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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Again. . .a VIP Message

   I feel that Kris was probably targeted in ways that even he does not realize. But his Heart - his care for humanity still shines through the songs that were often blocked from reaching much of the public. The following song is a prime example of this. . .and feels like a VERY appropriate message for ALL who engage in the covert war.

Kris Kristofferson - Love Is The Way
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lc4NjKJSfno

Within this song Kris points out the destructive wars and preachers teaching "gospels of hate. . .and by there behavior, determined to teach us a lesson we're soon to be learning too late." And the solution he ends the song with is, "Life is the question. . .life is the answer. . . God is the reason and Love is the way." And I feel that he was right on target. Why aren't the rest of us?


Love Is The Way 
by Kris Kristofferson

Deep in the heart of the infinite darkness
A tiny blue marble is spinning through space
Born in the splendor of god's holy vision
And sliding away like a tear down his face
Closer you see the whole wide holy wonder
Of oceans and mountains and rivers and trees
And the strangest creation of many, the human
A creature of laughter and freedom and dreams
Now the warriors are waving their old rusty sabres
The preachers are preaching the gospel of hate
By their behavior determined to teach us
A lesson we're soon to be learning to late.
Look closer my brother, we're killing each other
And we'd better stop and get started today,
Because life is the question and life is the answer
And God is the reason and love is the way. . .


Friday, March 27, 2015

Another Threat?


  4:51pm; A puppet just walked by me and said, "Kidney fry." There is not much that they have not threatened to do to me. I am still feeling the effects of the chemical/microwave attack to my lungs. Repeated past threats were to give me COPD. This is literal terrorism. They keep threatening one thing after another and perform laser or microwave attacks to make to look like they are actually doing it. I've also experienced several rounds of them threatening to make me blind or otherwise physically disabled.



www.targetedinamerica.com

Hang in there Targeted Individuals.
God's Light shines for us.

Update; (March 4, 2015) As the lung thing gets better new rounds of lasering my heart start again. I feel certain this is being done with a laser weapon because as it hit my heart and I felt pain I suddenly shielded my heart and turned my body and then felt a blast of pain in my back. I am experiencing round after round of one thing after another! They are also covertly threatening to either steal or again disable my car and literally force me onto the street and into going with them. I pray for them to not succeed and for decent people to find the Heart to stand up with us against these crimes. 

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Newly Revised Heart Bud Paper



Please Print and Share this Paper ASAP 
www.heartbud.com/heartbudpaper6.pdf






Please read the update on my previous post on the last chemical attack I experienced.

www.targetedinamerica.com

I am still experiencing rounds of heavy targeting, especially with microwave weapon attacks! 

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

More Chemical Warfare!

   A few days ago, I walked into a library study room where it appears that I was again infected with some sort of chemical and/or bacteria. I smelt a bacteria/moldy type odor and my lungs severely constricted, and I felt light headed, as soon as I sat down to work on my laptop.  The area I was heading for being intentionally infected by those who target me was validated by a strong lysol type of odor outside the room, which I noticed as I left. Apparently they did not want to be infected with what they hit me with.
    The heavy restriction feeling in my lungs continued through the next day and has now turned into some sort of lung infection. This has been, as usual, surrounded by puppets coughing. There have also been puppet messages about quarantine and hospitalization - situations that perpetration would gladly aim for, because they could be potentially lethal for me. Am praying they do not succeed. This attack is, as usual, happening as I aim to update a book . Please freely download and share this new edition of Technological Holocaust, which is a "Call for the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from technological destruction."

Update on Chemical Attack (3/26/2015); This attack has been an unusual one. When it felt like I had breathed in some sort of chemical my lungs suddenly felt suppressed. . .almost like they had been coated and I was not getting enough oxygen. (I had not been sick prior to this.) This subsided in a couple days - it seemed like I was recovering from it. Then I suddenly started experiencing rounds of massive fluid accumulations in both my lungs and nose.  I believe this has most likely been microwave induced, because I do not have normal cold or flu symptoms, although it APPEARS like it. I have had no fever. My temp has actually been periodically dropping to as low as 97.2, which is what has happened to me during extreme levels of microwaving. The nose congestion is clear and only happens during sudden fluid accumulations in my lungs, which I practically choke on. (I have no sinus cold) During these attacks my arms ache in ways that are not normal and sometimes severe. . .as if nerves are being effected. (I have never experienced this with a normal cold or flu.) After a couple episodes of what felt like a vibrational lasering of my throat, my voice suddenly became hoarse. Yet I have no sore throat at all. Ironically, as I began feeling seriously ill, I got a call from an organization who offered me medical insurance. . .an effort that could enable them to hold me in a hospital even against my will. 
   This chemical attack appears to have swung into being a microwave attack and is still happening and appears to be an attempt to make me feel so ill that I end up in a hospital where I'd have no protection - no locked door between me and the medical puppets of those who target me and have become a more serious threat to my life lately


The only real defense is to expose and stop 
the technological and covert targeting.
www.targetedinamerica.com





P.S. I received a strange phone call today -  when I answered I heard a phone ringing ad someone answering before being cut off. . .as if I were the one who made the call. Am praying for protection for us all. . .especially my father whom I am getting puppet messages about. Hope we all soon get the protection we need. 
   I suddenly have a bunch of undeleteable files, with odd numbers and symbols, on my USB thingy and this has me concerned. Its very difficult working on infiltrated computers. I have no idea what will happen next. But I hope for the targeting and the set ups and the terrorizing to stop soon.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Statement on "Government Gang Stalking"

Most Targeted Individuals seem to think that we are just unfortunate people who have been plugged into some sort of government hit list for terrorists. This is understandable, because it is obvious that some government employees are involved in the targeting and none have openly acknowledged these crimes. But some of my experiences are leading me to believe that the core of the program, which is targeting us, has merely infiltrated parts of our government and want to manipulate citizens into blaming only the USA government - they appear to be connected to the same force that has been covertly infiltrating the USA since around the time of the assassination of President John F. Kennedy. I feel that there are good parts of our government, which are working on fixing this problem and I pray that that goodness grows very quickly.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=zdMbmdFOvTs

I am deeply concerned that too many people are being recruited into the dark covert program due to a lack of awareness and freely used mind control technologies. . .and victims who refuse to join continue being tortured. . .and that it ALL needs to be exposed and stopped in order to regain our Freedom.

www.targetedinamerica.com/stalking.html

P.S. After posting this I was woken in the middle of the night with what seemed like a microwave attack, which caused sudden fluid accumulations in my lungs and lasering of my head. Then this morning puppets (one with oxygen tubes in her nose) talked of hospitalization and a push for another covert "rescue". . .and I strongly felt perpetration in the background of all of it. These sorts of things - attacks followed by pushes for a covert "rescue" have been happening a lot since June of 2013. It was probably happening before that, but I just didn't notice, because I had gotten the message, "Your daughters will be OK if you leave" in 2006.
 

On the Covert War

The Covert War


A Technological Holocaust Thrives in the Shadows of a Covert War

    I've struggled to understand exactly how this began, how it has grown to such a degree, and how it operates. I can only go by my own experiences and instincts. But it appears that there may have been a covert program set up to help fight terrorism and that a global covert war has been secretly raging. Most citizens seem to not be aware of it, although many are being used in it and some of us have been being either destroyed by or enslaved into the dark side of it, which utilizes mind control technologies.

   In the 1970s President John F. Kennedy had warned of the dangers of handling this problem covertly but then was murdered, probably due to his openness about it, which may have forced other government officials into handling it covertly out of concern for their own safety. Below is a video where JFK addressed this critical issue in the 1970s.

JFK on the Covert War and Secret Societies


https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=zdMbmdFOvTs

I am one of the victims who have been being slowly destroyed. I have witnessed dozens of other good decent people also be targeted. And I am working hard to be as objective as I can. I do not want to blame the USA government, like many do, because I feel that the good parts of our government have been doing what they feel is right to retain our Freedom. . .and this is honorable,  no matter what the outcome.  However, all of my instincts - my heart and soul are strongly feeling that the Covert War must now be exposed and stopped, in order to regain our Freedom
   
   I am deeply concerned that too many people are being recruited into the dark covert program due to a lack of awareness and freely used mind control technologies. . .and victims who refuse to join continue being tortured. . .and that it ALL needs to be exposed and stopped in order to regain our Freedom.


Mind Control Steals Hope

I'm not being allowed to put these articles on the pages of this site so I put the links on this new post.

P.S. After posting this I was woken in the middle of the night with what seemed like a microwave attack, which caused sudden fluid accumulations in my lungs and lasering of my head. Then this morning puppets (one with oxygen tubes in her nose) talked of hospitalization and a push for another covert "rescue". . .and I strongly felt perpetration in the background of all of it. These sorts of things - attacks followed by pushes for a covert "rescue" have been happening a lot since June of 2013. It was probably happening before that, but I just didn't notice, because I had gotten the message, "Your daughters will be OK if you leave" in 2006.
 

Sunday, March 8, 2015

On the Myron May Tragedy

   I watched most of the videos made by Targeted Individual - attorney Myron May who had pre-planned the November 20, 2014 shooting at a Florida State University, and was reported to have wounded three people before being killed by law enforcement.
    I am deeply struggling with his premeditated choice to harm innocent people, in order to help get attention for other Targeted Individuals. I can not condone the process of Targeted Individuals aiming to harm other people and I do not feel that they should get publicity for doing so. Please do not even think of following his example, Targeted Individuals. This is NOT the way to get help for us. It just hurts more people and we surely know, better than most, that the process of people hurting other people needs to stop. I feel that Myron was probably a mind control victim who was set up to do the videos, as well as the act of terrorism, which may have all been orchestrated by those who targeted him. This only served perpetration. How incredibly sad for Myron and those whom he hurt!
    Myron May stated that the targeting "causes a lot of pain and a lot of damage to a lot of people and it hurts" and this is putting it mildly. There is a DESPERATE need for media acknowledgement of, and government protection from, the holocaustal crimes that are being committed against Targeted Individuals.


New Technological Holocaust Site

I just purchased www.technologicalholocaust.com. I had tried, and had been blocked from it in 2012 when I wrote my first Technological Holocaust paper. Its now being available to me has me feeling both excited and a bit suspicious. There are so many manipulations in the targeting that its often difficult to figure out what they are until its too late. There seems to have been an ongoing push to hide my old writings. I've had dates on files altered in various ways...etc. And I am sensing an issue, with those who target me, connected to my keeping my old files in tact on my Targeted in America site. My recent dream about "files" has me wondering, but I'm not sure what they are up to. I hope that nothing but good comes from this change.
   I am excited about finally getting the domain, because the Technological Holocaust issue is a global one that had needed its own site. Now that I've obtained it I will be reverting back to my original 2012 idea of having the Technological Holocaust site onto its own dot com and using my Targeted in America site for more personal accounts of being targeted. . .like I'd already done in my books with these titles. HOWEVER I am leaving the original Technological Holocaust pages in tact on the Targeted in America site, so they can be available to those who may find the addresses in papers and ads I've had running through the past three years. I pray that they are left as they are and not interfered with. I will soon give the Targeted in America site a new face with a link to the new site.

Update: I have decided to keep
the site below as my primary site.


P.S. I was hit with torture levels of microwaves to my head shortly after posting this.

I'm Sorry

I have been at my wits end with all the targeting stuff. Out of the well of pain and continued harassment and weapons aimed at my brain I have had a short fuse and am doing a lot of verbal venting in my car as well as behaving rudely to others. I am deeply sorry if I have hurt or offended anyone. I know that there are decent people in the world who are not doing the targeting and I hope they will understand and forgive me.

Friday, March 6, 2015

Veteran Song Writer Kris Kristofferson - A Profound Message

   I feel that Kris was probably targeted in ways that even he does not realize. But his Heart - his care for humanity still shines through the songs that were often blocked from reaching much of the public. The following song is a prime example of this. . .and feels like a VERY appropriate message for ALL who engage in the covert war.

Kris Kristofferson - Love Is The Way
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lc4NjKJSfno

Within this song Kris points out the destructive wars and preachers teaching "gospels of hate. . .and by there behavior, determined to teach us a lesson we're soon to be learning too late." And the solution he ends the song with is, "Life is the question. . .life is the answer. . . God is the reason and Love is the way." And I feel that he was right on target. Why aren't the rest of us?


Love Is The Way 
by Kris Kristofferson

Deep in the heart of the infinite darkness
A tiny blue marble is spinning through space
Born in the splendor of god's holy vision
And sliding away like a tear down his face
Closer you see the whole wide holy wonder
Of oceans and mountains and rivers and trees
And the strangest creation of many, the human
A creature of laughter and freedom and dreams
Now the warriors are waving their old rusty sabres
The preachers are preaching the gospel of hate
By their behaviour determined to teach us
A lesson we're soon to be learning to late.
Look closer my brother, we're killing each other
And we'd better stop and get started today
Because life is the question and life is the answer
And God is the reason and love is the way.
Because life is the question and life is the answer
And God is the reason and love is the way.
Because life is the question and life is the answer
And God is the reason and love is the way.
Yes, life is the question and life is the answer
And God is the reason and love is the way.


www.targetedinamerica.com


P.S. Answer to Perpetration Coercions; I will NOT leap into the covert world just to see if (I do not even know WHO) will honor my perception of covert/unclear messages. Many of us desperately need decent, honest, non-perpetration related, and non-covert help. . .from the types of people who can care to help just to end our suffering. I do not want help from perpetration or anyone else who lets us continue to suffer just because we do not follow them or honor them or agree with them or think or perceive things in the same ways they do. THIS IS AMERICA!

I got two threats after posting this. One was, "I'm going to blow you away" and the other was the usual "Happy Birthday."

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Dream of "Foriegn Files" and Possible Set Ups

 Before you read this post please read the following articles and help spread the word as quickly as possible.

Connecting the Dots Between False "Depression" and other Mental Illness Labels, Harmful Psychiatric Pharmaceuticals, Microwave Targeting and Eugenics

    Become Aware of the Deceitful Recruiting Process of the Covert Program
Are those who think they are being rescued really being enslaved?

www.targetedinamerica.com/arecruiting.htm

Calling All Hearts Paper

Is it a coincidence that the "Gulf War Syndrome"
symptoms mimic that of microwave targeting?

Cry for Global Government Help

   I had a strange dream last night, which showed something about me being surrounded by foreign files and feeling confused and not knowing what was happening. And I wonder if there is a connection between this and the recently occurring download arrows that pop onto my computer screen when I'm on the Internet. Is something being downloaded onto my computer? If so, what for? And does the recent puppet message "Wicked one" have something to do with an aim to slander me?
   Lately I am experiencing another round of what appears to be set ups to frame me for something. Yesterday morning I walked out of a store to catch a woman walking away from my car. I don't know what she did there, if anything. . .but because I am being targeted and threatened I can not help but wonder. This morning there was a purse left in the bathroom that they knew I was going to. Did they expect me to steal it or was it a set up for them to fabricate a theft? I brought it to the customer service station and I guess time will tell. But it felt like a set up of some sort.
   Aside from this I continue to experience microwaves shot into my head, which hit close to torture levels last night. I also experienced the usual moderate pain and nausea. My spine in the lower part of my neck is being lasered as I write this!

I pray for this covert craziness to stop - for dark manipulations to stop - for the good in our world to just openly and honestly do the right things to expose the horrible technological and other covert crimes that are being committed against humanity.  . .and for heavily targeted victims to get the protection and help we desperately need. Perhaps if we all let go of the nit-picky little things and distractions and put more focus on exposing and stopping the hard core crimes this could happen sooner. I have tried to do this, but its often too difficult, while being targeted and having to focus on the crazy stuff at least enough to prevent framings, keep myself safe and prevent the taking of the little tiny bit of Freedom I have left. This is sometimes like a full time job and I feel exhausted and overwhelmed!
   This blog is more for my personal experiences and my Technological Holocaust and Heart Bud sites are more for educating and helping humanity. Please read and share them. I pray that what I have posted on the web is reaching people's Hearts and is helping people to realize the Truth about the technological and covert targeting.
   Yesterday I had a vision of an old friend who is also still being tortured. I deeply felt her pain and cried for her. It hit me so hard that I'm sure some of the grief I felt was my own, because I know too well how she feels. Through this process I wrote the following page with the hope that maybe she, and others who continue to suffer, may see it and be comforted by it. I'm holding onto a consoling vision of God sending her an Angel to hold her while she cries. I hope she knows that someone still cares about her. It is indescribably difficult to know that good decent people are being tortured and are suffering and there is nothing more I can do but keep up my web fight to expose these crimes for all of us. . .and pray that those of us who are still surviving will find the strength to keep holding on. . .

Page for estranged loved ones who are also heavily targeted;

Monday, March 2, 2015

Please Read the Following Articles

 And please help spread the word as quickly as possible.

Connecting the Dots Between False "Depression" and other "Mental Illness" Labels, Harmful Psychiatric Pharmaceuticals, Microwave Targeting and Eugenics

    Become Aware of the Deceitful Recruiting Process of the Covert Program
Are those who think they are being rescued really being enslaved?

http://www.targetedinamerica.com/arecruiting.htm

Calling All Hearts Paper

Is it a coincidence that the "Gulf War Syndrome"
symptoms mimic that of microwave targeting?
http://www.targetedinamerica.com/gulfwar.html

Cry for Global Governmental Help
 http://www.targetedinamerica.com/aforhelp.htm




Its safer to stand in the Light.
I believe that the covert operation is infiltrated by, if not slyly run 
by, those who target us. Please stand up for humanity’s Freedom.



Please Read the Technological Holocaust Site
 www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. I ripped up a lottery ticket on Saturday afternoon. This must mean that I am "mentally ill." ;-) Only kidding. It actually means that there are more important things than money. (Please see the humor and listen to your Hearts above all else.)
   I keep getting threats about getting in trouble for "back taxes." I'm not sure what its about, but I've been so poor that any discrepancies, which may or may not have really been found, couldn't be much. 


I am feeling way too alone with all this.

God, please let there be
At least one Heart
Who cares to stand up for me. 




Sunday, March 1, 2015

Tortured Into Silence

   Torturous pain woke me in the middle of last night. For hours I suffered and cried and vomited and begged them to stop. There was nothing I could do to ease the pain of microwaves drilling into my head and loudly ringing in my ears. This was a horrible round of torture!
   The first message they sent this morning was a song saying, "I just want to have fun" and the first direct puppet message was, "If it stays like this - nice and quiet." I assume this means that the torture will stop if I remain silent in my own car. (They use the media - all sorts of technologies, including public radios, to deliver messages.)
    I have experienced torture levels of targeting literally every day for at least 11 days now. These attacks are recently happening only when I talk and are accompanied by demands for me to remain silent and not say anything in the (supposed) privacy of my own vehicle! Recent attacks are so painful that I do not have much of a choice right now. These attacks shift from the lasering of the right side of my head to the left, to my neck and shoulder. . .and last nights felt like just a steady heavy blast of microwaves being drilled into my head and especially behind my right eye.

Tortured Silence

I can't say a word - can't make a sound
Or I'll be tortured for another round.
As the crow sends them again and again
Threats and empty promises that show no end.
And why? Why, I ask each pain-filled day,
Demand my loyalty while letting me be slayed?
Where Hawk once sat often lurks the crow.
But who else can see and whose to know?
I repeatedly defied as long as I could,
And begged for help everywhere I could,
Then blamed them for not being here
And for letting me suffer beneath their fear.
Though in my heart I truly know
Light will someday steal the show,
My silence cries from tortured depths
For all the help I've not seen yet,
For all the pain that continues to bleed
In uncounted victims who remain in need.
Through torturous years of un-shed grief
That hurt so bad it screamed for relief
While hiding under repeated threats
To lock me up and label "depressed."
"Oh, let it out," my soul screams,
But I'm surrounded by whats too mean.
No freedom of speech or privacy
Is fully allowed for targets like me.
But now being tortured every time I speak
Is shoving warm tears down cold cheeks.
Though in tortured silence I'm finally crying
The rest of me feels like I'm dieing.

Silence Hurts.


P.S. After my tears posted this I climbed into my car and let an angry fire rise, from the place, deep inside of me, that desperately needs to FREELY live. . .and blasted those who target me. The lethal silence was broken. I still feel a bit shaky and weak. But I'm alive and I think I am OK. This episode of torture brought back memories of many other similar experiences. Some worse and many not as bad. When the memories flood in it often becomes too overwhelming to bear while still held under the gun. I pray that GENUINE freedom is restored soon. . .not the kind that pretends to rescue and "fix" us, while enslaving us. . .but the kind that just honestly and openly exposes the crimes and prevents criminal use of radio wave technologies and Hitler style covert harassment programs...etc.