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Tuesday, January 30, 2018

I am Recovering From Physical Infliction, But am still Struggling

   I am recovering from the last bad physical infliction, but am still in an intense battle with the parasite inflictions and a vamp up in the sexual assaults, which has inflicted painful blisters, and continued threats and attempts to disable my car and dump me in the streets and the  psychological/spiritual/mental/emotional abuse parts of the targeting...etc. The technological  interference with my brain function has been intense lately - yet another round at a strategic time, it seems. The covert messaging stuff is all just too confusing and untrustworthy as to its origins...etc. The situation I am in, aside from the general targeting, feels extremely unstable - nothing solid to depend on...etc. I want it all to end. Who wouldn't? I need good, solid/Overt/trustworthy and stable/dependable help. But I do not know if it will ever arrive for me.
   This is not a new situation. I have experienced ongoing rounds of it, but I do not write much about the inflictions I experience, because they have sometimes worsened when I do and I try to ignore as much as I can, in order to continue surviving it.

The parts of the dream I had in the past few weeks really portrayed what I have been feeling for a long time now.  In the dream I am trying to get upstairs to a bathroom and suddenly find myself trapped on a platform that suddenly starts moving - jerking and tilting  in different directions. It makes me lose my balance and I am gripping the edges of it, hanging on for dear life. As it continues to twist and turn and jerk me in different directions, I get frantic and start screaming at the top of my lungs, over and over and over again, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" But I don't know if people can hear me. I am so scared that not much sound is actually coming out of my mouth as I continue screaming, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" Tears surfaced as I woke and thought about the dream. A part of me still wants to cry and scream, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" Its just how I feel. Who wouldn't feel this way in my situation. A part of me is still crying and screaming, on the inside. . .for myself and other people who are being hurt and are suffering and need Freedom and safety from harm.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.