reports about drugs being found in public drinking water supplies and the dream I had, around the year 2000, about dark people putting something harmful in a public water supply. . .and my sharing my feelings that this is all connected to the technological mind control, which is aided by certain chemicals and/or pharmaceuticals.
   But this is just one of the many courses this could take and it does not have to be this way. The deaths in my old dreams, I am learning, may not always be about physical death and may be about the damage that is being done to the minds of people who are completely enslaved. I hope that my brain and heart and instincts and intuition are not damaged anymore than they already have been, because I want to recover from what they have done to me. I also hope that they do not physically kill me. I do not want to die before my time or at the hands of the criminals who are targeting me. I feel that my personal situation could and should be going a different way, but that depends upon others people's choices. So what do I do? I can not erase from my writings anything that can prove the targeting, which has not yet been proven, especially anything connected to the pharmaceutical and technological mind control and the enslavement of human beings - the destruction of the Heart and Soul of humanity, which my life's work had aimed to remedy. Asking me to do this is like asking me to defy the real God and join the evil forces. I can not do it of my own free will and I hope it does not happen any other way.
    I believe in standing up for what we feel is right, especially when it exposes, and aims to stop, things that are damaging and/or destroying the most important parts of people, especially little defenseless children - the future of humanity. How can any of us live with ourselves if we chose to fall silent about these things, which is akin to joining the criminals who torture and harm us.
  I believe in the following phrase, although (to me) has nothing to with being Christian or not and everything to do with caring about ourselves and others. MLK wrote it about segregation, but it fits the psychological and spiritual destructions that have been being inflicted upon humanity with ALL levels of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

“If physical death is the price that some must pay to free their children from a permanent life of psychological death, then nothing could be more Christian.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr.

However, I feel that, in this movement for Freedom from technological mind control...etc., the pioneers, like Jim Keith and Jerry E. Smith, already stood and were taken down and that its now time for the survival of the brave Hearts who dare to openly stand up against it. We may not ALL survive. People, like me, who are too isolated and have no protection or support of loved ones are too vulnerable. But others, especially officials and main stream media, could safely stand up. I had a dream about people deciding to stand up and that they did not get hurt for doing so. I believe in that dream. The time for this to happen for me is probably passed, but its not passed for others or the rest of humanity. Please let your Hearts stand for humanity's Freedom and all who are suffering.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

MLK Quotes

  Today, on the anniversary of Martin Luther King's murder, I searched for important things he said and found many that can be applied to the crisis that too many are being hurt by. I do not believe in all that MLK said, but believe in the following quotes and the need for more people to let their Hearts break the lethal silence and unite in Peaceful stands for the regaining of our Freedom. 

“Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will.”

“A man has not begun to live until he can rise above the narrow confines of his own individual concerns to the broader concerns of all of humanity.”

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

“In the end we will remember not the words of our enemies but the silence of our friends.” 

“The ultimate tragedy is not the oppression and cruelty by the bad people, but the silence over that by the good.”

“Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for Freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hate.“

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only Love can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only Love can do that.”

“Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.”

“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional Love will have the final word.”

“Man must evolve, for all of human conflict, a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is Love.”

“The time is always right to do what is right.”

“A right delayed is a right denied.”

“The true measure of a man is not how he behaves in moments of comfort and convenience, but how he stands at times of controversy and challenge.”

“Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed.”

“We must learn that to expect God to do everything while we do nothing is not faith.” 



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, April 3, 2018

Still Sick

   I'm sure I look like I just have a cold or flu, but I have been being hit hard with microwaves and periodic painful tortures of my brain since last Wednesday morning.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, April 2, 2018

The Shootings and the Gun Control Issue

   I strongly feel that the general ownership of guns is NOT the problem and that most, if not all, of the shootings, are the direct result of technological mind control being used on enslaved victims. I am also concerned that the controlled shootings may be part of an evil covert plan to alarm/concern officials who can be used to take guns away from citizens before a covert takeover of America is completed.

   More realization of, and public exposure that can stop, the REAL problem (technological and pharmaceutical mind control) is something that is owed to every child and adult that has been cruelly murdered and every traumatized child that has witnessed those shootings and every family that has suffered the losses. . .as well as every individual and family that has been a victims of technological and pharmaceutical mind control, technological torture...etc.

    I strongly feel that many, if not all, of the unusual problems we are faced with, including the shootings, are directly due to technological mind control, which should be being exposed and stopped. I feel that the space and ground based technologies, which have been being used on humanity for mind control, are the most dangerous weapons that human beings have ever owned, especially since they hurt us in ways that are not obvious and in ways that damage, block or destroy our hearts and instincts and spirits and free will and natural perceptions...etc., and can brainwash people into doing things that they would not do on their own accord. And then there is the pharmaceutical part. The combination of technological mind control, and its aiding pharmaceuticals, is the most lethal weapon humanity has ever owned. This is the weapon that should be immediately removed from the hands of EVERYONE who could use it to harm or manipulate human beings...etc.

www.targetedinamerica.com/mindcont.html
 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Opioid Epidemic

   I can not help but feel that the opioid epidemic is a direct result of the covert targeting of humanity. The general technological mind control programing actually pushes people toward unhealthy addictions through actual brain washings. I have experienced and witnessed this happening to people. And the more specific mind control can make individuals forget taking a dose and then take it again...etc. Technological mind control is more effective on people who are taking mind and emotion numbing drugs, and so these people can be more easily forced into suicide as well. I feel that the deaths are probably just one part of an evil eugenics based targeting of humanity. I strongly feel that the CORE PROBLEM, with the opioid epidemic, as well as many of the other problems we are faced with, is technological mind control, which should be being exposed and stopped.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

I Got My License Back, But. . .

   I got my second new license and it now has the gold star in the corner, which deems it as "valid" as the one they took from me to begin with. However, this one has a little defect in the coloration on the top back side of it, and I have wondered if that is just a less conspicuous way of flagging me as a possible danger or criminal...etc. Its probably just me being too suspicious, due to what happened. I hope so anyway.
   I am not the one who should be restricted or stopped in any way or form. (There has already been too much of that in my life.) Its those who target me who should be stopped so I can be free. . .and the same should apply for every other torture victim. We are not the ones who are the criminals and we should not be treated as such.

No More Threats Please!

   I do not want to be shoved into a desperate place, due to my vehicle being disabled, (or any other excuse) just to be forced into a covert abduction. Attempts of this, and threats of this, have happened a lot since June of 2013. And I am now experiencing yet another round of threats to do this to me. It could also make me lose what little is left of my belongings! I hope they do not succeed or even try. I've been through too much. I deserve the opposite - kind, compassionate help that relieves my distress, instead of adding to it...etc. I don't know what I am going to do at the end of this month, when my car becomes uninspected, like they also threatened to do, before doing it. This is all horribly distressing on top of the vamp up in all levels of the targeting in past few days.

   I am also getting death threats in the form of another round of an unusual amount of dead animals left in roads I frequent. I hope they remain empty.

There is Proof!

     There is solid physical proof of the technological part of the targeting of families and Torture Victims. All we need is more officials acknowledging that the targeting is indeed happening and honest medical people to run a few simple tests and/or take a few easy Xrays. There are large, and VERY detectable microchips in at least some long term victims. Medical tests can prove the brain damage that has been done to many children and adults. There are empty graves of abducted and completely enslaved victims... and there are chains of events and physical damages that are caused by the general technological targeting...etc. We just need officials to be here for us, and to use the OBVIOUS physical parts of the evidence to help stop ALL of the targeting from continuing. . .BEFORE more of the evidence and witnesses are destroyed. This should be happening, instead of us having to prove our sanity, in a profession that is used to discredit us and take away what little is left of our freedoms, on top of everything else. 


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

For the Children

 I cringe when I think of the damage that certain types of pharmaceuticals, which were reported to have been found in drinking water in 2008, has been doing to our children. I feel that there is also some damaging pharmaceuticals that are being pushed upon children for various types of "illnesses." And then there's the technological mind control part that is made too easy after the pharmaceuticals are administered. Its all just too horrible - innocent and defenseless minds and hearts being damaged or suppressed. I hope its all exposed and completely stopped soon. Please do everything in your power to help set humanity free. Please!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.