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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Plea For Everyone Who is In the Covert Program and is Used in Covert Rescues of Targets Like Myself

   I believe that the darkest ones who lead the targeting slyly control groups of good people whom they use in the foreground of covert rescues, which actually lead to enslavement. I feel that these good people (many who are my estranged loved ones) actually think they have been saved and that they are saving others, but I strongly feel that the reverse is true and the dangers for them are as strong as they are for those whom they are used to "rescue." I beg you to step out of the covert program and fully stand up.

   Its Safer to Stand in the Light


    This morning I had a dream, which showed a dark perpetration puppet (who used to rent a room in my Loudon, NH home) luring people away from coming to me. Then I had the experience, which I wrote into the post before this one. After I calmed my distress, I looked at the situation and it appears that another covert "rescue," by good people in the covert program, was sabotaged by those who target me and knew that it was taking place and had control over those who were attempting the "rescue." They also appeared to have used a laser on my brain, and possibly my vehicle, in order to inflict extreme anxiety upon me, through the process. I feel certain that the covert program is NOT the safe "home" that it pretends to be. And I am scared for all who are used in it without realizing what lurks behind them. Please step out. Its safer to openly stand in the Light.
   If there are people who want to help me, you can help me, as well as yourselves,  by openly standing up with me and/or passing this information on to as many people as possible. Please save yourselves, even if you do not want to openly stand with me.

God help humanity to be totally set free and have a chance to recover

Could I be wrong? It is possible. But what if I'm right? I feel that I am right. It is possible that there are good covert groups and that at least some of them are infiltrated, but I seriously doubt this. I'm not sure of all the details within the covert world. But I strongly feel that it is safer to stand in the Light. And I feel sure that the dark ones who target me, sometimes use good, unaware people in the foreground of their operations. . .that the covert rescue into their "home" is actually a sly enslavement. . .and that they have been sabotaging both covert help and overt help from higher places that would have the jurisdiction and modes of protection I've been needing and seeking. They seem to be aware of literally everything that goes on around me. Its safer to stand in the light. (I have been saying this for so long its surprising that people have not gotten the message and I wonder why.)

Please Do Not Disable my Car!

   I am praying for my vehicle to not be disabled again. Threats to do so, under the guise of help, have been happening again. It feels like its all part of the torture to inflict more distress upon me and try to force me, and what is left of my writings, into an unsafe situation. This has been done many times before and I need it to stop. It has never helped me. It merely hurts me more and enables worse levels of targeting and theft of my writings, like what happened in four horrible, torturous months last summer and an uncountable number of shorter times before that. I beg those who do this to me to please stop. Let me at least have the freedom to drive my car. I need it for my safety.

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P.S. The battery light suddenly came on this morning! I've been through about three batteries in the past year or so from them frying them to disable my car. When my car is disabled they gain more access to it and me as I am forced to leave it....etc. It is actually very dangerous for me to be stranded and at their mercy. As I write this post librarian puppets say things like, "OK. Bye," as if my exposing this means that I will not get help now. I have been through an uncountable number of rounds of this sort of thing. Its been a very difficult part of the targeting. And my heart keeps saying that "genuine help should not hurt me more or be contingent upon me silently letting them do things, which they know merely add to my distress - genuine help would just help without the covert games and set ups that VERY obviously hurt me more." So, please stop. If good, genuine help, from people who are not with those target me, is ever able to be here for me I'd need it to not be covert and be kind, considerate, protective and honest. . .and I am hanging in here the best I can with the hope that this kind of help will soon be able to be here for me.

    I have been shocked by the amount of librarians who are complete puppets for those target me. Too many people, from all walks of life, are enslaved. (They need to be set free too.) God help us all to be totally set free and have a chance to recover.

Calling All Hearts Again

Please help print and pass out this little paper.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Hope to Prevent an Unnatural "Natural" Disaster

   Around the year 2005 one of the precognitive dreams I had, about the criminally instigated "natural" disasters, showed me being in an area where a flood hit, trying to drive up a hill where rhododendrons are, and not being able to see through my windshield, which was fogging up.
   The disturbing thing about this is that I just drove up a steep hill, in the center of Goffstown, NH, and felt a strong dejavu when I saw a lot of rhododendrons. It was the type of hill that one would try to climb to escape a flood. And I am now having problems with my windshield fogging up, during certain types of weather, due to my car heater being disabled as the coldest weather started. Coincidence?
   Yes, this could all be a coincidence. And it may not be just because I am in the area, which I find too hard to fully believe. . .even though it seemed like the Alstead, NH flood (In 2005) was instigated due to my moving there. I think that those who target America and all of humanity, have sets of disasters pre-planned in certain areas, that those areas are many and are in places where they are more possible. Rounds of unusual disasters, which I feel are intentionally technologically instigating, have been happening all over the globe through the past few decades. Their goal seems to be to inflict pain and chaos, eliminate a large part of the population, take over certain stretches of land, and even whole countries like America, completely enslave what is left of humanity. . .and it just has to be stopped. It seems obvious that stopping these Unnatural "Natural" Disasters, as well as the more direct targetings of people, is to expose the crimes and either prevent criminal use of, or disable, the technologies that they are performed with.
   If those who target me do actually go to these sorts of horrible extremes, in areas I am in, or in order to hold the threat of the disasters over my head in efforts to force me into leaping into their hands - into enslavement (which they have been doing), it really does not matter where I am. The danger exists everywhere. I've had similar forewarnings about a flood happening on the coast of Maine and in Keene, NH in the deeper past. And I am not going to leap into their hands - sell my soul to the devil, especially for something that I do not feel will stop if I go.
   We need more people (especially officials and media) publicly standing up and honestly exposing these holocaustal crimes. . .and for those of us who become aware to stop being tortured and threatened and/or abducted, silenced and enslaved - brain damaged.
   I hope this post prevents this disaster IF it was being planned. And I hope your Hearts stand up to prevent the rest of the cruel UN-natural "natural" disasters from continuing around the globe. 


May the Heart of humanity quickly stand
up and save itself from further destruction
.


www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. In the deeper past my forwarnings of these disasters instigated, by criminals who are targeting humanity, had been seriously sabotaged in ways that made it look like I am just "paranoid" or whatever. But those who have the capability of listening to their instincts or who have an awareness of space based weather modification and laser technologies and watch the news. . .surely can see the Truth. They seem to back off when they are openly exposed. So, please help expose them. Too much of humanity is already enslaved with technological and pharmaceutical mind control that will not let them believe any of this, even though its proof is already evident. And the rest of us are needed to save us all. PLEASE STAND UP.

I Feel soooo Disappointed

  I have wanted to avoided the political stuff, but have been so disappointed about the whole election last year, which has grown (since last November) to an even deeper concern for America and our future safety. . .above a beyond the already critical covert targeting situation that many of us continue being harmed or destroyed by.
   Last year, as the presidential debates took place, I thought that the volatile situation was a good opportunity for the technological and pharmaceutical mind control to be exposed, since it was being made so blatantly obvious. I had even fantasized about officials standing up to expose the mind control crisis and delaying the election, until our freedom could be restored - until we could freely vote. I have felt indescribably disappointed that things went the way they did. My disappointment extends beyond words. I just want to cry every time I think about it, literally.

I Need Reassurance and Proof That All Will Be OK.
And I need it badly. I think that a lot of people do.

   I had posted my concerns about the election on May 4, 2016, but this post appears to have been completely erased from this blog by those who infiltrate my writings. However, it is still on my newer blog at this address, where I have also restored the part that I had erased as I tried to back out of political stuff, due to the magnitude of my own disappointment and fear; The Donald Trump Dilemma http://yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com/2016/05/the-donald-trump-dilemma.html


God Help America to Regain it's Freedom and Integrity
It just can't be too late, although it appears to be!!!

Friday, February 24, 2017

What Does Being "Targeted" Mean?

   In the past year I have noticed that the word "targeted" has been being heavily used in the media. . .and that the new meaning of it is to deport illegal immigrants or to simply watch possible or terrorists and their families...etc. And I am concerned that this could interfere with public perceptions of the previous meaning of being "targeted" - through the past few decades people have used the term "targeted" to expose the criminal, sadistic targetings of individuals with laser weapons, microwave weapons, covert harassment, sabotaging of our work, homes and lives...etc., which is why we are called "Targeted Individuals." Now that being "targeted" means something else will the seriousness of our plight ever be fully realized?
   Lately I have started calling what we experience as "sadistic targeting," in order to separate our situation from the "targeting" that is now being portrayed. But there are a lot of past writings, by many people, that may be grossly misunderstood in the future and this is too sad, because our situation with being targeted is criminal and cruel and inhumane and is in desperate need of public awareness and understanding and acknowledgment for the safety of all of humanity. I can not help but wonder if the new use of "targeted" is an intentional aim to minimize the holocaustal crimes that are being committed against too many. But those who use the term are most likely mind control victims. . .and the ones who are to blame are hidden behind them. God help humanity to be set free and have a chance to recover.



P.S. Yesterday the windshield on my car was again hit with some sort of film that seriously interferes with vision through it when it is wet. Radio wave torture of my brain has increased. Threats to disable and take my car/home have vamped up since around the second week of this month. My car is my home and I'd be too vulnerable to them without it. I recently had an odd dream about someone wanting to gain access to my personal belongings, including my USB writing storage devices. I do not know if it was a projected dream, but it seemed to be, which is odd. Hell has vamped up around me again lately. And I'm scared. I hope they do not succeed.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way 
Through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
And COURAGE, God...to make a STAND 
That saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Concern for Our Military and A Helpful Dream

     I have mentioned this before, but it feels important enough to post again.
   I've been concerned that our military personnel may be victims of technological mind control and may not all have radio wave detection or blocking technologies that are not filtered to prevent detection of or blocking of the low frequencies that are used for mind control. I have wondered if the pharmaceuticals, which aid technological mind control, have been in pre-prepared military foods, which could (like much of the targeting) point to medical field involvement. And I have felt that the Gulf War Syndrome is actually being caused by microwave (radio wave) targeting of the brains of our soldiers. My concerns go beyond just theories or suspicions. . .
   I used to be heavily into dream interpretation, because I had so many dreams which seemed to have meanings beyond my comprehension. Because of this a relative had come to me in 2002, told me about a dream he'd had and asked if I knew what it meant. I didn't have a clue. But I do now and have felt horrible since I realized what it meant and that was not able to help him or his sister to realize what I now feel was happening to both of them. His dream showed a silver box in the sky sending laser beams down into his sister. I now feel that his dream portrayed technological targeting being done through satellite. His sister - the one being shot, was in the Coast Guard and I do not think that this was a total coincidence.
   I am concerned that the targeting of our military probably has involved technological and pharmaceutical mind control, aimed at all branches, in the covert efforts to take over America through the past few decades. Other things have me concerned about how much success they may be having. Please help our troops to be set free - please pass this information to as many military personnel as possible, especially high ranking, as quickly as possible.

God Help America to Regain its Freedom

P.S. I have had the same concerns for all levels of government officials and employees. And of course the rest of us are being hit too. Along with these concerns are also the ones I have shared about how there appear to be modes of "protection" and "rescuing" that are actually a sly enslavement that is even sometimes performed by good, unaware people.

The Third Technological Holocaust Drawing and my Connection to Animals

   I am having a hard time doing the third drawing due to being tortured as I work on it. Its entitled Technological Holocaust - Confusion and it has the Heart with eyes looking up at a bunch of birds above it. Among the birds are a dove, a goose, a bluejay, a hawk, a raven and a cardinal. I was going to add in an eagle and a seagull. These birds, as well as others, have special meanings to me connected to my experiences with the targeting...etc.
   I have always felt an unusual connection to animals and this seems to disturb those who target me. Now that I look back I am realizing how much they have tainted this part of my life, not only through lasering my brain and blocking me...etc, but also through rumors. Today I remembered a rumor that I was told about in the 1970s, which I now feel certain was part of the targeting.
   I had loved horses when I was a child. The fact that I was sort of a "horse whisper" was becoming known and one of my mother's friends had brought her stubborn horse to me for training. And people used to get a kick out of how I often rode my horse bare backed with only a lead line...etc.  Then it all started being sabotaged, though I did not realize it at the time. One of the sabotages included someone telling me that they heard a rumor that the reason why I enjoyed riding horses without a saddle was due to getting sexual pleasure from it. This was not true, but it definitely put a damper on my joy of horse back riding. Its one of those things that I wish I had never heard. At the time I was around 15 years old and was disgusted and deeply shamed by such a rumor. . .and I couldn't understand how anyone could turn horseback riding into something dirty. How could I feel comfortable riding in front of people after being told that they were thinking that? Can you imagine how this sort  of rumor could effect a young, innocent, teenager? It was horrible. It still feels horrible. This was in the 1970s and is just one small example of the dark interference with my life.

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P.S. Since February 8th I have experienced a vamp up in threats to disable my vehicle and have it towed away. I hope they do not succeed with this. Torture of my brain has vamped up as well. Last night I had a dream about a man (like J.S.) wanting to get into my storage devices that I have my old writings on. I have also recently received threats that they will wipe out all of my past writings if I do not erase certain things...etc. I pray they do not succeed.
 


Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Will the Truth Set Us Free?

Who was it who said, "The truth shall set you free"? I believe it will, especially in situations where dark manipulations aim to make the innocent look bad or guilty. We just need more people telling it.

Second in a Series of Technological Holocaust Drawings

   This is my second rough sketch for the Technological Holocaust series of paintings, which I hope to complete someday. This one portrays Targeted Individual's grope for help. Its called Technological Holocaust - Crippled Grope for Help.

Technological Holocaust - Crippled Grope for Help by Sharon R. Poet

More may be coming soon.

Doing these drawings is helping me, in a small degree, to preserve my sanity and express a bit of the pain I feel.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

First of a Series of Technological Holocaust Drawings

   This is a rough sketch of the first, in a series of at least four paintings, which I hope to complete someday. This is the darkest one and it portrays the sadistic targeting of the Heart of humanity. It is called, Technological Holocaust - Trapped.

Technological Holocaust - Trapped by Sharon R. Poet

Second Drawing

More may be coming soon

My brain is being painfully tortured since I talked about feelings this morning.

Friday, February 17, 2017

I'm Sorry for the Confusion

   The covert harassment part of the targeting has been very confusing to me. I am deeply sorry if there are people whom I have unfairly named or blamed on this blog and its books. Hopefully it will all someday become more clear and I can set records straight in the final book of this blog. Hopefully time will soon show the Truths and I will be able to better explain everything. Until then, please forgive me – please forgive the confusion and mistakes.
   I have learned a lot since my early days of blogging while I figure out things. Though I have made many mistakes, my intentions with all of my writings about the targeting have been to expose and stop it so that our freedom can be regained. . .especially freedom from the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, which I now feel will fix most of the other problems that can not be resolved under its constrictions and manipulations and wars. Some of my posts have also been a desperate fight for my life and that of others who have been being heavily targeted. . .and some have been desperate attempts to stop painful tortures or torments...etc.,. . .and some of these probably should not have been written, especially at times when I was being heavily microwaved, which warps perceptions. But some of my posts have been altered or erased by those who target me and this ads to the confusion. I'm sorry. I want my writings to reflect more of my heart then they do. But I feel trapped and can only hope to someday have the freedom and understanding that I'd need in order to fix it all and make it more presentable.

May Truth and Heart Stand Up for Freedom

Technological and Pharmaceutical Targeting is Not a "Theory"

This is not a "theory" - its a fight for our lives.
Its not a matter of if you believe it or not -
Its a matter of if you are aware and if you
Can care to help regain our freedom. 

This phrase has been on my website and in a poem on this blog
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Wednesday, February 15, 2017

The Sly Covert Rescue Into Enslavement Depicted in a Music Video

   I had found this video a year or two ago and have actually been scared to post it. But I now feel a need to use it to help prove what has been happening in the process of people being targeted and then approached for a covert rescue that is falsely depicted as a good thing. I feel certain that the covert rescue is really a sly abduction into complete enslavement by the same people who target us. I had a dream about the false covert rescue in 2006 and I have experienced a lot of what is depicted in this video. I have tried to objectively look at it from different directions, but my heart still cries, "Genuine good openly stands in the Light and does not keep the dark targeting secret...."
  
I strongly feel that this type of covert rescue is a candy coated satanic abduction that wants to be able to say that it was the VICTIM'S CHOICE to go. . . and this is just too horribly sad for all who have been enslaved and those of us who are being tortured and surrounded by messages that call for us to leave our lives and join them in their "home,"  in order to get the painful technological tortures and harassment and threats of slanders or framings or false "mental illness" labels...etc., to stop.
    This Kelly Clark video of "People Like Us" is a blatant depiction of the targeting or monitoring and experimentation on a little girl and the covert rescue being portrayed as a wonderful thing. Don't blame Kelly Clark, because she most likely does not even realize what is happening.  But notice the words in this song as well as the video. I have experienced these sorts of messages from the covert program that surrounds me with round after round of tortures followed by aims to make me feel like they are on my side as they attempt covert rescues, which sometimes even use estranged loved ones who are already enslaved and think that they are helping...etc.; "Wake up into this world unknown, but know that we are not alone. . . They try to knock us down, but change is coming. . . Don't let it get the best of you. You'll make it out alive. . . People like us we've gotta stick together. . .  Hey, this is not a funeral. Its a revolution after all your tears have turned to rage. . . This is the life that we choose. . . Come out. Come out if you dare. Tonight we're gonna change forever... "


https://youtu.be/yWbMz_aBlMU?list=PLQONgELhN0SW5P7uk5N8ZA_wODSNtSFAR

   This video also shows government officials as being the bad guys. This happens in the targeting - it tries to pit us against "the government." I'm not saying that every part of the government is totally innocent. I just strongly feel that there is also good there and that government officials, and their families, have also been being targeted. I feel that a covert aim to take over America has been happening through aims to take over all levels of government as well as businesses and common citizens. And, like I have been saying, I feel that this has been happening through technological and pharmaceutical mind control and possibly filters, which block detection of  radio wave frequencies used for mind control, as well as some modes of "protection" being a sly enslavement. (I still feel that there is far more corruption in all aspects of the field of medicine, than there is in our government, and that they have been getting away with far too much.) In the bigger picture, the targeting and enslavement has been happening to people from all walks of life. Its dangerous as hell. AND I FEEL THAT THE ONLY WAY TO GET COMPLETELY OUT OF IT IS TO OPENLY STAND UP IN THE LIGHT -  TO HONESTLY EXPOSE IT ALL SO THAT IT CAN BE STOPPED AND WE CAN ALL PULL TOGETHER AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF FIGHTING AGAINST EACH OTHER. GOD HELP US ALL TO BE TOTALLY SET FREE AND HAVE A CHANCE TO RECOVER.
 
Please Stand Up. Please Help Set Humanity Free.
www.targetedinamerica.com

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, February 13, 2017

The Worst Kind of Terrorism

    I'm having a hard time understanding the sudden border issues, connected with concerns about terrorism entering America, while we experience holocaustal levels of terrorism through space based radio wave technologies...etc., which may even be the root cause of most other types of terrorism around the globe as well as here.
   I feel that the worst kind of terrorism, which America and the rest of humanity has already been suffering from, is the technological and pharmaceutical mind control and its enslavement of human beings from all walks of life; the technological targetings that create a variety of physical illnesses and immeasurable suffering in unaware victims; the torturous targetings followed by aims to covertly rescue victims, which is actually abductions into enslavement performed under the guise of help; the staged deaths of victims who are permanently enslaved into the covert program that targets us; the inhumane tortures, false "mental illness" labels, and threats to kill, frame, slander...etc., that have been being inflicted upon heavily Targeted Individuals who start figuring out, refuse to join and aim to expose, what is happening.
   I beg the Heart of America (and other countries) to peacefully stand up, help restore our Freedom - help prevent criminal use of ground and space based radio wave technologies, pharmaceuticals, parasites...etc.; please help expose this technological holocaust and end the horrible suffering and confusion and destruction of people's minds, hearts, health, lives. . .and let recovery begin.

God help America and the rest of
humanity to regain its Freedom

P.S. I have altered this a bit, since its first posting several days ago, in order to not include my opinions of Trump's actions. . .which is all just too discouraging and seems too distracting during a time when too many are suffering in a horribly destructive technological holocaust and its covert wars. God, help us all to be completely set free and have a chance to recover.

P.S.S. These storms and cold temps have been difficult, but I'm hanging in here. The heater in my car worked for a short while today - during the hour or so that my car had already been warmed by a rare bit of sunshine.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Please do not Misjudge and Abandon Us

I decided to post this again, because it is important.

    I wish that all aware government officials would follow their Hearts into standing up for America and especially for those of us who are being technologically tortured, harassed...etc., no matter what our fear or anger or confusion writes or says. Please do not misjudge and/or abandon those of us who are being heavily targeted. We need you to understand and care that we are often too hurt or too overwhelmed or too scared or are being too tormented and tortured to be doing all the right things in all the right directions and in all the right ways, in order to report the targeting and get help. Most of the time its all we can do just to survive the hell we are trapped in. We need you to stand up for us no matter what obstacles and manipulations surround us. I wish that every level of government officials could compassionately pull together and honestly stand up for us, for each other, for America and ultimately for all of humanity as quickly as they can.



Thursday, February 2, 2017

Radio Wave Blockers in a Hospital Parking Garage?

     I have tried hard to figure out who is doing the sadistic technological targeting, but can not completely do so while still being targeted. But there are obviously many people, from all walks of life, who have been being sadistically targeted and enslaved and used to help target and enslave other people. Its a horrible covert war that has been raging under a technological holocaust, which utilizes mind control technologies and their aiding pharmaceuticals. In the bigger picture, if anyone wants to point a finger at fully responsible parties, instead of blaming other victims, it would probably help to look deep into the history and backing of every branch of our medical field and people like Nicola Tesla.
   I have had many experiences that prove to me the link between the targeting and various parts of the medical field. A few years ago I was going through a round of technological torture of my brain. (The source, as usual, seemed to be coming from a satellite.) I drove under the parking garage at the Concord, New Hampshire Hospital, in order to park in a shady spot for a while, and the targeting instantaneously stopped. Then a security guard vehicle zoomed in and a man jumped out and rushed into, and then back out of, a utility shed inside of the garage. The torture suddenly started up again after he went into the utility shed. It seemed like he probably flipped a switch. I do not think that this was a coincidence.
   There have been many times when I've wondered why a place like the Concord Hospital has radio wave blockers in their parking garage and who, connected to them, was so keen on not letting me have a break from being tortured. . .and if they know about the technological targeting why are tortured victims continuing to be called "mentally ill"...etc. Why are they not on our side – the side of harmless and defenseless people who are being hurt?

More may be added later

Sadistic Targeting Patterns Are More Evident in Famous People

   The sadistic type of targetings have been happening to good, decent people from all walks of life, but are more evident in those who are famous, because so much of their lives are publicly recorded. (Having been being targeted myself I recognize the patterns.) It appears that some famous people have been targeted and careers ruined; some have been targeted and then "rescued" - enslaved in the covert program that is called "home"; some have been targeted and killed; some have experienced more than one of these methods; and all should be set free and have a chance to recover through realizing what has been happening to them. (The rest of us too.)
   Of the famous people, whom I have noticed the sadistic targeting patterns around, are the Dixie Chicks, Micheal Jackson, Sugarland, Sarah McLachlan and Kris Kristofferson.
    With artists like Micheal Jackson and Sarah McLachlan its more obvious - they obviously brought heart into their music, which touched other people's Hearts. Then the "accident" or chains of losses or slanders. . .and then things are not the same as they were before. In Micheal Jackson's case his change became noticeable in his videos as well as in the sad surgical mutilation of his own facial features, which had to have been done with technological and pharmaceutical mind control affecting his perception of his looks. He was adorable before he did that to himself! The Dixie Chicks were VERY blatantly targeted - their career  ruined. And was that stage collapse on August 13, 2011, just before a Sugarland concert a true "accident" or was it caused by microwave weapons - weather modification technologies? One USA news report stated that "Kristian Bush thought a bomb had detonated." The news reports speak for themselves. It can not all be coincidences, though some may be.
   This list of people, famous or otherwise, being inflicted with sudden disasters or unusual chains of losses or slanderings...etc., as their lives (as they lived them) crumble, could go on and on and on and include me and also many people whom I personally knew. I hope that all enslaved individuals and groups and organizations will soon realize the enslavement.  I hope that those of us who are still being tortured for resisting soon get the protection we need. I hope that humanity will be quickly set free from all levels of the targeting and enslavement - the Heart of humanity saved.

   The Sugarland video below has a powerful message. Its has a great beat with awesome lyrics. We all do indeed need to peacefully "stand up," not just children. But the "home" part, at the beginning of the video, disturbs me, because that is what those who target us call their covert enslavement program - they call it going "home," in order to make it sound good to victims whom they are deceiving. Many victims seem to think that the "rescue" into the enslavement "home" is protection, but its not. Does Sugarland know this? Obviously not. But I hope they find out soon, if that is what the "home" in this video is about. [UPDATE: But sadly, they split up after the fatal stage collapse and the confusion and chaos that followed it.]

Sugarland: "Stand Up" [live]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwdOUW2abqI

God help us all to be totally set free
 I pray for God to help us all to be totally set free and NOT enslaved in that dark "home," which too many have been convinced is a good place to be. I still strongly believe that the covert "rescue" into what they call "home" is actually enslavement.

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Wednesday, February 1, 2017

I Dedicate this Song to My Daughters

   Thinking of my daughters and I, as I listen to this song, tears at my heart. Before the targeting finished tearing us apart, and before I realized that we were being targeted, (around the year 2005) I had launched into putting most of my focus into my work, while the targeting slowly and inconspicuously tore us apart. As I realized the technological part of the targeting it quickly vamped up, and convinced them that I was just "mentally ill," because I tried to convince them of what was happening and to join me in trying to get FBI help with it. They tried to have me institutionalized and I was forced to completely pull away from them. This was in the fall of 2011 and was the most painful day of my life. As I drove away I called them, and, in more pain than I have ever felt, said, "That was the worse thing you could have done! You just lost me." This was the day that they became a danger to me and I felt that I had lost them. But I'm sure that they didn't understand and were deeply hurt too. There was no one in their lives who could help them understand that the targeting was real and they were surrounded by too many who had been doing the opposite. We didn't stand a chance. They lost me and I lost them and this has surely left a painful wound in all of our hearts, because we had been close and our love for each other had ran deep.
   We were all deeply hurt as the targeting cruelly tore us apart. At first I stayed away from them, in order to save myself from being institutionalized and force medicated. And then I stayed away, in order to save all three of us from those types of vamp ups against me.
    Before I realized the scope of the mind control part of the targeting I had felt disappointed in them for not letting their Hearts bypass messages from those who had been convincing them that the targeting was all in my head and that I should go to an institution. But I now realize how impossible it has been for them to realize and face the reality of the targeting. I know now that none of it was their fault. They were also targeted and hurt in many ways. I still believe in their Hearts. I still believe in them - in who they were born to be. I was blessed with two absolutely awesome people for daughters. And I am not just saying that because I am their mother. Its really True. And the pains that have been inflicted upon them has hurt me too.
   I have tried not to think of them very much during this time of forced separation and my fight to survive, because it hurts too much and there is nothing I can do to bridge the gap or stop the targeting or save them (or myself) until we have other people openly acknowledging the targeting and protecting us from it. My excruciating wait for that has already felt like more than one forever and it does not look like it will be able to happen. I miss them so much - I deeply miss what could have been if we had not been targeted. My heart aches for all that has been lost in the decades of the hell that we have been surviving. Not being able to freely be together and love and trust each other has hurt indescribably.
   I still periodically send them little "I love you" messages, because I can not bear them feeling unloved or blamed by me. But words are not the real thing, especially when delivered through technologies. I wish we were all free and recovering from the hell we have been put through. My written fight for freedom has often been fueled by my hope for our hearts to reunite and recover and make up for too many lost decades.

    Though our separation was forced by the targeting, I still often feel guilty. I wish I'd realized the full nature of the targeting sooner. I wish I'd known. I wish I could have protected them from the pain of thinking that their mom is crazy as well as from the other targetings that have been performed against them. I wish I could take away their pain and free their beautiful Hearts.


Dear Girls, I am so sorry that their has been too little that I could do. I still believe in us - I believe that our hearts will eventually re-unite even if this can not happen in this lifetime. I still believe in you - I still believe in the beauty of your Hearts and Souls. I love you both so much.

Vince Gill - I Still Believe In You

https://youtu.be/baOz601--b0?list=PLQONgELhN0SUeKCbx3QdgdZBlnAqNQXTA
   This post is not asking my daughters to stand with me. I know that this is impossible without outside help. I just want them to know that they have not lost my love and that I do not blame them. They are victims too.

 I still believe in me too.



Sarah McLachlan Targeted?

   I had intuitively felt that Sarah McLachlan had been targeted and that it was probably due to her deep heart and strong sense of independence. Then I saw a few videos of hers and felt more sure of it. There seems to be many similarities in her character and mine, although she got a lot further than I did, and even made a come back, with her work. The targeting also seems to have followed some similar patterns in our situations. One of the patterns has been a process of bringing us to our knees through instigating deaths of loved ones or broken relationships or loss of business or all of these...etc., and then repeatedly putting out the message to "think positive" as we feel and express the pain. . . And through it all they try to force us into the enslavement "home." It appears that Sarah went through this. I have too.
   My heart keeps saying "Its more positive to be real, especially in a world where the demand for "positive thinking" merely aims to push us away from our feelings - away from our Hearts and away from being real." And my soul cries, "I don't belong in that dark "home." I don't want to go! I want to be free until my REAL Home calls for me."
   I love most of Sarah McLachlan's first songs, especially the "Arms of the Angel." I like the part of the song, in the video below, which says, "I won't break. I won't bend. It'll all be worth it - worth it in the end. . . In the burning of uncertainty I will be your solid ground. . . Cast me gently into morning for the night has been unkind. Take me to a place so holy that I can wash this from my mind..." 

Sarah McLachlan plays "Answer" - LIVE


 https://youtu.be/1lV33Na_N7Q

   I can relate to much of this song as well as many others that Sarah McLachlan has written. As I suffer through the targeting my heart often cries, I don't want to break! As I am surrounded by rude demands for blind obedience, my soul cries, I don't want to bend! I desperately need a safe and solid ground and wish I had it. And my hope used to think, it will all be worth it in the end.  But lately I am not so sure. I guess time will tell. I'm scared for America and the rest of the world. I'm scared for those of us who have been being heavily targeted. And I am scared for me. May our Freedom be quickly restored no matter what obstacles sit in its path

www.targetedinamerica.com

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


 P.S. It appears that I am getting some flack for posting this. But I feel that it is important for us to stand up for each other. I also feel that Micheal Jackson and Sugarland have been being targeted. And God knows how many others who do not realize it. I notice the patterns in these people because they are public figures and play music that I like and watch. I do not notice most people.