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Saturday, October 29, 2016

I Deeply Cried Yesterday

   Yesterday, as I thought about the scope of the targeting and the ranges of feelings I have felt and been tortured for, (from anger to heartfelt objectivity and concern for all) I deeply cried and silently wrote out my pain in my car. This was the first time, in YEARS, that I was able to do this to this depth and not technologically tortured for grieving or technologically prevented from feeling my sadness, which was surprising, although I only cried for a few minutes. But then they parked a puppet car next to me to keep slamming doors as if it is not OK.
   I have been feeling so hurt I can't always hold it in. The suffering I have been experiencing, the lives that I have witnessed being destroyed and the state of our country and world is all more excruciating than words can even begin to imagine. The pain is sometimes unbearable. I need to be able to freely feel and heal and not be hurt or badgered for it. This is what my life's work is about. But I have not had that freedom to do this part of it. I now realize that, even back when I thought I had privacy and freedom, I didn't really.

It’s OK to feel angry and it’s OK to feel sad. We were born with these feelings so that we'd use them in positive ways that can help us to heal and grow and into all that we were born to be. 

  My anger has helped me to have the strength and courage to keep standing up while I am being threatened and tortured for doing so. And my sadness, when I am able to deeply grieve without being tortured for it, would help me release the pain that has been building in my heart. But I would also need freedom and privacy for this to happen effectively. I feel like I'd need to grieve for at least a few months in order to recover.

P.S. This is about natural feelings. Most of my anger has actually been technologically induced and would not exist on its own and if I were free to release my pain in private without being tortured or harassed for it. By nature my own anger usually quickly turns to sadness and a releasing of my pain through crying.

The Sexual Violations Are Hard to Bear

   Aside from the other types of technological targeting I have experienced laser weapon attacks, through the past few decades, that are obviously mostly just to irritate and cause discomfort through tingling and itching sensations. These have primarily focused on my nose, ears, pubic area and my hard to reach shoulder blades.
   But in the past three years or so I have been being sexually violated with laser weapons as well as what appears to be an infliction of some sort of parasite that crawls beneath my skin in my pubic area nearly every single day. Its probably some sort of African type worm that is aggravated by microwaves shot into that area at strategic times. . .especially during the times (like yesterday and today) when they have puppets chasing me around with their children. I was up half the night last night. . .being sexually violated with no way to avoid it or stop it from happening. This happens almost every night as I try to go to sleep. Though not always for as long it still happens.  Though they seem to try to cover up the laser weapon attacks with parasite attacks a lot is still done with weapons that instantly inflict bleeding sores like burn marks and cuts and a painful burning sensation after I scratch. Sometimes they have puppets yell at me or blare vehicle horns for scratching the itch, as if I am the one who is doing something wrong. They also often have puppets walk by me grabbing their groin.
   This past summer a laser was used to cut open my pants on the inner side of my thigh, which exposed me. (This could only have been done through a satellite, due to my position.) Then they had a puppet park next to me and loudly say, "I saw that." There are many times when they have lasered my breasts, including through the past few days. . .and since I said something about it they are threatening to give me breast cancer. This seems to be a common pattern in the targeting - inflicting something else to make it look like its not being done with laser weapons. (The cancers can be inflicted with microwaves as well.) Those who try to frame me as a pedophile are obviously the ones who are perverts. I have never touched a child and it is not something I would have ever done. I am the one who has been being sexually assaulted.
   When they do these rounds of sending puppets with children around me everywhere I go, while sexually assaulting me in more severe ways, I have often thought that they are trying to frame me, in order to dishonor me, because this has obviously been happening. But they sometimes obviously want to make me think that they already have framed me and are using it to try to terrorize/force me into the covert rescue/enslavement.  Over and over again they have attacked me and then swarmed me with puppets trying to "rescue" me. Watching these patterns for so long is one of the things that has proven to me that the covert "rescue" is performed by the very same people who do the targeting and that it leads to enslavement. I also had a dream which forewarned of this scenario.

    Technologies are not the only things they have used to sexually assault me. I have been VERY obviously drugged and raped by perpetration/pervert puppets on at least three occasions. The first time was in 2005, right after my Alstead, NH neighborhood was wiped out in a suspicious flash flood. The second time was in 2008/2009 winter as I drove across the USA with a perverted truck driving trainer. I reported both if these incidents, but the targeting vamped up. The third rape was in 2012 in Vermont while I was at the last job they shoved me toward. By this time I knew that reporting it would just hurt me more, especially since I had fully realized it too late and had no proof.I also believe that my children and I were being assaulted in our own home - drugged...etc., while sleeping in the 1990s.

Thursday, October 27, 2016

I am Deeply Sorry

    I have tried, on several occasions, to edit this blog. But ongoing infiltration into the computers I use and alterations to my writings are still preventing this. Interference also happens through the lasering of my brain. I can not fix all of their alterations and my own mistakes while alterations are still being done and I am still being targeted. Those who target me seem to want me to just wipe it all out. But I can not do that either. So, I want to again apologize for the dysfunctional posts. Please read with your Heart and look past them until I have the freedom I need, in order to fix them.
   I am deeply sorry that my writings have been such a target and that I have been shoved into a place where I do not even have an uninfiltrated computer to use. I pray that this changes soon.

Jolted Awake With a Painful Laser Shot to my Head

   This morning I was jolted awake with painful laser shot to my head as I had a projected dreams about my noticing a professional man's head being lasered. (This is not nearly the first time this sort of thing has happened.) The pain continued and I am now also being lasered in the neck for sharing thise and the previous post.

Found More Chages to my Writings

    I tried pulling together another book of this blog while doing better edits, until I found this post ("The Bad Uses the Unaware Good") completely erased as well as this post ("After Turning up the Thermostats") replaced with something entirely different. The date or location of key posts may have also been changed.   I am at my wits end with this process of trying to fix my writings on public computers that are infiltrated. I know that they need fixing, but how can I fix them while those who target me are still altering them?!! Obviously I can't.

Monday, October 24, 2016

Back and Forth and Up and Down

There are many times when the technological targeting has suddenly backed off at strategic times. . .and I have wondered if its to prevent detection or hide the fact that I am being targeted. At other times the opposite happens - my brain is lasered at strategic times to make me forget or look crazy...etc.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

"Eagle Fly but Don't Fly Away"

A beautiful song through a beautiful voice, which was once dedicated to me, but it now reminds me of America and the Freedom it needs, in order to be all that it was meant to be for us as well as the rest of humanity.  Tears well up as I listen to it. "How could we be so blind not to see that She is hurting too, just as we."


God Help America

Friday, October 21, 2016

Technological Mind Control Should be the Easiest Part of the Targeting to Detect

   The details of the microwave/radio wave detection, which were in the article linked below, appear to have been changed but the core of it is still there and it proves that the technological targeting can easily be detected; "Thousands of Americans believe they are targeted by mind control technologies. At one time, we thought of all of them as “tin foil hat” conspiracy theorists. This was until we were able to break through the encoding within some mobile communications devices, signals we will refer to as “sub-carriers” for lack of a better term." http://www.veteranstoday.com/2012/12/24/venturas-brain-invaders/

   I'd like to also re-share previous statements, which reported a suspicion that future detection technologies could have a filter built in, which prevented the detection of low frequencies that are used for mind control. This was in the UK but it is not unreasonable to think that it could happen globally as well. http://www.whale.to/b/rifat.html

  It appears that the technological part of the targeting CAN be detected and proven with unfiltered detection technologies. And I pray for this to happen, so that it can not slyly continue controlling and damaging people.

   I beg government and military officials, around the globe, to do everything in their power to stop criminal use of all ground and space based radio wave technologies as well as the pharmaceutical targeting, which aids the mind control part of it, ASAP.

P.S. I experienced painful torture levels of microwaves being shot into by brain through the days that posted and edited this.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Another Alteration Found in My Writings

    I am deeply concerned about what is being done to my writings. I just realized that the post I wrote about getting an email from President Obama was not only moved to a different date but also altered! :-(   http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2015/08/an-email-from-obama.html.
  I do not know what else has been changed. But just my having to post the fact that they alter some of my writings discredits all of them to some to some degree! This feels horrible, no matter what their motive is, especially since writing has been a large part of my work. I hope they do not succeed with any more manipulations of my writings, but I have no way of securing them since computers I use tend to be infiltrated. I pray for the freedom to do my work without any sort of interference, invasions and alterations.

     Also, one of the last special editions of my "Heart Bud" paper (printed in 2014) was altered in ways that made it look like I am blaming the government; Part of a quote from 'Veteran's Today' was erased (the part that stated how technological mind control was technologically detected), and then another part of it, which mentioned the government, was plugged in. This has felt like yet another aim to set me up for something that is not true. Its horrible that I am not only continuing to be targeted, but also have to worry about my writings being altered.
      The details of the microwave/radio wave detection, which were in this article, appear to have been changed but the core of it is still there and it proves that the technological targeting can easily be detected; "Thousands of Americans believe they are targeted by mind control technologies. At one time, we thought of all of them as “tin foil hat” conspiracy theorists. This was until we were able to break through the encoding within some mobile communications devices, signals we will refer to as “sub-carriers” for lack of a better term." http://www.veteranstoday.com/2012/12/24/venturas-brain-invaders/

I Beg You

   I beg government and media officials to let your Hearts stand up for your selves, for your loved ones, for us, for America. . .ultimately for all of humanity. Please stand up and publicly expose the technological and pharmaceutical mind control and its enslavement program...etc., so the covert wars can end and enslaved victims can be set free.  Please stand up so that people can understand what is happening and at least have the opportunity to resist the mind control, protect themselves and support each other. Please stand up so that heavily hit victims can be understood and protected from further harm. Please break the silence that too many are suffering in. Please stand up and help set humanity free. Please!

Please Help Set Humanity Free

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Example of the "Noise Campaign" Part of the Targeting

   I have been wanting to share this for a while now but keep forgetting. Another bit of harassment, which happened today, jogged my memory.
   The noise campaign part of the targeting can get intense at times. And it happens through puppets dropping things, banging things, beeping vehicle horns, screeching vehicle tires, revving engines...etc. Sometimes its done with technologically transmitted sound and sometimes it is VERY obviously done through puppets being instructed to be where I am going and do what their master tells them to do. I do my best to ignore it all. But this is often impossible and every now and then I react to it. The experience I was reminded of today happened a couple years ago. . .
  I had walked into a McDonalds and a puppet who stood at the counter dropped something onto the floor, making a loud bang, right after I walked by. I was in a sassy mood that day. So, I turned around, walked up behind her and said, "You were a few seconds too late." And she said, "Oh I thought she was right there!" She had thought I was her partner speaking, because she didn't see me double back. I wonder how she felt when she realized it was me whom she admitted her harassment to.
   Sometimes the puppets seem like mind control victims who are not aware of what they are doing. But sometimes they obviously know exactly what they are doing.

 P.S. There have been other times when I head for a public bathroom and instead of going in I have waited, either for someone else to finish using it or to watch something on a nearby TV. On a few occasions this has put me in a position where I actually watched the puppets race to the door and reef on the handle as if trying to break in, the way they have often done to me as I sit on the toilet. On a few occasions I looked at them and sarcastically said, "That's not me in there." My reacting this way is an attempt to defuse the agitation, which is raised by these sort of things happening so much and for so long.
   I feel that the covert program, which uses their puppets to harass or harm fellow citizens, also enslaves unaware victims under the guise of it being good or helpful. But there seems to be different levels of it. Most of the puppets seem like mind control victims who do not know what they are doing. One level is obviously criminal. How can anyone think that making loud noises or trying to force a locked door open or drugging us against our will or inflicting us with parasites or  intentionally damaging our property or breaking into our homes and vehicles or moving and replacing our belongings...etc., is helpful? Some puppets are obviously too lost in the darkness that surrounds heavily Targeted Individuals and its difficult to know if it is through their own choices or through being tortured or brain damaged or deceived or completely controlled.  Its a horrible thing - this covert and technological targeting. . .and I hope it is quickly and completely exposed and stopped.

    Its no wonder why, back in 2004, I started feeling like humanity was losing its Heart. It was and is. I just didn't know how back then, because I was not aware that I was being targeted and was not aware of technological mind control. But I was noticing the rudeness that was surrounding me. I was feeling the pain of unnatural amounts of losses and difficulties and being either abandoned or targeted by loved ones. And I was feeling the confusion of wondering what was "wrong with me" and what I had done to deserve it for over a decade before I realized that criminals were targeting me with covert harassment, radio wave technologies, chemicals and parasites. . .and that brainwashings, heavy targetings or enslavement was being inflicted upon those who would have wanted to be here for me.

God help us all to be completely set free

Saturday, October 15, 2016

The Garlic Experiment and Cyclotron Resonance?

  Until today, I recently went through another round of the technological part of the targeting backing off and a vamp up in the parasite and chemical part. As this happened my garlic started turning bright green as it cooked. This has happened before, at a time when ginger root also contained the same green color in most of the stores I frequented. After I told a store manager about it and posted it on this blog it stopped. All seemed normal again. The ginger root stopped being green. But now the garlic is again turning green.
    This time I went to different stores to buy and test the garlic. They knew I was doing this test and I had talked about it. Three times I tried and three times there was no green color appearing in even the garlic which had turned green yesterday morning and the day before. (above is a picture of the green garlic.) What does this mean?
   It APPEARS that the green color is not in the garlic when I buy it - that something is happening to it while I cook it. This again happening during a time when they are actively trying to inflict me with parasites leads me to believe that they are trying to prevent the garlic from being effective. (Garlic and ginger are great remedies for may types of infections and parasites.) What are they doing to it?
   I believe that radio waves, at certain frequencies, can have multiple effects on a variety of substances and that this is an area we need to know more about for the safety of all of humanity. I found this information in a book by Jerry E. Smith; "Laboratory experiments have shown that a minute quantity of a substance in a living body (an amount too small to cause effect) can be excited by exposure to EMR, through something called, Cyclotron Resonance, so as to produce effects as though there were up to a thousand times as much of the substance present."
   And even too much of a good thing can be bad and even lethal. If radio waves can effect vegetables and fruits in ways that prevent proper nutrition, or worse, in ways that can harm or kill, we have a serious problem that I hope is investigated and stopped as quickly as possible.

Please help stop criminal use of ground and
space based technologies that emit radio waves.


P.S. After I did the garlic test the technological part of the targeting vamped back up. Prior to that it only been mild ringing in my ears and periodic painful laser shots that only lasted a few seconds and then stopped. Most of the time when they torture me it lasts a lot longer. I enjoyed the break, but I don't want the parasites and toxic food in exchange for it. I want it ALL to completely and genuinely stop. I'm hurting today and it has been difficult to focus on this article, but I felt it had to be written.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Hilary Clinton Quote for Children - Our Future

“That will be my mission as president; to make sure I do everything I can, every single day, to knock down the barriers, to open up the doors, so that every child has a chance to live up to his or her God given potential” ~ Hilary Clinton

I hope she is able to stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control from continuing to prevent children from being all that they were born to be. Who will REALLY care enough to expose, and start ending, the enslavement of humanity? I hope Hillary does, and if she does. . .I hope she becomes our next president.

Our children TRULY ARE "our future" and they need to be free. Please help them be. Too many have already been too hurt.


4:02 pm today; Painful laser shots to back of neck/spine as I post this.

Life can not be lived without freedom. It can only be survived

Ironically my New Hampshire license place says "Live Free or Die." I understand that more now than I ever have. Without freedom life is often not worth living. Life cannot be lived without freedom. It can only be survived. I'm still surviving, but I'm not living. I want to live.

P.S. They know that I am not going to leap into their false covert rescue stuff. But still they prance puppets, including estranged loved ones and their friends, around me as if it were all a cool game. The oblivious puppets laugh and smile while I stand alone and continue being tortured. Not much is more cruel than this irregardless of the intentions.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Another Increase in Chem Trails?

   I am not sure if this is becoming a pattern - the increase of chemtrails in areas after I spend a lot of time there. I have read that chem trails are made up of liquid and little polymer fibers which help the liquids to stay in the air for longer periods of time. But there are many different theories on what the spraying is really for. I took this video this morning in central southern New Hampshire.



Friday, October 7, 2016

Thursday, October 6, 2016

The Plight of Our Families

   I know that I have mentioned all of this before, but it deserves reiterating; I am not a "bible thumper" but I do believe that there are some good and accurate messages in the bible. . .and that prophecies are more for prevention than preparation.
   The bible spoke of a time when the dark forces would be harming humanity through tearing families apart and inflicting horrible pain and suffering. I feel that this has already been happening and is being done with technological and pharmaceutical mind control, as well as covert harassment with rumor campaigns, in order to pit family members against each other - competing and judging and degrading and hating and separating, and sometimes even being brainwashed into believing bad things about each other. . .instead of Loving each other. 
   In some situations family members are literally tortured to death and the suffering spreads through all who care. In some situations a member is covertly torn away (enslaved) - their death staged. . .leaving remaining family members with the nagging feeling that something is wrong, which prevents healthy grieving and closure. In some situations a family member is shunned and isolated for extreme levels of torture. . .other family members blaming this primary victim and often blocked from even caring while the victim is stalked, tortured and shoved into poverty - bank accounts, homes, relationships and work sabotaged...etc. Some family members are fully enslaved and used to aid in the targeting of the isolated relative, sometimes cruelly harassing and instigating/manipulating the deprivation of the types of care and help that are desperately needed. . .and sometimes operating under a dark guise of "help" that aims to rescue/force the victim into the covert program that targets them all or to install a "mental illness," label, which strips vital levels of freedom from the victim.
    In these sad situations, where whole families are inflicted with technological mind control and used against each other, ALL family members are victims and all suffer in ways that no human being should have to endure.

    I feel that my whole family has been a victim of sadistic technological targeting since at least the mid 1970s. I am the one who was isolated from my family with them blaming me (some even used to help target me in various ways). . .and me blaming them until I realized the technological mind control part that targets us all.
   I feel that this is happening to far more families then most of us may want to realize and it needs to be faced and stopped as quickly as possible. I sense that the same sorts of sadistic pitting have been happening between citizens and government...etc.
   These truly are holocaustal crimes against humanity and criminal use of both land and space based radio wave technologies must be stopped as quickly as possible. The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical targeting is the way it blocks our Hearts and prevents us from fully Loving and grieving and healing and growing into all that we were meant to be. Please help restore our freedom to live and love and grow in the ways that we were born to.

Please help stop the targeting of families,
So that we can freely Love each other.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Who In Their Right Mind?

   I keep wondering who, in their right mind, would even consider using technological mind control on fellow human beings, even if they did not realize that it interferes with the natural process of personal growth - the evolution of our Hearts and Souls? I beg all who are involved in it to please stop and turn your focus onto helping to stop criminal use of both ground and space based radio wave technologies as well as their aiding pharmaceuticals. Please help set humanity free.

God Doesn't Do It! God is the Love that helps us stand up and stop it.