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Friday, December 22, 2017

Heart of Christmas again. . .

Lupus Threat

  It looks like they are threatening to give me lupus again. They had backed off on that form of microwave targeting, and had even tried making it look like I made up the whole lupus thing, after I exposed it to be caused by energy being directed at me in 2006. But, lately, they have been  microwaving me in the same way as what they were doing back then. I hope it stops and that I am protected from further harm, especially since it could land me in hospitals which I feel are HEAVILY used in the targeting and the abductions that stage deaths...etc.
   Aside from the shift in the microwaving of my body, I just got an email from the "Lupus Forums at The Lupus Site," which said, "You’ve been missed." This may seem innocent, as most of the covert targeting does. But lump it in with the energy I have been being blasted with, in the past week or two, as well as the fact that I have not gotten any emails from lupus forums and have not even visited them in MANY years. . . and it becomes a subtle threat. The push is still to try to force me to go to that "home," which pretends to be a good escape from the targeting, but is really complete enslavement.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Letting Go

    I have let go of the public sharing of my Into the Light book, until I can do the edits that it has needed from the start. It was never intended to be publicly shared the way it was. I had uploaded it, in 2010, out of a fear for my life, literally, and had not thought about all that was in it.
   I have not had the freedom to completely comb through it and figure out all of the reasons why I have gotten so much flack about the book being on the web. Apparently many different people have had a serious issue with it. But I have re-read enough of it to understand how parts of it could have offended some people.
   I think that some of those who target me wanted this book shared the way it was. I am not sure why. Parts of it may have even been altered by those who have had my computers infiltrated. Its all too much for me to fully figure out and deal with, at this point. So, after much going back and forth and wondering what to do and attempts to explain it, (while still being targeted) I have decided to just let it go until my heart is free to do the proper edits and explanations.

   I am deeply sorry for any distress that my publicly
sharing this book caused other people, as well as myself.

Please read VIP information on;

The first chapter is still at
www.poeticpublications.com/Into the Light.rtf

Monday, December 18, 2017

Heart of Christmas

Please print and pass out this paper

    I've made a few more changes to this paper. Its been hard to put it all onto one page and word it correctly, while being tyargeted. But I hope it is good enough to help. Please let your Heart help us all through printing it and passing it out to people.

Calling All Hearts Paper

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Top of the Trees

Raven still sits on top of the trees.
I hope it gains the Heart to
Not hurt them or me.

But then I was tortured
For daring to see.
Oh, set us free!

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

I Think I'll Need Help, But. . .

    I feel that too many genuinely Targeted Individuals have been being discredited with the false "mentally illness" label and this should stop. I feel that the field of psychiatry is heavily involved with the covert targeting. Its one of the patterns in the targeting - to falsely label victims so that no one will believe what is really happening to them...and in order to prescribe the types of pharmaceuticals which aid technological control. I have written about this in previous writings, but feel a need to re-post it due to a continued push that aims to try to force me to go to a mental health facility.  Some  have even withheld financial help...etc., in order to force me to go to a psychiatrist!

   As for seeking professional help for myself, I have been waiting for the hell to end, so that I can start recovering. If that miracle were to happen in my life time, I would probably choose to get some sort of help with healing from what has been done to me. I do feel like it has hurt me too much at this point. But I would not choose a psychiatrist, especially since I've lost trust in that profession and have been standing up against their methods of labeling and medicating, instead of helping people to heal, since around 1999. For myself I would want supportive help from some sort of counselor who is aware of the targeting and is wise and compassionate and has a deep understanding of the need to feel and heal instead of suppressing...etc. I may also choose to attend a support group, with other TIs, if there is one available with a good functional leader. But recovery can not begin until the targeting has genuinely stopped and I am genuinely safe and protected from further harm and am in a private environment that I feel comfortable in...etc.

And, like I wrote a few years ago; Targeted Individuals should NOT have to prove their sanity, on top of all else that we have to deal with, especially not through the profession that is used to help target humanity, and especially not while still being targeted, because things can be manipulated. The technological targeting can be so easily detected and proven.Why is that not being done? I understand that there is a push to hide the fact that it is being mostly done through space based technologies, like satellites. But, no matter what technology is used, it has to be stopped, in order to set humanity free, and this part should be fully exposed so that it can be monitored by many and NEVER gain the chance to start up again.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Another Heavy Nuking

   Since yesterday after noon I am experiencing another round of heavy nuking - the kind that causes me to feel cold although my head feels like its on fire and my body temp dropped below normal.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, December 8, 2017

The Nature of Care

Genuine Care and Help is always unconditional.


Post Office Flag Knocked Down...etc.

   In the past month or two I repeatedly saw a large raven swarming above my post office when I went there. Last Sunday I noticed that the American flag pole had been smashed down. I was told that an old man got a cramp in his leg and couldn't take his foot off the gas. I can not help but wonder if it was a laser weapon that caused his leg to cramp up.
   There was another time, when the American flags were being taken down in places I frequented. At that time the clasps, which held the flag on the pole at my Post Office, had broken. Coincidence? I don't know what the flag stuff means, but it seems to be part of the targeting.

 In the past few decades there have been repeated aims to push me into changing my mailing address, especially after I open a PO box to try to re-launch my business with. But I have been holding strong with the one I got in Mont Vernon around the year 2009, even after the gruesome murder happened there and puppets seemed to be going out of their way to ask me where my address is so they could relate it to the murder.  I have wondered if those who target me had that crime done just for this purpose. I doubt it, but I can't help but wonder.
   Last Sunday a customer was hanging out at my post office and seemed to be trying to provoke me as I did what they knew I'd do - rejected an ad that was placed in my box, while my brain was being lasered into anger...etc. I felt very frustrated, but walked out telling her that I hope she finds her Heart.
   I have wondered if I am getting all of my mail. I've been begging for help on my blog and websites, and after over 200,000 hits on my blog and the last web stats were at about 400 hits per day, I'm surprised that financial help has not been showing up in my postal box. I've gotten tiny bits here and there, like the fifty dollars I got this year. I think most people would want to help a victim who is in my homeless and destitute situation, which has been horribly distressful on top of all else. But I do not know if its the Post Office or my websites or something else that is being blocked.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017


How can a healthy mind retain needed trust
In a world where deception is free to hurt us?

Please lock deception up. 

How Can. . .

How can genuine happiness even survive
In an enslaved world that's barely alive?

Please set it free.

How on Earth?

How on Earth can a soul feel at peace
When all the world is at war
And its hurting you and me?

Please stop the wars and settle into Peace. 

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Article on the Pharmaceutical Control of Humanity

   I found this article written by Ray Williams on "How the drug companies are controlling our lives." Its gives some interesting statistics on the scope of pharmaceuticals being pushed upon humanity. Lump this in with the technological mind control, which is VERY successful on people who take Psychotropic drugs, as well as the fact that technological targeting can produce symptoms that send people running for psychiatric help. . .and we have the holocaust that has been growing for too many decades already. In this article, among other interesting things, Ray Williams says, "And what is the most profitable area of drug sales? Psychotropic drugs. Mood altering and behavior modifying drugs aimed at brain chemistry. Worldwide sales of antidepressants, stimulants, antianxiety and antipsychotic drugs exceed $82 billion a year as of 2003." I have not read all of the article, but have read enough to feel that it could help people to realize some of what is happening in the holocaustal targeting of humanity. Please read it. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/wired-success/201105/how-the-drug-companies-are-controlling-our-lives-part-1
   The first paragraph in Ray's article mentions a book which portrays a future of people (children) being conditioned and controlled and that, "All is done in the name of keeping people happy and healthy and free of worry." That future is already here.  And those who want to control humanity obviously either do not realize, or do not care about, how critically important it is for human beings to retain the ability to freely think and feel ALL of the feelings we were born with for VERY important purposes....etc. I feel that the control of children, and even many adults, is already REALLY happening and that many people have already been enslaved to the point of their feelings being blocked and not fully having a mind of their own. The Heart of humanity has been being destroyed. This is NOT science fiction and is NOT futuristic and has already been hurting humanity too much and must be stopped as quickly as possible. I pray that the pharmaceutical and space and ground based technological control of humanity is immediately and completely stopped, in order to save what is left of humanity from further destruction.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

"Living in a World of Puppets" song

    I really struggle with the enslavement of humanity. Noticing so many people used as puppets, everywhere I go, often reminds me of how many have lost their freedom and are being used in ways that most of them do not even seem to realize. Sometimes it seems like most of humanity is already enslaved and this feels horrible. I sometimes feel an ache in my heart for them and their loss of freedom, especially the ones who are just kids and are so obviously being used either by their puppet parents or directly through technological mind control.
   Yesterday I started singing while driving and started writing this song. Its not done yet, but here's some of it. . .

Living in a World of Puppets
Copyright Sharon R. Poet

Living in a world of puppets - a world that is not real.
Sometimes I can not stand how it makes me feel.

Living in a world of puppets.
How did life get this way? Only empty words they say.
Who will set them free? Who can? And who is free to understand?

Living in a world of puppets.
Who is that sweet little girl in the row of pale blue coats
Her little mind and Heart looking far too remote?

Living in a world of puppets.
And who is that little boy being tossed around like a toy,
The one kept in lower classes wearing dark sun glasses?

Living in a world of puppets.
What will happen to them? Will they find their Hearts again?
I wish they were who they are - every single one a unique star.

Living in a world of puppets.
What's that pain in my head? Why does that man's eyes look dead?
Was it something he did or said? Can I chose Freedom instead?

Living in a world of puppets.
Why is a laser beam from the sky making that lady, over there, cry?
And who is prescribing her that pill even though she is not ill?

Living in a world of puppets.
Who is holding the strings, while Freedom's bell pretends to ring?
Who hides in that blackest cloud behind a holocaustal shroud?

Living in a world of puppets.
How did life get this way? Only empty words they say.
Who will set them free? Who can? And who is free to understand?

Living in a world of puppets. Wanting them to be Free and real.
Sometimes I can not stand how it makes me feel.

More may be coming soon.

   I picture a video with this, which shows a gray town filled with people on strings, repeatedly singing, "Living in a world of puppets," with no facial expressions. And a woman, dressed in rose colored dress, walking through and crying as she sings the other verses. Then, in the end, the strings get gut and color and expressions return to the town. 

Hidden Files Plugged Into my USB Storage Device

   This is not the first time I have found weird things plugged into my USB storage devices. Some of it is files with weird symbols. Some are hidden, but many are not, so I guess they wanted me to find them. Some have futuristic dates like, "2035" and "2040" and "2063" and "2079" as well as really old dates like from the 1980s and 1990s.
   Many of the files would not let me delete them or remove them from the device or make a copy of them. As I tried to save my personal stuff from the device, I found some of it non functional.
   This was in a device I used in the first three months of 2015, around the time when Dan was killed....etc. This picture here shows part of it. I wonder if it means nothing and is just to make me worry. . .or if it is something important. I don't know.

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Technologically Projected Tylenol Dream

   In the mid to late 1990s, I had a strange "dream." As I woke I heard the words, "Use only Tylenol." Around that time I was experiencing odd aches in various parts of my body. I now feel that this message was delivered via V2K, from those who target me, and that the aches were technologically induced for the purpose of making me take something for the pain. But, at that time, I trusted it to be a message from God and switched my children and I to Tylenol for all sorts of things. (This is an example of how a lack of awareness of the technological targeting can hurt a people.) Now I know and I don't use Tylenol anymore. I prefer herbs, like I have since the 1980s.

I keep forgetting to post this. But here it is. I finally did it.


P.S. I also had a technologically projected dream that pushed me out of being a vegetarian. And then what may have been another one that told me to eat more bread, but don't know if that meant just the type of bread I was eating or any bread.

Monday, November 27, 2017

I Wish I Had a Free Family

  Over a decade ago I wrote a song which said, "Wish I had a family to share my Christmas with. Its been eleven Christmas days since lonely came to stay. That's a lot of years and lot of lonely tears..." But I now wish I had a FREE family to share my Holidays with. With targeted families, being with loved ones can only be good and meaningful when we are free to love each other and understand each other without interference...etc. I wish we were free. If we were free we would be together.

Seven Years Living in a Car

   People have often asked me how long I've been living in my car and my mind usually goes blank. But I thought about it, although it was hard looking back. And I realized that I have been living in a car, basically full time, since around 2010. My situation hit this point around 2009 as I embarked on a desperate struggle to get back onto my feet financially,  aiming to get other jobs (as my work got sabotaged) and places to live, and had also been intensely aiming at ending the targeting through repeatedly reporting parts that were VERY provable at that time. During this time I had contacted law enforcement in, California, Utah, Maine and New Hampshire and FBI in LA and Boston. But things kept getting worse instead of better and moving didn't help, but was very costly. There is definitely a pattern of the targeting vamping up after we try to seek help from authorities. I'm not sure why, except that it seems to be to prevent help from being here for us. There was one town where it appeared that the police department may have been being targeted as well. Some of the vamp ups were physically life threatening through this time, including tampering with the brakes and fuel injection system on two of my vehicles. At that time I did not realize the technological (including satellite remote viewing) parts of the targeting and that they were watching everything I did and every place I went for help, including non professional types of places. But I know now.
   In the Spring of 2009, after a serious round of sabotaging left me without a vehicle, without a place to live and with no money, a charity organization bought me a bus ticket from Arizona back to New Hampshire where I went to a loved one's home. But the targeting started vamping up on her, eventually making it too uncomfortable for me to stay there, until I got back onto my own feet. She had demonstrated rounds of extreme mood swings and anger toward me, as well as other uncharacteristic behaviors. It baffled me at the time. I felt really hurt by it. I was not aware of the technological targeting, at that time. But I now feel certain that she was/is a technological mind control victim and was also being targeted in other ways with little things that kept her in a state of agitation as well as possibly being drugged by a man who suddenly started zooming in on her as her good relationship was being sabotaged...etc. It seemed to be better for both of us that I did not stay there longer than I did. Even that was too much. My presence there appears to have caused the targeting to vamp up on her and make things more difficult for me too. But I was there long enough to get a menial job and buy an old used car, which I moved into.
   After the fall of 2009, I tried two more times to rent a home and get jobs and get away from the targeting, in Maine and North Carolina. The Maine home and jobs quickly ended, on the day before Christmas with a near death experience. I lived in my car through the rest of that winter. (This is when I wrote my "Into the Light" book) The North Carolina attempt to get back on my feet (in the 2010 Spring) ended with severe levels of harassment in one of the places I worked and with the home I lived in being invaded. I've been living in a car since then, (since around the end of 2010) with the exception of just a few short stays in motels.

   Seven years living in a car! That's a long time, especially for someone who was used to owning a peaceful, private, four bedroom country home, like I was, before the targeting started ripping my homes and money and work...etc., away from me. And the worst part is that living in a car for seven years is not nearly the worst of my experiences with being targeted. In some ways, its actually safer for me to live in a car until the targeting is stopped. I am doing the best I can to hang in here. Its hard, to say the least. I am really struggling with it all, at this point. I sometimes escape the hell through fantasizing about life being the way I used to think it was - free and peaceful and homey and kind and safe and filled with my dearest loved ones, especially my children.
   Many of my loved ones have been heavily targeted too, although some do not realize what is happening to them. Some of them are severe mind control victims and I have been worried about them through all this time. It all hurts indescribably, at times - my situation as well as theirs. I am still praying for the miracle that will set us and America and the rest of humanity free.

   After the end of 2010 I continued to try to resurrect my work and also get other jobs, but the targeting continued to sabotage them in multiple ways, making success with anything literally impossible. And my aims for jobs with other people were often used as ways to hurt me even more. Now that I look back, it appears that those who target me have been controlling how much money I was allowed to earn, before the targeting vamped up to sabotage the jobs...etc. I was not allowed to succeed with my work or to use another job to get back on my feet with it. All of this has been extremely difficult. Its shocking how many places they have control of and how many people have been used to help target me. Around 2012, after connecting with TI forums on the web, I started seeing them all as "perps," but I now realize that, though some are criminal types who drug and rape or tamper with brakes or shoot tires on the highway...etc., most of them appear to be mind control victims or unaware puppets or people who had been deceived into thinking that I am a bad person. Sometimes it seems like most of humanity has already been enslaved, to some degree, and is used in various parts of the targeting. Its all hurt beyond any possible description. . .and still does.
   Around the end of 2011 I was forced to set most of my work aside and use part of it to publicly expose the targeting, with the hope of it stopping, but this has also often been sabotaged in various ways, including the targeting of my advertisers. I have not done a very good job with my writings, due to technological interference with my brain and my computers repeatedly being infiltrated...etc.
   I tried other rounds of jobs in 2012 and was hurt so severely (around November 2012) that it was the last straw for me and I just do not even want to try again until the targeting has stopped and I can recover and I am free to do my work without being hurt and without it being sabotaged in any way or form. Part of "my work" is a registered New Hampshire business since 2007 - Poetic Publications. It has been in full operation since around 2004 and started with a book I wrote in 1999. Some people degrade me for not having "a job" but I do. I always have. There has been a strong, torturous, forceful push for me to completely abandon my writings...etc., and do something else. They have even repeatedly tried to push me into getting a job at McDonalds or Walmart. A wounded little voice in my heart keeps wanting to scream, "I ALREADY HAVE A JOB AND ITS THOSE WHO SABOTAGE IT AND TARGET ME WHO SHOULD BE STOPPED INSTEAD OF MY WORK BEING STOPPED!"

   I'm nearly 60 years old, at this point, and don't know if I will be able to fully recover both emotionally and financially, even if all the targeting were to genuinely stop for me and my loved ones. I have been surviving, the past few years through begging for financial help from a lot of different places, sometimes even from those who help target me. But there are many good people who have helped me too. I have borrowed, and now owe, so much money to so many people and places that I don't know how I will be able to accomplish recovering on every level and paying it all back. Its discouraging.
   I know, "things could be worse," but they should never be worse than this for anyone. . .and they shouldn't be this bad either. They just shouldn't. Its a horrible thing when good hard working people are torn from loved ones and shoved into (and held in) a prison of poverty while being hurt, often even tortured...etc. Its all just too horrible, no matter how its looked at. Yes, "things could be worse," but they should be a lot better. We should ALL be free to live and feel and think and work...etc. We should. NOBODY should be being hurt or controlled in any way or form. Nobody! Absolutely nobody. And I still pray that there will soon be a positive ending, of every level of this hell, for those of us who have been suffering so horribly as well as those who have been drugged and controlled and used in it. I hope our suffering is not in vein - that our reports and sharing of our experiences, helps to set us and America and the rest of humanity free. . .including  helping to deliver the validation, understanding and compassion that is desperately needed by unaware victims around the globe. I hope.

P.S. I was forced to sell the last country home I owned in 2003. So (to me) I have been homeless since then. (Owning my own home in a peaceful, private country location is important to me, because this is what I grew up in and what I had owned from around 1982 to 2003) Between 2003 and 2009 I was back and forth between rentals and my RV, mostly living in my RV and moving around to try to escape the targeting, which didn't work except for short periods here and there.
   I guess I sometimes get a little defensive about my homes and work, due to there seeming to be too many negative opinions in the world around me, which assume that we are not worth anything if we do not have a job or own our own homes. Truth is that even those who have never had either are valuable human beings. But I have had both. I still have a job, even though it has been being sabotaged. And the only reason I don't own a home right now, and am living in my car is because of the targeting, so I should not be judged or blamed for any of it. Living in a car is not nearly as bad as being tortured and harassed and threatened...etc. But there are those who seem to want to make that my fault too. It isn't. None of this is my fault or that of my targeted loved ones. We are all victims of a horrible holocaustal situation that has been hurting too many people and I hope it all ends soon. . .and a good positive way that validates and understands and helps and cares and sets us all free. We deserve that. Everybody does.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Yearn for Freedom's Peace Song

This is a shorter, more personalized version of the song I wrote a few weeks ago.

Yearn for Freedom's Peace
(Short version) copyright Sharon Rose Poet

Chorus;  Oh dear Lord please set us free.
Wrap your love around us.
Keep us safe. Surround us,
Til Freedom's Peace has found us.
Oh dear Lord please set us free

No more suffering. No more wars. No more locks on Freedom's doors.
No more torture. No more pain. No more lives lost in the rain.
No more stealing of our souls. No more twisted mind control.
No more families torn apart. No more murdering of our Hearts.
No more! NO MORE! No more. Oh please. God, please. No more!


No more suffering all alone - hit by hearts turned to stone.
No more victims forced to fall. No more silence through it all.
No more chains of darkness. No more crazy covert mess.
No more staged deaths. No more gone. No more enslavement "home."
 No more! NO MORE! No more. Oh please. God, please. No more!

Chorus (repeat all.)

All of humanity – all of the world and me.

Reluctant Wait

  Today, like may other times, I had to wait at a counter for something, due to being forced to listen to a group of puppets performing a skit to give me covert messages. I wrote this little poem about it.

When your through puppeteering
Things I'd rather not be hearing,
Could you please REALLY help me.
I'm here waiting for you to see.

Projected Dreams of Floods and Loss of Daughter?

   Last night I had a series of dreams, which I feel was most likely technologically projected into my brain. (It was not like my real dreams) These dreams showed horrible floods and the death of a daughter...etc. I beg government officials, around the globe, to do everything in your power to prevent further criminal use of weather modification technologies and space based laser weapons that can cause things like Earth quakes...etc.

   I have sensed that, through some of the technologically induced (or redirected) storms, there may be destruction caused by laser weapons, in ways that make it look like it was the storm that caused it. I hope this stops too.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Horrible Round of Torture

   The day before yesterday (Friday) I experienced another painful round of torture followed by swarms of vehicles that appeared to be aiming to pick me up. It started with painful lasering of my head and lower abdomen...sending me running for a bathroom, just to find the porta-potty in the area suddenly missing, forcing me to go to a gas station where I was swarmed by puppets who appeared to expect me to leap into their vehicles in order to escape the pain...etc. It ended with my not being able to stay awake - with my losing consciousness slumped against my steering wheel in a garage station parking lot. I have experienced a lot of this since the middle of 2013 - the torturous aims to force me into the covert rescue - into enslavement, which has been often preceded with a puppet saying that I'll get help "Only in an emergency." Its obviously ALL staged and I want it to stop.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Yearn for Freedom Book Compromised!

   Yesterday I found that early editions of my Yearn for Freedom book were erased from my storage devices. I do not know why. I replaced it in my publishing company with more added to it, but am not sure if even that is secure. What has been done with the altering of and/or erasing of my writings is a horrible violation, especially since my books are an important part of my job - my business - my work. Please help promote my work so that I can get back onto my feet and try to set myself up to secure it and make it better; Poetic Publications - www.poeticpublications.com

This was originally posted on Friday, November 17, 201. But that post was erased.

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

I'm Sorry Again

   I am deeply sorry if anything I have written offends good officials who can someday stand up and be here for us. Please understand that there are MANY times when I feel scared and my writings have been a desperate fight for our lives. . . and many times when I am too distressed to put much thought into other perspectives or to realize the full scope of all other things that may be happening...etc. I am not sure if things are getting better or worse (in general), beyond my personal situation. . .and this is disturbing for me. I hope they are better than they sometimes seem. The targeting has too often had my instincts, intuition, heart and even my prayers imprisoned in shrouds of radio waves and tortures and my own states of overwhelm with it all. I have often felt too bound up (imprisoned) and have been slowly disintegrating and I want to be heading in the other direction - to be recovering before its too late. But I imagine this is obvious. I hope that it all stops, and then more becomes clear, very soon. I hope to someday be able to fix and/or explain my writings better on uninfiltrated computers when I am free to do a better job. Until then this is the best I can do. Please excuse my mistakes and overlook that which has been altered by those who infiltrate my writings as well as my life.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Even the Squirrels are Against us!

Those darn squirrels keep picking up nuts and burying them!
And there's not many of us left!

Just kidding. But its a symbology of a sad reality that has to stop, especially
since the "nuts" are just people who know too much about the targeting.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

My Vision for America

The Heart of America standing tall.
No longer set up to fail or fall.
A picture of our flag with a Dove.
America peacefully standing for Love.

Freedom's Peace song

   I wrote this song a couple days ago and am still tweaking it. But feel I should share it to help hold the copyright from those who watch and target me.

Freedom's Peace
copyright Sharon Rose Poet

Oh dear Lord please set us free
Wrap your love around us.
Keep us safe. Surround us,
Until Freedom's Peace has found us.
Oh dear Lord please set us free

No more suffering. No more wars. No more locks on Freedom's doors.
No more torture. No more pain. No more lives lost in the rain.
No more stealing of our souls. No more twisted mind control.
No more microwave illness. No more pills for forced distress.
No more families torn apart. No more murdering of our Hearts.
No more. NO MORE! No more. Please. God, please. No more!


No more tech induced disasters - help withheld in days after.
No more parasites in our food. No more altering of our moods.
No more victims set up to fall. No more silence through it all.
No more chains of darkness. No more crazy covert mess.
 No more. NO MORE! No more. Please. God, please. No more!
No more staged deaths. No more gone. No more enslavement "home."
Just the kind of homes where love grows - just the kind we all should know.


Help our tears and pain release in the heart of Freedom's Peace.
All around the whole wide world and for my dear little girls.
Oh please set our hearts free. Please, Lord. Please set us free.
All of humanity - all of the world. . .and me.


   I sometimes have visions of video content for my songs and I think this song would fit well with scenes that depict the targeting... scenes of satellites shooting laser beams at people and a doctor giving a microwave victim unneeded drugs and a mother and child being stalked and abducted and families fighting against each other and people suffering in a public that ignores them and wars raging and people being enslaved while thought to be dead and wealthy perpetrators controlling it all - targeting and aiming to control both common citizens and governments...etc. Then, as the chorus is sung, the scenes switch to soldiers returning home, the laser beams being blocked, Light illuminating homes and towns and government facilities that had been shrouded in darkness, the woman and child being saved, families reuniting and hugging each other, people refusing unneeded prescriptions and all the targeting being stopped...etc.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017


I beg all who are aware of the targeting to let your Hearts
openly stand up FOR us and America and humanity.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Concern for my Children

   I continue to be deeply concerned for the safety of my children. I have received many threats, starting in 2006, that appear to be to inflict harm to my children if I do not leave my life "forever" - if I do not leap into the program that targets us all. In 2006 I had gotten a message, that seemed to be part of a dream as I woke. This message was, "Your children will be OK if you leave." At that time I thought it was a message from God telling me to not live too close to my children so that those who target me will not harm them too. I foolishly moved to New York. I now feel certain that the message was delivered via V2K and that it was really a threat to harm my children if I do not leave - join them. Just a month or so later, as they finished shoving me into destitution, I was approached by a man who told me a story about making a lot of money if I just do one thing. I didn't bite on it because he seemed dark. This is just one of a few similar situations. The push to make me join those who target me has been strong and sometimes torturous and forceful. I'm still refusing and standing up against that darkness, but it has been a dangerous situation for my loved ones as well as myself.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, November 3, 2017

More Protection is Needed

   I just tried an experiment with liquid electrical tape painted on a hat and it appeared to not work with the blocking of radio waves, which they are directing into my brain, often at mentally crippling levels. I'd tried to find liquid lead, because lead did block it in my 2011 test, but I was not able to find any. Its discouraging that real lead is becoming hard to find and that the types that are available are too expensive for me.    I heard that the old leaded house paints, which contained liquid lead, were banned from use on residences in the 1970s, in the UK and USA. This is around the time when the lethal targetings appear to have started more fully raging through humanity. Its sad that those who hurt us had control of too much by that time.
   I heard that many of the laws, which support the targeting, were instigated by bad advise from just a few perpetrators who had positioned themselves in positions where they could advise others, who believed them, because they were the experts. It is probably mostly the innocent and unaware who implement the changes, which support the darkness. This seems to be how this operation operates - using good people who can be the ones to get blamed if its ever realized. So, again, we must be careful not to blame people or organizations who did not even realize what was happening.
   But I hope it all starts turning around, because humanity (especially heavily hit victims) need EVERY possible mode of protection and safety to be readily available. Surely anyone who cares for humanity's safety would agree. This is about saving all of us from further harm.
   There is also a serious need of unfiltered radio wave blockers and radio free communities being made available to all who do not want to be subjected to radio waves of any kind. This is especially important for the safety of children and adults who are more sensitive to the radio waves that now flood almost all of our communities, and aid the lethal targetings (including technological mind control) under the guise of it being for internet access...etc. This would be important even if criminal use of the technologies were not happening. And it should go without saying that criminal use of all types of radio wave technologies should be stopped as quickly as possible, globally.

P.S. At one point those who target me had literally brainwashed me into thinking this was all being done by HAARP and also that I was a victim of the 2005 "Patriot Act." This happened after I already knew better. But I believe it was effective, for a while, because they had also drugged me during that time. The little I know of the "Patriot Act" is that it enabled legal satellite viewing of citizens. My loved ones and I were clearly being surveilled and harmed, with satellites and connected laser/microwave/radio wave technologies, long before that. So the way I look at the "Patriot Act" law is that it merely enabled the honest to have the same freedoms, which the criminals already stole. Those who target us do not care about the laws that were to protect our rights to private, peaceful enjoyment of our own lives. They were already crossing those boundaries decades before 2005.
   I hope something is quickly done to prevent criminal use of ALL radio wave technologies...etc., in order to regain our freedom. Until that can be accomplished, many of us need ways to protect ourselves from further harm. And more public awareness could only help all aspects of this crisis, because it would enable people, including officials around the globe, to understand and do more to restrict use of the technologies. . .and that understanding would also enable people to be helping and supporting each other through it, instead of crumbling in confusion under the silent targetings.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, November 2, 2017

Its MY life!

  Those who target me sometimes appear to be blaming my not leaping into enslavement as a reason for various parts of the targetings they do, including things like the recent New England storm. This is really difficult to deal with. Its cruel beyond description. I'm not sure if they are really performing huge disasters, just because I refuse to leap into enslavement or if someone just wants me to think they are. But I sometimes foolishly feel guilty, even though I shouldn't. They have been trying to threaten and torture and coerce me into leaping into their hands in many ways! This started with the coercions over a decade ago. 
   I feel that too many targeted people have been forced to leave their lives, just to be completely enslaved under a new identity. And I feel that too many others have been technologically enslaved through either brain damage or drugs or a certain form of technological "protection"...etc., and that this should all be fully exposed and stopped, along with the pharmaceutical and technological mind control, in order to restore humanity's freedom. I hope that those who have been completely enslaved are set free and that families, that have been torn apart, are able to reunite and recover in a free world.
   I do not want to be enslaved and used by those who hurt us and I am sure that most (if not all) other people would feel the same way if they knew what has been happening.
   The audacity of people intruding upon our lives and then telling us that we have to leave our lives "forever," in order for us and/or our loved ones to remain safe, is just too horribly wrong. . .and I do not believe that any good comes from it for anyone. Its not me who should leave my life, its THEM who should leave it. Its MY life! And its not me who should be restricted, its them who should be restricted from interfering with my life. Its MY life! And the same goes for my loved ones and everyone else who has been being targeted in any way.

   I deeply need protection from further harm, especially from the technological targeting, the parasite targeting and the covert harassment stuff, right here in my life, from genuine good people who care about us...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 28, 2017

A Serious Danger

   A Serious Danger Portrayed in a Dream Around last Spring I had a dream that forewarned of extreme danger in a covert rescue. (This was not the first of such dreams.) But this dream appears to apply to the present time period. In THIS dream ‘I rescued and being held in a place, with a group of other people, and we were being forced to go into a tunnel that supposedly lead to freedom. I sensed that it didn't and that it just lead deeper into captivity. I tried to tell the others that its not safe, but some of them go into the tunnel anyway and it collapses on them...etc. Some are killed by the cave in.’ I hope this does not even have the chance of really happening. (I've also had dreams warning of them trying to get me to a facility where they try to inject me with something.)
   I still feel that there is no secrecy, from the dark ones who target us, especially not in the covert rescue stuff. I don't think there ever was. I think they are in the back ground of it all, or are overseeing it, and that it leads to enslavement and is all orchestrated by those who target us and America and humanity. And I feel that good places and people have been being used in the foreground of these operations, so its hard to sense the dangers that lurk behind the scenes, but I feel that they are there. I sense that there is a vamp up in danger for many right now, certainly for me. I beg good officials to stand in the Light - to openly stand up for us.
   In the past few weeks there has been another vamp up of technological tortures and interference with my brain as well as obvious aims to drug me. I have noticed two different occasions when my car was accessed while I was in a store or library or church. The aim to abduct me under the guise of a covert rescue has also vamped up again, and sometimes happens during rain storms. The tortures and drugging appear to be to set me up and make me want to leap into the covert rescue....as is the usual pattern. I have repeatedly said, "NO I DO NOT WANT TO GO!" Their aim is obvious, in the patterns of torture and telling me that I have to "go home" as well as the disrespect for my feelings and choice to not leave my life "forever"...etc. This is really nothing new. I've been through many horrible rounds of this since around June of 2013.
   I am concerned for my safety and am also concerned that those who target me often seem to use good people in the foreground of their covert abduction attempts - people who really think they are helping. I pray for their safety too. Please help pass the word on this. Its safer to stand in the Light in supportive groups. Please do. It doesn't have to be with me. Do it for yourselves.
Torture and raven warnings vamped up after my initial posting of this post. But I do know that this hell just has to stop for everyone it has been hurting and everyone it aims to hurt. And more people need to be aware. ( I also got death threats and threats against my children after posting this!)

P.S.S. Long ago had a dream of officials standing up and not getting hurt. I believe in this. I believe this hell will all start ending when more good people, especially those in influential places, are fully and openly standing up.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

"I won't be nuts for you"

   I watched clips from the movie, "Nuts!" in a library and it really touched my heart. I wish I could watch the whole movie. I can relate, a bit, to the personality of the character Barbara Streisand plays in this movie. I can also relate to the horrible scenario of feeling like I have to prove my sanity, just to keep what little is left of my freedom, while having too much else to deal with. I tear up every time I watch it.
   In this video Barbara Streisand passionately begs for her freedom from being falsely labeled as crazy. She cries out, "If I play this part  you all seem to want me to play. If I play sick. . . poor sick Claudia She needs our help. Well I won't play that part. You hear me? I won't give you that out... He can sign a piece of paper saying that I'm nuts, but its only a piece of paper. And you can't make me nuts that way no matter how many times you sign it. No matter how many times you say it you can't make me nuts. . . Just get it straight all of you. I won't be nuts for you. Did you get that?" I could say this to all of those who have been used to try to make me think that I am just mentally ill, in order to get financial help or what it is really for - in order to hide the targeting.

"I won't be nuts for you" scene in the movie, Nuts


"Did you get that?"


    Many of those of us who are long term heavily Targeted Individuals, and are publicly exposing the targeting, are beacons for the rest of humanity, because we know what is happening and we have the wisdom of experience. We may not look like it on the surface, because our aims to expose the targeting are often crippled by it and often do not portray it very functionally or with perfect accuracy. But please give us the benefit of your doubt, look past mistakes and misperceptions and past those who call us “mentally ill,” in order to hide the crimes that REALLY ARE happening, in a variety of degrees, against most (if not all) of humanity.

Those of us who are being hit hard need your Hearts to become aware and find the courage to openly stand up for and WITH us. . . for all of humanity.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Concern for Targeted Individuals

I am coming deeply concern for Targeted Individuals and feel that I have to speak up, because our lives are still in serious danger. (Several months ago, I had started a list of TI videos out of this concern.) There seems to be many traps set up for TIs on the web, or other places designed to help being used to stalk, recruit, abduct...etc. Much of what is on the web has not been safe, especially for TIs who are just starting to realize the targeting and are scared and in deep need of something that is 100% secure, safe and kind and supportive. We need better levels of help.
   In my Yearn for Freedom book I'd hoped to share more of my concerns and my process of figuring things out, in order to help other TIs who are just starting to realize the targeting - I'd hoped they could learn from my mistakes..., but whoever had my computer infiltrated, and also technologically tortures me, seems to have a serious issue with me saying anything about the targeting I experienced in TI forums on the web in 2011 and 2012. My Yearn for Freedom book is now on Amazon, but (like my other writings) did not end up the way my heart wanted it to be, due to a vamp up in the harassment and technological torture and various types of technological interference as I aimed to do it. But it is a record of many things that are not in my other books.
   I have been being too heavily targeted, to do a perfect job with any of my writings. For a while, I kept trying to make some of them better, with the hope that they will help us all and not offend possible avenues of genuine good help being here for us... but my efforts, like this last one, have too often been crippled by the targeting in various ways.

Heavy Torture of Brain

   The interference with and torture of my brain has been really bad lately. Painful torture almost all day yesterday. I was not able to do my Yearn for Freedom book the way I'd wanted to. Way too much interference on all levels, including in an infiltrated lap top, which I returned to where it came from. I still need protection from the targeting, but I guess that's been obvious.

Monday, October 23, 2017

With the Heart of Honesty and Truth

With the Heart of honesty and truth
Mistakes can be forgiven,
Wrongs can be set right,
The darkness can stop
And Freedom will rein.

    I am experiencing painful torture since I woke this morning, which appears to be a punishment for verbally venting my feelings yesterday.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

A TI's Grope for Courage and Hope

  We, Targeted Individuals have been too grossly misunderstood and disbelieved, instead of validated and helped and this has to change, because it is hurting us too much, on top of all else. Due to the mind control, many of our loved ones have turn their backs on us. Since the New York Times article about Targeted Individuals, I have felt literally sickened by the direction this headed in in 2016. I'd hoped for the opposite. But we must dig deep for the courage to push on and just do the best we can, even though our stand for freedom for ourselves, and the rest of humanity, is sometimes crippled by the targeting.
   Deep in the shadows of the pain in my heart a little voice whispers, "It will happen. The sun will rise for all of humanity." I don't know if it will happen in my lifetime. But I know it will happen - humanity will be set free and all levels of victims will finally get the understanding, validation and love that has been needed for so long. And, those of us who are gone will have hopefully left something behind that can help others to see the truths and what can never be allowed to happen again.

I have been being hit hard lately, especially with the torturing of my brain.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control

   The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control is that it blocks our Hearts, our intuition, our instincts and stops the process of inner growth – preventing us (even children) from naturally maturing. The dangers in this cannot be overstated. I beg you to do everything in your power to help set humanity free. Please.
In order to attain world peace
Our Hearts must be set free

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Poem I Wrote in 2012

I don't want to be left to evil pretenses of helping hands.
I need to be comforted by those who can care to understand.
I don't want you to declare me insane for their hateful gain.
I need you to soothe my wounds instead of inflicting more pain.
I don't want you to watch from a silent distance while I die.
I need you here beside me as I pray to God and cry.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

What Happened to Them?

   Last Spring I started a list of Targeted Individuals, (TIs) out of a deep concern that, through the past few decades, they have been being abducted and forced into complete enslavement. I strongly feel that the most torturous parts of the technological targeting are often done specifically to force the victim into leaping into enslavement under the guise of it being a covert rescue. Many TIs suddenly become missing, torn from their lives and loved ones. I now believe that, with at least some of the TIs who are listed as suicides, their deaths may have been staged. I have loved ones that appear to have been abducted. It hurts indescribably, the way that targeted families have been being torn apart. It appears that the ones who are less controllable and/or who become aware are torn from the rest of the family one way or the other. I have been mostly isolated from my family and there have been repeated attempts to torture/force me into the covert "Rescue."
   What is happening to the ones they force to leap or the ones they abduct through staging their death? Where are they? What has happened to them? And what is happening to their loved ones? I believe that the abducted ones are probably completely enslaved. And I feel that their loved ones, if they are not too effected by technological and pharmaceutical mind control, probably have feelings/intuitions that something is horribly wrong - feelings that prevent healthy grieving and closure. Its a horrible part of this holocaust, which is in desperate need of realization and prevention. I hope that it is not only exposed and stopped, but that those who have been enslaved are reunited with their families so that all can have the understanding that is need to support each other and recover.
   Around the year 2013, while I was experiencing what appeared to be multiple groups zooming in to try to abduct me through a covert rescue, I was actually trying to give it the benefit of my doubt and thought there was some good behind some of it. But then I had a dream, which warned of a group of people getting me and holding me in a prison underground with other people whom they were actually eating. They were cannibals who lived on a wealthy estate. I know how gruesome this sounds, but it may be symbolic of us being hurt or enslaved/consumed. And I believe it to be true. I think that what happens to TIs who are being abducted probably depends on who gets them. If there is even the slightest chance that this is happening to human beings, it should be known and thoroughly investigated and stopped as quickly as possible.
   A few years ago I had tried to get lists of Targeted Individuals, but was not able to. My concern has persisted, especially after Racheal Orbin (or Orbon) appears to have vanished and her name wiped out of my writings by those who infiltrated my computer. This feels really important to me. People should not just keep vanishing without a trace of them left behind. And their loved ones should know what happened to them. Its all just too horrible, no matter where they are or what has happened to them. So, I started making a list from youtube videos. Some of the videos may be mind control victims that are used to pretend they are Torture victims but they are victims too. I am experiencing a laser shot to my heart, and then some other threatening stuff, as I write this!!!!

Youtube Link to a Few Targeted Individual Videos

Under the Guise of Help

   I had shared a bit of this in 2013, but I hope other people, especially other Targeted Individuals, will realize the full scenario, which comes from the wisdom of my own experiences.

Under the Guise of Help

   Some key parts of the targeting are perpetuated under the guise of "help," but sometimes seems to use good, unaware people (often mind control victims or members who think they are really helping) in the foreground of it, so be careful who you blame. However, some seem to know exactly what they are doing so be careful for yourself too.
   Before I realized that I was being targeted, and before I knew anything about the technologies that are used on us, those who targeted me had often sent their operatives to "help" me through offering jobs or friendships or places to live after they sabotaged my homes...etc.
   The V2K (voice to skull) transmissions of their voices were occasionally projected into my brain as I woke, as if it was part of a dream and answers to my prayers and "help" from God.
  I now think that, during these times, my instincts were dulled with drugs or technological interference with my brain function or both. I trusted too much of it and it really messed up the course of my life.
   In my initial gropes for information and understanding on the web, those who target me tried to be the ones to inform me, feeding me misinformation and giving bad advise.
   As I grope for financial help they have aimed to be the ones to "help" me, in multiple ways. While holding me in destitution they have repeatedly cut back on financial help and then tried pushing me into begging for help on the streets where someone could hurt me or to getting a loan on my Poetic Publications business, which would surely lead to the loss of it if they prevented me from being able to pay back the loan...etc.
   I have experienced uncountable episodes of them disabling my car and then zooming in to be the ones to fix it while doing things like breaking something else or rubbing dirt into the carpet or invading my belongings or planting a tracking device...etc.
   As I cried and begged for safety and protection, they often aimed to be the ones to "rescue" me. They have even repeatedly tried to force me into their covert "rescue" through torturing me and then zooming in to "help" me.
   Since I have been begging for an OVERT stand up instead of the covert "rescue," which I have sensed leads to complete enslavement, they seem to be aiming to be the ones to control the stand up through setting up my loved ones to be blamed.
   "Help" from those who target us merely adds to the confusion, chaos and pain, when allowed to happen or when its the only help that is available. My situation forces me to get financial help from any where I can and is a rough situation where it has often been delivered with harassment and guilt trips, especially at strategic times. But from the start, I have defied the advise and focused primarily on proving the technological and pharmaceutical parts of the targeting, because they are what enables and controls the rest of it. I turned away from the "help" on the web to do my own research and started figuring out more. I have refused to agree to leave my life forever in the covert rescue. And, over and over again, on my primary blog, I have begged for the kind of help that is desperately needed. I hope we get it soon.

P.S. Targeted Individuals are often advised to only focus on gang stalking part of the targeting, in order to get help. The danger in Targeted Individuals remaining unaware of the being remotely watched with technologies that can also perform mind control, and focusing primarily on the covert harassment (gangstalking) part of the targeting, is that it clearly aims to gain our trust, often even using enslaved loved ones, in order to either force us to join it or to covertly leap out of our lives (forever) and into complete enslavement under the guise of it being a good rescue. They also try to gain our trust in order to advise us. Focusing on the covert stuff can also drive a TI crazy as they try to figure it all out while being tortured...etc. Its horrible. Just plain horrible.
Focusing on the covert harassment instead of the core problem also seems like a distraction – a total waste of time to focus on something that is completely monitored and controlled by those who watch and target us as well as control those who stalk us. If they don’t want their puppets to be caught, they won’t be. And the reverse is true as well – they could set up whomever they want to have caught and then its victims fighting against other victims, the hell just gets worse for everyone and the REAL perpetrators just have another field day behind the scenes.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Danger of Perpetrators Being the Ones to Expose Their Own Crimes Through Setting Up Their Victims to Be Blamed

   Back in 2012, I had posted my concern about what appeared to be leaders of this horrible holocaust aiming to be in the foreground of reporting parts of it, sometimes even copying exposure of things that have already been shared by people like myself. (and sometimes wiping it out of my writings or changing dates...etc. so they can take credit for it.)  A serious danger in this is that, as things reach a point of people actually being caught in the crimes, they could try to set up their own victims to be blamed, perpetuating the targeting while pretending to be standing up against it.
     I hope this is not allowed to gain any more ground; I hope the Heart of media and governments, around the globe, stand up to expose the technological mind control, its enslavement of humanity, and all the scams that can be performed, in order to hurt victims and their families under the guise of help, even in our own judicial systems.

If Only They Knew!

   When I heard about the Vegas shooting, at the country music concert, my first gut feeling was that he was an unaware V2K victim who thought God was talking to him and may have thought that he was doing a service to help save people. Whether this is true or not, the scenario certainly is a serious danger that exists in out world. And it could be stopped by full public disclosure of the technologies, which have been being used on people. If everyone knew about the technological mind control, and the V2K part of it, they would know that IT IS NOT GOD talking to them, and that IT IS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS, and they would have the opportunity to resist it and would be able to get support from fellow human beings who would understand. I beg EVERYONE who is aware to do more to help bring public awareness to all levels of the technological targeting of human beings...etc. 

Criminal use of mind control technologies, and their V2K
applications, are more dangerous than any of the guns.
Please help expose and stop criminal use of them

P.S. I was a bit slow to post this, because I have been experiencing yet another batch of set ups, including rounds of torture. I have been overwhelmed and have been trying to focus on less gruesome things, but this had to be said. Lately they are hitting me with painful laser shots to the right side of my neck when I talk too much or say things they want to be kept secret, or talk to a puppet...etc. As I write this I am being struck with sudden pain in my torso. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

I'm scared

      I've heard it said that, in this targeting mess, "fear is the worst enemy." I guess that’s true. But I feel scared. I am scared for my loved ones who have all been being targeted too, just in different ways. I am scared for my children and their babies and other babies that are being hurt. I'm scared for all the other families who have been being targeted. I'm scared for our law enforcement personnel, including the FBI and CIA and military...etc. I'm scared for America and our governments. I'm scared for all of humanity. I'm scared that the dark infiltration has gained too much ground. I don't want to let fear make me fight against any of these places, who have been being hurt too, but it has. I have tried, in between rounds of crippling targeting, to hold my heart out to all of them, even those who have been used against me. I want to stay in that place, where my heart is stronger than my fear and pain, but the targeting has often blocked my heart to too much of a degree and. . .I’m scared.
   Let it go, my heart says...just let it all go - the fear and its fight. I wish my heart could reach a stronger hand. But there is so much I don't understand. I want the good in America and the rest of humanity to succeed - to be free from the darkness that has been controlling it for too long - to stand in the Light for Freedom to be restored. I sometimes struggle to hold onto my vision of that - of things getting better and Hearts standing up and all targeted families and people saved and pulling back together to support each other and recover.
    I'm still standing, but its a crippled stand. I'm hurt and I'm scared and my strength has been being drained by the tortures and microwaves. I'm praying for strength.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Yearn for Freedom Book

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tough Time

   The past two days were torturous. And I am again being threatened with prison and the disabling of my car. They accessed my car and storage container within the past few weeks. They have been accessing email account. They are badgering me about writings...still! They did a set up with a man who was rude and mean to me.
   I cried hard this morning - so frustrated and feeling the pain of those of us who continue to be hurt and even destroyed. Feel like I finally figured out the rest of what is happening to block the Heart of humanity and have been too imprisoned to do a good job with my work. They threaten to put me in prison, but I am already there. An obvious prison would be better than this in some ways, but not in the way of me having to eat or drink only what I was given to me...etc. I hope they do not succeed with any of it anymore.

  I guess the darkness has been going after the good, and trying to make us look like the bad, since things really started coming out more in the sub medias. Its sad. I hope they do not do anymore and can not succeed with what they have already started. I still pray for all the good in the world to openly stand up for themselves and us and America and the rest of humanity.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Important Reminder

Please Read and Share this Post for the Children
Below is a new version of it plus an article from my older writings.

To Save the Children

   I was shocked to find these headlines, which read, "I think my child is Mentally ill" on top of a picture of a sad little girl who has the words "I feel sad," printed above her head. Below are a my photographs of the headlines in that magazine and my article on the subject.
   I hope those who wrote and printed this article are not offended by this. I don't know what their intentions were. Perhaps they believe what they have shared and had no ill intentions. If so, I hope they read this with their hearts and let it change their minds. . .for the sake of humanity's children.

  This ad was on page 10 of the the November, 2015 issue of the New Hampshire "Parenting" magazine. It definitely comes across as an aim to make people think that sadness is wrong or worse - that it should raise concerns about "mental illness" and even worse - that it should be medicated. Ads like this should raise red flags in all who care about children and the future health and safety of humanity, but does it? Do enough people realize what has been happening with psychiatric pharmaceuticals and technological mind control and the suppression of feelings? Obviously not. I hope all of humanity becomes aware, so that ti can stop succeeding.
   To me, this ad was a blatant reminder of the unhealthy push for false "mental illness" diagnosis, even on our little defenseless children, and it's pharmaceutical treatment, which often (if not always) suppresses feelings, prevents the healing process and blocks the child's heart. The "mental Illness" diagnosis clearly opens the door for the infliction of the types of pharmaceuticals, which aid technological mind control.
   A part of me is so upset about this that its hard to write about it. How on earth could anyone put out a message that implies something being wrong with a child for feeling sad? And who would even believe it? I guess the answer is, those who have already been controlled or brainwashed into thinking it is true. The real Truth is that. . .


A child's sadness is an indication of pain that needs encouragement to be talked out or cried out or hugged out or all of the above. Sadness a natural feeling that should not be suppressed or medicated or prevented in any way or form. There is nothing wrong with a child who feels sad.
Sadness is one of the natural emotions we were born with. We were born with the capability of feeling it for a good reason. Sadness is part of a healthy grieving process, which helps us to release our pain. When we do not allow this process of feeling and releasing our pain our hearts become blocked and this is not good for us. Actually, its harmful for natural feelings of sadness to be suppressed and blocked, instead of felt and healed, especially in children. And, according to some experts in the field of psychiatry, it can be dangerous to give children psychiatric drugs. And the danger is seriously magnified when the medicated child becomes a completely controlled victim of technological mind control.
The general holocaustal targeting has been pushing humanity toward being mechanical - into suppressing natural feelings of sadness, fear, anger...etc., instead of feeling and healing them. This blocks our hearts and prevents the healing process. All aspects of the mind control targeting have been literally destroying the heart of humanity. Children who have been medicated and controlled must be saved - set free. And the rest must remain completely free.

   Through the natural process of feeling our own feelings and thinking our own thoughts, as we experience our lives, we grow, we mature, we learn, we become wiser and more whole. This process of growth is what life is for. As we grow, our minds and hearts and spirits and souls evolve.
In my book, a lot more can be said about the value of Wisdom than that which can be said about schoolastic knowledge. Wisdom grows from direct experience. And knowledge is just memorizing other people's ideas, experiences, opinions...etc. Its good to learn from others. I'm not knocking knowledge. But Wisdom is what really fully knows.
   We all naturally acquire Wisdom as we experience our lives. But when the course of our lives are disrupted and our thoughts are not always our own and our feelings are suppressed, we become crippled and stagnant and blocked and heartless and meaningless and confused. And when we are technologically controlled by those who inflict these things upon us, we are no longer even fully alive - we become like zombies who have no individuality. This has actually been happening to people, including little children, who have not been allowed to mature! Please become aware of all aspects of the targeting of humanity and help stop it from continuing.


   I understand that there truly are people who have genuine mental problems and can function better with drugs. But I can not help but wonder how many of them, are being technologically targeted. . .and even if they aren't, how many would fully recover if they were not medicated and felt truly loved by another human being or if they had someone to care to listen and understand and offer a shoulder to cry on? How many are labeled and suppressed instead of being loved and healed? How many? And children? They just need to be loved and comforted and free.
   We must be free to think only our own thoughts. . .and to fully feel our own feelings, which enables us to heal from past pains, in order to be healthy and grow into all that we were born to be. I have strong feelings about this because it is directly connected to a large part of my work. Below is an article I wrote back in the 1990s. At that time, I was not aware of the targeting of humanity, but I was noticing the effects of it. This is for adults, because healthy, aware adults are good for their children. All children that goodness.

The Silent Epidemic
   Though most of us have heard that “it's OK to cry,” we don't seem to fully realize how incredibly important it is to allow a healthy grieving process after painful situations. We usually close our Hearts, in order to avoid feeling emotional pain. Yet, this closing of our Hearts, no matter how much or how little, is causing even more pain, because crying is what washes away the pain and allows us to feel deeper levels of love and compassion for ourselves and others.
   What I call, the "Silent Epidemic" grows and spreads each time we suppress our sadness. The Silent Epidemic is an emotional illness. I know this may sound a bit strange to some of you. But if you read the rest of this, and listen to the Wisdom in your own Heart, I’m sure you'll feel some of the Truth in what I m saying.
   Some say that sadness is "negative" or "depressing". Some go so far as to say that it's "un-spiritual" or "dark" to feel, release or express sadness! Some even think that “all we need to do is use our minds to choose joy instead," no matter how we are REALLY feeling! But my experiences show me that this avoidance of our Hearts - this suppression of our sadness, is THE very thing that actually CREATES the "negative" stuff in our world.
   I feel certain that humanity's health and well-being depends on each of us allowing the natural cleansing process of healthy grieving, because releasing our emotional pain is what opens our Hearts to deeper levels of Love, Joy and Peace.
   We habitually suppress our sadness, because feeling it can be uncomfortable and sometimes overwhelming, especially when it's not supported by the people around us. Even in the most supportive environments, it's difficult to completely embrace grief. Suppression is the easiest route to take, but certainly NOT the healthy one.
   Most of us were taught, from the day we were born, to stuff down our feelings of sadness; to "get over it", to pretend it's not there, and "put it behind us" as quickly as possible. Consequently, most of us are better at suppressing than we are at releasing our pain.
   We tend to even feel ashamed to go out in public after we've let ourselves deeply cry, because we don't want people to know we've been crying. We act as if crying is doing something wrong or shameful! We waste a lot of energy trying to avoid feeling anything but shallow imitations of joy. We stuff down our sadness with overdoses of caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, food, drugs, pharmaceuticals like anti depressants, TV, sleeping, thinking, working...etc. We tend to keep ourselves so busy and so distracted that there's no time to feel anything! And we often try to stop others from feeling their feelings, because their sadness triggers ours. And on and on and on the unhealthy cycle goes. I feel 100% certain that deeper levels of grieving/crying is an absolute necessity for the health of our Hearts, our families, our communities, our countries. . .our world.
   The "Silent Epidemic", is the widest spread, most dangerous epidemic in humanity. No joke! You may think I'm catastrophizing here. But I feel certain that I'm not. I feel that humanity is at a serious crisis point with this issue. There are far too many things that are pulling us out of our Hearts and preventing our process of personal growth. PLEASE think about this.
Sadness is not depressing! It's the suppression of it that depresses us.
   Suppressing sadness - the closing of our Hearts, appears to be the root cause of ALL the problems humanity faces on both personal and global levels. When we've suppressed too much, it blocks our Hearts - depresses us, or becomes anger that yearns to strike out.
   On the smaller scales: not allowing a natural grieving causes our Hearts to start blocking to the point where we also start losing our ability to feel deeper levels of compassion, peace, Love and joy. Greed begins attempting to fill the voids with money and possessions. Our connection to the deeper, wiser parts of ourselves and to the Highest Power, becomes more and more blocked. Is any of this sounding familiar?
   On the larger scales: severe suppression of sadness, causes Hearts to become so blocked that they begin filling up with unhealthy levels of greed, warped senses of spirituality, uncontrolled anger or hatred and a thirst for power over others. . .all of which are THE root cause of the destructive wars we experience between family members, religions, cultures, and countries. When Hearts completely block evil moves in.
   Now, I'm not suggesting that we walk around trying to cry all the time. But I AM saying that we should work at allowing the depths of our Heart's natural cleansing process - that we should allow and support a healthy grieving process far more than we now do. And I'm praying for us to take a deeper look at the damaging effects of the "NO crying/grieving allowed" messages, we deliver to our children and loved ones. I cringe every time I hear the popular Christmas song, "You better be good. You better not cry. I'm telling you why. . .Santa Clause is coming to town..."!!! I'm sure we would not even think of delivering messages like this to our children, if we knew how damaging it is. Sometimes, when I hear this song, I sing along and loudly change the words to, "You'd better cry...", because our individual Hearts need to utilize their natural cleansing process for our soul’s preservation and growth. The "Silent Epidemic" needs to be cured, in order for us to start healing our world, ESPECIALLY through the tough times we now face. It's OK to cry. It is! It really is.

Crying is like giving the Heart a shower
To wash away accumulated dirt.

We feel Love only as deeply as we allow ourselves to feel our sadness.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.