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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Friday, March 30, 2018

For America's Freedom

I dedicate this video to the America that was free and safe. . .
with the hope that it will be again. 

   My posting of this was inspired by someone who had a puppet say, "I don't know you" just before I noticed a truck, with an Eagle on it, and then the sound of loudly slamming doors. This all happened right after I read an email from Senator Shaheen. The message was pretty clear. Was this done by Shaheen's people or was it from someone who wants me to think it was? I don't know, but I know it was mean. I have experienced things like this before and I don't want to let it hurt me anymore. No matter who it was who delivered the message, my heart feels that, good officials don't slam doors and turn away from torture victims. They step forward and stand up for a better day. . . no matter what we do or write or say while being targeted. I hope the bad stops trying to destroy my hope and that the good/uncontrolled spreads its wings and soars into the Light - into a compassionate stand for Freedom. America needs kind, informative doors opening instead of angry doors slamming. . .and I do too.

   I dedicate this to the Doves and Pigeons and Eagles and Hawks and Blue Jays
and Seagulls and all who soar in the Light. They need a free America too. We all do.


https://youtu.be/8bNAOL8dHO8


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

More Vamp Ups!

   Recently, I went to a government building and passed out my Calling all Hearts paper and have experienced heavy swarms since then. I didn't ask for help for myself. I guess I should have. I certainly need it, but I need it from people who are already aware and will not assume that I am just "mentally ill," because I have already been through too much and need the opposite.
   I was heavily targeted the past few times that I had only PLANNED to pass out some of these papers. I blew through that wall and spontaneously did a batch of it anyway. I guess I took another chance due to it appearing like its close to the end of the road for the tiny bit of freedom that having a vehicle gives me. They appear to be forcing me to take it off the road in the end of April. I don't know how I'll survive without a vehicle and don't know how I'll be able to keep what little is left of my infiltrated belongings and writings. I am too much at the mercy of those who target me. I do not know what I'll do at the end of April. It seems like there is nothing I can do, about my personal situation, but if I can help more people to be aware, of the general problem, there may be more hope for the rest of humanity. Please help print and pass out this paper; http://www.poeticpublications.com/callinghearts5.pdf

P.S. 4-2-2018; Heavy technological and covert harassment vamp up since Wednesday morning. It also appears that I have been hit with some sort of chemical that is making me ill again, but some (if not all) of it may be being technologically induced. I am experiencing periods of painful torture of my brain, especially in the top left part of my brain, which appear to be being disguised under the appearance of my having something like a flue or cold.  As I write this the torture of this part of my brain is starting again!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, March 26, 2018

The Vulture!

    A vulture landed next to me in a parking lot yesterday! This felt like a bad sign. I prayed for protection from harm. And then the targeting vamped into yet another round of painful blasts to my head and sexual assaults that inflicted pain, burning and bleeding skin last night and this morning.
 


Saturday, March 24, 2018

"I Had a Dream My Life Would Be So Different From This Hell I'm Living"

    I am sure that all of us long term Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals can relate to much of this song - the pain and the lost dreams and lost loved ones, "As they tear your hope apart and turn your dream to shame.... I Had a Dream My Life Would Be So Different From This Hell I'm Living" But we must hold onto hope and faith until the Light shines for us, difficult though it often is.

Anne Hathaway - I Dreamed a Dream

https://youtu.be/86lczf7Bou8

The Tear

That tear rolling down your face;
Don't wipe it away. Just let it stay
For all of the human race.


   I sat thinking, this morning, about this horrible thing that is happening to humanity, the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, which has been blocking people's Hearts, and the enslavement of humanity and the tortures against those of us who are less controllable or who refuse to join the evil secret society - covert program. . .and my heart ached for all of us, for those who are enslaved in the program and those of us who are being tortured and others who have not stood up to stop it from continuing. As a tear rolled down my cheek I thought of the above part of a poem I wrote long ago. I didn't wipe the tear away.
   And then my heart was hit with a laser weapon as ravens swooped in screeching. It hurt, but not nearly as much as the inner pain I feel for the harm that has been being inflicted upon too many of us.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, March 23, 2018

I Give Up

  I just can not do a good enough job with the exposing and reporting of this stuff while still being targeted, and after all that I have been through. I guess if there is not going to be help from the Heart of officials who already know, after all that I have already written and sent out, through all these years, there is not much hope for any of us.

P.S. For the sake of my own health I should be just focusing on my own feelings and surviving, at this point, although I am not free enough to fully do this either.

Sadder Story

Two sad little Doves walked from the right
To the wrong left side of the road.
My heart sank and I searched for Light.
There can not be a sadder story told.



The "right side" is the side that openly and peacefully stands
up for Freedom from all that, intrudes, harms controls...etc.

Infiltrated Writings

   This blog started out being a fight for my life in 2011. Then, as I realized more about the targeting, it grew into a fumbling stand for freedom for myself and my loved ones and my country and the rest of humanity. But it was lead more by the targeting than my heart and this has always disturbed me. It, and its books, have been being interfered with all along. I have found dates changed on posts or posts moved to different dates. Parts of posts erased and things moved from one post to another in order to alter the meaning...etc. I have also made a lot of my own mistakes, especially while being heavily targeted with radio waves that interfere with my brain and was in states of overwhelm and frustration....etc.
Its been difficult for me to figure out what is happening with the targeting while still being targeted. And I have definitely not figured it all out yet. But in between my ramblings on my blogs are realizations that I hope will help all of us to regain freedom from all levels of the targeting. Most of these have been put onto www.targetedinamerica.com. And I will weed out more when I have the freedom to do so.
   As I wrote and researched I realized that the problem I am faced with extends far beyond me and into my family and communities and country and the rest of humanity. The torturous targettings are just a small part of a huge, horrible, global holocaust that also utilizes technological mind control on a defenseless and unaware populous. I strongly feel that more people must quickly become aware of the mind control part of it, especially those who are in positions where they have the power to stop criminal use of both space and ground based technologies that can emit and direct radio waves…as well as stop the distribution the pharmaceuticals, which aid the technological mind control.

I do not share very much about my personal experiences with the targeting, because my way of surviving it has been to ignore as much of it as I can. And the targeting has often gotten worse for me when I write about what is being done to me. I have been suffering indescribably, but they seem to want people to think that I am either just fine or just “mentally ill.” I don’t know if I will ever share all of it. Much of it is just too painful and I am in desperate need of it all ending so I can start processing my feelings, in private, and start recovering.

If there are ever good officials who decide to be here for me, and if they need the full versions of my other blog writings…etc., they can be produce from my emails and publishing site and storage devices...etc. This may also be important to do if anything worse happens to me or if I vanish…which I pray does not happen. Although some of my writings have been infiltrated, hopefully not all of it has been.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

For Freedom

Many fight, in different ways, for Freedom.
And whose to say what is wrong or right.
The only wrong is when a blind fight
Harms or kills what we're fighting for.
Please stop all the horrid fighting
And start standing for freedom's return
Its time let our hearts teach the lessons
That every one of us should learn.

Please Peacefully STAND for Freedom
And hold a caring hand out to fellow human beings.

Monday, March 19, 2018

Exposing Inhumane Targeting of Human Beings

   This video concerns me a bit due to the fact that the speaker does not share his name. And I don't know about the organizations he is blaming...etc. BUT I decided to share it because he gives VERY accurate descriptions of what has been being done to Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals and their families. He's the first person, whom I know of, aside from myself, that has exposed the abduction and enslavement stuff and the targeting of, and tearing apart of, families...etc. It is sooooo important for the rest of humanity to realize that the technological and pharmaceutical targeting REALLY IS happening and that those of us who become aware are NOT "mentally ill." The horrible targeting can easily be proven with detection of the radio waves that are directed at us and detection of the microchips, that surely exist in far more people than those who have become aware. We should have professionals whose aim is to prove and stop the targeting of ALL victims, including those who work for the government. The silence around these holocaustal crimes - the lack of validation and help for victims has been more painful than the targeting, in some ways.  (I think its important for us to use our real names on the web, for the sake of safety and to give credibility to our testimonies. I think I found his name the day after posting this; please read statement below the video.)

Exposing Inhumane Targeting of Human Beings.

https://youtu.be/RSwTJMdaivI

P.S. I think I found the speaker. His name is Bryan Kofron (aka Justin Carter) and his website is https://gangstalkerwars.com, but it appears that he is being threatened to stop speaking. Not surprising. I hope he does not stop. On his website he wrote, "Due to threats made against me and my loved ones, I am discontinuing gangstalkerwars.com. The fake activist organization “PACTS International” is involved in a slow-kill domestic assassination program. They bragged to me that they have killed Targeted Individuals before and they said that I would also be killed if I didn’t stop my efforts to expose the Truth about what is being done to T.I.’s. I am NOT affiliated in any way with PACTS International and I never was. If you are a Targeted Individual and/or a whistleblower, stay away from PACTS International and DO NOT trust them or get involved with them in any way. They are liars, they are very dangerous, and they are loyal to the same people who are targeting all of us. They continue to downplay and cover up the use of frequency and etheric weapons against Targeted Individuals in accordance with the will of the people running this program against T.I.’s. The online T.I. community consists largely of fake activists and fake T.I.’s who are complicit in the psychological operation being run against T.I.’s. If you are a T.I., stay away from these controlled opposition groups and understand that T.I.’s are being used against other T.I.’s to perpetuate the negative effects of the psy-op being run against us. Thank you to everyone who has supported me and my efforts to expose the crimes being committed against T.I.’s and what is going on in Seattle, Washington. Stay Strong and never give up. – Bryan Kofron"

    I found some of Bryan's other videos on this website; http://www.gangstalkingmindcontrolcults.com/saic-cias-backwards-and-other-private-firms-bryan-kofron/


   I have found the fake TI thing in TI web forums VERY true. It appears that many of them are mind control victims who are completely controlled and planted there to discredit or harass us real TIs. This is why I stay out of the TI forums, which I had initially turned to for help and got too much of the opposite around 2012. I have not been allowed to remain in contact with REAL TIs. Real TIs, have been being abducted or silenced in other ways. It all just has to come to a positive end. . .humanity set free - completely free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Defense of a Torture Victim - Targeted individual

  This morning I had a little day dream about a Torture Victim - Targeted Individual defending herself against being accused of just being "mentally ill." She starts out defensively saying, "I am of sound mind and spirit!" Than her brain gets lasered and she appears to get confused and shakily says, "I used to be anyway. I just can't remember when." Its not funny, but I laughed. Perhaps my brain got lasered. They really do mess with our emotions and other types of brain function at strategic times.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, March 17, 2018

For Officials Around the Globe

   I beg the Heart of officials, in America as well as around the globe, to do everything in your power to stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control...etc. Please expose this situation so that victims can pull together and support each other until it is over. . .and recover after it is. Please let your Hearts stand in the Light - give us something we can believe in - give us hope for the hell to end and Freedom to be restored. Please help return our world to something that is real and clear and safe and trustworthy. . .for everyone, including you. Please be here for us.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, March 16, 2018

Games

Games

So what hoop is this one?
What game or what trick
Do they play in the dark
That is still too thick?
What is "you too?"
What's "leave?"
And "go" where?
Or leave who?
I don't know.
And I don't care.
I wait for Light
To shine here
And there.

   The covert messaging stuff, that is delivered through puppets, is something I try hard to not even notice, but I am forced to notice a lot of it. Aside from repeated phrases and the repeating of my thoughts and things I say and unasked for advise...etc., there appears to be different groups vying for my attention. I think its all totally crazy, because I can not know who is behind the messages, which are often so cryptic that I can not even know what they are about. . .and even when I do understand what they are about I do not trust anything that uses puppets instead of talking to me directly. I have been waiting for the Light to shine into the covert darkness so that it loses its grip on the puppets, and for the Light to shine for other victims like me, so we can be set free. . .returning our world to something that is real and clear and safe and trustworthy. . .for everyone.
   I beg officials, in America as well as around the globe, to help stop the covert wars that are hurting and enslaving and using people. Please return our world to something that is real and clear and safe and trustworthy. . .for everyone. Please let your Hearts stand in the Light - give us something we can believe in - give us hope for the hell to end.

Thursday, March 15, 2018

Overwhelmed

   In the past few years, as puzzle pieces click together, and I realize the scope of the covert targeting that has destroyed too much in my life, it gets overwhelming. Surviving the present targeting has kept me from healing from the past and this has been hurting me. For over seventeen years now, I deeply need to be able to process my experiences and heal from them, but more has been being heaped on instead. It really is all too overwhelming and extremely difficult to deal with. My heart aches for all that I have lost, including plans I'd made and dreams I had for myself and others, and the recovery and healing that I have not had the freedom to do. Today I am remembering my Lost Garden, which I wrote about in the previous post. It does not look like I will ever be able to actually build it. So, here it is in a little article. https://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2018/03/the-lost-garden.html

The Lost Garden

The Lost Garden
copyright 3/15/2018 by Sharon Rose Poet 

   In 2002 I had soul searched about what to do after a chain of painful and disturbing experiences. And I had decided that I needed to heal from it all before I launched into the plans I had for my work. I'd decided to finish resurrecting my "Embracing Feelings" book, which had been lost in a fire, and let go of my plans to create a formal recovery center, since it would distract me from my own needed recovery. I felt emotionally blocked and knew I needed to do something to open myself back up. I assumed that I was in a state of shock and needed a more comfortable and peaceful and private place to heal from all that had happened to me. (My Embracing Feelings book is now "Embracing Sadness" but it is not the same as it had been before it was destroyed.)
   I decided to buy a large piece of land in a peaceful private setting, and build a garden. I had planned to focus on prayer and healing while I worked in it. I wanted to build it with my own sweat and tears, literally, and then open it to the public as a place where people, who are going through tough times, could pray or grieve and heal. I'd planned to set it up to remain a public property after I passed on, like a healing park that people could visit.
   This was a primitive version of my original plans for a retreat/recovery center in a home, and it felt like a much better plan. Doing this was extremely important to me. I needed to build the garden for myself. And I felt that it could also help others, after I had finished it. I excitedly drew up plans for it. I had it all designed. It was to have pathways through trees and flowers and lily ponds that were shaped like hearts and teardrops and a statue of a woman in the center - one hand on her Heart and her face gazing up at the sky. At her feet, the point of a teardrop shaped lily pond. It was to have benches in little tucked away places, between vines, fruit trees, herbs and pampas grass, where people could find privacy.
   It was a good solid plan that would have been as good for me as it could eventually be for others. My heart yearned to start it. I just had to figure out where I was going to do it. I wanted a warmer climate than the North East, so that I could plant types of flowers and trees that had not grown well on the properties I'd owned in New Hampshire. The ten acres I'd just purchased in the Adirondack wilderness was even colder and not suitable since it was on a private road and could not be opened to the public and was not as private or peaceful as I'd thought it would be when I purchased it.
   I decided on a visit to West Virginia, where I thought I could find an affordable property that was surrounded by wilderness. Then my world flipped upside down again, with the loss of a loved one and then family turmoil and then my plans vanished from my mind. How could this have happened? How could I let myself be distracted from something that was so important to me? After yet another chain of losses I needed to be purchasing that property and working on my garden more than ever. I needed a long stretch of peaceful time in a place that contained total privacy, so that I could walk and pray and dig my hands into the Earth and cry when I wanted to, scream if I wanted to and pray out loud. . .only God and I in the beautiful healing energy of nature. I'd never needed anything so much as I needed that. But I ended up heading in the opposite direction and I now understand why. This is the saddest part.
   I didn't know that, while I wondered why my emotions were so blocked, and while I was making plans to set myself up in a place where I could open myself back up, I was being watched by people who utilized satellite systems and laser weapon systems, that interfered with my thought process as well as my emotions. Around this time I'd had a dream, which showed a man dealing drugs in my home and I now understand what it meant, although I didn't at the time. I was being drugged, either through things I'd touch or through something put into my food in my own home. I have since learned that the technological mind control that is being used on human beings is more effective with certain types of drugs/pharmaceuticals. And those who intrusively watched and targeted me did not want me to be healing from the destruction that THEY had actually been causing in my life.
   To make a long story short, they were literally brainwashing me and my life's work ended up taking the route that they wanted - the route that enabled them to literally suck away my energy and money and leave me destitute and even more wounded. Needless to say, this has been extremely devastating to me.
   I am still being held in that prison. The targeting is not as subtle as it was back then – its not just inflictions that seem like natural physical illnesses and chains of bad luck, but sometimes painful tortures with laser weapons and threats to keep silent about it all or be labeled as "mentally ill" and institutionalized….etc. Sometimes they even technologically torture me during the rare times when I start to cry/grieve and this, on top of all the other things that have been happening to me, and people whom I love, has been literally destroying me. . .on the inside. I do not know if I will ever be able to recover from it all, even if the miracle of regaining my freedom were to ever happen.
   I am now nearly sixty years old and trapped and destitute and living in a vehicle. I do not know if I will ever be able to get back on my feet and build my garden and have it be all that I needed it to be for myself as well as others. It appears extremely unlikely. But, in my fantasy dreams I work in my garden; I plant flowers and herbs and fruit trees. . . and I build stone walkways and lily ponds and a statue of the woman I could have been. . .and I cry and heal and pray for freedom. I guess my garden is not completely lost, because it still exists in my heart. But I wish it were real. I wish I’d had the freedom to do the things that I had needed to be doing with my own life, especially things that were for the sake of my own health as well as that of others.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

They Change Oil Dip Sticks On Vehicles!

    I have experienced the changing of the oil dip stick on my car to one that is shorter and one that is longer. This can make us either let a vehicle run out of oil or put too much oil into it. Oddly, it is VERY difficult to find out what the proper length of an oil dip stick is for a particular vehicle. I hope this lack of auto part information is changed and that other victims become aware. It appears that this scenario destroyed one of my vehicles (in the 1990s) and that it has been damaging the one I have now.

Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals


   I now also call Targeted Individuals, Torture Victims, because I have noticed that the word "targeted" is suddenly being used in the media a lot through the past couple years, which could prevent people from realizing our plight. I want people to know the Truth - that we are not just being "targeted" we are being tortured both physically and psychologically - in ways that no human being can endure for very long without ending up wounded by it. This should be realized by more people who can help it to be stopped.

The Dark 'Targeted for Helping a Victim' Scenario

 There is Safety in Numbers.  
Please help stop the isolation and destruction
of Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals.


  It appears that (years ago) I was set up to believe and make remarks in my writings about people being targeted for helping me. Like many of the dark manipulations, this seems to have multiple aims. One is that it would make me feel guilty and scared for others, which worked. And a statement like this would make other people feel too scared to help me and stand with me. . .aiding the dark aim to isolate me for heavier targeting. (They succeeded with this in my situation. I have been too isolated since the fall of 2011. The 'targeted for helping' scenario has been used to prevent people from being here for me, when we should have been doing the opposite - when we should have been pulling together instead of letting that darkness succeed.)

   I have spent a lot of years feeling guilty about what THEY do to me and others and I do not want to do it anymore. Its not right. Its not my fault. I am trapped in a situation where I am forced to either beg for or accept help from others in order to survive, and this has hurt me a lot as well. I made a BIG mistake when I avoided loved ones, in order to stop them from being targeted, because they were already getting targeted and it could have helped us all if at least some of us had been able to push past the dark threats and manipulations and stand together. Most of them were not tortured as heavily as I am, because they were dooped into taking the psychiatric drugs, or ended up with a spouse who drugged them, which made them more controllable and easy to brainwash into assuming I was just "mentally ill." Some of my loved ones (if not all) now appear to be completely enslaved and some are being used by those who targeted us all, which is worse then what I suffer through, in some ways. I hope we ALL regain our Freedom, even though there has been too much dark success in our situation. I hope other Targeted Individuals do not find out too late to form a support system of people are capable of sensing the Truth.

 P.S. I have also had the concern that there appears to be scenario where they use their puppets to "help" me in order for the puppet to gain my trust so they can be used to harm me or enslave me or manipulate things that will not be good for me. . .and that when I turn away, there could be a danger for that puppet - NOT because they helped me but because they were USED to and therefore become a witness, that their leaders don't want to leave around. I hope they do not succeed with any more of the dark targetings against me and also against the people/puppets they use, most of which appear unaware of what they are being used by.

P.S.S. It is true that people, whom I have been close to, have really been targeted as well. . .and that targeting has vamped up on them when I aimed to seek support or help from them, especially those who really cared about me. Most of this was in the form of brainwashings or the usual attack on a spouse or other loved one to distract them...etc. Its been a horrible situation for all of us. But this would not have been happening if I had known before being isolated and if they were also aware of the targeting. The key is awareness. The whole world should know what is happening so people can pull together and support each other, especially in situations of torturous targeting, BEFORE it gets too late for that to happen, like it did in my situation.



There is Safety in Numbers.  
Please help stop the isolation and destruction
of Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals.

Openly exposing the darkness makes it lose its power

Openly exposing the darkness makes it lose its power.

 It does.

My Writings

   I have experienced so much harassment about my writings that I am sometimes a bit paranoid about it. If I write or wrote the wrong things will help never be here for me? Will it be used to hurt me even more than I already have been? Is that REALLY true?
   My heart keeps telling me that it should not matter what I write or do not write while I am still in this torture prison and forced to work on infiltrated computers...etc. Now, and in the hypothetical future, I feel that good hearts will understand and excuse the periods of ventings and discrepancies and mistakes and any possible misperceptions...etc., (that I have put into my writings while being targeted) and not use them to degrade or judge me or anyone else who does not deserve it. . .and that the bad will want to pick at it and do their semantics crap and try to use it to create discord or use things against me that THEY have manipulated through either targeting me or infiltrating my computers...etc.,. . .which will just expose them for who and what they are.
  If this hell is ever over for me, and I am able to recover to the point of my heart being able to fix all of my writings (on UNinfiltrated computers) people who can care to understand will wait for that, and overlook things that seem off color in my current writings, instead of trying to find fault in what my writings have been forced to be while I have been being periodically tortured, drugged and shoved into sometimes debilitating states if distress and overwhelm...etc.

Openly exposing the darkness makes it lose its power.
Even when we can not do a very good job with it.

P.S. I have repeatedly begged for understanding with my writings and have explained my hope to reach a point where my heart can freely fix them all and make them better. Some may ask, "Why share them if they are not the way they were meant to be?" And my answer is; because its better then nothing. There are too few people openly standing up against the darkness that has been hurting and enslaving humanity for too long now. Stumbling writings, from a wounded torture victim is better than nothing at all. Unfortunately this is close to all humanity has until we have officials, around the globe, openly standing up for humanity's Safety and Freedom. (Theirs as well as ours.)

A Manipulation That Seems to Prevent Help

   I have often, out of a state of overwhelm or fear or pain or while I am being tortured, blasted up blog posts, which end up being more of a personal venting than what I should post publicly. I usually go back and edit them, when I know they did not come from my heart. But, every now and then, I am blocked form editing them right away and, at these times it appears that some sort of manipulation is being performed. Sometimes it seems like someone is terrorizing me and manipulating me. . .wanting me to write certain things so they can show what I write to officials who could decide to not help me. Sound crazy? Well. . .maybe. It could all be just one of the mean game they play, which has been followed up by them using puppets to make me feel like I have lost various types of help or will not get it now...etc. This has happened many times aside from in the past week. And the reverse has happened too ( in the deeper past, when I was aiming for help and sometimes when I write posts about being technologically tortured). . .and the targeting backs off at these strategic times. . .seeming to prevent good help from realizing that I am indeed being technologically targeted. Is this just part of the cruel games, which try to make me feel like no one will ever be here for me? maybe.
   But there appears to be a lot of manipulations that aim to prevent me from getting the types of help that have been needed, from the start. Those who target me appear to watch everything, including the official places I have turned to for help, and they seem to be able to control too much.
   I wonder how many others are experiencing these types of manipulations. I still feel (even more than ever) that its safer for official hearts to openly stand in the light for torture victims. We all deserve and need that. . .and so does America and the rest of humanity.

I hope there are wise official Hearts who are aware of the manipulations and can care
about me more than what I write while being tortured...etc., and the same for others.


P.S. And it should not matter what I write or do not write while I am still in this torture prison and forced to work on infiltrated computers...etc. Now, and in the hypothetical future, I feel that good people will understand my ventings and discrepancies and mistakes and any possible misperceptions...etc., and not use them to degrade me or anyone else who does not deserve it. And the bad will want to pick at it and do their semantics crap and try to use it to create discord - use things against me that THEY have manipulated...etc., which will just expose them for who and what they are. If this hell is ever over for me, and I am able to recover to the point of my heart being able to fix all of my writings (on UNinfiltrated computers) people who can care to understand will wait for that, and overlook things that seem off color, instead of trying to find fault in what my writings have been forced to be while I have been being tortured, drugged and am in a horrible state if distress and overwhelm...etc. Its just common sense. 

P.S.S. While they blocked me from making changes to recent blog posts the stats - the amount of hits on those days was larger than the norm. This has happened many times. Its all manipulations and I am not sure who they are manipulating, but it appears to be officials.

Openly exposing the darkness makes it lose its power.
Even when we can not do a very good job with it.

Windshield Wiper Fluid Contamination

   I have periodically experienced something being sprayed onto my windshield which makes it hard to see through when it is wet. This has often happened just before a rain or snow storm. They had again disconnected the tube that supplies my windshield wiper fluid and I recently reconnected it and filled it up with fluid. Then, the other day, I found the cap left open on it and it now leaves that film on my windshield. Glad I keep a bottle of glass cleaner on hand.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Official Hearts Around the globe

PLEASE let your courage stand up to inform all of humanity about what is happening with the technological, parasite and pharmaceutical targeting of humanity, especially the mind control part - the enslavement of humanity (which has robbed too many of freedoms that are required for a healthy and growthfull life). . ., spreading awareness and sending other officials rushing to bring it all to an end as quickly as possible. . . . .humanity saved. PLEASE!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Most Important Kind of Safety

  The technological torture, technological interference with our brain function and emotions, as well as the covert harassment...etc., which Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals have been being inflicted with, clearly aims to rip us down psychologically - to break our Spirits and Hearts in aims to control us or destroy us in ways that are not obvious to anyone who does not know what is happening or does no realize the importance of a human being remaining whole on the inside. I feel that this form of targeting does more damage than bullets would, especially for those of us whose life focus was on personal or spiritual growth.

What good will a body be after our
Spirits, Hearts and Minds are broken?

   Then there is the microwaving of our bodies as well as chemical, drug and parasite parts of the targeting, which are physically damaging to us as well as many others.

Please help restore humanity's safety.

I experienced a painful laser shot to my heart as I finished writings this. In its original form it was to help those who seem to think I am safe, to realize that I have not been safe in the ways that are most important to me. . .and many others aren't either. But I guess those who would torture me for writing it probably would not care about my feelings or my safety. I wish more people knew. Surely most would care.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Drugging

  Though living in a car is hard, it has made it harder for them to drug or contaminate my food, than it was in the homes I'd owned. But still have not been safe from it. They appear to have been putting stuff on my steering wheel and public toilet seats and door handles and money that they force me to beg their puppets for....etc. Nothing is fully safe until the targeting is exposed and I am no longer isolated and can have support from caring people who can help insure my safety.
   Over a decade ago I had dreams which showed a man "dealing drugs" in the homes I'd owned. At the time I did not understand what that meant, but I do now. Apparently someone was accessing my homes and drugging me as well as my children. I wish I'd known then. There are a lot of things I wish I'd known. Its too late for too much and this is discouraging. But I hope that my experiences, and my sharing of them will help bring it all to an and for all of us.

There is an extreme danger, not only for Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals, but also for all other people. . .with being drugged with the types of pharmaceuticals, which aid the technological mind control. These sorts of drugs have even been being found in public drinking water! 

Pretense of Help

   I have noticed a pattern of the covert world tearing me down and, if they do not succeed with something, they twist it around and pretend it was to help or out of care...etc. But the Truth remains the same.

Monday, March 5, 2018

Return of Horrible Weapon Attack

   That horrible weapon - the one that feels like my head is put into a vice and blocks my feelings, vamped up on me as I cried the other day. Its been a while since they tortured me for having feelings. I guess this is an indication of them wanting to force me under their control instead of just using and abusing me and trying to force me to agree to enslavement...etc. I hope they do not succeed with ANY of the bad things they are doing to me, but it appears there is nothing I can do to stop them and no one else who cares to. Surely GENUINE help would have been here by now if there was. I am experiencing another such attack as I aim to post this.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

They Literally Stole My Car!

  Since they want the van I have and are taking it away from me, through manipulating stuff around my getting it registered and inspected, I decided to try to make a deal with the puppet mechanic who had it stored at his garage. He claims that it just vanished and that he THOUGHT I had picked it up. This was my 1989 Oldsmobile, which meant a lot to me and was by back up vehicle after they forced me into the one I have now.
   Between this and the stealing of my "valid" ID and the registration and inspection stuff to take my car away and the canceling of my food stamps, which actually seemed connected to what the DOT did to my license in November....etc. It is obvious that they are trying to shove me into a far more unsafe situation. I am really scared and am concerned for my life. I'd had a dream, which showed things that are happening around this time and that I end up dead. There is no safe place, as usual, for me to turn to for help. Many officials are already aware of my situation and it seems like at least some of them are the ones who are actually doing this to me! Am praying for answers on what to do, but know there is nothing I can do. They have all the power and I stand too alone.


Attempt to Force me to Eat Only the Food THEY Give Me!!!!!

   Yesterday a puppet at a church asked me what they could carry in their food pantry to help me out more. I thought that was odd since I avoid getting food at food pantries and nobody has ever wanted to stalk them with what I want or need. But then, this morning I found out that those who target me just had my food stamps cut off. So it is now obvious that they want me eating only the food that THEY provide me with. Even a fool, who does not believe that I am being targeted, would see that there is something wrong with this picture. It would be dangerous as hell (literally) to only eat what they give me or what they have access to. I can not be at their mercy to that degree, especially since they have a reputation of putting drugs and parasites in our food. I'm already WAY too much at the mercy of that darkness as it is. I am eating half peanut butter sandwiches and I guess I'll have to start starving when what I bought today runs out, because they control literally EVERY place that I SHOULD be able to turn to for honest and safe help and how much financial help I get, which is never enough...not to mention their repeated sabotaging of my business and other jobs I have tried to obtain in order to get back on my feet...etc.
   I don't want to blame the puppet, because he is most likely just being used in a small part of a larger scheme that he is not even aware of, as is usual for puppets who are trapped in and used by the dark covert program. . .even some of the raven ones, whom I am learning are mostly enslaved victims.

[Update; 3/10/2018] In order to be able to continue surviving I had to force myself to continue scrounging for financial help in controlled places. I got some and am eating better again. But yesterday I experienced another episode of being my energy suddenly being drained and feeling unnatural emotions rising as I went to an organization, which I have frequented for assistance. I think these feelings are technologically induced, in order for the puppets there to be used to help label me as "depressed." This happening when I go there has become a regular pattern.
   There is an extreme danger, not only for Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals, but also for all other people. . .with being drugged with the types of pharmaceuticals, which aid the technological mind control. Torture victims also have to be concerned about parasites, which they seem to be more heavily attacking with in the past few years, due to what appears to be an aim to blame all the symptoms on that and hide the Technological (satellite) part of the targeting. I hope they do not succeed. 


P.S. I eventually got the food stamps reinstated. It would probably look like a mistake, if it had not been done while so many other things were happening. I wish I didn't have to use them. I wish my work and homes had not been sabotaged and that I had not been shoved into destitution. I wish everything were different and we were all free to live our own lives without interference, especially when our work or life purpose aims to help others.
  

Saturday, March 3, 2018

"Gun Control and Mental Illness"

  I just read part of a report about the shooting in Washington, which seems like another set up. The article said, "The gunfire comes amid a debate over gun control and mental illness that has engulfed Washington." I do not know this shooter or his state of mind. But there has been a pattern of victims of covert harassment and technological torture or technological mind control being falsely labeled as "mentally ill." And I feel that at least some of the various types of shootings (Like the Navy Yard shooting) have been done by victims, and not by "mentally ill" people - victims who should have been validated and supported/helped and protected, instead of suffering alone and given the false "mental illness" label and the meds, which is actually part of the targeting and helps it to succeed. I had thought that the Navy Yard shooting had helped expose this destructive problem of placing blame on something that just serves the darkness, which is responsible for it all.
    I find it disturbing that the whole gun control debate still seems to blame it all on "mental illness" and fails to realize or mention and help expose and stop the CORE PROBLEM - technological and pharmaceutical mind control and its enslavement of humanity as well as the technological and covert torture of human beings who have not had the awareness and help that they and their loved ones and community members should have.


Please help the REAL problem to be exposed and
stopped so that all of humanity can be set Free. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.



I'm Posting This Again, Because it's Important

[First posted on 3/1/2018]  A lot of really disturbing things are happening lately. Last November I went to change the address on my license and ended up getting a new license with a new number and with "Not for Federal Identification" written on the top of it. Apparently these changes are all part of a new licensing system. But what is disturbing is that nobody explained any of it to me and targeting vamped up during my initial aims to find out what the "Not for Federal Identification" means. I finally got around to it and the results were worse than I thought and a scary batch of puzzle pieces are clicking into place.
   Today I talked to a DOT official who told me that the non valid ID statement on my license means that, after a certain date, I will not be able to access things like federal builds and airplanes with my ID. She said it happens when people do not provide enough identification, like SS number, passport, car registration or birth certificate. I had all of these things with me when I went to change the address on my license in November. I even had them on the counter and the official who ordered my new license said that she did not need them. She also took my old license and did not return it to me with the corner cut off as they customarily do. Due to this and other things that happened around this situation, (Including other officials appearing to be involved with this whole process) it all feels intentional and like those who target me instigated it and hoped I would not notice that my license was no longer even a REAL valid ID.
   I went back to the Milford DOT (where I did the license change in November) to talk to them about it and hopefully straighten it out. There was an official looking puppet in the end of the line who tried to get me to leave and not wait in line for it. I stayed.
    The poor tired DOT official who had to deal with my upset and the complications, which arose in the DOT computer, today assured me that I will get my license and that it will be a REAL one this time. (Like the one they took from me before giving me this one.) I hope she was right. I found it disturbing that she made up excuses for what happened to me and was not honest about what the non-valid Id thing meant. After I told her that another DOT official told me what it REALLY means she stiffened up and wanted to know who it was and what office I spoke to. I didn't tell her. She had also stated that I did not get the valid ID because I did not check the option for it on the application they had me fill out in November. This is not true, and I am sure of it, because I had made a mistake on the application and had shoved it in my purse and gotten another one to fill out. I still have the one I shoved into my purse and it has no such option on it. Even if it had, I would not have known what it meant and it should have been explained to me.
   There ended up being a complication with my address being changed in the DOT system when I was recently pushed to register my car in a town, other than that where my legal address is, in order to get financial help with it. (The place that has helped me with this for years had suddenly refused to...sending me rushing to other places.) The financial help also had not happened, the DOT had it listed as not being paid for, which blocked the process of my getting a valid ID. . .but the clerk called someone and was able to get around it.
   I was really upset through this whole process and it was one problem or complication after another. and my brain was being lasered as I dealt with it and the other DOT official who was sometimes hanging out behind her saying things like, "crazy," which is a common thing that those who target me have their puppets do, in order to try to trigger me into anger, while I am being microwaved. I handled the situation fairly well. The only bad outcome was that my license picture now portrays that horribly intense look, which I get when I am being technologically tortured and emotionally tormented. It doesn't portray the real me.
   What would have happened if I had not noticed the non-valid ID thing they put onto my license and if it does not really get straightened out? Is someone trying to shove me into the category of a dangerous criminal or terrorist? It appears so. I know its known that I am not.

   In November, as I went to change the address on my license I got a covert message that said this  would be "good for you" and it appeared to be coming from an official. There were other messages, which insinuated that help would be able to come directly to me if I change my address on my license. I did not trust the covert messaging, but I thought there would be no harm in it since I have wanted to change the address and remove the organ donation from my license anyway. So I did it. I thought that the "help" may have been about my lost bank account, which the government is holding.  I can not be sure if it is connected, but I recently got a certified letter, which I had to sign for, but all it contained was a personal letter from a Targeted Individual. This was odd. Why would a TI send me a certified letter? A day or two after getting the letter someone had a puppet say, "If you are waiting for that you'll be waiting a long time." Is someone pretending that they sent me something, which they didn't? Is the letter thing just a mean game?

   If this is not officials involved in doing this to me, how can they use so many other officials and why are they letting things like this happen? Why are they not HERE for us? Who was trying to slip me a license that could make me look like some sort of criminal? Why is this being done to me? I hope they do not succeed with anymore.

P.S. I often experience a delay in realizing things. It sometimes takes me a long time to process and experience and fully realize what is happening. I think this is due to my state of overwhelm and how confusing the manipulations are and/or it may be a mind control thing - the short term memory and instincts being technologically effected at strategic times. 

 Sometimes those who instigate the problems produce
what appears to be valid explanations, but the TRUTH
of the original intent remains what it was and is a
serious problem for people in my situation
.

Positive Things

There is still good in the world. The real good is not covert -
it thrives in the Light. . .spreading its goodness, like the
magnificent ocean and the birds...etc. There is no
confusion or mystery in them. Just dependable purity.


My Past

   I can not help but wonder if they are trying to hide parts of my past. Among other things, someone told me that records for the address of the home I'd owned in Andover, NH (Technically Potter Place, NH which is not even on the map) no longer exists. The recent taking and shredding of my old license, and replacing it with a new license number on a NON-VALID ID type of license is extremely disturbing. (Did they also do a set up to try to swap or take my passport? Possibly.)
   My married name, (Sharon Buck) which I used for about fourteen years, has been either removed from my birth certificate records OR the birth certificate I now have was swapped/replaced with another one that does not list it. I was Sharon Buck during about eleven years of living at the home I'd owned on Staniels Road in Loudon, NH. (This is the home which the NH Department of Transportation took through their rights of eminent domain.) It was during that time when the targeting vamped up into destructive levels, although I was not aware of it back then.
   Why do parts of my past appear to be being wiped out? Its all too scary. I do not know the intentions of the manipulations, but none of them feel good to me.

Are They Trying to Hide Parts of My Past?

   I can not help but wonder if they are trying to hide parts of my past. Among other things, someone told me that records for the address of the home I'd owned in Andover, NH (Technically Potter Place, NH which is not even on the map) no longer exists. The recent taking and shredding of my old license, and replacing it with a new license number on a NON-VALID ID type of license was disturbing. (Did they also do a set up to try to swap or take my passport? Possibly.)
   My married name, (Sharon Buck) which I used for about fourteen years, has been either removed from my birth certificate records OR the birth certificate I now have was swapped/replaced with another one that does not list it. I was Sharon Buck during about eleven years of living at the home I'd owned on Staniels Road in Loudon, NH. (This is the home which the NH Department of Transportation took through their rights of eminent domain.) It was during that time when the targeting vamped up into destructive levels, although I was not aware of it back then.
   Why do parts of my past appear to be being wiped out? Its all too scary. I do not know the intentions of the manipulations, but none of them feel good to me.

P.S. They tried to block this post from going up.

Delayed Realizations

     I often experience a delay in realizing things. It sometimes takes me a long time to process and experience and fully realize what is happening. I think this is due to my state of overwhelm and how confusing the manipulations are and/or it may be a mind control thing - the short term memory being effected at strategic times.

Sometimes those who instigate the problems produce
what appears to be valid explanations, but the TRUTH
of the original intent remains what it was and is a
serious problem for people in my situation.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, March 2, 2018

The Flu?


Is it the flu or radio waves and parasites that should be
being removed from the foods we buy in grocery stores?
And
Are some flu shots harming us? Do any of them contain the pharmaceuticals which aid technological mind control?
 

The Pretending

    Its amazing how the darkness pretends to be good and friendly and helpful while it manipulates things and aims to destroy our lives, often under the guise of "help." Sometimes they even seem to use real good/uncontrolled people in the foreground of their covert operations, so that I don't sense the bad, which is scary for them as well as me. Sometimes they seem to stay hidden in the background of covert stuff, waiting for the right opportunity to step in. I hope it is all stopped, for every one's sake, VERY soon. Its been succeeding with too much for too long already.
   Humanity should be completely free of all that harms and controls and suppresses...etc. I wish all the good, everywhere, would openly stand in the Light...forcing the dark to lose its power and letting awareness help the good to grow.

Parasite Injected Into My Arm?

   Long ago, I had a dream, which showed that I need to have a parasite removed from my body. The dream showed the parasite being sort of oval shaped and between the size of a dime and a nickel. In the past few years some puzzle pieces, around this situation, have clicked into place.
   I feel that the parasite was probably injected into my arm, in 1986, when I was forced to go to a hospital for a second surgery on my spine. A nurse had put an IV in my arm, which was not in the usual place. Another nurse moved it and said something like, "I don't know why they put that there," and injected something that she said was to flush out the area before taking the IV out and putting it in the proper location.
   I think it was initially put where it was so that the parasite could be injected into me and no one would think it was from an IV, because that is not the usual IV location. This, as well as many other experiences, has destroyed my trust in the medical field, which is obviously heavily involved in and/or used in the targeting.
   This parasite thing has been difficult for me to live with, as has many other things. I have to try not to think about it. I wish I could have it removed, but I feel that it is not safe to do so, while I am still being targeted and before the targeting is exposed so that I can have at least one trustworthy person who can go with me and make sure nothing else is done to me during the surgical process. I have thought of trying to cut it out myself, but I am too squeamish with such things and know too little about where arteries are and would probably pass out during the process. Its not safe for me to do it by myself either. Hopefully I can have it removed someday.

P.S. Speaking of parasites; I recently suddenly experienced a large mass of open sores forming on my chest. This seemed to be from parasites leaving my body - the kind that many (if not all) people are being infected with in foods and drinks. I tried taking a picture of it but they remotely interfered with my camcorder on BOTH occasions when I tried.
   Proof is often too hard to get with them being able to control technologies...etc. All I have is my word with most things. Perhaps someday my word will be worth more than what they are making honest TI declarations fade into.

Threats of Inflicting COPD

  Last night they flashed an ad for COPD, on a TV I walked by, and then within a few hours my lungs were being hit hard with accumulations of fluid. This has happened a lot in the past couple months. I hope they do not succeed with anymore of this with me or anyone else. I have been hurt too much already and so have too many others.
  Lately they appear to be following through on old threats to give me COPD with microwave weapons, which can effect the mucus producing parts of our lungs...etc. I guess they can pretend its due to my smoking, but I have rarely smoked much and have not always smoked and I know these inflictions to my lungs, as well as others, are due to what those who target me are doing to me. As for the blaming it on smoking; I have experienced periods where they have had puppets taking pictures of me after I light up a cigarette. The last time this appeared to be being done was with a drone yesterday.

P.S. I erased the part about the dream because it was probably projected and may have meant nothing. But the part about a victim being technologically inflicted with what appears to be a natural illness and killed and/or enslaved is VERY real and has been happening to many. 

P.S.S. Why do I smoke? I don't want to. They pushed me into it with the targeting (including the mind control part) and it has felt impossible to stop while still being targeted and being in such horrible levels of distress. I want to quit very badly. However, I require a peaceful and safe, private environment...etc., in order to stop smoking, which (for me) also includes a healing process.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

At the Mercy

   Being completely at the mercy, of the covert madness I am surrounded by, is too disturbing and always has been extremely difficult for me. I require a NON-covert world - one that is clear and concise and honest and trustworthy and dependable and kind and protective and True....etc.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Absolute Hell With Vehicle Inspection

   There is too much happening to get into all of it. Before I write an extremely short version of this, and because of the last rushed post I did on this subject, I want to say that most puppet mechanics and police officers...etc., can not be fairly blamed, because they are merely being used by the ones who are fully responsible. The technological enslavement of humanity, and its dark covert program, has many people either completely controlled or forcefully trapped or deceived into thinking they are being used by something that is good.  MANY, if not most, of them appear to be victims of the hell that targets me. They are not all perpetrators. And, for someone in my position, it is next to impossible to figure out who is really doing what and what their intentions are. Its a pattern in the targeting for things to be set up to make the most innocent look like the most guilty and visa versa. Its all just too confusing. But most, if not ALL, of the people I have been dealing with in  this situation are VERY obviously puppets for the covert program.
   I am sorry if there are things that I have misunderstood, but there is no doubt about the fact that something horrible is happening to me connected with my drivers license (which I explain in the previous post) and the sabotaging of my vehicle inspection, which appears to have at least two dark ulterior motives and no care or consideration for me.   
   The process of inspecting my vehicle (like that of registering it) is complicated by my being held in destitution and being forced to get financial help, in order to accomplish it. The inspecting of my vehicle has been a hell that has sent me to four different places and experiencing OBVIOUS aims to sabotage its getting inspected, which were surrounded by threats to push me off the road and there also appears to be other things, like someone wanting my car or parts in it and its all so confusing and complicated.
   I ended up getting a two month sticker to give me time for them to fix or replace something that the car does not even really need - something to do with the computer system, (which was set up to be manipulatable before I got the car. Many things in the car are remotely controllable, including the heater which was again disabled in the beginning of February, and was not picked up on by any of the puppet mechanics, probably because their leaders know it is not really broken and want to continue making me suffer in the cold.
    oddly, one garage had oddly only listed a few of the things that I had been thinking about - things that had been broken by those who target me and sabotage my car, including the driver side window which they remotely control and was not really broken at all. I guess they had to pretend that the window was broken, and that it was fixed, because I had mentioned it. Too much happened to explain, but one garage listed my wipers as being worn and not clearing window...etc., although they were not until today. I hope they are not going to continue breaking things on the car just to cover the deceit.
   There is one garage who was doing an obvious sabotage, with a LONG list of needed parts... and this may have been to report it to the state. I am concerned that some officials could use it to get me into trouble and/or have my car and belongings confiscated. ( I have no safe place to park the car. The rest of my aquaintences and loved ones appear to have been either killed or abducted or brought under complete control in the past few years. (Unfortunately some officials are controlled by the darkness that has been enslaving and using them, and this is extremely scary for someone in my position, especially when laws can be used, by ill intending people, in order to harm and intrude. This is a horrible situation for people like me who have been literally FORCED into being homeless and destitute.)
   I don't know what all of the manipulations are about, connected to what was done to my license and with the aim to force me out of my vehicle and onto the streets or into a shelter. But I have been surrounded by so many dark manipulations  that ANY manipulation feels bad to me and is cause for concern. I hope they do not succeed with anymore. But it looks like the end of the road for me. The two months feels like a death sentence right now and this feels horrible. I have no place left to go or live or turn to for help, which is sure to be safe and good for me. I wish there could be genuinely good/uncontrolled, honest, aware officials here for me before more success is gained by the dark forces that target me, especially before they take, or do more damage to me, my vehicle and what little is left of my belongings.

I am extremely distressed about all that is happening on top of the usual technological tortures and the January parasite infliction, which I am not fully recovered from and the covert harassment...etc. And there appears to be intent to use my distress as yet another excuse to try to force a covert "rescue"/abduction, which intends to enslave me. This has been an ongoing pattern in the targeting. As I sat, desperately wondering what to I am going to do while all these manipulations were happening around my vehicle registration, they had a puppet walk near me and say, "What's done is done. Its done for." I guess this was supposed to make me distressed enough to leap into enslavement.  My answer is still, NO! I do not want to be enslaved. I beg the Heart of ALL genuinely good/uncontrolled officials to stand up for me and other victims and America and the rest of humanity as well as themselves.

P.S. I have tried to edit this post, because I was so upset when writings it. I am still too distressed about this and what has been happening with my license...etc. I do not know who is behind the manipulations that are going on, and what the intentions are, but it all feels bad to me, partly because it not clear and it is hurting me. Its all too scary and distressing. And I hope the darkness that aims to hurt me does not have any more success.

License Issued as a "Not a Valid Federal ID"

  License Issued as a "Not a Valid Federal ID" A lot of really disturbing things are happening lately. Last November I went to change the address on my license and ended up getting a new license with a new number and with "Not for Federal Identification" written on the top of it. And they took my other license without clipping the edge and giving it back to me as they usually do. Apparently the changes on licenses are part of a new licensing system. But what is disturbing is that nobody explained any of it to me and targeting vamped up during my initial aims to find out what the "Not for Federal Identification" means. I finally got around to it and found out that it restricts me from entering federal buildings and court rooms…etc., as if I were a criminal. This is really disturbing.

P.S. I got it all straightened out, but it too some doing and I was technologically tortured through the process. Hopefully only bad outcome to it all was that my license picture now portrays that horribly intense look, which I get when I am being technologically tortured. It doesn't portray the real me.

P.S.S. There also ended up being a complication with my address being changed in the DOT system when I was recently pushed to register my car in a town, other than that where my legal address is, in order to get financial help with it. (The place that has helped me with this for years had suddenly refused to...sending me rushing to other places.) The financial help I ended up getting also not really happened although they said it did - the DOT had it listed as not being paid for, which blocked the process of my getting a valid ID. . .but the clerk called someone and was able to get around it.