|I'm throwing them out.|
There has been horrible levels of controversy about this part of my writings, even various types of threats, including lawsuits, death. I have repeatedly tried to edit them and explain them and apologize for them and fix intrusions. . . and have realized that I just can not do any of this effectively while still being targeted. Those who target me have put me through hell with this, and even instilled a fear that they were good help that will not ever be here for us if my writings are not the way they want them to be or completely erased. Its been a horribly grueling process since around the late fall of 2014. And I have come to the conclusion that good decent people would not even think of withholding help and badgering me to get over five years of writings perfect, while I am still being targeted - technologically tortured and harassed and computers infiltrated...etc. I do not think that anyone, who has any level of decency left in them, will try to hurt me more if our plight gets exposed, just because my writings were not professional enough or politically correct enough...etc. I beg those who do this to me to please stop and find your hearts and realize that all will get better when people like me have the freedom that is needed to do a better job. Hopefully I will gain the genuine freedom and safety that I'd need, in order to do a final book which keeps my original writings in tact, removes only perpetration additions and changes, and adds in updates that explain it all better. Until then, it is what it was and I want it to stay that way.
None of my Ramblings. . . books are perfect, but all are waiting for my heart and computers to gain the freedom that is needed to gather them into one final book that does a better job with explaining it all. Until then please excuse my stumblings.
I think that many of the things that happen to me are manipulated in ways to place blame on others. I feel that, in this confusing situation, only total Truth will help the genuinely good to look good through the manipulations that try to make them look bad or responsible. Hopefully time (and a very small amount of it) will make everything more clear. Until then, please forgive the imperfections. (I think that there have been a lot of misunderstandings between genuinely good people. How can we forgive if we have to forget it all?)
until I have the freedom to do a better job with explaining and editing it. There are a few things I have to check on and explain so please check back later;
The book is now at this address as well, due to interference in my websites.
P.S.S. The picture on this post is of me when I was little munchkin. Aren't I cute? ;-) I always did like cleaning things and its hard to not have the freedom to do a better job with my writings.