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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Saturday, October 28, 2017

A Serious Danger

   A Serious Danger Portrayed in a Dream Around last Spring I had a dream that forewarned of extreme danger in a covert rescue. (This was not the first of such dreams.) But this dream appears to apply to the present time period. In THIS dream ‘I rescued and being held in a place, with a group of other people, and we were being forced to go into a tunnel that supposedly lead to freedom. I sensed that it didn't and that it just lead deeper into captivity. I tried to tell the others that its not safe, but some of them go into the tunnel anyway and it collapses on them...etc. Some are killed by the cave in.’ I hope this does not even have the chance of really happening. (I've also had dreams warning of them trying to get me to a facility where they try to inject me with something.)
   I still feel that there is no secrecy, from the dark ones who target us, especially not in the covert rescue stuff. I don't think there ever was. I think they are in the back ground of it all, or are overseeing it, and that it leads to enslavement and is all orchestrated by those who target us and America and humanity. And I feel that good places and people have been being used in the foreground of these operations, so its hard to sense the dangers that lurk behind the scenes, but I feel that they are there. I sense that there is a vamp up in danger for many right now, certainly for me. I beg good officials to stand in the Light - to openly stand up for us.
   In the past few weeks there has been another vamp up of technological tortures and interference with my brain as well as obvious aims to drug me. I have noticed two different occasions when my car was accessed while I was in a store or library or church. The aim to abduct me under the guise of a covert rescue has also vamped up again, and sometimes happens during rain storms. The tortures and drugging appear to be to set me up and make me want to leap into the covert rescue....as is the usual pattern. I have repeatedly said, "NO I DO NOT WANT TO GO!" Their aim is obvious, in the patterns of torture and telling me that I have to "go home" as well as the disrespect for my feelings and choice to not leave my life "forever"...etc. This is really nothing new. I've been through many horrible rounds of this since around June of 2013.
   I am concerned for my safety and am also concerned that those who target me often seem to use good people in the foreground of their covert abduction attempts - people who really think they are helping. I pray for their safety too. Please help pass the word on this. Its safer to stand in the Light in supportive groups. Please do. It doesn't have to be with me. Do it for yourselves.
Torture and raven warnings vamped up after my initial posting of this post. But I do know that this hell just has to stop for everyone it has been hurting and everyone it aims to hurt. And more people need to be aware. ( I also got death threats and threats against my children after posting this!)

P.S.S. Long ago had a dream of officials standing up and not getting hurt. I believe in this. I believe this hell will all start ending when more good people, especially those in influential places, are fully and openly standing up.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

"I won't be nuts for you"

   I watched clips from the movie, "Nuts!" in a library and it really touched my heart. I wish I could watch the whole movie. I can relate, a bit, to the personality of the character Barbara Streisand plays in this movie. I can also relate to the horrible scenario of feeling like I have to prove my sanity, just to keep what little is left of my freedom, while having too much else to deal with. I tear up every time I watch it.
   In this video Barbara Streisand passionately begs for her freedom from being falsely labeled as crazy. She cries out, "If I play this part  you all seem to want me to play. If I play sick. . . poor sick Claudia She needs our help. Well I won't play that part. You hear me? I won't give you that out... He can sign a piece of paper saying that I'm nuts, but its only a piece of paper. And you can't make me nuts that way no matter how many times you sign it. No matter how many times you say it you can't make me nuts. . . Just get it straight all of you. I won't be nuts for you. Did you get that?" I could say this to all of those who have been used to try to make me think that I am just mentally ill, in order to get financial help or what it is really for - in order to hide the targeting.


"I won't be nuts for you" scene in the movie, Nuts

 https://youtu.be/CDwnIJ5ohu4

"Did you get that?"

Beacons

    Many of those of us who are long term heavily Targeted Individuals, and are publicly exposing the targeting, are beacons for the rest of humanity, because we know what is happening and we have the wisdom of experience. We may not look like it on the surface, because our aims to expose the targeting are often crippled by it and often do not portray it very functionally or with perfect accuracy. But please give us the benefit of your doubt, look past mistakes and misperceptions and past those who call us “mentally ill,” in order to hide the crimes that REALLY ARE happening, in a variety of degrees, against most (if not all) of humanity.

Those of us who are being hit hard need your Hearts to become aware and find the courage to openly stand up for and WITH us. . . for all of humanity.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Concern for Targeted Individuals

I am coming deeply concern for Targeted Individuals and feel that I have to speak up, because our lives are still in serious danger. (Several months ago, I had started a list of TI videos out of this concern.) There seems to be many traps set up for TIs on the web, or other places designed to help being used to stalk, recruit, abduct...etc. Much of what is on the web has not been safe, especially for TIs who are just starting to realize the targeting and are scared and in deep need of something that is 100% secure, safe and kind and supportive. We need better levels of help.
   In my Yearn for Freedom book I'd hoped to share more of my concerns and my process of figuring things out, in order to help other TIs who are just starting to realize the targeting - I'd hoped they could learn from my mistakes..., but whoever had my computer infiltrated, and also technologically tortures me, seems to have a serious issue with me saying anything about the targeting I experienced in TI forums on the web in 2011 and 2012. My Yearn for Freedom book is now on Amazon, but (like my other writings) did not end up the way my heart wanted it to be, due to a vamp up in the harassment and technological torture and various types of technological interference as I aimed to do it. But it is a record of many things that are not in my other books.
   I have been being too heavily targeted, to do a perfect job with any of my writings. For a while, I kept trying to make some of them better, with the hope that they will help us all and not offend possible avenues of genuine good help being here for us... but my efforts, like this last one, have too often been crippled by the targeting in various ways.

Heavy Torture of Brain

   The interference with and torture of my brain has been really bad lately. Painful torture almost all day yesterday. I was not able to do my Yearn for Freedom book the way I'd wanted to. Way too much interference on all levels, including in an infiltrated lap top, which I returned to where it came from. I still need protection from the targeting, but I guess that's been obvious.

Monday, October 23, 2017

With the Heart of Honesty and Truth



With the Heart of honesty and truth
Mistakes can be forgiven,
Wrongs can be set right,
The darkness can stop
And Freedom will rein.






    I am experiencing painful torture since I woke this morning, which appears to be a punishment for verbally venting my feelings yesterday.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

A TI's Grope for Courage and Hope

  We, Targeted Individuals have been too grossly misunderstood and disbelieved, instead of validated and helped and this has to change, because it is hurting us too much, on top of all else. Due to the mind control, many of our loved ones have turn their backs on us. Since the New York Times article about Targeted Individuals, I have felt literally sickened by the direction this headed in in 2016. I'd hoped for the opposite. But we must dig deep for the courage to push on and just do the best we can, even though our stand for freedom for ourselves, and the rest of humanity, is sometimes crippled by the targeting.
   Deep in the shadows of the pain in my heart a little voice whispers, "It will happen. The sun will rise for all of humanity." I don't know if it will happen in my lifetime. But I know it will happen - humanity will be set free and all levels of victims will finally get the understanding, validation and love that has been needed for so long. And, those of us who are gone will have hopefully left something behind that can help others to see the truths and what can never be allowed to happen again.

I have been being hit hard lately, especially with the torturing of my brain.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control

   The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control is that it blocks our Hearts, our intuition, our instincts and stops the process of inner growth – preventing us (even children) from naturally maturing. The dangers in this cannot be overstated. I beg you to do everything in your power to help set humanity free. Please.
In order to attain world peace
Our Hearts must be set free

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Poem I Wrote in 2012

I don't want to be left to evil pretenses of helping hands.
I need to be comforted by those who can care to understand.
I don't want you to declare me insane for their hateful gain.
I need you to soothe my wounds instead of inflicting more pain.
I don't want you to watch from a silent distance while I die.
I need you here beside me as I pray to God and cry.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

What Happened to Them?

   Last Spring I started a list of Targeted Individuals, (TIs) out of a deep concern that, through the past few decades, they have been being abducted and forced into complete enslavement. I strongly feel that the most torturous parts of the technological targeting are often done specifically to force the victim into leaping into enslavement under the guise of it being a covert rescue. Many TIs suddenly become missing, torn from their lives and loved ones. I now believe that, with at least some of the TIs who are listed as suicides, their deaths may have been staged. I have loved ones that appear to have been abducted. It hurts indescribably, the way that targeted families have been being torn apart. It appears that the ones who are less controllable and/or who become aware are torn from the rest of the family one way or the other. I have been mostly isolated from my family and there have been repeated attempts to torture/force me into the covert "Rescue."
   What is happening to the ones they force to leap or the ones they abduct through staging their death? Where are they? What has happened to them? And what is happening to their loved ones? I believe that the abducted ones are probably completely enslaved. And I feel that their loved ones, if they are not too effected by technological and pharmaceutical mind control, probably have feelings/intuitions that something is horribly wrong - feelings that prevent healthy grieving and closure. Its a horrible part of this holocaust, which is in desperate need of realization and prevention. I hope that it is not only exposed and stopped, but that those who have been enslaved are reunited with their families so that all can have the understanding that is need to support each other and recover.
   Around the year 2013, while I was experiencing what appeared to be multiple groups zooming in to try to abduct me through a covert rescue, I was actually trying to give it the benefit of my doubt and thought there was some good behind some of it. But then I had a dream, which warned of a group of people getting me and holding me in a prison underground with other people whom they were actually eating. They were cannibals who lived on a wealthy estate. I know how gruesome this sounds, but it may be symbolic of us being hurt or enslaved/consumed. And I believe it to be true. I think that what happens to TIs who are being abducted probably depends on who gets them. If there is even the slightest chance that this is happening to human beings, it should be known and thoroughly investigated and stopped as quickly as possible.
   A few years ago I had tried to get lists of Targeted Individuals, but was not able to. My concern has persisted, especially after Racheal Orbin (or Orbon) appears to have vanished and her name wiped out of my writings by those who infiltrated my computer. This feels really important to me. People should not just keep vanishing without a trace of them left behind. And their loved ones should know what happened to them. Its all just too horrible, no matter where they are or what has happened to them. So, I started making a list from youtube videos. Some of the videos may be mind control victims that are used to pretend they are Torture victims but they are victims too. I am experiencing a laser shot to my heart, and then some other threatening stuff, as I write this!!!!

Youtube Link to a Few Targeted Individual Videos

Under the Guise of Help

   I had shared a bit of this in 2013, but I hope other people, especially other Targeted Individuals, will realize the full scenario, which comes from the wisdom of my own experiences.

Under the Guise of Help

   Some key parts of the targeting are perpetuated under the guise of "help," but sometimes seems to use good, unaware people (often mind control victims or members who think they are really helping) in the foreground of it, so be careful who you blame. However, some seem to know exactly what they are doing so be careful for yourself too.
   Before I realized that I was being targeted, and before I knew anything about the technologies that are used on us, those who targeted me had often sent their operatives to "help" me through offering jobs or friendships or places to live after they sabotaged my homes...etc.
   The V2K (voice to skull) transmissions of their voices were occasionally projected into my brain as I woke, as if it was part of a dream and answers to my prayers and "help" from God.
  I now think that, during these times, my instincts were dulled with drugs or technological interference with my brain function or both. I trusted too much of it and it really messed up the course of my life.
   In my initial gropes for information and understanding on the web, those who target me tried to be the ones to inform me, feeding me misinformation and giving bad advise.
   As I grope for financial help they have aimed to be the ones to "help" me, in multiple ways. While holding me in destitution they have repeatedly cut back on financial help and then tried pushing me into begging for help on the streets where someone could hurt me or to getting a loan on my Poetic Publications business, which would surely lead to the loss of it if they prevented me from being able to pay back the loan...etc.
   I have experienced uncountable episodes of them disabling my car and then zooming in to be the ones to fix it while doing things like breaking something else or rubbing dirt into the carpet or invading my belongings or planting a tracking device...etc.
   As I cried and begged for safety and protection, they often aimed to be the ones to "rescue" me. They have even repeatedly tried to force me into their covert "rescue" through torturing me and then zooming in to "help" me.
   Since I have been begging for an OVERT stand up instead of the covert "rescue," which I have sensed leads to complete enslavement, they seem to be aiming to be the ones to control the stand up through setting up my loved ones to be blamed.
   "Help" from those who target us merely adds to the confusion, chaos and pain, when allowed to happen or when its the only help that is available. My situation forces me to get financial help from any where I can and is a rough situation where it has often been delivered with harassment and guilt trips, especially at strategic times. But from the start, I have defied the advise and focused primarily on proving the technological and pharmaceutical parts of the targeting, because they are what enables and controls the rest of it. I turned away from the "help" on the web to do my own research and started figuring out more. I have refused to agree to leave my life forever in the covert rescue. And, over and over again, on my primary blog, I have begged for the kind of help that is desperately needed. I hope we get it soon.

P.S. Targeted Individuals are often advised to only focus on gang stalking part of the targeting, in order to get help. The danger in Targeted Individuals remaining unaware of the being remotely watched with technologies that can also perform mind control, and focusing primarily on the covert harassment (gangstalking) part of the targeting, is that it clearly aims to gain our trust, often even using enslaved loved ones, in order to either force us to join it or to covertly leap out of our lives (forever) and into complete enslavement under the guise of it being a good rescue. They also try to gain our trust in order to advise us. Focusing on the covert stuff can also drive a TI crazy as they try to figure it all out while being tortured...etc. Its horrible. Just plain horrible.
Focusing on the covert harassment instead of the core problem also seems like a distraction – a total waste of time to focus on something that is completely monitored and controlled by those who watch and target us as well as control those who stalk us. If they don’t want their puppets to be caught, they won’t be. And the reverse is true as well – they could set up whomever they want to have caught and then its victims fighting against other victims, the hell just gets worse for everyone and the REAL perpetrators just have another field day behind the scenes.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Danger of Perpetrators Being the Ones to Expose Their Own Crimes Through Setting Up Their Victims to Be Blamed

   Back in 2012, I had posted my concern about what appeared to be leaders of this horrible holocaust aiming to be in the foreground of reporting parts of it, sometimes even copying exposure of things that have already been shared by people like myself. (and sometimes wiping it out of my writings or changing dates...etc. so they can take credit for it.)  A serious danger in this is that, as things reach a point of people actually being caught in the crimes, they could try to set up their own victims to be blamed, perpetuating the targeting while pretending to be standing up against it.
     I hope this is not allowed to gain any more ground; I hope the Heart of media and governments, around the globe, stand up to expose the technological mind control, its enslavement of humanity, and all the scams that can be performed, in order to hurt victims and their families under the guise of help, even in our own judicial systems.

If Only They Knew!

   When I heard about the Vegas shooting, at the country music concert, my first gut feeling was that he was an unaware V2K victim who thought God was talking to him and may have thought that he was doing a service to help save people. Whether this is true or not, the scenario certainly is a serious danger that exists in out world. And it could be stopped by full public disclosure of the technologies, which have been being used on people. If everyone knew about the technological mind control, and the V2K part of it, they would know that IT IS NOT GOD talking to them, and that IT IS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS, and they would have the opportunity to resist it and would be able to get support from fellow human beings who would understand. I beg EVERYONE who is aware to do more to help bring public awareness to all levels of the technological targeting of human beings...etc. 

Criminal use of mind control technologies, and their V2K
applications, are more dangerous than any of the guns.
Please help expose and stop criminal use of them


P.S. I was a bit slow to post this, because I have been experiencing yet another batch of set ups, including rounds of torture. I have been overwhelmed and have been trying to focus on less gruesome things, but this had to be said. Lately they are hitting me with painful laser shots to the right side of my neck when I talk too much or say things they want to be kept secret, or talk to a puppet...etc. As I write this I am being struck with sudden pain in my torso. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

I'm scared

      I've heard it said that, in this targeting mess, "fear is the worst enemy." I guess that’s true. But I feel scared. I am scared for my loved ones who have all been being targeted too, just in different ways. I am scared for my children and their babies and other babies that are being hurt. I'm scared for all the other families who have been being targeted. I'm scared for our law enforcement personnel, including the FBI and CIA and military...etc. I'm scared for America and our governments. I'm scared for all of humanity. I'm scared that the dark infiltration has gained too much ground. I don't want to let fear make me fight against any of these places, who have been being hurt too, but it has. I have tried, in between rounds of crippling targeting, to hold my heart out to all of them, even those who have been used against me. I want to stay in that place, where my heart is stronger than my fear and pain, but the targeting has often blocked my heart to too much of a degree and. . .I’m scared.
   Let it go, my heart says...just let it all go - the fear and its fight. I wish my heart could reach a stronger hand. But there is so much I don't understand. I want the good in America and the rest of humanity to succeed - to be free from the darkness that has been controlling it for too long - to stand in the Light for Freedom to be restored. I sometimes struggle to hold onto my vision of that - of things getting better and Hearts standing up and all targeted families and people saved and pulling back together to support each other and recover.
    I'm still standing, but its a crippled stand. I'm hurt and I'm scared and my strength has been being drained by the tortures and microwaves. I'm praying for strength.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Yearn for Freedom Book


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tough Time

   The past two days were torturous. And I am again being threatened with prison and the disabling of my car. They accessed my car and storage container within the past few weeks. They have been accessing email account. They are badgering me about writings...still! They did a set up with a man who was rude and mean to me.
   I cried hard this morning - so frustrated and feeling the pain of those of us who continue to be hurt and even destroyed. Feel like I finally figured out the rest of what is happening to block the Heart of humanity and have been too imprisoned to do a good job with my work. They threaten to put me in prison, but I am already there. An obvious prison would be better than this in some ways, but not in the way of me having to eat or drink only what I was given to me...etc. I hope they do not succeed with any of it anymore.

  I guess the darkness has been going after the good, and trying to make us look like the bad, since things really started coming out more in the sub medias. Its sad. I hope they do not do anymore and can not succeed with what they have already started. I still pray for all the good in the world to openly stand up for themselves and us and America and the rest of humanity.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Important Reminder

Please Read and Share this Post for the Children
Below is a new version of it plus an article from my older writings.

To Save the Children

   I was shocked to find these headlines, which read, "I think my child is Mentally ill" on top of a picture of a sad little girl who has the words "I feel sad," printed above her head. Below are a my photographs of the headlines in that magazine and my article on the subject.
   I hope those who wrote and printed this article are not offended by this. I don't know what their intentions were. Perhaps they believe what they have shared and had no ill intentions. If so, I hope they read this with their hearts and let it change their minds. . .for the sake of humanity's children.


  This ad was on page 10 of the the November, 2015 issue of the New Hampshire "Parenting" magazine. It definitely comes across as an aim to make people think that sadness is wrong or worse - that it should raise concerns about "mental illness" and even worse - that it should be medicated. Ads like this should raise red flags in all who care about children and the future health and safety of humanity, but does it? Do enough people realize what has been happening with psychiatric pharmaceuticals and technological mind control and the suppression of feelings? Obviously not. I hope all of humanity becomes aware, so that ti can stop succeeding.
   To me, this ad was a blatant reminder of the unhealthy push for false "mental illness" diagnosis, even on our little defenseless children, and it's pharmaceutical treatment, which often (if not always) suppresses feelings, prevents the healing process and blocks the child's heart. The "mental Illness" diagnosis clearly opens the door for the infliction of the types of pharmaceuticals, which aid technological mind control.
   A part of me is so upset about this that its hard to write about it. How on earth could anyone put out a message that implies something being wrong with a child for feeling sad? And who would even believe it? I guess the answer is, those who have already been controlled or brainwashed into thinking it is true. The real Truth is that. . .

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH A CHILD WHO FEELS SAD.

A child's sadness is an indication of pain that needs encouragement to be talked out or cried out or hugged out or all of the above. Sadness a natural feeling that should not be suppressed or medicated or prevented in any way or form. There is nothing wrong with a child who feels sad.
Sadness is one of the natural emotions we were born with. We were born with the capability of feeling it for a good reason. Sadness is part of a healthy grieving process, which helps us to release our pain. When we do not allow this process of feeling and releasing our pain our hearts become blocked and this is not good for us. Actually, its harmful for natural feelings of sadness to be suppressed and blocked, instead of felt and healed, especially in children. And, according to some experts in the field of psychiatry, it can be dangerous to give children psychiatric drugs. And the danger is seriously magnified when the medicated child becomes a completely controlled victim of technological mind control.
The general holocaustal targeting has been pushing humanity toward being mechanical - into suppressing natural feelings of sadness, fear, anger...etc., instead of feeling and healing them. This blocks our hearts and prevents the healing process. All aspects of the mind control targeting have been literally destroying the heart of humanity. Children who have been medicated and controlled must be saved - set free. And the rest must remain completely free.

   Through the natural process of feeling our own feelings and thinking our own thoughts, as we experience our lives, we grow, we mature, we learn, we become wiser and more whole. This process of growth is what life is for. As we grow, our minds and hearts and spirits and souls evolve.
In my book, a lot more can be said about the value of Wisdom than that which can be said about schoolastic knowledge. Wisdom grows from direct experience. And knowledge is just memorizing other people's ideas, experiences, opinions...etc. Its good to learn from others. I'm not knocking knowledge. But Wisdom is what really fully knows.
   We all naturally acquire Wisdom as we experience our lives. But when the course of our lives are disrupted and our thoughts are not always our own and our feelings are suppressed, we become crippled and stagnant and blocked and heartless and meaningless and confused. And when we are technologically controlled by those who inflict these things upon us, we are no longer even fully alive - we become like zombies who have no individuality. This has actually been happening to people, including little children, who have not been allowed to mature! Please become aware of all aspects of the targeting of humanity and help stop it from continuing.

ITS OK TO FEEL SAD.

   I understand that there truly are people who have genuine mental problems and can function better with drugs. But I can not help but wonder how many of them, are being technologically targeted. . .and even if they aren't, how many would fully recover if they were not medicated and felt truly loved by another human being or if they had someone to care to listen and understand and offer a shoulder to cry on? How many are labeled and suppressed instead of being loved and healed? How many? And children? They just need to be loved and comforted and free.
   We must be free to think only our own thoughts. . .and to fully feel our own feelings, which enables us to heal from past pains, in order to be healthy and grow into all that we were born to be. I have strong feelings about this because it is directly connected to a large part of my work. Below is an article I wrote back in the 1990s. At that time, I was not aware of the targeting of humanity, but I was noticing the effects of it. This is for adults, because healthy, aware adults are good for their children. All children that goodness.

The Silent Epidemic
   Though most of us have heard that “it's OK to cry,” we don't seem to fully realize how incredibly important it is to allow a healthy grieving process after painful situations. We usually close our Hearts, in order to avoid feeling emotional pain. Yet, this closing of our Hearts, no matter how much or how little, is causing even more pain, because crying is what washes away the pain and allows us to feel deeper levels of love and compassion for ourselves and others.
   What I call, the "Silent Epidemic" grows and spreads each time we suppress our sadness. The Silent Epidemic is an emotional illness. I know this may sound a bit strange to some of you. But if you read the rest of this, and listen to the Wisdom in your own Heart, I’m sure you'll feel some of the Truth in what I m saying.
   Some say that sadness is "negative" or "depressing". Some go so far as to say that it's "un-spiritual" or "dark" to feel, release or express sadness! Some even think that “all we need to do is use our minds to choose joy instead," no matter how we are REALLY feeling! But my experiences show me that this avoidance of our Hearts - this suppression of our sadness, is THE very thing that actually CREATES the "negative" stuff in our world.
   I feel certain that humanity's health and well-being depends on each of us allowing the natural cleansing process of healthy grieving, because releasing our emotional pain is what opens our Hearts to deeper levels of Love, Joy and Peace.
   We habitually suppress our sadness, because feeling it can be uncomfortable and sometimes overwhelming, especially when it's not supported by the people around us. Even in the most supportive environments, it's difficult to completely embrace grief. Suppression is the easiest route to take, but certainly NOT the healthy one.
   Most of us were taught, from the day we were born, to stuff down our feelings of sadness; to "get over it", to pretend it's not there, and "put it behind us" as quickly as possible. Consequently, most of us are better at suppressing than we are at releasing our pain.
   We tend to even feel ashamed to go out in public after we've let ourselves deeply cry, because we don't want people to know we've been crying. We act as if crying is doing something wrong or shameful! We waste a lot of energy trying to avoid feeling anything but shallow imitations of joy. We stuff down our sadness with overdoses of caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, food, drugs, pharmaceuticals like anti depressants, TV, sleeping, thinking, working...etc. We tend to keep ourselves so busy and so distracted that there's no time to feel anything! And we often try to stop others from feeling their feelings, because their sadness triggers ours. And on and on and on the unhealthy cycle goes. I feel 100% certain that deeper levels of grieving/crying is an absolute necessity for the health of our Hearts, our families, our communities, our countries. . .our world.
   The "Silent Epidemic", is the widest spread, most dangerous epidemic in humanity. No joke! You may think I'm catastrophizing here. But I feel certain that I'm not. I feel that humanity is at a serious crisis point with this issue. There are far too many things that are pulling us out of our Hearts and preventing our process of personal growth. PLEASE think about this.
Sadness is not depressing! It's the suppression of it that depresses us.
   Suppressing sadness - the closing of our Hearts, appears to be the root cause of ALL the problems humanity faces on both personal and global levels. When we've suppressed too much, it blocks our Hearts - depresses us, or becomes anger that yearns to strike out.
   On the smaller scales: not allowing a natural grieving causes our Hearts to start blocking to the point where we also start losing our ability to feel deeper levels of compassion, peace, Love and joy. Greed begins attempting to fill the voids with money and possessions. Our connection to the deeper, wiser parts of ourselves and to the Highest Power, becomes more and more blocked. Is any of this sounding familiar?
   On the larger scales: severe suppression of sadness, causes Hearts to become so blocked that they begin filling up with unhealthy levels of greed, warped senses of spirituality, uncontrolled anger or hatred and a thirst for power over others. . .all of which are THE root cause of the destructive wars we experience between family members, religions, cultures, and countries. When Hearts completely block evil moves in.
   Now, I'm not suggesting that we walk around trying to cry all the time. But I AM saying that we should work at allowing the depths of our Heart's natural cleansing process - that we should allow and support a healthy grieving process far more than we now do. And I'm praying for us to take a deeper look at the damaging effects of the "NO crying/grieving allowed" messages, we deliver to our children and loved ones. I cringe every time I hear the popular Christmas song, "You better be good. You better not cry. I'm telling you why. . .Santa Clause is coming to town..."!!! I'm sure we would not even think of delivering messages like this to our children, if we knew how damaging it is. Sometimes, when I hear this song, I sing along and loudly change the words to, "You'd better cry...", because our individual Hearts need to utilize their natural cleansing process for our soul’s preservation and growth. The "Silent Epidemic" needs to be cured, in order for us to start healing our world, ESPECIALLY through the tough times we now face. It's OK to cry. It is! It really is.

Crying is like giving the Heart a shower
To wash away accumulated dirt.

We feel Love only as deeply as we allow ourselves to feel our sadness.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Important statement about my older writings about the targeting

   I wrote the following statement for my Yearn for Freedom book, which I decided is not going to replace any of my old books, because of the dark push for me to erase my past writings and possible set ups that could succeed if I did. Someone, who was in the lap top which was recently given to me, erased the statement below from my writings. I don't understand why.

 P.S. I have removed the statement from this post due to realizing that a word, which alters the meaning of something, was dropped from it. I have been having a serious problem with various types of interference with my writings.  Aside from alterations and erasing of important things, those that hound me have made it difficult for me to finish things before posting and printing them. Due to the harassment and interference with my brain (through radio waves being shot into it) I have developed the habit of starting an article by roughly writing what is on my mind and then fleshing it out afterwards. But I often feel forced to post and print it, prematurely, when they start altering things or erasing it or threatening me...etc., so that I will not lose it completely. As I worked on my Yearn for Freedom book introductions and first chapter, they replaced my files with a previous version, which erased things that I had added to it. Some of it was lost and I can not retrieve it and there is no point in sharing a crippled article, which I have already been forced to do too much of. I will repost it on my Yearn for Freedom blog when I have fixed it, but I do not know when that will be able to happen. I beg those who do this to me to please stop and let me at least do my writings without any sort of interference. www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com