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Tuesday, January 30, 2018

God Help Unaware Victims

   My heart aches for the people who are being targeted and do not realize it. So many times I have wondered, how many continue being tortured or controlled or sabotaged or institutionalized...etc., and believe that its all just something wrong with them. I know that real emotional problems do exist, especially in situations where there has been sever abuse in people who do not face it or have any outlet for the pain...etc. But people who face the pain, and aim to heal through finding outlets for it tend to recover and not crumble.
   I feel that Sinead O'conner (Now Magda Davitt) may be a Targeted Individual and may not even really be mentally ill, although she certainly seems to have been convinced that she is just ill. Below are three videos, which I feel are a portrayal of a vibrant, talented, strong, defiant, independent deep heart/soul who gets targeted and then suffers too horribly. If Sinead is being covertly targeted I hope she gets the help and protection she has probably needed for many confusing, pain filled years. If she's not I still hope she gets the type of help she needs - the kind that surrounds her with compassion and understanding and opportunities to heal...etc.
   Either way, there are many victims all around the globe, (I feel it in my heart) who are being hurt with technological mind control and its aiding pharmaceuticals. . . and are suffering in ways that no human being should have to endure. If they knew, and the rest of humanity knew, at least some victims could find the right kinds of support and perhaps even some modes of protection. If only the knew.

   This first video puts out impactful messages that can be applied to all types of targeting all over the world. It talks of the need to face the truths of the targeting and that knowledge and understanding and grieving need to happen in order for healing to take place. The video ends with forgiveness. Beautiful. My heart deeply believes in this healing process and feels that our whole world is in desperate need of it, especially the awareness part.

Sinéad O'Connor - Famine


Sinead O'conner - Nothing Compares to You


The video below may seem crude to many people, but if you look with your Heart you will see a woman's suffering. And if you are aware of the technological, pharmaceutical and covert  targeting you will see a Torture Victim - a victim of the worlds worse holocaust.

Sinead O'conner - Wounded and in pain

My heart goes out to you, Sinead. Don't let that darkness steal the best of you.
Remember your Heart - your beautiful Heart.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

I am Recovering From Physical Infliction, But am still Struggling

   I am recovering from the last bad physical infliction, but am still in an intense battle with the parasite inflictions and a vamp up in the sexual assaults, which has inflicted painful blisters, and continued threats and attempts to disable my car and dump me in the streets and the  psychological/spiritual/mental/emotional abuse parts of the targeting...etc. The technological  interference with my brain function has been intense lately - yet another round at a strategic time, it seems. The covert messaging stuff is all just too confusing and untrustworthy as to its origins...etc. The situation I am in, aside from the general targeting, feels extremely unstable - nothing solid to depend on...etc. I want it all to end. Who wouldn't? I need good, solid/Overt/trustworthy and stable/dependable help. But I do not know if it will ever arrive for me.
   This is not a new situation. I have experienced ongoing rounds of it, but I do not write much about the inflictions I experience, because they have sometimes worsened when I do and I try to ignore as much as I can, in order to continue surviving it.

The parts of the dream I had in the past few weeks really portrayed what I have been feeling for a long time now.  In the dream I am trying to get upstairs to a bathroom and suddenly find myself trapped on a platform that suddenly starts moving - jerking and tilting  in different directions. It makes me lose my balance and I am gripping the edges of it, hanging on for dear life. As it continues to twist and turn and jerk me in different directions, I get frantic and start screaming at the top of my lungs, over and over and over again, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" But I don't know if people can hear me. I am so scared that not much sound is actually coming out of my mouth as I continue screaming, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" Tears surfaced as I woke and thought about the dream. A part of me still wants to cry and scream, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" Its just how I feel. Who wouldn't feel this way in my situation. A part of me is still crying and screaming, on the inside. . .for myself and other people who are being hurt and are suffering and need Freedom and safety from harm.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Sabotage From An Unusual Place

  I had another dream, which showed a woman trying to get me to leave a place or situation. Past dreams had shown a woman doing things to try to trigger me and it all appears to be in order to deprive me of various types of help. This has been going on for years. Her tactics include covert messaging/badgering and interference with my brain function at strategic times. It appears that I just went through another grueling round of this. I wish she'd stop. This whole situation is hard enough to deal with without added interference and distress.
   There is also the ongoing badgering about my writings, yet, my attempts to fix them, in the past year or two, have also been being sabotaged. It appears that someone just wants me and my writings to be wiped out completely and I am not sure why, but its all very disturbing. Will we never get help just because my writings have been being infiltrated and I have been too heavily targeted, and computers too infiltrated, for me to do a better job with them? It appears so - that's what they insinuate.
  And, with that said, I wonder if this situation is just part of the over all targeting, which aims to inflict chaos and confusion and feelings of deprivation and desperation and pain and concern that help will never arrive for us...etc. I don't know for sure. But it definitely inflicts those feelings, on top of everything else, and I hope it stops.

P.S. I'm feeling better physically, but am still in an intense battle with the parasite inflictions and a vamp up in the sexual assaults, which has inflicted painful blisters, and continued threats and attempts to disable my car and dump me in the streets and the psychological/spiritual/mental/emotional abuse parts of the targeting. The situation I am in, aside from the general targeting, is extremely unstable and I do not know if genuine good help will ever arrive for me and others who are being hit hard. I want it all to end. Who wouldn't? But I guess its wrong to want it to end too. I just don't know what to do.

Saturday, January 27, 2018

I Wish

   I wish the HEART of everything would openly stand up for Freedom from all levels of the covert targeting of humanity, especially the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, not to fight or blame, but to deliver understanding and validation to all victims and hold a compassionate hand out to the individuals and families who are being hit hard. Everything being; every level of law enforcement (local through federal), military and other government places as well as media. . .throughout America as well as around the globe....etc. I wish their Hearts would stand up for us as well as themselves.

Update 1/30/2018; I am just now completing this post, fleshing it into what it was supposed to be - what I had prayed and said in my car before aiming to post it. I have experienced a lot of technological interference with my brain function lately. Yesterday I felt like I had suddenly become retarded all day. Is there any REAL hope for freedom for me? I don't know, but I keep praying for it.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

Aims to Sabotage Vehicles

The dip stick, for our oil can be changed to a longer one, after an oil leak is produced, in order to sabotage a vehicle. But, I'm not telling that this happened to me. I'm just saying it can happen.

Sorry. I'm in a mood.

I Feel Sad

I feel sad that ANY of this happening.
It shouldn't be.

A Bit of Relief From Parastites

Cleaning it up.
   The things I have experienced being helpful, with some of the parasite inflictions is eating raw garlic, taking double doses of sage tincture and rubbing sea water on my skin. I have noticed that, in the past year, BOTH of the supermarkets I frequent have tucked their organic garlic into low and hard to find places, leaving the new (possible ineffective) garlic clearly visible. Similar things have been done with other vital products. My concern extends beyond myself, since garlic (REAL garlic) is one of natures cures for various types of parasites and organisms, which can accumulate without it, especially if people are being intentionally infected. Below are some of the things I have found helpful.

Organic Garlic - for intestinal parasites
Apple Cider Vinegar - for intestinal parasites
 Sea Water - for skin problems
Sage - for ALL parasite problems
Goldenseal - is good for a lot of things

   I wish I could list more. It is hard for a heavily targeted Individual to test products, because the targeting can play tricks like backing off for a while with things that are not effective, in order to make us think they are. Things, like herbs and garlic and ginger can be effected by microwaves being directed at them...etc. Its hard to take care of ourselves when even that sometimes gets sabotaged. But I keep returning to rounds of doing the best I can, even though the general targeting has sometimes vamped up when I do.
    For some things, that we heavily Targeted Individuals have been inflicted with, I have found nothing that works. Literally EVERY time I have tried curing the cuts and bleeding sores in my vaginal area. . .it has gotten a lot worse. This leads me be to wonder if it is all being done with laser weapons. I'm sure some of it is because it has consistently vamped up at strategic times, aside from when I try to heal it. Unfortunately most things can not be stopped until the targeting is acknowledged and stopped and we are protected from further harm instead of falsely labeled as "mentally ill." The parasite stuff is REAL and its hurting us. And it should be stopped.

Fading Ink!

   I've noticed that some places use ink that slowly fades, on receipts...etc. It appears that someone gave me a pen, for a Christmas gift in the late 1990s - a pen that contained ink which fades! Fading ink should be illegal.

"Good" ?

Being good is far better than just looking good

Please BE good


A Little Letting Go

   I have let go of my last post about a dream I had, because dreams are too easy to misperceive, especially under the conditions I am in. I am sorry that I shared it or even put much thought into it. Some dreams are projected with psychotronic weapons and can not be trusted.
   I have also not been writing much about my feelings and what has been being done to me personally, because it seems to make things worse for me. And I am not able to freely feel and process my feelings while still being targeted.
   But I can not hide the fact that this is all extremely difficult for me. No heavily targeted person is alright. We just aren't.
   The core of my work/job/business was about embracing my feelings and focusing on healing and sharing that process. . .and its mostly been either severely sabotaged or forced to be put on hold, especially that which needs to be done within myself, since around the end of 2005. I had explained more about my work in my www.sharonpoet.com website, which recently stopped functioning and no longer shows up on the web. 
    I will continue to do the best I can to use my experiences/wisdom's to help expose the over-all situation. But, deep inside my heart. . .I am hurting a lot. My loved ones have been being hurt too. . .some of them even appear to be completely enslaved/controlled. Have I lost them all? And then there's the rest of the world. . .so much pain being inflicted upon people who do not even know what is happening to them. It hurts just to think about it. Sometimes it all just hurts too much.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, January 22, 2018

A Symbolic Dream

     In a dream I had last night I am trying to get upstairs, to the bathroom, in a house (which belongs to a family I was close to a few decades ago - a family that has also been being targeted.) The decor in this house is all twisted and contorted and doors are so small that people can hardly fit through, if at all. Before I get to the bathroom a platform beneath my feet suddenly starts moving - jerking and tilting  in different directions. It makes me lose my balance and I am gripping the edges of it, hanging on for dear life. As it continues to twist and turn and jerk me around, I get frantic and start screaming at the top of my lungs, over and over and over again, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" But the people, who are there, are playing music and I wonder if they can hear me. I am so scared that not much sound is actually coming out of my mouth as I continue screaming, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" Tears surface as I remember the dream after I woke. A part of me still wants to cry and scream, "STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!" 

   Yesterday a lot of emotions surfaced as I faced off with some of the targeting stuff. A part of me has been actually feeling the way I did in this dream, since around the end of 2005 and especially since around 2011. Most of me feels that way now. Our whole world, especially for Targeted Individuals and families, has been an unstable, twisted, covert mess. And it just has to change. It has to!

Friday, January 19, 2018

Gas Put in My Motor Oil?

  My car has a serious oil leak, as have many of my vehicles. This has been being inflicted by the targeting. (My oil filter was found unscrewed, and bolts loosened in my motor once...etc.) So, I keep oil on hand in my car, especially since the oil leak has been made worse lately. A few weeks ago I suddenly started noticing a strong gas odor, after I had added a quart of oil, which I had stored in my car and had a broken seal on it. After a few REALLY stressful days I came to the conclusion that they probably put gas in that quart of motor oil, because it even smelled different than other oil. The gas smell in my car vanished as the oil leaked out and I added new oil.Glad it was not another problem with my car, but this was disturbing as well.
P.S. After this they changed my oil dip stick to a longer one that read over full when it was really about empty. They switched it back after I noticed what they had done. This was done while I was in a motel that had been offered me in the last couple days of that really cold spell.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

I've Been Very Sick

   I have been feeling sick since around January 5th. Its not a normal illness and is not from the cold weather. It is from the targeting, which even issued a death threat and appears to be again trying to terrorize me into leaping into enslavement. This is not a new scenario.
   I am feeling a bit better now than I did a week ago. I hope they do not land me in a hospital, which would NOT be good for me and has been one of the aims of the targeting when literally forcing victims to be drugged or abducted and enslaved. I hope they do not succeed with any more of this with me or anyone else.

P.S. I got increasingly better in the next week, but it was a long hall this time and appeared to be to terrorize me into leaping into the covert rescue/enslavement.


 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Marijuana is Harmful

   Judging by things I have witnessed, marijuana blocks people's hearts and probably greatly aides technological mind control. I hope it stops being legalized.

Someone has sometimes blocked my posts, making me have to repost them! It happened to this one.

Parasite Danger

  There are many theories about the cause of symptoms that heavily Targeted Individuals experience. The primary one is of course the "mental illness" thing that the perpertators have been putting out there in order to hide the targeting. Others seem to be to hide the fact that space based technologies are being used to harm humanity. And many victims grope for answers, in order to end the hell, while being fed misinformation and being targeted too heavily to decifer it all. (I have done my share of this.) But after many years of struggling to figure it all out, looking back over past decades of things I've witnessed and experienced, and weeding out the "theories", I feel certain that most of the general symptoms, which us "Targeted Individuals" experience are caused by  technological inflictions of radio waves (from space based technologies, like satellites) directed into our bodies. But there are other parts of it as well.
   Aside from the technological inflictions of pain and what APPEARS to be "natural" illnesses or injuries, it appears that the radio waves can also be used to excite or effect certain types of parasites or organisms, which are put in foods. I think there is an extreme danger, for more than just "Targeted Individuals," with certain types of parasites that are being put into food. I had exposed this concern a year to two ago, but it may have been wiped out of my writings. Please check into it and help expose and stop it.
   There is a type of parasite, which lives in the surface of the skin, that has been being put onto victims heads in public places or on our pillows...etc. I have witnessed and experienced this. Ocean water helps eliminate them. And there are other types of parasites that we are inflicted with as well. This is a part of the targeting that I have often chosen to flip into denial about, so that it does not freak me out too much. But its a horrible reality. I had saved a worm, which climbed out of my skin, a couple years ago, but it was stolen from my car. Some of the inflictions appear to be the types of parasites that are more common in places like Africa.
   If more people were standing up and there were good, honest and aware medical professionals, whom we could turn to for help, it could end much of the mysteries and help all of humanity as well as those of us who have to live with this day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year. . .on top of the other parts of the targeting. Its all just too horribly inhumane.

Please Focus on the Important Basics in my Writings

   There are parts of my experiences with the covert stuff, which I may not have perceived correctly. Sometimes its all just too confusing and sometimes I am being too heavily targeted and/or am too scared too see and write it all clearly. I will correct things after more Light has shone on it all for me, which can not happen covertly. Until then, please focus primarily on the basic info I have shared, like what is on my www.targetedinamerica.com website and in my Calling all Hearts paper. Please do all that you can to help end these horrible holocaustal crimes against humanity. Thank you.

  I am still finding odd html coding in my word documents...etc. I don't know what it does or how to bypass it. I actually tried to share the coding in a blog post, but it kept vanishing. Also, After I found and recently erased some odd documents that were plugged into my websites, my primary website (www.poeticpublications.com) was "flagged for malware." This was actually helpful to me, because it showed things I'd missed. Hopefully it is all removed now and my sites are now safer and more accessible.

Still Calling All Hearts

   I have worked for years in between, and sometimes even during, rounds of heavy interference, in order to make this one page paper as clear and helpful as possible. I hope it helps others to realize what is happening. Please print and share it. 

Calling All Hearts
Last edits done on January 16, 2018

   Most people are aware that radio waves can be sent down to their homes or computers, from satellites, for the purpose of internet access. But most people are not aware that these technologies can be criminally used – that beams of radio waves (microwaves) can also be directed into human beings to disrupt brain and body functions in ways that can range from mild to lethal. Radio waves flooding whole communities, or shot directly into an individual’s brain, can inflict mental numbness, confusion, unusual mood swings and literal brain washings. With certain frequencies, other body functions can be intentionally interfered with in ways that cause physical illnesses, which range from fatigue, physical pain, lung inflictions, cataracts and autoimmune diseases (including lupus), to lethal things like brain damage, cancers, heart attacks…etc. I understand how difficult it may be to believe that this is happening to humanity. It is so outrageously inhumane that a natural response can be to slip into shocked denial, overwhelm, or blind disbelief, but please give it the benefit of your doubt, because this situation needs far more awareness and attention than it has been getting. This is a global crisis, which can accurately be described as a technological holocaust, and it must be fully exposed and stopped as quickly as possible.
   There is documented scientific proof that experiments, on the effects of radio waves (microwaves), being shot into the human body, began around the early 1900s by scientists like Nicola Tesla, who invented X-ray technologies. Around 1961 President John F. Kennedy exposed this crisis to media officials saying, “Today no war has been declared - and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack... we are opposed, around the world, by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarily on covert means… There is no escaping either the gravity or the totality of its challenge to our survival and to our security - a challenge that confronts us in unaccustomed ways in every sphere of human activity." Let’s not let his brave stand and good advice be in vein.
   The late Philip Coppens reported that "In April 1953, CIA’s Allen Dulles gave a lecture at Princeton University, detailing Soviet developments in the field of mind control. He stated they were out to control the mind of free men, both individually and collectively. . . Dulles proclaimed that the Cold War was moving into a new era of psychological warfare, which Dulles characterized as the battle for men's minds. "We might call it in its new form brain warfare.” Hints of this crisis leaked into the mainstream media in the 1970s when part of the MKULTRA and Russia’s microwaving of the American Embassy were reported, but not much has been reported since then.
   The worst of the targeting is the mind control, which is aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals (like antidepressants) that have been being heavily pushed upon humanity and were reported to have been found in many USA public drinking water supplies in 2008. In the secret shadows of a global covert war technological and pharmaceutical mind control has been being used to enslave humanity, through the past several decades. Though the immediate effects of mind control may be virtually unnoticeable to most victims, the long term effects will continue to be devastating to all of humanity if it is not quickly exposed and stopped. Without mental and emotional freedom children cannot mature into whole and healthy human beings. When we are not allowed to freely think and feel and follow our own instincts and Hearts, the natural process of mental, emotional and spiritual growth is impeded or completely blocked. The dangers of even the mildest forms of mind control cannot be over stated. It has been literally destroying the Heart of humanity and must be stopped as quickly as possible.
   The computerized intrusions into, and manipulations of, people’s minds have already been harming too many for too long. Veteran Author, Jim Keith stated that, "Brain-computer radio communication has long been considered impossible by the majority of people and has consequently been relegated to science-fiction, but the fact is that the technology had been developed into reality by at least the 1960s…” I feel that it was in full swing before the mid-1970s and that it is at the core of most of the problems humanity is faced with today.
   Many blame only “the government,” but victims of technological mind control, and other parts of the targeting, include government personnel and media, as well as common citizens. The sadistic mind control programming has been blocking people’s Hearts and pitting countries, government and citizens, and family members, against each other. We should be uniting to openly stand up against it, instead of letting it continue to pit us against each other. Most people, whether they work in the government or not, would not even consider taking part in torturing people or intruding upon and manipulating people’s minds unless they themselves are imprisoned under that dark control. Most of them are victims too. There are many privately owned satellites, which claim to be only for internet purposes…etc. The field of medicine, from private psychiatry and dental practices to funeral homes, universities, hospitals and especially pharmaceutical companies, have been heavily involved in the targeting from the start. Severe victims have been being inflicted with things that force them into surgeries, where microchips and/or certain drugs were implanted. The microchips, which they implanted into some victims, around the 1970s and 1980s, were large enough to clearly show up in X-rays, but most medical professionals have keep them secret. The chips can now be microscopic.) There are efforts to remove larger chips, in order to hide evidence and I hope they do not succeed. I feel that most of the people who are used in the technological and pharmaceutical enslavement of humanity are completely controlled victims, who may even think they are helping people. If only they knew! The darkest core, of ALL of the targeting, is clearly being orchestrated by a satanic/sadistic group whose leaders remain behind the scenes. (The targeting has also included parasite inflictions, as well as technologically induced “natural disasters”.)

   Part of the targeting includes cruel, covert psychological and physical torturing of people who are less controllable than others. Heavily “Targeted Individuals” are suffering indescribably and are in desperate need of validation, understanding and compassionate help from fellow human beings. Some of these victims have been discredited with false “mentally illness” labels, rendering them helpless, as they continue being remotely tortured. Its just too horribly cruel! Many community members and loved ones, of these types of victims, appear to be either brainwashed into blind disbelief, roped into the dark secret society and used to harass or abduct the victim, under the guise of “helping,” or are completely controlled and used to neglect or harm the victim in other ways. There are forced covert “rescues”, which lead to complete enslavement of victims who vanish after being isolated from possible sources of help. With others, deaths are stage – the victim literally stolen from their life. This has been happening for decades! Many families have been torn apart and/or certain members brainwashed and pitted against each other, in order to inflict discord and pain at strategic times. These families are suffering indescribably. . .each member a victim in various ways. . .and ALL desperately needing their freedom restored along with an understanding, which can enable full recovery.

Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for the Heart of
humanity to rise into a strong, PEACEFUL, public stand for Freedom. Please do so now.

   Please give this information the benefit of your doubt. Print and share this paper with as many people as possible. Gather loved ones and neighbors into supportive groups. Stay as calm as possible and act peacefully. Avoid the sadistic secret society and do your best to follow your own Hearts above all else. Do what you can to protect yourself and loved ones until it’s over, especially those who are being heavily tortured. Do everything you can to help expose and end ALL aspects of the targeting, especially criminal use of technologies and pharmaceuticals. Pray for the full restoration of our Freedom.

ATTENTION GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS; Please investigate the possibility of modes of technological “protection” actually being a sly enslavement. . . and of filters, which bypass the low frequencies used for mind control, being built into radio wave detection and blocking technologies. Please let your Hearts publicly stand up for yourselves and us and the rest of humanity.

Find more information on; www.targetedinamerica.com

   This information is based on things I’ve either witnessed, experienced or sensed since the 1970s. I am Sharon Rose Poet. I was previously known as Sharon LaBree and Sharon Buck. My pen name was Namatari Neachi. My mailing address is Sharon R. Poet PO Box 383, Mont Vernon, NH 03057. www.poeticpublications.com

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Wednesday, January 3, 2018

"Calling All Angels" Song

   I recently nearly crumbled into tears, in a store, due to this song playing. It appears to be about the targeting of humanity. . .and the lyrics speak of hope and not giving up. I can relate to a lot of the lyrics. "I won't give up if you don't give up..." are words that tear at my heart. Its sometimes hard to keep hope alive in the mist of this hell. And there truly has been "no place safe and no safe place to put my head" for many of us. . .for much of humanity, actually. BUT, things do not "have to be" this way and shouldn't continue this way. It has to change and get better. Humanity needs more Angels. "Calling all you Angels". . .indeed. And the Angels we need more of are people who openly stand up against the technological, pharmaceutical and parasite targeting and enslavement of humanity. . .peacefully and with as much Heart as possible.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

It WAS a Lost World

It Was a Lost World
Copyright Sharon Rose Poet

Where inflicted illnesses
Secretly raked suffering land
And most were too blinded
To even try to understand;
Where a deceitful darkness
Aimed for complete control
Attacking those who refused
To join its masked show,
And then slyly offered
Escapes to it's evil "home,"
And Doves who cared to see
Either hid or stood too alone;
Where ravens resigned
To being sorely used
Against the suffering,
Tortured and abused;
Where chem-trails covered stars
Which used to shine at night,
And Hawks flew to the left
Instead of staying Right;
Where good appeared bad
And bad appeared good
And nothing worked out
The way to really should.
It has to change.
It just has to!

   Times are tough for me, as usual. And I guess the new scenario, which began as I started trying to find a shelter from the cold, is that I could be declared a "danger" to myself for sleeping in my car in sub zero weather. Is this a new method in the dark push to discredit me with a "mental illness" label and/or have me institutionalized? So I decided to stop asking - that it is best to not tell anyone else I am living in my car in this weather, so they can not be used to hurt me instead of helping me with a warm place. I am braving the cold and am surviving it. I think the worst of it is over now. I hope so anyway.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.