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Wednesday, December 26, 2018

Bridges Can Be Rebuilt

Bridges can be rebuilt, but not during the storm.

    Sadly, it is too late for my family and I to weather the targeting together. This was VERY evident in 2012 when I last tried. They would have to be fully aware and not enslaved for that to have safely happened for all of us. But we can safely reunite after the technological control has been completely stopped and we can recover after we are all aware of what happened to us - the Truth. I hope this happens for us. We have all suffered too much and for too long.It should end and we should have a chance to recover.

Seven Christmas Candles

 This year I only lit seven Christmas prayer candles, because I did not have room in my car for more and it was too windy outside. I lit one for me this time. I need it too. And I rewrote my "Light a Candle" Christmas song...

Light a Candle
copyright Sharon R. Poet
 
Light a candle for my daughters who never had the chance
To let their precious Hearts blossom and dance.
Light a candle for the brother we lost one summer day.
Light a candle for my mother who was also enslaved.
Light a candle for my sisters, brothers and my dad.
And for the memories that made us all so sad.
 Light a candle for the freedom that we all still need
To recover from the pain and let Love plant a seed.

Chorus: Lets let it out. Lets shed a tear.
Lets bring Love into Christmas this year.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


Wednesday, December 19, 2018

Too Nuked

The technological targeting recently shifted to less brain torture and manipulations and into a lot more general microwaving of my whole body. Neither one is really better or worse than the other, but it feels like they are really killing me now.

   I recently sent a letter to the FBI revoking permissions I'd given in 2016, in order to get released from the Lee, NH parking lot that I was held in for four months and with the hope that they would finally stand up and be here for us and not be concerned that I'd swing against them and start a lawsuit...etc. But it appears that they never intended to be here for us, although they have been promising to be for over five years. And they seem to want to discredit and destroy me now, which is terrifying and devastating. I hope this situation is not as bad as it appears to be. But I know I'm not completely wrong and I just need all this hell to end without it hurting me anymore than I already have been and the same for my loved ones.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

They Removed My Books From My Publishing Site!

  I was recently blocked from updating the book of my Ramblings of a Targeted Individual blog. This appears to have happened in order to have it not include the recent chains of events. Then all my books were removed from my publishing site, (www.createspace.com) which says they moved the books to another publisher, but there is more than that happening. I can not even purchase copies of my own books right now, which I was going to try to do in order to sell them in these months before Christmas.
   I am concerned that the book of my Ramblings of a Targeted Individual blog, and possibly others, have been altered to suit those who target me and have infiltrated every aspect of my life.

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Christmas Wish

Christmas
Wish for
Freedom

   This is the saying I wrote on a Christmas post card I made this year. I hope complete Freedom is restored to humanity and America and my loved ones and me. . .ASAP. Our Hearts and minds need to be free.

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

A Vehicle "Accident" Intentionally Instigated Late Yesterday

  Around four PM yesterday a vehicle accident happened directly behind me and I feel certain that it was caused by technological targeting. 

   I was driving in Bedford, NH on route 114, almost in front of the Market Basket store. As I approached a line of traffic that was stopped at the street light I felt a weird feeling in my head and experienced a delay in braking for traffic that had stopped in front of me. But then it passed and I stopped in plenty of time. I sat there thinking that they may have just tried to make me hit the car in front of me. Then a red car, which was stopped behind me, suddenly pulled out to my left and a truck came crashing into the back of it. The woman in the red car said that she saw the truck coming and tried to get out of its way. If she hadn't pulled out to the side her car would have probably been shoved into the back of mine. The truck ended up hitting the back corner of her car and the driver said that he just "couldn't stop the truck."
   I feel that this was all orchestrated with criminal use of space based surveillance and laser weapon technologies, which can perform mind control and interfere with brain function. I feel that they tried to make me hit the car in front of me and then, because it did not work, they switched to doing the same thing to a man in a vehicle that was approaching behind me. (If the man's brain was not effected then they may have had him do it intentionally, effecting only my brain so that I'd assume his was too and write it this way. Either way, it feels instigated by the targeting.)
   I told the police officer that I felt it was not an "accident" and that I have been being threatened. I gave him my phone number and he said he'd call. I've not heard from him and even if he does call, what can be done to prove it and will he even believe me? Higher officials have not been even acknowledging the technological targeting and many local and state law enforcement are victims of the silence and the technological mind control as well. Sadly some of them seem completely enslaved and used by the criminals who hold the controls.
   Since I got the new car there appears to have been many other attempts to make me have an accident - many times when other vehicles pull into me or when I am approaching intersections and experience a sudden pain in my eye, as if something was just flung into it, and I think its probably being done with a laser weapon. I think they are trying to force me to be hauled to a hospital for the process of complete enslavement, under the disguise of an "accident."
   There appears to be some officials who are seeking revenge on me for realizing and sharing the recent chain of events that included trying to force me to sign power of attorney documents and let them change my address to one that they can get my mail at. The hawks/FBI appear to be involved in all of this. This is really terrifying, especially since they have also blocked me from updating my book of this blog, not allowing a public record of these recent parts of the targeting. I am praying hard for them to not succeed and for GENUINE good officials to be here for me, if they even exist in my situation and even if they haven't yet. I hope that my writings are able to reach officials who can care and understand and be here for me. Its already too late for too many and I don't want to be added to the horribly long list of victims who have been enslaved - killed the worse way. They may have even finished completely enslaving my youngest daughter in the past few weeks of this hell vamping up on me! I know that many officials are aware of us being targeted, for years now, including the FBI and Senator Shaheen and Obama. But this is all still happening to me and some of them (if not all) seem involved in the targeting. Yes, some of them are victims too and they deserve compassion too, but some of them have been being used to prey upon us instead of being here for us and it is all just too harmful and devastating and scary for me.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, December 10, 2018

"Take Care"?

How do I "take care" when it appears that this "care" is what's hurting me?

Trapped Between a Wall and a Raging River

   I recently had a dream, which showed me being trapped in a run down shack that is under the threat of being swept away by a raging river. This is pretty accurate symbology, even if it was a technologically projected dream, which I am not sure of. And I feel the lack of safety and lack of security in my past and current situation acutely.
   They are now threatening to disable the new car I was given. And it is only registered and inspected for about two months. I am not safe. As I got the car I aimed to get back to the plan I had, to take better care of myself in multiple ways that are desperately needed, in order for me to regain a bit of inner balance...etc., before I was trapped in a parking lot for three months. But then the room rental, and insurance payment for damage done to my other car, were sabotaged with sly aims to get me to sign Power of Attorney papers. New crappy job/money aims were sabotaged with the lasering of my back. And then the hell I went through with town offices (in the vehicle registration process) being used to help target and threaten the little bit of freedom I'd regained with a vehicle, has taken its toll. All of this is the complete opposite of what I needed and should have been able to do.
  Sleeping in the back seat of a small car is hard and I'm not sleeping very well since I got it. I don't know how much longer I can survive this hell of too often getting delivered the opposite of what I desperately need, which has been happening for many years. I'm distressed and discouraged beyond description. I had needed time to regain at least a bit of balance in the room...etc., but more hell was heaped on instead. And now they are again threatening to force me into enslavement again, using the usual librarian puppets. It has to stop. It just has to stop. Not only what is being done to me, but also the using of (sometimes involving enslavement of) official people to harass or threaten me.

Tortured and Overwhelmed

   I am experiencing heavy brain torture and loud covert harassment this morning. Its a pain. I had a lot to do today, but am floundering, as usual. However, I did put up a couple little posts, before this one,  of things I've been thinking about.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


P.S. I was able to get my car registered, but I had to  have it redone in order for even my mailing address to have not been changed. I fixed the rest at the DMV, which should have my mailing address as PO Box 383 Mont Vernon, NH 03057. And my "legal" address listed as #4 Grand Hill Road, Mont Vernon, NH 03057, which is the address of my post office - the only "legal" address I have right now. Something feels horribly wrong that homeless people are being forced to lie about their residential address (using someone else's) instead of just telling the truth - instead of just writing  "homeless" as a legal or residential address. Its actually being demanded that I pretend to be residing somewhere else...to the point where I feel scared of getting into trouble for being honest about my addresses and this feels horrible, but far worse may be happening in this sort of scenario.
    I understand that some officials may perceive the "using someone else's address" (like what is done for licensing) a good and helpful thing, but, with the targeting that is happening it merely enables others to get the most important documents...etc., that would be sent to a person's residential address instead of mailing address. It should be OK to write 'Homeless' as a legal or residential address and perhaps add a phone number for anyone who may want to meet with, or make a delivery directly to, the homeless person. The way the laws are right now, serves those who target us and shoved us into destitution and homelessness and even aim to steal lost bank accounts or inheritances...etc. And I hope the laws change into simply requiring the truth, for example; Legal/residential address; Homeless.

P.S.S I am being forced to make yet another publishing company change. They suddenly started blocking me from updating the book of this blog when I tried to update it with the recent rounds of targeting using vehicle registration...etc. And it appears that they are literally forcing me to go digital, which I do not want, because they can just alter our writings when they are digital instead of only being printed in an actual physical book.

Sometimes A Change of Behaviors is All That is Needed

If they are concerned that their behaviors being a disgrace to their family or organization or  country, then they should change those behaviors instead of continuing them and threatening people into hiding them.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Fair Choices Require Good Options

Fair Choices Require Good Options

I thought of this phrase last week. It applies to the many aspects of the targeting that leave a victim with either no choices at all or no good choices. Those who are involved with the targeting seem to justify their abuse by claiming that it is the victim's choice that is at fault, but its not True.

In order to have a fair choice
 there must be good options.

Thursday, December 6, 2018

The Blocking of my Vehicle Registration Continues in a Third Town!

 (Continued form previous few posts)  Today I went to the Bedford, NH town office to try to do the vehicle registration, because I have actually slept there more than anywhere else in the past few months. It looked like it was going to be a possibility at first, and I did not want to run into problems, so I called the DMV and they said that the DMV does not even deal with vehicle registrations and have no laws about it and that it is totally up to the discretion of the towns how they deal with registrations for homeless people. (This is the opposite of what I was told by someone who spoke for the previous two towns I'd tried.) Then I called the Bedford town office and the woman there launched into the same routine that was given as an excuse for the previous two towns. She said that she called the DMV and that they require me to set up my legal address at a place like a shelter or the church, which she was checking into having me use as my legal address, in order for them to register my car. I told her what the DMV told me and she didn't seem to believe it. I called the DMV again and had it affirmed (for a third time, actually) that they have no laws around vehicle registration and do not handle registrations at all and that it is totally up to the discretion of the town as to how they deal with registrations for homeless people. I called the Bedford town office woman back and told her this and also that the laws she was saying are for registration are actually for licensing and not for vehicle registration, according to what the DMV told me. She got really angry, as if caught in a lie, and demanded to know where I am sleeping. I didn't tell her because I think her next aim was going to be to cause trouble for me, judging by her attitude. I'm not staying there anymore anyway, primarily due to her/the town following that darkness that is even using a lie, in order to prevent me from registering my vehicle without letting someone else have my address and get important types of mail that should only come to me.

    I HAVE BEEN HOMELESS FOR A LONG TIME (too long trapped in this horrible situation!) AND HAVE NEVER RUN INTO THIS. PRIOR TO THIS BIG PUSH FOR ME TO GIVE THEM POWER OF ATTORNEY AND THE OBVIOUS AIM TO CHANGE MY ADDRESS TO A PLACE THEY CONTROL, (which seems connected) NOBODY EVER GAVE ME A HARD TIME WITH VEHICLE REGISTRATIONS. I AM CERTAIN THAT THESE TOWN OFFICIALS ARE FOLLOWING, OR ARE BEING USED BY, THOSE WHO TARGET ME AND HAVE VAMPED UP THEIR EFFORTS TO GIVE ME A HARD TIME AND TAKE OVER IMPORTANT PARTS OF MY LIFE AND BELONGINGS AND LOST BANK ACCOUNT...ETC., BECAUSE THEY ARE USING THE SAME EXCUSE WHICH IS NOT TRUE AND IT IS BEING DONE IN CONJUNCTION WITH OTHER THINGS THAT MAKE IT VERY OBVIOUS TO ME.

P.S. The "legal" address I have used for licensing and registration, in the past year or so, has been the only honest legal address I have - four Grand Hill Road #383, Mont Vernon, NH 03057. Its the address of my Post Office Box. Using someone else's address, whether they approve of it or not, is not honest, because I am not really sleeping there and noone else should be getting my mail...etc. I feel that I should be allowed to keep it the way I already have it until I actually have a place where I am really sleeping/living. Unfortunately, I can not use my children's addresses, because it could just make them more of a target for those who already target us all already, especially now that I have realized the aim to get power of attorney and steal from me while leaving me destitute, instead of being here for me and helping me. This is all too horrible and just should not be happening, but it is happening and I hope it stops right now. Enough is enough and too much is too much. And its already been too much for too long.

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Lasering of My Spine With Threat to Disable Me

   Today, after my persisting with my refusal to succumb to them trying to blackmail me into giving them power of attorney, they started lasering my upper spine - between my shoulder blades and threatening to disable me. (This is a completely different location from the lower back stuff they did to sabotage my jobs recently.) I hope they do not succeed.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Attempt to Blackmail me Into Giving Them Power of Attorney!

   To make a long story very short; They set up events with two town offices (also trying to force me to use the un-trusted Share program in Milford, NH as my residence address)...and then used a man in the MMG Insurance company to call me and say things that obviously gave me a choice to either sign the power of attorney paper or not be allowed to register the new car, which is a serious threat to my survival right now. I refused to use the Share program for my legal address and I refused to sign teh power of attorney over to them and I even confronted the puppets they were using... and then they set up a scenario that makes it impossible for me to register my car.
   So they held my car registration over me - covertly letting me know that I would only be allowed to get it registered if I used the Share program as my legal address and gave them power of attorney (I think these two things are connected!) and trashed my writings and it also appeared to include my joining the covert program. I said : "NO!" to all these things and am holding strong. And then they used women in both Mont Vernon, and the Share program who said it also included a woman in the Milford town offices, to set up a situation that makes my car basically impossible to register. (I only have five days left to legally use it!) Like much of the targeting, this all looks like it's for legitimate and legal reasons, but its not. It really is not.

   There is a danger, for heavily targeted and isolated people, being forced to use controlled churches and other non profit organizations as legal addresses along with sly set ups to con the victims into signing power of attorney contracts. I feel that I am not nearly the only person this has been happening to. And it should be stopped and not allowed to continue. 

Sometimes they use ravens (completely enslaved people) in the foreground of these things...and sometimes they seem to set up good people whom they would want blamed if the scheme does not succeed. The two separate power of attorney documents, that they recently tried to get me to sign, appear to have included both scenarios - one seemed to be setting up a good man and one seemed to be a perpetration puppet being used, but I can not be sure because I am way too distressed.
Sometimes they use ravens (completely enslaved people) in the foreground of these things...and sometimes they seem to set up good people whom they would want blamed if the scheme does not succeed. The two separate power of attorney documents, that they recently tried to get me to sign, appear to have included both scenarios - one seemed to be setting up a good man and one seemed to be a perpetration puppet being used, but I can not be sure because I am way too distressed.



Friday, November 30, 2018

Devastated

   I have tried so hard to keep returning to objectivity and not blaming any of the government for any part of the targeting and for not being here for us. I have even sometimes pried that objectivity from the painful trenches of my direct experiences with obvious ill intentions and cruelty inflicted by some officials...just to keep hope for us and them alive. (My heart has also felt that some of them are victims who are just being used, like my loved ones are. And its easy to excuse victims who are just being used, because they need their freedom restored too.) But some officials clearly are aware and have protection from the mind control and are not being used and it appears that some of them have been involved with intentionally withholding help with blackmailing types of situations and withholding important evidence about enslaved victims and two staged deaths, while we all continue being hurt...etc. Now they appear to be the ones involved with trying to get me to sign over power of attorney, which I now realize has been happening in various ways through the past five (or so) years... and I just do not know what to do anymore. I feel devastated and sad beyond description. . .not just for myself, but also for my loved ones and all other torture victims and all enslaved victims and America and the rest of Humanity.

DEAR GOD, PLEASE SET US FREE!!!
And bring us the genuine official Hearts we desperately need.

P.S. I have been really distressed about getting help with getting the new car inspected. They have control over literally every garage that I know of and can do about anything they want to my vehicle while its there. (I've experienced a lot of sabotaging through mechanic puppets) So, I went to get help with registering and inspecting from the Share program in Milford, NH because they are the ones involved with being used to keep me stranded in Bedford, NH for three months and trying to instigate more happening with the odd TV show guys, which I felt uncomfortable with...etc., and so they may be in the mode of trying to save face since I had confronted them and wrote about it, and, due to this, they may be the safest avenue right now. Hopefully this car remained safe and unharmed at the garage they sent me to - Milford, NH's VIN Auto and Truck Garage.

More Death Threats

   I am getting serious death threats this morning - puppets talking about "eliminating" and "killing"and its surely about my recent posts about them slyly trying to get me to sign power of attorney documents and that the FBI seems involved in it all. Please help pray for my safety and that of my loved ones. It appears that they had my youngest daughter secheduled for a surgery during the time when these other things were happening to me. I'm so scared for all of us. I guess I now understand more fully why officials have not been here for us and why we are still being hurt and its devastating.

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Cry for a World Wide Stand for Freedom

I wish the Heart of all aware media and uncontrolled high officials would quickly take action in a public stand for all types of victims in a world wide call for the immediate end of criminal use of the space and ground based technologies and pharmaceuticals that have been enslaving,  torturing and harming humanity.

Please stand up for us and yourselves. Public awareness is desperately needed for heavily targeted families to be able to help and protect each other and get understanding and support and help from community members and unaware authorities who have often been victims too...etc. Please stand up for us. We need you.
We need your Hearts to be here for us.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Another Round of Vengeance

   I got covert threats after writing the previous three posts yesterday. This morning the technological parts of the targeting have vamped up and I am getting warnings of a serious danger.

I am still very worried about my children as well.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

New Memories Surfacing

  Around the severe round of the targeting, which happened in the mid to late 1970s, I had sold a car to a Goffstown, NH police officer, whom I knew, after he stopped me due to getting a false report against me. He later told me that this car, which he bought for his mother, was stolen. It is now obviously all part of the targeting and possibly orchestrated to make that police department, which I was fairly friendly with, to think badly of me while things vamped up against me - perhaps to stop me from being able to turn to them for help or advise. There are other things that happened around this time period as well, but I am too overwhelmed to get into it all right now. The aims to sabotage relationships, especially with those who can help us, is a serious part of the targeting that officials should become more aware of.

   I never did turn to that police department for advise or help, because I did not know I was a victim of criminal covert targeting. I just thought I was having a lot of bad luck. I didn't start realizing that I was being targeted until around the end of 2005. I wish I'd known sooner and could have helped my daughters and other loved ones who have also been being targeted in less obvious ways...some of them killed and some enslaved.
 

I Finally Reported My Oldsmobile Being Stolen

   Last night I went to Goffstown, NH PD and reported the car theft. I do not believe that it will be returned to me, but I suddenly realized that my not reporting it could open a door for the thieves to do something with it that I can be blamed for. Walking into the police department and reporting it was a really uncomfortable, due to a few past experiences, but it went fairly well.
   My Oldsmobile had been stored at a garage with permission of one of the owners. That owner, who was also a witness to brake and tire damages done to that car, was suddenly inflicted with an "accident" and loss of his job. Then the other owner asked me to move the car out of there. Then the car was gone. The remaining owner said he thought I took it. I didn't. But someone took it and I am now concerned about who and what for and what they may be doing with it, especially since there have been threats and attempts to frame me for crimes...etc.

Sly Aims to Get me to Sign Power of Attorney Over to Them!

It appears that, in the past week, they have tried to get me to give them Power of Attorney over me through plugging it into BOTH a lease for an office space and also through directly trying to get me to sign a power of attorney paper, in order to get a check for my van, which someone backed into. . .leading to the MMG insurance company totaling it and saying that, in order to sign the title over to them, and in order to get a deeply needed check for it, I have to give them power of attorney and send the title to them without my signature on it. Since I caught both of these things, and how they were BOTH worded in ways that could make the permission be used for anything and not just that, there have been poor excuses and lies, in efforts to cover it up, so ill intentions seem clear. This may be for the purpose of them gaining access to millions of dollars that may be able to be gained from my stolen songs, as well as my 40-60 thousand dollar lost bank account and a stolen inheritance in Canada. All of which now appear to have been being aimed for in multiple ways for about five years. And it appears that some FBI officials are involved in this, which makes it extremely scary. I hope its not them trying to steel from me. But it now seems certain that it is. :-(

Am I safer to not say anything or safer to write this here? I don't know, but I've written it. I am really scared and do not know what will happen now that I have noticed and refused to. Will they kill me? Will they try to steel the documents from me? Will they inflict me with brain damage? Will they find an excuse to pick me up (arrest me) and drug and use me to get the money for them, which appears to have been an aim all along? "Ouch," they had a puppet come near me and say as I write this. Will they torture me again for standing up for myself? Yes, its already starting.

P.S. The insurance company wants me to send them the unsigned title and leave the key in the car for them, in order to get the money they own me for the accident. Even if I were not being targeted this would seem like an unwise and unsafe procedure. They agreed to change the wording of the POA to what I created to make sure it is only used to exchange that one title, but I still feel uncomfortable with it. They insist that it has to be done this way, although their excuse for it is just to make sure the title is filled out properly - to avoid possibly having to take the time to get another one if its not filled out properly so that I can get paid faster. I said I didn't mind the possible delay and offered a good solid way to make sure it was filled out properly, but they refused and insist that I have to send them the blank title and power of attorney.
   Due to being targeted this situation also raises the concern that, in doing things this way, someone would have possession of the car while it is still under my name and for a time period that is unknown. Just leaving the keys in the car in a public place is not safe either. Why on earth can't the vehicle transfer happen in the usual and common way that is safe and good for all parties - I hand them the signed title and the keys and they hand me the check?!! Maybe it can and that if I insist on doing it all in person I'd have to go to Maine, which raises another odd situation (coincidence?) ; T
his insurance company, according to my web search, only does claims in Maine, although their nearest agents, to where I was stranded when this all started, are in Bedford, NH in the same building as the FBI offices. Covert messaging has been repeatedly trying to get me to go to that building and back to Maine in the past few years. I have experienced and/or sensed a danger in these places (Was I framed in Maine?) and had a dream about the bad getting me if I go north of a certain border. (My last experience with going into the FBI offices was not a good one - they tried to covertly get me to run through security doors, which would have given them reason to arrest me, and demonstrated to me that they would not help me and would pretend that I am "mentally ill" if I did not trash my writings.) There appears to to be multiple types of manipulations around the damage done to my car, which happened directly after I had taken down this blog and wiped a bunch of stuff from my websites and before I started reposting any of it. It initially seemed to be to distract me and force me to go into that building before I'd restored any of these writings. The procedures for me to get paid for the damages done to my car, at a time when I am desperate for money....etc., all feels too uncomfortable. Is it the FBI that is doing all of this or is some of it someone who wants me to think it is? I can not be sure with some of it, because its covert. I wish this were not happening, but it is and its terrifying for me. Where do I go for help when the help I tried to get appears to be a large part of the problem or has become an addition to it and seems to control other places I could turn to for help? :-(
 
P.S.S. Even if it is true that the "Power of Attorney" thing has become a regular practice in leases and to transfer a title to an insurance company. My gut feeling is that it is there for the purpose of stealing from or setting up targeted people. The lease for the office room, that they probably expected  me to sign without reading, also gave permission for them to take and keep all of my personal belongings and was so grossly unfair and unsafe for any business renter that I don't think any company would use it, unless its expected to not be read by people who are being targeted and stolen from! And this reminds me of the storage bin thing; I wonder how many Torture Victims vanish and their personal belongings stolen from storage bin owners who also claim rights to take people's property.

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Another Job Sabotaged

   Around the time when I started making phone calls and plans to re-apply for the job I lost in August...etc., They had someone come near me and loudly say, "BACK!" And then my back started hurting and has gotten worse with each passing day since Tuesday. I did not injure myself or do anything that would cause this. I am in a lot of pain and I feel that it was caused by being shot with a laser weapon, in order to sabotage my getting a job right now. This has happened many times before and its no coincidence. It will certainly stop me from getting the one I was aiming for. I will not be able to be lifting and being on my feet all day until this heals. It even hurts to sit and stand right now. :-( I got some white Willow Bark and made a tea and hope it will help with the pain.
   They also recently had a group of women sit next to me and talk about digestive problems just before another round of that started on me. This sort of pre-announcing (threatening) what they are going to do to me has been a regular thing in the covert harassment part of targeting and is very real and uses all sorts of community members who are either mind control victims or members of the covert program who are following orders.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. The new car I now have runs good, has a good heater and is dry, which means a lot to me right now. As my van got sabotaged in the past three months, they appear to have zapped/destroyed the new two year old battery, which stopped me from opening the windows. . .and then water suddenly started accumulating inside my car on the rug in front of the driver's seat and under my bedding in the back of it. (This van never had any leaks before and still doesn't seem to.) Have you ever had to sleep in a cold, wet, and starting to be moldy, place that has no ventilation? It wasn't comfortable or healthy.
   During the last two winters they had damaged my vehicle's heater and would not let me get it fixed, leaving me without any heat during the coldest part of the winters. I hope that never happens again. I still live in a vehicle, but am right now again trying to get a room/office rental in the same place where I had tried  in 2008 with my work. I hope it is not sabotaged and that I can safely do what I need to do there. Spending a lot of time in a stationary place, though it has its benefits, also can be more dangerous. But I am praying that it will not be infiltrated, that my food is not contaminated, that I will not be drugged, that I will not be abducted, that I will not be enslaved, that I will not be inflicted with parasites of any kind, that my belongings will not be stolen or swapped or infiltrated, that I will not be set up to be falsely blamed for any sort of crime or the horrible "mental illness" label that can be used to strip away what is left of my rights and freedoms. I am praying that I will be safe there.

P.S.S. The back pain stopped and then I set up an interview for another job and then serious pain again! And then it stopped right after I cancelled the appointment. It is surely due to lasering of my back to sabotage the jobs again.

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Focusing on My Own Survival Right Now

   I am deeply sorry that this blog and and my other writings are not what they could be if I were not being targeted. I am trying hard to focus more on taking better care of myself, which is deeply needed for the sake of my survival and health on all levels. This has been next to impossible for me to do in this situation, due to too many forces working against me. I hope that, if I can get my inner self and physical self into a better place, and provide myself with at least some level of protection, I will be able to do a better job with my work and these blog writings. Until I can accomplish this please excuse the state of this blog...etc., and refrain from passing judgement on me or anyone else due to anything written in this blog.

   I got another car. A coupe gave it to me after noticing that I was stranded. I am trying to get myself a job and room rental of some sort - just a warm peaceful place to get out of the cold and do yoga and other things needed for my health right now. I had just gotten a job before my previous car suddenly died three months ago, leaving me stranded in a parking lot and unable to get to it...etc. Its been a difficult haul to say the least. And the interference and painful technological torture has vamped up as I aim to try to get help with fixing, registering and inspecting the new car...so that I can get the room and the job. Those who target me...etc., definitely control too many places and people. I don't know if I am going to be allowed to take batter care of myself in the ways that I desperately need to and can only do part f right now. I don't know if it will even be allowed for me to get help with registering and fixing and inspecting the new car, so that I can do the other things I deeply need to do and alleviate a bit of distress. I don't know if it will all be sabotaged yet another time, if someone does not approve of what I am doing or wants to seek revenge...etc.
   It would be difficult for me to be trying to pull myself back together, and start over again, even if I were not being targeted. I feel extremely battered and in desperate need of recovery (on every level)  before I do anything else, but that is not possible right now and I can only do the best I can under these conditions. So please excuse me and the state of my writings.

   I appreciate the help that I have gotten, particularly when it is only out of care and consideration for me, and even though it has never been enough for all that I need. I hope that I will be able to pay it all back someday. If I were not being targeted I wouldn't have to ask for help and could provide for myself. I wish I were not being targeted and I wish I were allowed to recover my own money and my own work and my own homes and my health (inner health especially) and not be forced to depend on anyone else for my survival, because this is the way it should be. I should be free. And so should everyone else.


If your Heart can send me financial help
 please do so. I really deeply need it.


Sharon R. Poet
PO Box 383
Mont Vernon, NH 03057

Thank You.

P.S. The car that came to me runs good and has a good heater and is dry, which means a lot to me right now. As my van got sabotaged in the past three months, they appear to have zapped/destroyed the new two year old battery, which stopped me from opening the windows, and then water suddenly started accumulating inside my car on the rug in the front seat and under my bedding. (This van never had any leaks before this and still doesn't seem to.) During the last two winters they had damaged my heater, leaving me without any heat during the coldest part of the winter. I hope that never happens again. I still live in a vehicle, but am right now trying to get a room in the same place where I had tried to rent in 2008. I hope it is not sabotaged and that I can do what I need to do there without being hurt or abducted or my belongings invaded...etc. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

One of My Targeted Children Scheduled for Tonsil Surgery!

  On November third I had a dream that showed my youngest daughter being damaged; Something about her soul. I had thought is was probably about the past targeting. But today I got a text from her that said she was having her tonsils removed next week. The tonsil surgery raises red flags for me, which I explain below. I begged her to avoid the surgery and see a homeopathic doctor and gargle with (and drink) strong sage and/or goldenseal tea/tincture. But I am concerned that she does not trust me since she was convinced that the targeting was not happening and that I am just "mentally ill." It is soooooo difficult to not be able to help my daughters, especially at times like this, due to them not knowing that the targeting is real and that its not all my imagination and that they have also been being targeted...just less conspicuously. I hope both of my daughters are not hurt anymore... and the same for all other victims.

Tonsil Surgery Concern

 In 2012 I had shared concerns about my siblings and I possibly being micro-chipped for the purpose of technological experimentation and/or mind control, during unneeded surgeries to remove our tonsils around the 1960s. An important gland is located in the lower back part of the human brain - one that is probably accessible through the tonsil area, and I am now wondering if brain function can be interfered with, in other ways, through a surgery in that area. Since much of the horrible technological targeting instigates the alteration of normal brain function, through either pharmaceuticals or microchips and electromagnetic frequencies, any type of surgery in or around the head is cause for deep concern, especially for a person in a family who is already being targeted, like mine.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Report of Sudden Mysterious Brain Alterations in Three Woman

   In these news reports three woman suddenly woke with their brain function altered in ways that made them speak with foreign accents. The pain these women suffer is evident in the videos. Can you feel it? This is horrible. And I can not help but feel that this infliction is probably the result of technological experimentation or just sadistic targeting to watch how they handle it...etc. Judging by what I've witnessed with what appears to be the swapping of personalities in children and the alteration of specific brain functions in targeted people, it is not too far of a stretch to think that they could alter the part of a brain that deals with speech and word pronunciation as well.

The women who woke up with foreign accents -
Tip of the Tongue | 60 Minutes Australia;


https://youtu.be/uLxhSu3UuU4


ABC News; Woman Wakes From Surgery With British Accent

https://youtu.be/3rTPnctrJCM

Please help stop criminal use of all sorts of radio wave technologies, especially that which violates our minds.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, November 17, 2018

Tears for Native American People

   Last night I was looking for songs about peace on my phone. And as I listened to the Cherokee and Lakota ones I cried, especially as I listened to "The Spirit of One" song that I share below. I suddenly felt a deep connection inside my heart and soul...not just because of the small percent of Native American blood that runs through my veins, but also because a few puzzle pieces started clicking together again. I am concerned that they are a valuable race of people whose Spirit has been being broken, in many ways, and includes technological targeting of brain and body functions, with electromagnetic frequencies/radio waves...etc. I now even wonder if my native blood is why my family appears to have been being targeted since at least the early 1970s.
   I remember going with my mother to visit the Indian reservation, in Canada, where her cousins and best childhood friend lived. This was around the early 1970s. This whole family (all the children) were born with no hair and had to wear wigs. I now wonder if this was due to technological experimentation. No other part of the family had that problem.
   In 2006, after I was diagnosed with "lupus," I had looked it up and medical reports had stated that lupus was initially found primarily in Native America women. In 2006 I had shared dreams which showed me that lupus was being created by bad people shooting bad energy at me. I now feel that the bad energy is the radio waves/electromagnetic frequencies...etc., that have been being used on unaware people. (I shared more about this in my 2011 and 2012 writings.)

   I feel that the Native American people have been being inflicted with holocaustal levels of inhumane crimes and that it must be fully realized and stopped ASAP.

   FYI; I have always considered myself Christian, because I was raised Christian. But the Native American Spirit has always been very strong in me - I have felt, since I was a young child, the sacredness and importance of the Earth and the birds and the rest of God's creatures, like the natives do. I believe in Jesus and the fact that He was born to live and teach us Love. But my Soul and Spirit actually feel more connected to many of the Native beliefs. The real God is Love and Love cares about and works through Native American's too. They count too. So do I. And the same applies to all other cultures and people whom ignorance and arrogance and heartlessness has failed to see value in. I hope that those who do the targeting are set free - free to find their Hearts again. And I hope that all their victims are set free - free to live and be unique...etc., and gain the validation and understanding that is deeply need for full recovery.

"We are all one people and it's Hope we're thinking of.
We have found the answer and the answer is Love." ~ Jana  


https://youtu.be/bw_U821YTCc


This video is the most touching "Love is the Answer" message I have seen.


https://youtu.be/19g6JMT_1JA

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, November 9, 2018

That's Not True

   Here is a new song I wrote yesterday. I dedicate this to all the genuine torture victims, (Targeted Individuals) who have been falsely or unwittingly labeled as "mentally ill", and to all the people who want me to go somewhere and be labeled and medicated, in order to discredit and suppress me and hide the Truth.


That's Not True
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Long ago, before I finally knew,
Each time I felt scared or blue
I'd think...
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh That's not true!
That's not true.
I was born to feel
And that's what I must do.
Sadness helps release my pain
And fear helps prevent it's gain."

When chaos made me confused
And bashings left me abused
I'd think. . .
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh. That's not true!
That's not true.
I just need time to heal
And to let the Truth be real.
I need to find some peace
And people who can Love me."

When they swarmed with covert razors
And shot my brain with hidden lasers
I'd think. . .
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh. That's not true!
That's not true.
That is what they do it for.
Throw the pills out the door.
I was born to be free
And they've been killing me!"

Now I get it - I finally see.
There is nothing wrong with me.
This is such a relief.
I'm not really mentally ill
And I don't need the pill.
I was born to feel.
I was born to heal.
I was born to be free.
I was born to be me.
Please set me free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

No Other "Side" for Me

Technological Holocaust - Confusion
   There still seems to be different sides in the covert stuff around me. And I still cannot choose sides in that confusing mess, especially since it is never clear who or what the intentions are...etc. I don't want to be on any side other than the one that openly and peacefully and compassionately stands in the Light for Freedom to finally be restored to all of us - to all of the victims and all of America and all of humanity. I wish I had people on my side. Been standing too alone for too long. More hearts should be standing up for freedom. Please let yours.

A "Trick or Treat"?

  On October seventh I had an unusual experience. The targeting had just vamped up on every level and I had just found yet another important blog post missing and was feeling frustrated and numb as I walked down a street toward my car. Then suddenly a man approached me saying "Trick or treat" and was wearing a black cape and monster mask. I tried to avoid him, especially since there was another man there with a video camera pointed at us, but he persisted and then actually shocked me by pulling money out of his bag to give me. (I guess that was the "treat" part.) The bit of financial help was desperately needed and I deeply appreciated it even though it came in such an odd way.
   The night after this happened I had a dream about me having to prove my innocence about something and something about my family, which was not clear. I cannot be sure if it is about this "trick or treat" situation, but...
   Just a couple days ago, two women in a store told me that they saw me on TV with these guys. Apparently they are sort of popular and do silly antics with people a lot. When I tried to look them up on youtube all I found was a news report, that posted just a few days before they had approached me, and was about how they are starting a new focus in a show that helps mentally ill people. This concerned me. Due to my situation I can not help but wonder if they are being used by those who want people to think I am mentally ill and/or want to harass me with the accusation, which has been done a lot...even by those who know that I'm really being targeted and clearly have control of too much.
   I found the Halloween video they had me in, and I did not see anything about the suggestion of me being mentally ill. It was actually only kind words about being kind to people and helping people. But is there more? I don't know. But I am hoping that those guys were not used to hurt me or influence others, especially not my loved ones who need to know the truth instead more of the "mental illness" cover up that they have been brainwashed with and hurt by. And I hope it will not weed into that if it hasn't already, which is why I am posting this. I want and deserve only genuinely kind, especially when it aims to help.

    I have been at a loss as to how to handle this situation, because I do not want to falsely accuse and I do not want things to get worse for me at a time when they are already too bad. It was tempting to try to find the web forum that the news said cast said the guys were setting up for discussions about "mental illness", just to post some info. But I know how unsafe the web is and how statements can be changed....etc., even when there are only good intentions in those who start it. And then there is the bashing and harassment thing that happens to me in web forums and I had more than I could take of that by around the beginning of 2013. I can't handle anymore, especially not right now. Being stranded and too at the mercy and people being used even to deprive me of help with a vehicle...etc. I'm not opening myself up to more. I'm hurt too much already.

P.S. Those who have been used to keep me suffering for over three months - depriving me of a vehicle that they promised to get to help me...etc., just happened to see the TV show with me in it and wanted to get involved to see if the guys could "help" me more. My heart cried, "If you wanted to help me you should have followed through on the car" and "your not following through on it is the reason I am trapped here and was found walking the streets looking so sad and in need of help!" The organization that appears to have intentionally withheld promised help - the car since around August 6th, (three months) is the same one that appeared to be being used in a set up to make me look "mentally ill" in the past. Is it a coincidence that they want to be involved with perpetuating the filming of me while I get help...and my brain is technologically interfered with in that process like it was at first? I don't think so. Since I heard that they were making plans to arrange this, without even asking me about it, my suspicions have justly soared. I do not want help that hurts. I want help that only genuinely cares.

Thursday, November 8, 2018

There is More in the Book of This Blog

  I recently went through yet another process of drafting this blog and putting back up only posts that focused on the primary parts of the technological targeting and enough of my personal experiences to validate other Targeted Individuals. And I left out posts that focused on the crazy confusing covert stuff that vamped up in the past five or six years. But, as I did this the targeting vamped up and there seemed to be an aim to shove me off a cliff one way or another, while most of my blog was down. So I put the whole blog back up a few days ago and....unfortunately its probably more chaotic and confusing than ever. I had edited out many things and kept running finding things and posts that had been altered or deleted by those who intrude upon my writings through library computers since mine were disabled. Unless they also changed the book, which I had made of this blog, there is a lot more in the book than there is on this blog. The book is available on Amazon. The most original earlier posts should be in edition three and fourteen and the most of the last three should be in the introduction edition.

Did they aim to crush me as I made them look better
 than they were and hoped that they'd prove to be? 
:-(

   I really want to make all of my writings better, especially since I have realized how infiltrated they have been; On this blog I want to cut out the things they changed and replace things they erased and correct things that may have been my misperceptions and fix things that I wrote while I was too heavily targeted or too upset about it all to do a good job with articulating things....etc., because some of it may be too confusing to people and I do not want to confuse or mislead anyone. But, I need to be safe and free to do it and I think need to have a better understanding of some things too. When it comes to the covert stuff, I am still confused, myself, so I can not describe it perfectly. I'm sorry this blog is such a mess. I hope I can fix it properly someday. If you read it before then please excuse me. 

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

A "Better Angels" Dedication

The lyrics in this new Barbra Streisand song "Better Angels" really speaks to me. I envision the "better angels" being the Love that works through our own Hearts. I dedicate the lyrics of  this song to all who are connected to my situation. . .my loved ones, officials, all who are used to help target or abduct me...etc. Many times I have cried out to those who are used to target me, "I am not your enemy. Those who use you are!" And full responsibility can be placed on criminal use of radio wave technologies...etc.

"Lead us to forgiveness so that we can be made whole. We are not enemies. There is no good in that. There are better Angels that surround us all and we will find a way through all our differences...listen to their call... Rise up. Its time."

Barbra Streisand - Better Angels (Official Audio)

https://youtu.be/0S_qJv4mzv0

I feel that God is shining a strong Light into the Hearts of all who are in positions that can effectively stand up and stop all the targeting and its horrid covert crap and wars and restore freedom to all of humanity. Please let it into yours.

I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

They walk to the American Border

  I hope our troops bring those people food and water and compassion and safety. I Hope the negative attitude about our borders stops. I do not understand the whole border thing in relation to our actual safety at this point in time. We are not any safer being surrounded by walls.

It seems to me that, in order for America to be truly safe, it must be set free within its borders and return to being a compassionate refuge for all who seek Freedom. And it needs a shield against space based technologies that are used to perform mind control and to inflict illnesses and to torture people...etc. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


Too Many Used

   Please do not use people in order to hurt or harass or abduct me, especially not under the guise of help. Please set them free and the same for me. 

Please stop the covert game. 
Free your Hearts of shame.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Still Trapped

   I am still trapped in a parking lot. Its been three months. The last time this happened this long (for four months in 2016) I had sent permission letters in order to be released. What will it take this time? I am deeply concerned that no matter what I do or do not do, at this point, the outcome may not be good for me. I have serious, legitimate concern for my safety right now. God, please set them and us free.

Monday, November 5, 2018

Like a Fish Out of Water

    I feel like a fish out of water - barely able to breath and not able to freely think and feel and do my work and be with free loved ones and own my own peaceful country home and work in my gardens and do my pottery and be the natural me. I should be free. We all should be.

"What the World Needs..."

    An old classic by the beautiful voice of Barbara Streisand; "What the world needs now is Love... No not just for some, but for everyone. . . We all need what the world needs. All we need is Love."
   This is a message that I deeply believe in. Sadly many of us are not free to fully Love and some of us are not even safe enough to Love. We all need to both give and receive Love, and our Hearts must be Free to do both. The Heart of Humanity must be set free from technological and pharmaceutical control, in order to truly Love and let Love grow. We need Love and all that enables and supports it. I need it too. We should all be free to Love.

I wish we were all free to Love

Barbara Streisand - What the World Needs Now is Love Sweet Love

I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, November 1, 2018

To save the Birds

   I’ve had a deep personal connection with birds. There appears to be a push for me to hide what happens with the birds and I. And what keeps coming to mind is that since those who target me are fully aware of how birds have often flown in to help me be aware of people’s intentions it is best that good people know about this as well. I'm sure that those who target/watch/hurt us had witnessed a rather large miracle type bird experience that I had in the early to mid1990s, and this is probably why there were no birds at the next home I'd owned - the one I was forced to move to after the NH DOT took the one I was in at that time. (A friend of mine had witnessed the bird thing and later ended up with an aneurism and had forgotten who I was!) I had shared this 1990s bird experience in my Into the Light book in 2010 and I now wonder if I was tortured into taking it down, due to this being in it. Why does anyone not want other people to know about the birds? I'm not sure, but I think that wider spread knowledge of it would help the good people so that the bad cannot use it to their advantage.
   I'm sure that I am not the only person who has this unusual (or just unrecognized) bird connection...and all of our lives may be in serious danger as is that of the birds. But it is not only us who need ALL aspects of the targeting to completely stop. The rest of humanity and all of nature needs it too. And it should be done ASAP. I think it would be done by now if enough officials knew that things carrying on this way is not good for anyone or anything except the sadistic/satanic ones. Please help bring it all to an end - please help save the birds and us and humanity through preventing criminal use of all sort of ground and space based radio wave technologies.

   Below is a video of a 2011 report of massive amounts of birds suddenly dieing and falling from the sky. I feel that this has been being caused by criminal use of microwave weapons - ground or space based. The first reports I saw of this sort of thing were in 2005. Please help specialists to realize the REAL problem and help stop criminal use of all sorts of radio wave technologies, for the sake of the birds as well as humans and all other living things. (This part was erased from this post)

(Channel four News) 100s dead birds fall from sky in US and Sweden




 Criminal use of the radio wave technologies has been a threat to all living things for too long.
Please help stop it from continuing. Please help expose and stop the real problem.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, October 31, 2018

Projected Dream and Mind Control

   I experienced a lot of mind control connected with the recent dream about a white van. It appears to have been projected and that those who projected it wanted me to post it on this blog. I had kept thinking that I'd forgotten to write it down when I didn't really...and it was like an animated picture and not like a real dream...etc.
   It appears that they wanted others to see the dream posted here. There were a lot of hits on the blog after I'd posted it. This sort of thing has happened a lot. I took these two posts down. But the damage is probably already done. I hope there are good officials who are aware of what is happening to me and surely to others as well.

Remembering Could Save my Life

I can excuse and even fully forgive, but I do not want
to forget, because remembering could save my life.

Monday, October 29, 2018

Lady Liberty by Barbara Streisand


I like the lyrics to this song.

"Lady Liberty Lift your lamp of hope a little higher
Burn that flame of freedom just a little brighter...
Show us how to stand and feel a little prouder.
As the anthem plays lets sing a little louder,
The real danger lies in the sound of silence..."


 Lady Liberty by Barbara Streisand

https://youtu.be/eta8IWPoleU

I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, October 28, 2018

The Synagogue Shooting

  I was in a small cafe last night when I saw the news cast about the gruesome shooting in a synagogue in Pennsylvania and I cried. Its just too horrible that this has been happening. Obviously not enough people are realizing and exposing and stopping the real problem, which I feel sure is technological mind control. More should be speaking out to expose and stop it.
   The guy who did this synagogue shooting even had the drooping around his right eye, which I feel is a sign of a severe round of technological mind control. (I've seen it in many victims.) These victims actually are often not the ones who are the worse criminals, - some are victims and those who control them who are more responsible. And criminal use of ground and space based technologies is also responsible.
   A horrible part of the technological mind control programming is about forcing victims into vengeance and prejudice...etc., against their will and sometimes convincing them that they are fighting for freedom - to save their own or other people's lives. Please help expose and stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control so people can start helping each other instead of being tortured into judging and blaming and hurting each other.

And please remember that 

Vengeance can not cure vengeance.
But Freedom and Love can.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Deprivation of Medicine

   They did it again! I had found another strong and natural ginger drink and now its been removed from the shelves in the store I was getting it from. At first they moved it to a different location. But now its gone and I asked them to bring it back, but I do not know if it will do any good. This has been happening to me, with many products that I either need for my health or that I like a lot, since around 2005. I am also trapped in a situation that prevents me from obtaining other things I need for my health. Its not good for me to stay in one place and be forced to frequent the same stores, especially when medicinal or healthy items are needed.

Update Nov 7, 2018; Today, for the first time in three months, I found sage stalked in one of the stores I have to use. I think its because I'd posted this here and they want to make it look like it was not happening. This sort of thing happens a lot - if I realize it or say something about they back off and pretend it was not happening. But it was. As for the ginger, I persisted with asking for it at the other store. At first they pretended they were not even aware of the product's existence and then they said that a man forgot to order it and that it will be coming back. The fact that they use store managers to help target people, even with lacing products sometimes, is horrible.

My Declaration About Covert Help

   I feel extremely uncomfortable with covert stuff and covert messaging. I always have and still do, irregardless of who is doing it or for what reason. This is not against anything or anyone, its just the way I feel, and for good reason. Aside from it all being extremely confusing, at a time when I have been desperate for the opposite, those who have ill intentions and do the targeting and seek revenge on me are covert and everything else (IF there really is anything else that is not into torturing, controlling and using and hurting) just blends in with the bad from my vantage point...etc. I have been being beat up with it all for so long that I desperately need it all to completely stop. I've felt this way from the start. I have received covert threats and dreams that insinuate intentions to deprive me of help or to set up (frame) either a loved one or I if I do not obey and conform and join the covert stuff or leap out of my life into the enslavement "home." There have been many covert attempts to set me up for reasons to have me arrested, like trying to make me run through security doors (in order to get help) during times of desperation...etc. I have also been physically tortured for not being happy with the covert hell that surrounds me, and for begging officials to stand up, more times than I can count. And none of this can feel good to me, in any way or form, irregardless of who is or is not actually doing it. I don't trust any of it. And I still want it all to stop.    I have been waiting for good* officials to openly stand up and be here for me/us, irregardless of what organization they are with, (as long as there are not too many jurisdiction issues and they have an awareness of all aspects of the targeting) but it appears that none have this intention. And I have some serious concerns, at this point, because I've had precognitive dreams forewarning of me being lured to official places with aims to either physically kill me (in a tunnel collapse) or to inject me with something or to completely enslave me - kill me spiritually and emotionally or to fabricate a reason to have me arrested and imprisoned. And I do not want any of these things to happen to me. I do not want to be hurt anymore.

    Since around 2003 - (Since I started reporting something wrong) I have had many confusing experiences with various levels of officials - from local through presidents...etc., especially in the past several years with the FBI and Senator Shaheen and President Obama, whom had all responded to my reports in various ways. (Some of my experiences with the FBI have been very disturbing and I have lost valuable trust in everything. I hope it can someday be restored.) I have been waiting and hoping for all levels of officials to be here for me/us with good, honest explanations that can help me to feel better about it all and assure me that their intentions were good and that they are on the side of regaining freedom, although some of them (especially on the lower levels) seem to have lost their freedom and are victims too. But this has obviously not happened yet and I do not know if any of them really intend for it to, although it has been being promised for about five years. Some seem to have ill/vengeful intentions toward me and I hope this honestly proves to be untrue but I need to know the real Truth. Is real help ever really going to be here for us? I hope so. ( I was painfully tortured after posting this.)
    However, I don't want to blame good officials who have good intentions and have not been able to be here for me in the ways that I need them to be. I don't even want to blame those who have been controlled or enslaved and not able to follow their own Hearts and instincts, and have hurt me in various ways. I just want it all to stop. I know this whole situation has been extremely difficult for everyone and has been hurting everyone to some degree. I wish things were different for all of us, but none of it has been my choice. I wish we were all free. I wish this hell would end now and that our Hearts could be here for each other. My heart feels for you. It really does, no matter what.

   My loved ones have been being more deeply enslaved in the past few years and they are not safe for me to turn to either. Its all just too sad. I have been groping for hope for me, but sometimes have a hard time finding it. Everywhere I look there is either confusing cryptic covert stuff with questionable intentions or controlled people (puppets) whom they use or suffering victims who are not aware that their brain or body functions are being technologically interfered with or clueless/unaware people or vengeful mind control victims...and I can't stand it. I can't stand the way the world is right now. It shouldn't be this way. It just shouldn't. And my only consolation, right now, is that I know the real God is shining a giant Light for the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from further destruction. Please let that Light into your Heart. I have been letting in the Light, but some days it works better than others, depending on how drugged or tortured I am.

   When the good covertly blend in with the bad it creates a confusing sort of hell that has often been the worse part of the targeting for me. Most of the time it seems like the criminals just want me to trust them and think they are good and that its all about getting me to join and obey and be used, while my loved ones continue to be hurt or enslaved, instead of all of us being helped...etc. ALL of becomes too confusing and I can never be sure of the real intentions. I don't trust covert and I don't ever want to. I don't want to be tortured and threatened into joining the covert program, like they have been trying to do to me, I want good* officials to be here for me/us.

*Good is those whose Hearts and instincts are in tact and are not controlled by those who do the targeting. Many who are controlled are good people also, but they just are not free enough to be a safe source of help. And organizations that are too infiltrated to be a safe source of NON-covert help are not necessarily bad either - they just need their freedom restored also.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, October 26, 2018

The Targeting of Families

    I think they target whole families, since at least the 1970s, and do different things to different members depending on their personality. The oldest child or children seem to get more controlled, in order to be used against siblings. And the ones with more Heart seem to get the long term torture...etc. In targeted families, due to the mind control programming, there is a lot of discord and competition and jealousy and neglect and blocking of compassion...etc., especially at strategic times - when the opposite is deeply needed. I have noticed that rounds of severe, negative mind control creates a drooping above the right eye of the victim. It comes and goes, but in one victim I know of it became permanent nerve damage.

God help us all to be totally set free
And have a chance to recover

News Broadcasts of Increase of Anger in Society

  According to a recent news report President Trump is blaming the media for the increases in societal anger and the media is blaming Trump. And I wish they would all realize and expose and help to stop the REAL problem - Technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

Please help stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control from continuing to inflict discord and destruction in America as well as the rest of humanity. Please.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Presence of Danger

   My situation has worsened and I beg you to help pray for my safety and freedom as well as that for all of America and the rest of humanity. Please also do everything in your power to stop criminal use of technologies...etc., that have been being used to torture or enslave humanity.

Please set the poor enslaved ravens free
So they can't be used against you and me.

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

For the Heart of Humanity

   Since around the time when I first started realizing the scope of the technological and pharmaceutical targeting...etc., I've yearned to hold a better focus on exposing the overall situation that has been harming most of humanity in various ways. I'm sorry that I have not done a very good job with this, due to the targeting and its various effects on me. I have often felt too scared or too tortured or too frustrated and this has been evident in parts of this blog. I have tried to fix them, many times, but have not done a very good job of it. Please ignore the parts of my writings that contained too much discord and let the core of my other messages reach your Hearts. One of my primary messages has been this. . .

   The mind control part of the targeting has aimed to pit people against each other and has been doing this on scales that range from pitting loved ones and community members against each other to pitting common citizens and governments against each other and pitting countries against each other.  In my heart I can not see how fighting and blaming can help end the horrible targeting situation, because it has gotten too big and has had ill effects on too many, both inside and outside governments around the globe. So, again, I beg all government officials, especially those who are in high positions, to immediately do everything in your power to stop criminal use of both ground and space based technologies that have been used for mind control...etc. And I beg all human beings, both inside and outside the governments, to let go of the fights and let go of the discord, no matter what you read or hear, and let your Hearts reach out to your fellow human beings and deliver desperately needed validation, compassion, understanding and comfort, especially to victims of all kinds, which is almost everyone at this point. Please let go of the fight and let Love win. Help the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from further destruction. Be a part of that Heart. 

Please Help set Humanity Free
And return it to the Love
It was meant to be.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.



Friday, October 19, 2018

Horses Lasered?

   There were a couple horses fenced in on a road I often walked on in the past couple months. A beautiful bay and chestnut pair who had come up to the fence to see me every time I walked by. I always stopped to talk to them and they would just stand there and listen and sometimes even try to follow me as I left. They were starting to feel like my buddies.  But then their behaviors suddenly changed and the bay one started stomping its foot and shaking its head or bucking when I came near.  I am certain that those target and watch me were lasering them to disrupt our unions. Poor things! I know how they feel. I don't stop to talk to them anymore. :-(

I think they can also effect the brains of animals in some of the same ways that they can with humans.  They need their freedom back too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. Yesterday I had a precognitive dream which showed me experiencing severe levels of psychological harassment/torture while the rest of my belongings are being stolen from a motel that someone puts me in. I hope this does not have a chance to happen.


Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Important Video

I made this video in 2015. It has been being erased from this blog. I hope it stays here now. Please listen to it with your Heart and help stop criminal use of pharmaceuticals and radio wave technologies.


https://youtu.be/rxljJxhKxTE

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, October 7, 2018

Sinéad O'Connor - Famine

   This video puts out impactful messages that can be applied to all types of targeting all over the world. It talks of the need to face the truths of the targeting and that knowledge and understanding and grieving need to happen in order for healing to take place. The video ends with forgiveness. My heart deeply believes in this healing process and feels that our whole world is in desperate need of it. (I still feel that Senead is a Targeted Individual and is not really just "mentally ill.")



Sinéad O'Connor - Famine


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Important Post Deleated!

On January 11, 2012 I had posted a list of "Symptoms" of microwave targeting and they have erased that whole post from this blog! I also found a couple other things missing. And I can not check it all. Perhaps someday I will have the freedom to reconstruct the important things. Until then I am at the mercy...and so is all of my writings.