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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Vision of Love

    Long ago, I had a vision, which showed the Heart of humanity standing up and saving itself from further destruction. So, I pray for God to send us the Love that will save us, save America and save the rest of humanity - the Love that will restore our Freedom and safety - the Love that will work through every Heart that allows it.

You can be a Dove. All its takes is Love.

P.S. I do not want to offend or alienate any level of any agency that could possibly help this hell to end and our freedom to be genuinely restored. I wish that the good/uncontrolled Hearts, in every level of government, would pull together and stand up for us and America and humanity. I wish.

Monday, May 22, 2017

No Matter What They Say. . .


My heart keeps assuring me that GENUINE help will empathize and be here for us, in every way it can, no matter what we say or do or write.

I'm trying to keep my hope alive.

P.S. Writing out my feelings is something that comes natural to me and is what a large part of my work has been about. Bringing this habit, of freely writing, into a public forum, while I am being targeted, has not always worked very well. There are times, like in the past few weeks, when it is literal hell for me to be trying to survive rounds of torturous setups while struggling to figure it all out and write about it on infiltrated computers in infiltrated libraries. Please try to understand.
  
I am recently asking myself why I even continue to try to write under these horrible conditions, especially since my writings appear to be being blocked from the public. Would letting go of this relentless battle, until I have a safe computer in a peaceful place, the same thing as giving up?

My Spiritual View

   I feel, with every fiber of my heart and soul, that "God is Love" and that the only way to God is through our Hearts. And this is why it is so critically important that the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which has been blocking the Heart of humanity, be stopped as quickly as possible. Please help save the Heart of Humanity from further destruction.

Websites Blocked?

   It appears that my primary websites about the targeting have been blocked from showing up on both Google and Yahoo searches even when put into quotations with the .com added to it. Those who target me have stated that they are keeping me "in the background." How can they have control of so much? They seem to think they are doing what I want but this is not what I want, especially since the targeting has not yet been being fully exposed by officials and the mainstream media...etc., relieving people like me from having to do it all. This is not at all what I want and its very discouraging. Below are two of the websites that search engines no longer detect.

A Big Issue

   I understand that there are issues with my writings. But there are no issues, that I know of, which are more critically serious then the plight of people like me who are being technologically and psychologically tortured...etc., and that of community members who are unaware of being enslaved in a secret society/covert program that uses them in the grossly inhumane and cruel process of covertly harassing (psychologically torturing) fellow citizens like me.
   The technological and pharmaceutical mind control parts of the targeting have been being used to enslave humanity through the past few decades. This is destroying the heart of humanity and I feel that this is the most critical issue that humanity has ever been faced with. It just has to stop. Please stand up and help stop it from continuing. 

Saturday, May 20, 2017

When "Help" Hurts

   Some of the most sadistic parts of the covert targeting are done under the guise of "help." When "help" hides in the darkness and hurts me and threatens me and confuses me and tries to torture me into a "rescue" it is impossible to perceive it as help.


Thursday, May 18, 2017

Wouldn't You Feel the Same Way?

   Sometimes I feel desperate for the targeting to immediately stop in a good positive way - with decent honest officials standing up for us and protecting us from further harm and I feel frustrated that it has not been able to happen yet. How could anyone in my situation feel differently? My frustration is not about blaming anyone for not being able to be here for us in the ways I have wanted. And I hope decent officials are not offended by my venting of these feelings.
   Please let your Hearts understand how difficult it is for someone in my situation to be surrounded by the destruction of witnesses and evidence while experiencing infiltrations into my writings and ongoing technological tortures and covert harassment and obvious setups to frame me for something...etc. I feel scared. My frustrations are born from fear and pain. I do not know how this is going to end and things sometimes seem to be getting worse instead of better. I have been waiting for things to get better - I want the targeting to be stopped before its too late for too many more victims, myself included. Wouldn't anyone else feel the same way in my situation? Wouldn't you?

   I'm tired of feeling like I have to apologize for having feelings and for writing about them, which has been part of my work and is just a natural response for me. And I am tired of being told that genuine honest help will never be here for us just because I want it to or because I sometimes feel frustrated about it not being here yet or because of my writings or because I refuse to obey or join the covert craziness that goes on around me. I do not want to follow or join the bad. I am still waiting for genuine Good to be here for us in ways that are validating and caring and protective…etc.

I Have Natural Feelings About What is Happening to Me

   My feeling angry when I am being tortured or harassed or badgered, or all of these things at once, is a natural human response to something that is hurtful and should be stopped. 

   I sometimes feel sad. I sometimes feel angry. I sometimes feel scared. And these feelings do NOT mean that I am mentally ill or dangerous or suicidal or paranoid! It just means that I am human. 

Its the sadistic targeting that is wrong
www.targetedinamerica.com

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

A Horrible Set Up

   [ Update may 22, 2017: I started out trying to share every detail of this situation on this post, but this becomes too difficult to do while continuing to be technologically tortured and harassed while I try to focus on writing. And this is not a report - its just a bit of what is happening to me. I have gone back and forth on how to deal with this situation. (I need an honest, professional, NON-covert adviser who is completely aware of everything that is happening, right now. Just because it can't happen doesn't mean its not needed.) This, as well as many other situations is like a horrible catch 22. There is a danger in my remaining silent about the rounds of targeting that appear to be set ups to frame me...etc. But there is also a danger in saying too much because they could either seek revenge, which has been happening, or lie and pretend none of it is happening at all, furthering the aim to make me look crazy. . .and I am in too much of a vulnerable situation. These are VERY legitimate concerns. I have shortened this post and left just the basic scenario with the hope that it will prevent this set up from succeeding. It will not be perfect, because I am being technologically tortured and covertly harassed while I am writing it. ]

The past week or two have been more difficult than the norm. Other recent posts reflect other parts of it, as I stumbled through it. Here I am explaining more of it, but I've still not had a chance to process it all. I am still being heavily microwaved and sometimes painfully tortured as I write this.
The past few weeks of targeting contained multiple things including what looked like one of the sadistic tests and a set up to make me look crazy or possibly even dangerous, and involved many community members.
   Among other things it included vamp ups with computer infiltrations in three libraries librarians cruelly trying to provoke me. One even delivered a verbal attack - trying to convince me that I am lieing about the computer infiltrations and that nothing is happening to me in the libraries and even went so far as to threaten to call the police if I returned to the library...etc., as if I am the one who is doing something wrong. This was done in a rude, accusing dysfunctional way that made it clear that she was trying to provoke me. I was kicked out of three parking lots, where I go for a bit of peace from the harassment, within one week. A very clear death threat was issued in a way that would have just made me look crazy if I had reported it and they were instructing me to report it. They forced me to erased evidence from my phone. It appeared that they gained access to my only backup email account that contained copies of blog posts and emails. It appears that I have been being video taped, at strategic times, by more than one organization. The technological torture of my brain was vamping up at strategic times and it seemed like they were trying to make me react violently to a multitude of things that were happening. I didn't. But I did, and still do, feel scared and hurt and angry about what has been being done to me. The worst of this happened in Goffstown and appeared to include a few police officers, which was extremely disturbing.
   Since my computers were disabled last year and I was forced to use library computers and forced to tolerate horrible levels of harassment from within the computers as well as from library employees and other puppets who follow me into the libraries. I am not being allowed to freely write. I try to ignore the verbal harassment, but this is not always possible. Sometimes I walk out, in order avoid them, especially when they crowd me and get too loud. Sometimes I do a loud "Ssshhhhh" to quiet them. Sometimes I ask them to be more quiet. Sometimes I defuse the harassment by cracking a joke, which usually agrees with what they are saying about me. But sometimes I do feel frustrated and angry, because its difficult to be forced to deal with, especially when lasers of radio waves are interfering with my brain function. . .and I should not even have to tolerate it - I should be able to live my life without being harassed and tortured. And now it seems like some of the librarian puppets are being used to seek revenge on me for writing about what happens to me in libraries.
I hope they do not succeed with any of the set ups to frame me or slander me or falsely label me...etc. They have already succeeded with hurting me and scaring me and making my personal situation feel more dismal than ever since this last round. But no matter what they do or don't do the Truth is still the same and I hope it wins.
   Perhaps part of the problem was also that I had recently given a couple kind library employee puppets a printed copy of my newly edited "Calling all Hearts" paper, with the hope of enlightening them, which I have periodically done in many places.

   Since I feel that most of the library employees are completely unaware victims of technological mind control I feel sorry for them. But this situation went beyond the usual harassment and into what looks like a cruel, vengeful, dishonest set up to provoke me and make it look like I am crazy and/or dangerous. This was not the usual round of targeting - it was a serious threat to what little is left of my independence, safety and freedom!
   Libraries are not the only places where I get harassed, not nearly. And I have never, not even in my thoughts, felt that the libraries are responsible for the computer infiltrations, because I feel that it has been being done through the new computer programs and/or the web.

   I feel that most, if not all, of the people who were used to harass me, are unaware, enslaved victims of technological mind control. Libraries are not the only places they harass me in. Its everywhere. I feel that the targeting is harmful to the enslaved people/puppets as well as victims like myself whom they are being used against. Their being used to psychologically harass fellow citizens is a disgrace to them, to our communities, to America and to humanity and it just has to stop. And no human being should be treated the ways that I have been treated by them and their sadistic/satanic leaders. God help us all.

If there were parts, of my original post, outside of the library stuff, that were not part of this round of sadistic targeting, I am deeply sorry. But I guess time will tell with some things. None of the covert stuff that repeatedly adds to my distress, scares me or hurts me and others, or threatens to seek revenge or to withhold help feels good to me, no matter how I look at it. It hurts me. Those who target me have a habit of pretending to help me while hurting me and so things can get too confusing if there really is good help that is also acting covertly. When I think of the possibility of genuine good people covertly, physically trying to approach me it concerns me, because I do not think they can directly do anything covert without the dark ones who target me knowing about it and I find this scary for them. I strongly feel that its safest to be just be honest and direct. I have repeatedly stated that "I can not handle the covert messaging stuff." AND, like I have been saying, I strongly feel that "Its safer to stand in the Light" - its safer to fully stand (OVERTLY) with me and acknowledge the targeting if you are not a part of it and want to help me.

I wonder; If I had not said anything about this, and they did something like shoving me into an institution, would anyone have stood up for me before it was too late?

   My feeling angry when I am being tortured or harassed or badgered, or all of these things at once, is a natural human response to something that is hurtful and should be stopped. I sometimes feel sad and I sometimes feel angry and this does NOT mean that I am mentally ill or dangerous or suicidal - it just means that I am human.

   Words cannot fully describe what is happening in our world. It truly is a holocaustal situation for EVERYONE involved and far more people should be openly standing up against it, because it thrives and grows in the silence that has surrounded it for too many decades now. I keep hoping that things are getting better, instead of worse, and I am waiting for proof of this.
God help America and Humanity to be totally set Free.


God help America and Humanity to be totally set Free.
www.targetedinamerica.com


Monday, May 15, 2017

Please Do Not Misunderstand

   Prior to the hell I was hit with this morning, I had written out a small statement, which was to be my only new post for today. In it I had hoped to reach all who may be upset over my mentioning them in my writings. In it I wanted to explain that when I express concern about people or official places being enslaved, in my heart I am actually trying to stand up for them, even while I am expressing concerns for me. This applies to my family and every level of law enforcement, military...etc. I have been doing my best to stand up for ALL of us through exposing the technological mind control enslavement, particularly since I realized the scope of the targeting. These writings are not about going against any of these places. I may not be doing a very good job of standing up for us all, but its the best I can do under these conditions. Though things appear to be getting worse in the past couple years I keep groping for the hope that they are getting better, overall. I guess time will tell.


  

VERY Disturbing Round of Targeting

   I was going to do a bit of editing of my last few posts, since I wrote them while being heavily targeted with a lot of technological torture through the process. But before I could do much I was rudely confronted/harassed by a woman the Goffstown Library and another puppet who tried blocking me from my car as I was leaving... and I am a bit overwhelmed today.

Forced to Erase Things Stored on Phone Again

   This morning I was blocked from accessing my email and received text messages to erase data on my phone, instead of codes to access my email, even though my phone memory was not genuinely full. I have experienced many episodes of  this sort of thing, where I have to erase evidence from my phone in order for it to store messages. This is the first time they blocked me from my email with this process. I did erase a bunch of stuff, because it really doesn't matter anyway. I can not prove what is happening on my own no matter what is or is not on my phone.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Another Death Threat

After yesterday's round of hell with the email stuff I vented my frustration in my car for a while, probably offending those who could hear me, but I feel that genuinely good decent people would understand and not judge me for any rantings (verbal or written) while I am trapped in this torturous hell. But someone had an issue with my posting the email stuff and/or my venting, because I was woken, shortly after I fell asleep, by an angry voice yelling and repeating, "I hate you. I am going to murder you."
 
   Through the mess with my old Yahoo email being accessed by those who target me and infiltrate computers I use, my younger brother sent text messages and called to ask me for help with house sitting, which reminded me of his situation which I have been worried about, because I feel that he was targeted/tortured into various surgeries, which seem to have vamped up the mind control and possibly even forced him into the sadistic program that targets us all. (Sadly, my going to his home would not be safe for me or him at this point.) I have been worried about him. My heart aches for him and other loved ones who have also been being targeted/tortured...etc. My fight to expose the targeting has been to get help and protection for all of us and its more painful than words can describe, to have to watch them being hurt or controlled or used or destroyed as year after year crawls on my. Even though the targeting has forced me into remaining isolated from them I still sense a lot and I witnessed a lot of the targeting on them back when we were closer. I was not aware at that time, but now that I am, I can look back and see a painful lot of what was really happening. We have all been trapped in the hell, just in different ways. God help us all.

   Through yesterday, as well as an uncountable number of other situations, they threatened to delay or withhold help due to my writing about what has happened or my verbal venting of feelings when I am alone in my car. It appears that they are even now leaving me dimes, presumably to call someone who cares, during times like yesterday when my tears surface...etc. Some of what they do to me appears to be tests or interrogations that are followed by judgments, which feels horrible. There have been uncountable rounds of this and I am usually being technologically tortured through it all.
   I don't want to blame good decent help for not being able to be here to protect us yet. But it hurts that it hasn't been. It hurts a lot.

 Here is the address where recent backup updates on this blog are;  www.targetedinamerica.com/bookramupdates2017b.pdf

Friday, May 12, 2017

Back Up Email Account Compromised?

   I was receiving threats to wipe out my google accounts and emails. This forced me to try to do another backup blog with a yahoo email account. (My brain was being heavily lasered through this process) So I foolishly opened my old yahoo email, yesterday, which contained a few years of backup emails and blog posts from my google accounts. (sharonpoet (at) rocketmail.com) It now appears that this is what they wanted so they could access the account! I am deeply concerned because this Ramblings... blog and its books and even some of my emails and print outs have been being ersed, stolen or altered!

   I'm soooooo upset! Its contents were really all I had left for a defense against what appears to be alterations being made in my writings in order to set me up for various things and/or to cover up the targeting...etc. This is all extremely difficult. I just don't know what to do! I feel completely trapped and too vulnerable and at the mercy of those who seem to be able to do whatever they want with me as well as my writings. 

   I'd had dreams of becoming a "prisoner of war" and fear that some of their manipulations and alterations of my writings may be heading in that direction, which I have felt could only happen if America became COMPLETELY taken over. . . So this is all scary as hell, literally. God help save America and restore our Freedom.


   My blogs have been my backups in case something happens to me and my private websites are wiped out due to my not being able to pay for them. My backup blogs for information on the targeting are www.sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com  and  www.targeted11.blogspot.com  and www.technologicalholocaust.blogspot.com. The blog for part of my original work is www.heartbud.blogspot.com and one on Weebly that was wiped out. And I want to hold onto these, in case anything happens to me. They have been well established and I do not want my primary email account wiped out, because I am already too dangerously isolated.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Calling All Hearts Again

   Please print and pass this paper to as many people as possible as quickly as possible. It is a shortened version of the one a did a few years ago;



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way 
Through bullets hidden in microwaves, 

And COURAGE, God...to make a STAND 
That saves our lives and FREEs our land.

My Goal is Freedom and Recovery of the Heart of Humanity

   I have been doing my best, under extremely difficult conditions, to expose the covert targeting and enslavement of humanity, especially the technological mind control, which appears to be delivered through things like satellites that can shoot disruptive or brainwashing radio waves into the brains of people as easily as they can shoot them down for internet access, and is aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, which have been being pushed onto masses of unwitting people. I strongly feel that the technological and pharmaceutical control of humanity is a critical holocaustal situation that must be remedied as quickly as possible, because it has been destroying the Heart of humanity and appears to be growing dangerously fast through the past few decades
   I feel that our precious Freedom must be quickly regained, and understanding of what has been happening delivered to all, so that recovery/healing can begin.
   Heavily Targeted Individuals, (like myself) have been being hurt/tortured in ways that are grossly inhumane, to say the least. We, including those who are not aware of being targeted, need validation, understanding, compassionate help and protection from further harm (of all kinds) including from technological tortures, technological mind control, covert harassment, false mental illness labels, parasite and chemical targeting and the sabotaging of our work, homes, relationships, health and lives...etc.

Sabotaged Medicine

   I recently tried to make garlic tincture to aid with the parasite and bacteria parts of the targeting and the garlic turned bright green, like it has when I cooked with it. But this garlic was merely minced and put into vinegar.
   Decades ago I used to make garlic tincture and it never turned green. I do not know if it is something being done to the garlic before I buy it or if it is being microwaved as I aim to use it. But either way, my modes of medicine have been being sabotaged.

   Many years ago, before I was aware of being targeted, I suddenly started getting excruciating head aches after eating garlic and was baffled by it. I now think I was being technologically tortured for eating something that prevents parts of the targeting from succeeding. Similar things have happened when I aimed to do other types of medicines...making me think that my body was having an adverse reaction to them. This was so severe that it landed me in the emergency room one time.

Technologically Induced Malnutrition?



   There appears to be a pattern, which I have been experiencing, of technologically induced flushing of my digestive system at times when I am trying to eat better and take better care of myself.
     

Monday, May 8, 2017

Third Technological Holocaust Drawing

   I finally put the finishing touches on the third rough drawing I started in February. It is called "Confusion." This picture of it is a bit blurry, but is the best I can do right now.

Technological Holocaust - Confusion by Sharon Rose Poet

Am experiencing severe pain in head today. 



Friday, May 5, 2017

Please Do Not Judge Me

Please do not judge me. I am struggling to survive, while aiming to expose/stop the targeting, under indescribably difficult conditions and am not doing the best job of it.

   Sometimes I perceive parts of the covert things one way and at other times a different way and probably should not write about that part of the targeting, but have. I try to ignore the covert messaging but can't always and sometimes I can not help but react (especially with things that are loud and seem threatening or accusing) and then I wonder if I misperceived and feel guilty. Sometimes I share parts of the covert messaging and then erase it, because it is too difficult to be sure of what it means most of the time. I am often not handling things well and I am sorry. Sometimes I feel broken and it scares me. But I am praying for the strength to carry me through whatever the future holds and I am still praying my future will experience complete Freedom for America and the rest of humanity - the exposing and ending of and recovery from all aspects of the targeting, especially the technological mind control and tortures. God help us all.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Weather Modification?

     Whenever I see unusual weather patterns, like the ones that are now happening and causing record levels of flooding, I can not help but wonder if it is being instigated with criminal use of Weather Modification Technologies and/or laser weapons that can break things like eddies and dams. I hope that further devastation can be prevented by positive use of such technologies and the prevention of criminal use. I hope that stalled storm systems can be pushed out to sea instead of dumping too much water in the Northeast in the next week...etc. And God help places like Missouri and Arkansas! I feel for those who have lost homes and hope they are getting compassionate and uncomplicated help.

Monday, May 1, 2017

It Is Never Going to Be "Too Late"

Its never going to be "too late"
For Love to save the human race.
And Love works through anyone
Who has the Heart get it done.

www.heartbud.com


Am holding onto hope, while raven's puppets try to convince me that "it is too late."

Cryptic Dreams

   I erased the poem and statement that was hear, because it was probably just fear based. Am having a tough time. I sometimes try to link past dreams to current situations in efforts to try to understand what is or will happen, but it is not always accurate and I am too overwhelmed and have too much interference with the technological targeting of my brain to do a better job right now. Sorry.