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www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Thursday, October 29, 2015

A phrase from some of my earlier writings

Lets face this
With determination to preserve humanity,
With gentle hands reaching out to those in need,
With peaceful non-acceptance of the evil seed

Plea From my Heart

I was on the verge of tears through this video. It is a plea, which
 rose from the aching depths of my heart. I hope it is heard.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4wQbPyiEmA

I believe that victims of technological and pharmaceutical mind control include BOTH common citizens and Government officials. . .and that those who perform the targeting have enslaved victims into the covert program (often under the guise of a "rescue") that is used to help target the rest of us. I  pray for this to be exposed and stopped. I pray for humanity to be set free.




Wednesday, October 28, 2015

More of the Latest Vamp up in Targeting

   I repeatedly woke to the pain of various parts of my body being lasered last night. And this morning I experienced a painful attack to my head, (torture levels) which also included a lot of heat in my whole head. . .and has continued through most of the day on slightly milder scales.

   In the past few days I am also experiencing another round of disruptions when I use public bathrooms. This vamp up started after I'd stated that I needed a period of time of just at least being able to go to the bathroom without being harassed. With this aim, as well as my need for a bit of a break from living in my car and having no level of privacy...etc., I was aiming to get a motel room for a month and even had help with the payment of it. The financial help was taken away and then the puppets started an obvious round of rudely trying to access public bathrooms directly after I go into them. This is not done with the normal gently trying the handle, to see if it is locked, or knocking to see if someone is in there - they literally keep reefing on the door handle, as if trying to break in, or loudly banging on the door as if it is an emergency.   
   This is just one small example of the usual targeting pattern of vamping up something that they know is bothering me. I have experienced many rounds of this sort of thing in many different parts of the targeting. And a lot more than this is happening. I actually do not write most of it. Just surviving it is often about all I can do.

Monday, October 26, 2015

Attempted Instigation of Vehicle "Accidents"?

   In the past few days I have experienced THREE incidences where vehicles quickly pulled out in front of me from a stop sign where I had the right of way. Two of them happened today. The worst one was today when a car pulled out in front of me so quickly that there wasn't even time to brake before hitting it. I quickly swerved into the other lane, ending up beside the car that leaped out in front of me. . .and was very lucky that there was no oncoming traffic. Oddly, I did not even think of taking down plate numbers. But then. . .it probably wouldn't have mattered since no collision happened. None of these felt like "coincidences." They felt intentional. And this is not the first round of this sort of thing.

   I seem to sometimes experience what appears to be vengeance targeting - if I tell on them they seem to re-inflict the same sort of targeting. "Okay," they sometimes say after I expose part of the targeting and they start doing it again or vamping it up. And this may be what is happening with the "accident" stuff, since I recently mentioned, in my videos, that I had experienced odd chains of  vehicle "accidents" in the 1970s.

www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. My brain was being heavily microwaved as I aimed to meet the minister who wanted to talk to me about the gathering with my family. And the near "accident" experience happened shortly before I was due to go. It appears that these manipulations were aiming to add to my feelings of discomfort. Please read the post below.

The Painful Deprivation of the Things We Love Most

  One of the patterns in the long term heavy targeting of an individual is to rip away what the victim likes or values most in life.

   I first noticed this pattern in the sudden lack of availability of SO MANY of my favorite products. . .that it simply cannot be viewed as a "coincidence" by anybody. This has happened with my favorite drinks, my favorite shampoo, mud mask, my favorite flavored coffee, my favorite desert...etc. Some of these  products were completely taken off the market shortly after I developed a liking for them. And others had often been missing from store shelves at the time when I'd aim to purchase them.
    As I looked back over the deeper past I now realize that, around the late 1980s and early 1990s, they were working at ripping away the two most important things in my life - my family and my peaceful country home, which I viewed as my sacred sanctuary. They succeeded with both of these aims, because none of us were aware of being targeted.
   My first home was taken by the state of NH DOT, who had suddenly planned to put a road through my property. My next home was destroyed in a fire after severe harassment and illegal entries forced me to put it up for sale. On the next property I was severely harassed until I sold it and left the area. And the next neighborhood I moved to was (within about one month) mostly wiped out in a suspicious flash flood, where a culvert was plugged and a storm was mysteriously stalled over the area. I have been mostly homeless since then - since 2005.
   As for my family; this is the saddest and most painful part of the targeting. Physical homes can be replaced, prior to being targeted into destitution. But family bonds, and their needed trust...etc., cannot be restored under the sadistic constraints of ongoing mind control. . .and I just experienced a small painful reminder of this.
   A minister had tried to get my family together, because he could see that I need support and financial help. This is a normal response under normal conditions. But my family situation is not normal. We are all long term victims of technological targeting, and some of my family members have also been inflicted with the pharmaceutical part, which has enabled complete mind control.
   My instincts told me that a family gathering could not have a good outcome while we are all still being targeted and with the severest mind control victims still being completely unaware of being used to help harass me and/or have me labeled as “mentally ill”...etc. I had initially agreed to it, but then regretted it and called to close that door, before I realized that the process had already started and the same old sets ups for creating discord were already starting (in the usual way) through one of my siblings.(Its amazing how this can happen in ways that only the primary victim is aware of and others see nothing wrong!)
   Even just the thought of getting together with my family had raised a lot of mixed feelings in me. (I felt that I could not handle this under the present conditions, while the targeting freely continues.) In my heart I have deeply yearned for a normal, UNTARGETED, relationship with my family. This not being allowed still hurts indescribably. And it hurts to again be forced to face the fact that I cannot even begin to effectively restore my relationship with my family, while it is still under the control of those who target all of us. And the targeting would have to be genuinely and COMPLETELY stopped, in order for us to even start recovering and rebuilding trust...etc.
   The pain of this lingers, because it is a reminder of past pains. . .and because I have deeply yearned for a normal family life with my children and my family of origin. Family bonds have always been one of the most of important things to me. And being torn from my family of origin, especially with all of them blaming me for it, has inflicted the deepest pain I have ever been forced to endure. This was compounded as some of my family members aimed to destroy my bonds with my children. They did not succeed, but it planted seeds, which helped others to succeed later.
   Now that I understand how my family members, especially those who manipulate things against me, are mind control victims, it helps me to forgive them for the past. But it also makes me more determined to not let it start up again, for all our sakes. It hurts to be hurt by them and it hurts to see them being used in ways that could probably, in the long run, hurt them even more than it hurts me.
   Sadly, we cannot even begin to reunite, in a functional way, until the targeting is fully exposed and then realized by ALL family members, and not just me, especially since it appears that some have been forced into the program and are now completely controlled by those who target all of us.

   Sometimes, when I think of them, it hurts indescribably, not only because of what we have been through, but also because of what we have all been deprived of – each others Love.

 The sad truth is that no types of relationships can function properly under the manipulations of sadistic, technological mind control. This part of the targeting just really desperately needs to be fully exposed and stopped, especially since it is the key element that makes all the rest of it succeed.
   I wonder how many other families have been torn apart by technological and covert targeting. And I wonder how much pain is filling the hearts of EVERY single member of those families, both those who do not realize what is happening. . .and those who stand too painfully alone with an awareness of the targeting.

God, please help ALL of us.


P.S. I had a dream that said I would be killed, if I made the wrong decision connected to family. Did I just make that "wrong decision?" Probably. . .in the eyes of those target us and look for opportunities to perpetuate that targeting. But I feel that I made the right choice for myself as well as my family members, because there is a danger for them if they were able to bypass the mind control and let themselves really love me. . .and there was a danger for me, if they couldn't. Either way it would not have been good for any of us.
   I feel that, if the miracle ever happens, which would allow me to safely reunite with my family, I would need to do it on a 'one on one' basis with each different family member. Due to the severity of the targeting, and all the secrecy around it, this does not look like it will even have a chance of happening in the near future. . .if ever.  But my love for them lives on. . .it runs as deep as the pain I feel for all of us.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Until Humanity is Free to Follow its Heart

   I still strongly feel that technological and pharmaceutical mind control is at the root of MOST of the problems we are faced with in our world today. . .and that FULL recovery can not happen, and underlying problems can not be honestly resolved,  until this is stopped - until humanity is Free to follow its Heart without interference 

www.heartbud.com

Please help to set humanity Free. 

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

For the Targeted Children

  I have witnessed many children being harmed by technological and pharmaceutical targeting. I dedicate this video to the children and humanity's future.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4sMc0FkA4cM&list=PLQONgELhN0SVk7HddTQakxPYm60tRUH7G


Previously posted shorter video
https://youtu.be/uKtuPRC_U6Q?list=PLQONgELhN0SVk7HddTQakxPYm60tRUH7G


Download a pdf with the same information
www.targetedinamerica.com/children2forweb.pdf

The painful torturing vamped up for a short while as I posted this video.
www.targetedinamerica.com

Sunday, October 11, 2015

I'm being tortured again!

   This morning I was microwaved in a way that effected my lungs, as I said something that those who target me disapproved of. Then this stopped and I experienced a painful lasering of my right shoulder for a few hours.

Since around 3:30pm; I am experiencing almost unbearable pain in my head and a loud ring in ears - louder than what is usually there. (And someone tried to block me from posting this on the web.)

8:25pm - the torture to my brain continues! My back (around my kidney) was lasered as an ambulance drove into view of my rear view mirror. I felt sudden stabbing pain that stopped as quickly as it started. When things get this severe I feel scared.

   I have been struggling, while being heavily targeted, to present my videos in proper ways. The usual back and forth between the microwaves in my brain! And I have pulled together a better, COMPLETELY unedited version of my "Targeted Videos" to use as an example of the targeting. Today's torturing of my head started when I was in the middle of reproducing the video that is at the bottom of this playlist;  https://youtu.be/nxy7AYef50g?list=PLQONgELhN0SVk7HddTQakxPYm60tRUH7G

Thursday, October 8, 2015

On the Technological and Pharmaceutical Enslavement of Humanity

   This is the first video I had done after getting a little camcorder. It was after producing this one that I experienced a painful vamp up, into torture levels of microwave targeting, which extended through half the night and lingered for a few days. . .only stopping for a few hours directly after I posted the unedited version of one of my targeted videos.






Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Tears of a Targeted Individual

In this video I pulled together a few clips from my recent videos in a process of exercising my right to feel  and to express those feelings. I hope it touches your Heart.


https://youtu.be/2Itq9oJFNY4

Friday, October 2, 2015

New Video Play List


   I am experiencing technical difficulties, and technological targeting as I do this, so please excuse my appearance, my bloops and the poor quality of the videos. I am also not being allowed to print this link, so I can only hope that it remains the same. 


Previously posted addresses have been removed but same video are on the address above.