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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Brain Malfunction


   Yesterday morning I was hit so hard with microwaves shot into my brain that it literally malfunctioned. It appeared that this was intentionally done at a time when someone had asked to see my license and became a witness to my fumbling to accomplish the simple task of pulling it out. It appears that the push to have me shoved into a hospital or institution or jail is still scheming. I am being hit harder at night lately. There is too much happening to log it all here. Please help restore our freedom.

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P.S.  I have erased most of what I wrote in the past few days, because my brain was being so heavily bombarded with microwaves that I need time to process things. I am also getting multiple messages, from puppets, about someone dieing or being in an accident. Its probably just terrorizing tactics, but I am concerned. 
  I recently heard someone say that this targeting is heading toward a holocaust and I completely disagree. I believe that it ALREADY IS a holocaust and that the mind control and eugenics based microwavings are in desperate need of exposure and investigation.
 

Monday, September 29, 2014

Keep Thy Heart. . .

I have transferred most of this post to the updated eugenics page, because there is more than that happening in my situation and I did not want it misunderstood. My writings remain a desperate (sometimes fumbling) attempt to bring awareness and honest help for those of who are being harmed.

I recently heard someone say that this is heading toward a holocaust and I completely disagree. I believe that it ALREADY IS a holocaust and that the mind control and eugenics based microwavings are in desperate need of exposure and investigation.

THE MEN BEHIND HITLER - A German Warning to the World
"This book is humbly dedicated to the memory of countless ordinary people - those men, women, children and babies of many races and beliefs, whose lives were taken because they were considered less than perfect and, therefore, unworthy to live."

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Before the Stones

 
Blue tomb stone rows against dappled green
So cool - so calm - so seemingly clean.
A little wishful silent escape 
From holocaustal ELF rape.
Where blue jays cry above my head
For all the tortured and the dead.
And cones drop from lasered trees
As my heart drops to its knees.
Oh deliver them, God, from over there
To the courage to stand up and care.
Stop the puppets from raging wars
Against each other, and see the doors
To rays of dappled beckoning Light
So that their Hearts can banish the night.
Stand up - STAND UP - before the stones
Where Love still hangs on the cross alone.


Saturday, September 27, 2014

Weather Man Makes A Come Back

   I had posted the first video below and then took it down because it appeared that Scott was targeted and was not able to take off with his work. But this new video (The second one below) is a stand to restart his project. (It reminds me of the re-starts I have struggled to do with my targeted work since 2005.) 
   I like Scott's declaration to aim for Truth and I hope he accomplishes this. The absolute Truth is sometimes too hard to find and retain while surrounded by manipulations and microwave targeting. 
   I hope Scott remains safe and strong and in that "Truth". . .and that he gets the support he needs. Here is the link to support Scott's Project: https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/the-real-weather-show-with-a-global-cloud-tour


Scott Stevens - Weather Wars Intro


Kick Starter - Scott Stevens's Come Back



I REALLY liked the end of this second video, because it is True - there is a darkness engulfing our world (in many ways) and we need more people to let their Hearts stand up and help the Light chase it away. Is your Heart standing up for what is Right and Honest and Good for Humanity? (Did his brain get a little electromagnetic hit, around 4:05, as he started to say this?)


www.heartbud.com

Friday, September 26, 2014

The Wound Remains

 I have witnessed and experienced the parts of technological mind control that effects our memories in efforts to hide the targeting - hide traumatic experiences with being targeting...etc. This morning, as I look at some of this, I feel sad and scared, because the intrusive technological process of effecting our memories is just yet another damaging part of the targeting process.
   Its been well documented, throughout history, that past pains remain unhealed until we face and release them. Those that are forgotten are often the ones that continue hurting us the most. Our souls, our spirits, our hearts, and even the cells in our bodies, remember traumatic experiences even when our minds forget them. . .and they continue hurting us until we are able to process and release them. Microwaving them out of our minds merely hurts us more, because it prevents the healing process. EVERY aspect of microwave mind control is damaging and I pray that those who do this to us grow to realize and care and stop.

The Light is Here for Us - Its in Our Hearts

I like the lyrics to this song. I feel that the real Light will shine stronger and stronger as more and more people openly and honestly stand up to shine Lights into the darkness that has been engulfing our world, exposing it it so that it can not succeed. Please help shine that Light.

https://youtu.be/Xdn4Jq8jHhk

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Another Set Up?

   Yesterday, as I combed through some of my blog posts, and I came across a statement that appeared to have been plugged into my 2012 writings - a statement which I do not think I wrote. I erased it, but am now wondering if it was part of another set up. The phrase said something about people having to continue being hurt until the targeting is exposed. And it was phrased in a way that would make it look like I have been intending for this harm to be taking place.
    This, along with a few other things, is making me wonder if this is part of a set up to make it look like I am the one who is intending for people to get hurt by the criminals who target us. This is VERY likely, because other pieces to this sort of ugly puzzle are starting to click into place. And I should not be surprised, because of the crazy array of other things they have tried to set me up for, but I am, because I can not see how they can succeed with blaming one of their own victims for their crimes. However, I guess more bazaar things have been done. These criminals could get an A for intellect, but an F for heart.

    Like I have stated before, It sometimes feels like full time job to try to anticipate the next set up and chain of manipulations. THIS IS RIDICULOUS!

Here are a few of the things I am realizing, along with my statements.

   Last year I walked into a police department angrily saying , "People are going to continue being hurt until the targeting is exposed." I remember how odd it felt when the receptionist just stood there smiling with a type of expression that reeked of satisfaction. I remember feeling baffled by this and saw it as her heartlessness. But I  am now wondering if those who target me (and their puppets) are wanting to twist my concern for people into the opposite - into trying to make my statements look like a threat - an intention to cause harm,  instead of what it was - a plea for them to help expose and stop the targeting.
   People ARE continuing to be hurt due to the targeting not being exposed and stopped. And I would THINK that this would spur officials into helping to stop the crimes, because this is where I was coming from. But perhaps the criminals who target us are wanting to twist it into the opposite and. like the rest of the targeting, have been doing their little set ups for so long that I may be realizing it too late to stop it from actually happening. FYI: My statement to that police department was NOT about my work and WAS about the targeting of myself and other people who ARE continuing to be harmed until the targeting is acknowledged and stopped by law enforcement.
    There are a few other times when I've wondered about this sort of possible set up, and wondered how on earth anyone could blame me (a victim) for what  the criminals who target us are doing. And then I forget it - just suddenly forget it... in ways that make it appear to be part of the mind control stuff.
    This happened to me as I put out the Heart Bud publication in the Spring of 2013. I had exposed possible targeting on the web and truly thought that this exposure would stop it. I was also testing, because, in my mind I was going back and forth and wondering if perhaps the mishaps of my advertisers were "just coincidence" like every one else seemed to be thinking. Then my step mother suddenly died.

   In the summer of 2013 I aimed for another printing with advertisers. I had angrily done this because I had been told that I needed more to substantiate the targeting. To me this meant that I had to continue and start documenting more of it, in order to have more proof before law enforcement would take me seriously...etc. (I now realize that it may have been one of the criminals who told me this, while pretending to be law enforcement.) As soon as my only possible supporter's shop was suddenly robbed, I stopped, because my conscience would not allow me to get any more advertisers. This was the final confirmation, for me, that it was NOT coincidence and that my advertisers/supporters were indeed being targeted.
   I later put out two more issues (without advertisers) and am in debt for it, because of people who covertly urged me to continue with my writings and lead me to believe that they would help with the cost. I now believe that this was not real help and that it was the criminals who target me aiming to set me up to be blamed for the harm THEY would do to people if I continued my work. (It also set me up for a debt, which makes another printing too difficult, at this point.)

    My aims to continue with my writings have honestly been to help ALL of humanity, and especially those of us who are being heavily targeted. My life was under more threat than anyone else's and I was willing to take that risk, because the content of my publications had the potential of helping a lot more people than the criminals who target me could hurt. This is the Truth.

   There have been times when I have felt like a soldier fighting for our Freedom on a battle field. . . where the front lines run the risk of being harmed, in order to save the rest of humanity.And I was putting myself in that front line. There have been times when I felt like I have to stand up and fight to expose these crimes, in my publications, no matter how much it hurts me, or anyone else, until our own media and government take over the job of doing it. I am one of those people who is continuing to be hurt until these crimes are exposed and stopped and my writings are helping to expose them.

   There have been times when I have felt confused and trapped and do not know what to do. Its a horrible "catch 22" situation! There have been times when I have blamed myself for the harm that THEY do to my advertisers and loved ones. There have been times, like since Dan's shop being broken into, when I feel frozen and trapped and unable to do my work in the ways that I should be allowed to do it in a free country. I cried for him. I can not bear to see anyone else get hurt and I can not bear to be restrained from being able to do my work. It ALL hurts! The targeting is hurting ALL of us. And lately I feel like I can not bear for ANY of us to continue being covertly and cruelly targeted.

More statements may be added later

   As I think of this possible set up, I also realize that the only way I can be blamed, for what the criminals are doing, is for the crimes to be fully realized and exposed. This means that they could also be stopped. . .ultimately for all of humanity. And given the choice of running from this sort of set up or taking the blow. . .I'd rather take the blow. So if this is the way it has to go, so be it - if this is the only way to get these crimes acknowledged and stopped then it will be worth it. . .because it IS TRUE - people (all over the world) are going to continue to be harmed by the criminals who target us, until these crimes are exposed and stopped. And, just to make myself more clear. . . this means that we NEED the crimes to be exposed and stopped, because too many people are being hurt by them. . .and this means that we need to NOT be hurt anymore.

Again, I am one of those people who is continuing to be hurt until these crimes are exposed and stopped and my writings had been helping to expose them.


Solitaire, Tears and Torture

Solitaire and Tears
An uncommon combination
That helps my broken heart
Release pent up frustration.

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   Last night I played solitaire and cried for those of us who are being hurt, particularly those who may have been hurt because of my own mistakes or misperceptions as I fail to successfully navigate this covert prison of hell that I am being held in.  (I don't want to try to figure it out or navigate it anymore. But sometimes I am forced to. And sometimes its all I can do to just survive it.)
   Silent crying while playing solitaire was starting to become a habit - a way to inconspicuously release my pain. But it has been realized by those who hold me under surveillance and target me.
    I must not have hid my tears well enough, because the torture started just as I was wrapping it up and aiming to go to sleep. The pain in my head woke me several times through the night and I had a dream of darkness being shot at me, which disappears each time I try to get a picture of it. 
   This morning my head is hot and still in pain. My motor skills seem to have slowed down - it takes a lot of focus to just walk straight.

Around 7:10 am;  I Walked into a store and the song being loudly played was, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger..." This has been a regular sadistic routine - when their torture becomes life threatening, they play that song or have a puppet say, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger..."  I started noticing this in 2011. Its not true. These tortures and other forms of microwave targetings hurt me and block my process of personal and spiritual growth and I need them to stop.

   The torture was being done by the new weapon that started being used on me this Spring. At first I thought it was being used on me when I prayed. Then it seemed to be when I cried. Now I realize that my brain gets attacked with this weapon when I have deep feelings of any sort. They do not want me to have any depths of  feelings - they do not want me to have a heart. And I am in desperate need of protection from this.

P.S. My short term memory process is being more severely effected lately also.
I again updated my original "Symptoms" page. Each time I try to perfect this list I get targeted more heavily.  I experienced microwaves shot into my brain through yesterday, as I tried to fix this post as well as others. The memory problems this creates makes it VERY difficult. http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-symptoms.html 
 

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Back to Half Mast

   Last night a couple of rude, crude guys pulled into the parking lot I was in and angrily yelled "That F____ing Bi__ch" and "She knows...," over and over again. I felt that it was another mean harassment thing that was inconspicuously directed at me, because this is how they do the "street theater" stuff. I am glad that the street traffic drowned out most of it. And, aside from the name that a puppet called out after the threatening cursing, I haven't a clue as to what it was about.
   Someone recently gave me a car, which had an America flag magnet on the back of it, like a lot of the gang stalkers have. This morning I ripped it off, because that flag stands for the Freedom and Liberty that I do not have. My flag is at half mast until American citizens (like myself) gain Freedom from covert harassment groups and technological intrusions, which all add up to excruciatingly harmful levels of psychological warfare.
   When my own fellow citizens find the heart and the courage to refrain from the cruel behaviors and criminal programs that are destroying our country and our lives. . .when they can respect my basic human rights (and that of others) I will raise my flag.

www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. I am trying to comb through my writings on an infiltrated computer while my brain is being lasered with electromagnetic frequencies! I must be crazy! ;- ) I'm not doing the best of jobs, but am doing the best I can under such conditions. And I feel that I'd better get this done in case they follow through on threats to have me shoved into jail or institution or disabled or rendered unconscious or left without a vehicle...etc. I am finding a lot of coding preventing links from opening...etc.

 I updated my original "Symptoms" page. Each time I try to perfect this list I get targeted more heavily.  I experienced microwaves shot into my brain through the whole day, as I tried to fix this post as well as others. The memory problems this creates makes it VERY difficult. http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-symptoms.html 

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Sling of Hate

 I just received the following statement, in an email, from an unknown person who says she's a TI, but may be a perpetrator. Either way, this needs a bit of prayer for BOTH of us; Quote - "You are a very ugly person and I hope you get killed when someone finally realizes what a disgusting fake agent you are--people like you should be murdered..."
:-(

Makes me not want to read emails!

P.S. It appears that my pages, where I ask for help, are also being interfered with. I just fixed this one, (which was filled with odd html codes) and I had to repair the paypal link;  http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2012/02/click-here-for-information-on-targeted_18.html

 I just fixed a malfunctioning post and a couple words were suddenly turned blue! Is that some sort of code that a perpetrator is wanting in my writings? Here is a link to fixed post; http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2014/01/justified-anger-rachael-orban.html


Looks like I am getting another swarm! 

Friday, September 19, 2014

Plea for Understanding

    I have gone through several rounds of trying to update my writings, but it has been extremely difficult for me to accomplish while being targeted. Lately, I often feel so hurt, so overwhelmed and so desperate for genuine help and protection that its all I can do to just survive.
  In the past few years I have been going through a process of trying to figure out why I am being targeted. . .and how and by who...etc., while trying to inform and convince other people who could help or be helped. And I have realized that effectively accomplishing this is literally impossible while being targeted with microwaves, harassment programs and disinformation from web stalkers...etc. Consequently, I have made a lot of mistakes and have even hit points where I've believed and shared some of that disinformation, especially in the beginning of this process. (My sites have also been sometimes altered by those who target me.)
   Truth dawns each time I pull back, recenter myself, and listen to only my own heart. But I have been being hit so hard, with radio waves shot into my brain and psychological harassment, that my writings can not be perfect and I hope you will understand this.

   We (Targeted Individuals) can often APPEAR "non-credible"...etc., to those who do not understand. This is an unfortunate, and INTENTIONAL, outcome of the targeting process. But the judgments against us will stop as soon as enough people realize the manipulations that are taking place around us, and can care to understand that we can not function perfectly WHILE being heavily targeted.

   Please do not use this statement as an excuse to dismiss the validity of my writings. Please use it as a tool to help you to understand instead of judging - to look past the bloops and blunders and focus on the core issues, which need attention. . .not only in my writings, but also in that of other targeted individuals.

www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S.  I just received a few antagonistic emails from a possible perpetrator, and as I responded - asking her to not contact me again...etc., I pushed "send" and my computer froze up and then the email went through with half of what I wrote erased. I realized this, because I'd also sent a copy to myself. This probably means that my computer is infiltrated again!

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

The Save


I posted this for myself, because a huge batch of hope for help has just been shattered. :-(   But God's Light still shines for us. . .I keep telling myself, because I see it, although I have a hard time feeling it these days. I get hit really hard with various types of weapons aimed at my brain. And I live in fear of brain damage, especially since a new weapon started being used on me last Spring. Every day has become a battle to survive, to retain some sense of who I am, and to hold onto hope for the miracles we all need.

www.targetedinamerica.com

Fading Lives

No amount of money - no things or price
Can cover the cost of our fading lives


Law suits can not help us regain our freedom and safety.