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Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Call for Compassionate Understanding

      I have probably misperceived more of the covert stuff than I now realize. I think that there have been times when I saw good as bad and visa versa. Instincts do not work well when we are overwhelmed, when our brains are being microwaved and when too much is hidden behind covert veils. I hope to fix and further explain my blog writings. I wish I could fix it all now, but I do not yet have the freedom, or all of the understanding that I'd need, in order to do it honestly and effectively.
    In the early stages of realizing the full scope of the targeting its too easy to perceive everyone who behaves unusually or rude as a "perp." Breaking free from this mind set is difficult, because it is part of the brainwashings to push us into blaming our loved ones and the government and innocent people who are being set up. I feel that most of them are victims too - that they are often either brainwashed against us or are completely enslaved into the covert program that targets us. I had perceived many mind control victims as perps before I started realizing that they are merely puppets who are being used by the real perpetrators who hide in the shadows of their operation. But its often too difficult to distinguish between the two, while being heavily targeted. This is one of the reasons why I ask for people to excuse things that my fear and ignorance has put into some of my writings.
    The blame thing is a horrible catch 22. There is a difference between placing blame and holding people responsible for their actions, but where do we draw the line of responsibility with mind control victims who think they are doing the right things or think they are following something that is good? And how do we draw that line without falling into the dark plan for us to be pitted against each other, instead of protecting, comforting and Loving each other? How do we effectively deal with this until humanity is free to think and feel and care?
    Although in the bigger picture puppets are often victims too, in the smaller picture they can be a danger to those of us who are heavily Targeted Individuals. (This does not apply to those who intentionally perform criminal acts. It applies to those who are unaware mind control victims or deceived members of a dark covert program that they think is good...etc.)
   Anyone who has been brainwashed into thinking that we are mentally ill or are criminals or are terrorists or are evil...etc., can be a danger to us, especially if they are in a position of authority that can have us institutionalized or incarcerated. This creates a horrible situation for those of us who are being heavily targeted. In my heart I sense the good in my family and America and the rest of the world, but I also know that when its not protected, or not standing in the light and fully aware, it can be taken over by the dark forces that target us all. The technological and pharmaceutical enslavement of humanity is truly a holocaustal situation. Its horribly sad for EVERYONE concerned, especially for those of us who are being physically and psychologically tortured and have not received the understanding, compassion and protection that is desperately needed.
   It can be difficult, for those of us who are being heavily targeted, to try to understand and feel compassion for loved ones who are brainwashed against us, or government agencies that have not been able to be here for us in the ways we have needed, but we must if this hell, and its covert wars that pit people against each other, are ever going to end.
   Until the technological and pharmaceutical mind control and the covert program that enslaves and uses unaware victims, have been completely exposed and stopped, and people have a chance to understand and leave it and return to their Hearts, extreme care and open mindedness must be exercised. And the normal process of excusing and forgiving must be expanded. They are not all "perps." Many are unaware mind control victims who are just being used by the real perpetrators.


 God help us all.

P.S. I have been concerned about my writings and hope that they do not offend good people who could eventually be here for us in the ways that are desperately needed. My heart keeps assuring me that they will understand and I hope it is right.




Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Drum Making Work Shops Sabotaged

   All aspects of my life's work have been sabotaged in various ways. And, every now and then, I remember confusing chains of events that I now believe were part of the targeting. The most recent realization was the chains of events that happened while I taught Drum Making Workshops in the mid 1990s.
   Drum making and teaching is something I had felt very drawn to do and it also provided a source of income.  But odd things happened from the start of my decision to teach the workshops. At the time I was baffled and couldn't understand why I was having so much "bad luck." But I now believe that it was all part of the targeting, which aimed to sabotage my work.
   After one of my first workshops people complained that they felt completely drained of energy while doing the workshop at my home. (I now believe that they were technologically targeted - their energy drained with microwave weapons.)  Then I went to teach a workshop that was hosted by the neighbor of a friend and, while we were making our drums, their dog suddenly became vicious and killed a kitten in front of us. This was horrible for everyone, especially for the owner of the dog and kitten who was shocked and kept saying that she didn't understand, because they had gotten along fine and the dog was gentle. (I now believe that the dog's brain was remotely technologically interfered with.)  Then I was invited to Nantucket to teach a workshop at a Nature Center. While we took a break for lunch, a fire broke out in the circle we had been sitting in and destroyed one person's drum and left a burn mark in a wooden deck. (I can no longer believe that this happened all by itself.)
   These sorts of things happening, especially around spiritually minded people, made me look bad. After these episodes a man, whom I now know was a puppet for those who target me, kept calling me and wanting me to teach him how to make drums so that he could teach the workshops in the area I had just moved to. He was really pushy and very obviously moving in to take over my work and even wanted me to help him do it. I let it go, but not because I wanted to - because I was losing business, and my reputation, due to the disasters that were happening at my workshops. The pushy man was just the last straw.

   There were also a few stores that carried my drums, like with my Poetography Prints. I loved drum making and I loved teaching it. In my classes I encouraged prayer and meditation, the Native American tradition of thanking the spirit of the animals and a healing, spiritual focus while building the drums. It came natural to me. And I feel that I would have done well with it, as a side business, if it had not been sabotaged by those who target me.

Technological Harassment - Unnatural Muscle Spasms

    I have experienced this in many ways...from what feels like the lasering of facial tendons or muscles or nerves to painful spasms in my toes. The odd thing with my toes is that it often happened in the early 1980s when I was snuggling on the couch with my newly wed husband. The pain would cause me to jump up and put pressure on my feet and/or grab my toes and hold them tight. My husband thought it was odd. I showed it to him once - I held my foot up and bore the pain for as long as I could while some of my toes moved in an unnatural direction to the point of almost bending completely sideways and pushing against the others. It felt like they were going to break. At the time we both just thought it was odd. There was no medical explanation for it. I now believe that it was technologically induced, through remote lasering of tendons nerves or muscles, and was probably performed to interfere with my being held and comforted.
   Lately, my right leg has often been lasered. The other night my upper lip did something weird just before the laser weapon moved to my foot and then my pubic area during an obvious episode of technological harassment as I tried to go to sleep.
   These sorts of tortures and harassment, as well as others, have been ongoing for me as well as others whom I know have been targeted. I know a target who suddenly started being kept awake with painful muscle spasms in his legs during the night, in the 1970s. It was called a "charlie horse" but I now think it was mostly, if not completely technologically induced, in order to torture him and deprive him of sleep.

Forced to Erase Evidence From Phone

   I recently experienced yet another episode of my phone not being allowed to store messages, due to claims of it being full although it was not full. This sees to be a way to force me to erase stored messages, which could be used as evidence of the targeting. I've lost a lot of messages this way. If I do not erase them so that others can be stored, I am forced to answer every phone call, which is not good for me, due to the levels of harassment calls I have gotten. I have experienced the same things with pictures stored on my phone. I have often gotten a message that the memory is full when I try to take a picture of stalkers. . .or after I already have, in order to make me erase some of them. The same thing happens with text messages.

The Mutilation of Character

   It appears that lines or wrinkles in the skin can be remotely inflicted with lasers. Around the time when those who target me started the "aging" threat thing, which I wrote about in a recent post, I had started feeling itching and tingling around the base of my nose - between my eyes. The tissue under my skin began to harden and my skin started flaking. Then odd, unnatural lines/wrinkles across the top of my nose began to appear. This has also happened with unnatural vertical lines on my upper lip and downward angled lines at both ends of my mouth...etc.
   Natural wrinkles do not bother me and are not an issue of mine. I have not had the common concerns about aging, which I feel have become destructive to much of humanity. HOWEVER, what they have done to me bothers me, because it is very important to me to age naturally. What they have been doing to my skin and face, AFTER threatening to, is not natural and is changing the way I look. I want to age naturally and I should be allowed to.
   I have always felt that the types of wrinkles, which a person naturally accumulates as they age, reflects our character. . . .and that surgical alterations of the natural process of facial aging defaces a person's character. And when it is done without permission it is a intrusive mutilation of character that just should not be happening to anyone.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

My Car - My Home - My Safety

  Looks like they are again trying to sabotage my car and force me into a worse environment without a vehicle to be able to leave with!!!!  I hope I am wrong and this is not another episode of that. If not, I hope that they do not succeed. I need the car until I can replace it. And I do not want to be trapped in any place that I do not feel comfortable with. Actually I do not want to be trapped anywhere. Please stop disabling my vehicle.


Friday, December 16, 2016

New Introduction Book

[ Update Jan 20, 2017; The more complete version of this book; https://www.amazon.com/Ramblings-Targeted-Individual-Sharon-Rose/dp/1542674182/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1485181606&sr=8-1&keywords=ramblings+of+a+targeted+individual 

   This is more complete than the previous "Introduction" book. It is a partially edited version of old editions, plus new updates, that are not in the others. All of the many editions of this  book have been aims for me (a Targeted Individual) to expose technological and pharmaceutical mind control, covert harassment...etc., and get help for all of us. It is  a good example of what a Targeted Individual goes through in the process of carrying the immense burden of trying to prove and expose technological and covert targetings...etc., while still being targeted. Please read this book with your Heart, excuse mistakes, and do all that you can to help stop all levels of the targeting of humanity.
  Doing these writings while being harassed, and sometimes threatened and tortured for doing so, has been an immense challenge to say the least. Older, more original posts are in the edition numbers one through four and ten through fourteen. Editions five through nine were too severely edited and interfered with. I am deeply sorry for the confusion around these multitudes of editions of this book. It has been a hell of a process to just try to fix and preserve my writings while being targeted and working on infiltrated computers. I came to the conclusion that it can not be effectively done until I have the freedom to gain more understanding and use my heart to fix and explain old original posts, which contain many of my own mistakes as well as those imposed by those who target me, which is why I've decided to the Introduction, until I can pull it all together and make it better in one final edition.
    The blog part of this book is basically the same as what is left on the web, as of January 20, 2017, and is to preserve what is left of it until I am free to use my heart in a final edition that hopes be explained far better than this and previous ones.  I hope that, even in this sad state, it will help all of us to regain our Freedom. Download the pdf ; http://www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro2.pdf  ]

P.S. When I first posted this book; In the description of this book the word "not" was erased from the part which states that it "includes updates that are not in the others."  I caught the change and put the word back in but the fix was not transferred until I exposed it here. Hopefully this will be fixed soon, because it is important for people to know that this book contains new material that is best read before the other available editions.

P.S.S. (Update Jan 10 2017) I have been trying to ad more to this book and am being blocked in a public library computer. They appear to have also corrupted the file I had saved with this book in it.

 Previously posted Introduction book; www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro.pdf  and on Amazon' http://www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro.pdf   and at; https://www.amazon.com/dp/1541097866/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1481900525&sr=8-1&keywords=Ramblings+of+a+Targeted+Individual

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Microwave Targeting Can Interfere With the Natural Aging Process

  The "aging" thing that they threatened appears to be happening through microwave targeting of my body in the past year or so, especially my skin.  Prior to this swing into making me look older they appeared to be doing the opposite - somehow slowing down the aging process. "Forever young" was the song they kept playing during this time. It seemed to be a ploy to lure me into enslavement where they claimed that they could keep me looking young. I refused to bite and told them that I do not mind aging. . .and then they swung into a projected dream, which showed spots all over a woman's skin and puppet license plates that portrayed "aging." This has been happening to me since then. It feels horrible that they can also technologically interfere with the way I look.

 I don't mind aging, but I want it to happen
naturally and not through technological targeting
.

P.S.

P.S.S. Lot of heavy microwaving of my brain...etc., lately! Feel like my brain is clamped in a prison when it gets this bad. I feel numb. Aside from that I feel tired and discouraged and overwhelmed. Some days are better than others and some days are worse. Its a hell of a roller coaster ride, literally!

 
   

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

From the Heart of My Frustration

   There are a few things that I want to make very clear to everyone who has been questioning or assuming things. Please excuse possible bloops in this. I'm upset and am letting my tears and frustrations pound the computer keys.

1. I do not believe in the covert rescue and do not want it for myself, because I feel that it leads to enslavement. I feel that many who think they are free and safe are not really and will not find out until it is too late if things keep going the way they have been through the past few decades. So, please stop trying to force me into enslavement.

2. Regardless of what is in my infiltrated ramblings, which I have not had the freedom and information to properly fix, I do not want to go up against any level of my American government. . .no matter what has happened to me. I don't.
   When I look at the bigger picture I see that America, and all of its agencies and families and citizens, have been being targeted with aims for other forces to take over our country as well as the rest of humanity. They are victims too, especially of the technological mind control. And I cannot help but to feel for all of us and pray for our freedom to be fully and honestly restored to all of America as well as the rest of humanity.
   When I look at the smaller picture I feel scared and hurt and frustrated that any of this is even happening, especially when I look at the lives that have been being destroyed while covert wars rage around the globe and nobody acknowledges the targeting, especially the technological parts and the enslavement. I have a right to these feelings. It all hurts indescribably. Some of us (myself included) have been suffering through such grossly inhumane levels of covert and technological targeting that we cannot really want anything but for the hell to end as quickly as possible. But, no matter how hurt or angry I have felt, I do not want to blame any level of law enforcement (from local to the president) for what has been happening, because I feel that they are victims too and surely have their own types of struggles in this hell that has been infiltrating America as well as the rest of humanity. I just keep praying that it is getting better instead worse and have been waiting for clear, non-covert evidence of this. I am still waiting.
   More than anything I want America to fully and honestly stand up and regain its freedom, but sometimes I feel selfish when I put so much of my prayers into this, because there are other people and countries that have been being hurt and infiltrated and taken over as well. I feel for them too. This does not mean that I am against America or that I am a "globalist." I'm not. I actually have a deep and firm belief in the importance of countries and people retaining their independence, freedom and individuality. And sensing that America, and all that it has stood for, has been crumbling in the secret shadows of covert wars and technoogical mind control infiltrations is the most excruciating thing that I have ever felt. I, as well as many people whom I love, have been being hurt or destroyed or enslaved by the horrible holocaustal targetings. God help America. . .and the rest of humanity. Until world peace is gained no country is completely safe and free. I pray for that peace and for our freedom to quickly be attained. I wish that all aware and uncontrolled American and foreign forces would unite in aims to free America, as well as the rest of humanity, from all levels of covert targeting, especially the technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

3. I am deeply sorry for all mistakes and misunderstandings that are portrayed in my blog writings, including the alterations performed by those who target me. Its been a horrible battle to just TRY to preserve what is left of my writings so that I can later fix them. I have come to the conclusion that it cannot be effectively done on infiltrated computers in public places where I have often experienced covert harassment and radio waves interfering with the function of my brain. I have also not yet received clear and direct honest answers to questions that could help clarify many things. My writings are not always "politically correct," or even the way that I would naturally write them, because of the nature of the targeting and its effects on me and my writings. So, I beg you all to understand and excuse me and my writings until I can freely make them better.

4. The threat of being shoved into enslavement or framed appears to have again vamped up since I was told that my uncle died and since I finished the new "Introduction" to my Rambling of a Targeted Individual books, which aims to preserve newer posts. But perhaps this is a coincidence. I do go through a lot of rounds of this.


P.S. This blog is suddenly not sending copies of this post to my email address when I first posted it.





Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Ouch!

   Heavier levels of technological torture since yesterday. Severe this morning. Last night I had a dream about people blaming me for what those who target us do - something about the heat being turned up and me being blamed and shoved out. This could mean several different things and I am too overwhelmed to give it much thought. It was probably a projected dream since it matched last nights puppet messages which ended in demands for me to leave - to disappear - to "go home."

   I am scared and hurting on every level. Yesterday I tried disassociating with making Holiday cards. But it did not work very well. Last night and today I am getting another round of threats to disable my car and force me into a "covert rescue" - enslavement.

I DO NOT WANT
THE COVERT RESCUE'S ENSLAVEMENT
!

 
That lethal "home" is NOT my Home! I still pray for good people to stand up and set humanity free. My written stand is not a very efficient one, due to being targeted through it, and being in the process of figuring it all out...etc., but it’s a stand that I aim to stick with and make even better when I have the freedom to completely follow only my own heart without interference.

www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. I erased the video I put here when I realized that it ended in violence. I believe that this technological holocaust can and should end without violence and with criminal use of all radio wave technologies...etc., stopped - humanity set free.
 

Monday, December 5, 2016

Death of a Loved One

   Today I learned that my Uncle's body died last week. The fact that he is now dead, and was old, could easily be seen as a coincidence, but it may not be. There are a few things that make me wonder if it was connected to the targeting, though he was old. I wish I'd had a chance to say good-bye to him. More than that, I wish I could have helped him.
   I deeply feel for my father who was really close to his brother - my uncle. And it breaks my heart to not be able to be there for him without concerns about the targeting vamping up on him if I go to see him. The targeting keeping walls between me, and people whom I love, is just too excruciating. I was going to go see my uncle, and had sent him some info on the targeting a few years ago, when I was trying to help family members realize the targeting. But they didn't believe me and I never made it down there.

 On Tuesday, March 25, 2014 I wrote on this blog; "I am also getting what appears to be threats against my family, particularly my uncle JR and my father. My uncle was admitted into the hospital as these threats came in. Please help and pray and do all you can to expose this for all of humanity. Please." http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2014/03/im-being-hit-really-hard.html.
   I had hoped that it would stop the targeting or at least help relatives pull together to stand up against it. But this didn't happen then either. I am praying for all of us to be set free from the chains of mind control and other destructive targetings that prevent belief of the truths, that aims to keep targeted family members hurting and separate and even uses some to help isolate and hurt heavy targets like me.

   My Uncle held a special place in my heart and, around my grief, I wrote this poem about my memories of my Uncle's visits with my father, back when we were all together.

Like Two Peas in a Pod

I remember, like it was yesterday,
Though it seems like many lifetimes,
The two of them talking and laughing.
It was like old poetry set in rhymes.
I loved those two little peas in a pod,
  Pumping out one story after another.
  I enjoyed being a silent witness to
That Love between two brothers.


I was already missing them before his body died
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P.S. Since I posted this the technological torture has vamped up. My tears have stopped welling. I now just feel numbed by the physical pain and discomfort. After I wrote this in a library a puppet said, "OK. Well. No drama." But I want and need to feel my natural feelings. And they have no right to interfere. What they call "drama" can actually be healing. "Drama" is just another dysfunctional way to stifle the feelings we were born to feel. God help us to be set free.

P.S.S. I wrote the two poems below on December third - the day after my uncle's body died. Around the time when he was dieing my car and phone were again disabled and, after I got out of that rut, I became angry about people's lives being destroyed while they are playing cruel games with me and trying to force me into enslavement. I think a part of me knew that something bad was happening - that another life was being destroyed. I had even put up a post about this that I later erased due to it being written with so much anger. . .and due to my not wanting good people to feel bad or think that I blame them. I know that genuinely good people would be here for us if they could and would take no part in the destruction of our lives.

Confusion's Pain
Confusion grows
From days gone by
As pain pierces
Tears un-cried.
Oh God, help us
To be set free.
Help all Hearts
To open and see.


Webs of Deceit
Twisted tangled webs
Of lies and deceit
Slither from behind
Tortures they repeat.
Souls stumble and fall -
Unwillingly enslaved.
Until its finally over -
Humanity saved.


Friday, December 2, 2016

The Silent Targetings

    I see news reports on whether or not vote counts are honest and I feel deeply concerned that I've not seen any reports on the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, which surely prevents honest voting.

   I see news reports about an increase in diabetes in children and other types of debilitating illnesses in both adults and children. . . and I feel deeply concerned that I've not seen any reports on how technological (radio wave) targeting can cause such illnesses, and that medical and pharmaceutical fields can make astronomical amounts of money from the suffering inflicted upon victims of these types of holocaustal crimes.

   I see uncountable numbers of citizens, around the globe, who have become aware of the technological and covert targetings and have been crying out for help with protection from ongoing, inhumane tortures. . . and I feel deeply concerned that I've not seen any reports which do not assume that we are just "mentally ill," and ad to our suffering

   Everyone knows that the weather has been going crazy
and I feel deeply concerned that I have not seen any reports about the weather modification technologies that can cause this.

More may be coming soon.

I wonder why, although I know,
And wait for Hearts to care to show.