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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

There will be no bullets to prove that we are dieing inside

When they try to label us
As "mentally ill" and disable us;
When all the world just sits by
As lasers shoot us while we cry;
When hope fades into endless days
Where pain throbs under microwaves,
And nobody cares to understand
How long can we survive - 
How much can we stand?

Every person who is being targeted, especially those of us who are being shot with laser and microwave weapons, are in an emergency situation, and are in need of protection.

But there will be no bullets to prove that we are dieing inside.  

Please help us.

  On January 5th I went to a motel room that was offered by a church member after I'd requested help with time to focus on recovery and healing. I quickly I realized that I could not launch into full healing mode while still being targeted, with Christmas on the horizon and with a pending appointment with a woman in a county outreach program. After hearing that I could stay in the room until February 5, I vowed to do more to take better care of myself after the holidays and the dreaded meeting were behind me.
  In the week after the county lady called to schedule an appointment for the 30th of December, I was suddenly unable to get to sleep until around 2 or 3am for several nights in a row. I believe that it was technologically induced insomnia, because this is not normal for me. I'd suddenly, for no apparent reason, feel hungry and restless and wide awake right around the time when I'd normally go to sleep. This was worse on the night of the 29th. I got several unusual phone calls on the 29th.  And then I was forced awake by vehicle horns blaring on the street outside my room on the morning of the 30. My head was being heavily microwaved as I drove to the appointment and it remained so heavy that I felt almost debilitating levels of mental numbness while the woman launched into the usual perpetration "depression"/mental illness suggestions WITHOUT my ever even saying anything about the targeting or my situation. All she knew was that I was homeless and had been through some difficult times before going into the room. This was CLEARLY a set up to make me appear "mentally" ill.
   Last night I cried. Today I am again experiencing severe mental numbness and pain in my head from the new type of microwaves I've been periodically hit with since last Spring. But my heart is still crying, "When will this hell end?"

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

I'm Sorry

If things continue as they are, perhaps my greatest failure was in not successfully reaching the Hearts of those who could have stood up and helped us. I'm sorry to have handled this so poorly.


8:00pm;  I got heavily microwaved directly after posting the picture above. 

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Microwaved Christmas Prayers

11:11 am; Microwaves vamped up on my head as I silently lit prayer candles and cried for us.
 But. . .

Candles still burn for my children, parents, sisters and brothers
For the USA, Obama, the FBI and estranged lovers.
For Billy, Mary, Woody - all of you and them
For darkness to turn to Light again.

For those who need to see
Or care to set us free.
And me.

I can find no words for how horrible it feels to not be allowed to pray in peace and to even be tortured for it. I hope your Christmas is meaningful and microwave free.

5pm; I was hit with painful microwaves as I played Kenny Loggins's "Conviction of the Heart" song, which I posted to the right of this blog.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Wishing You a Meaningful Christmas

   My Christmas day will be the same as most since the early 1990s - no family gathering, but a time of lighting prayer candles. This year, aside from praying for loved ones I am praying for world peace. Not very original but it seems to be needed more than ever, due to the covert war.

If the targeting were not destroying my life (through the past few decades) I'd be having a nice family gathering in my own country home. . .music and care around the fireplace and a cute little Charlie Brown tree....etc.
   I no longer believe that I will recover what I lost, because its been so long and so much damage has been done. The home and loved ones are gone. But thoughts of what could have been, had we not been targeted, are actually comforting when the losses are not hurting.

5.45pm; I'm being microwaved to the point of pain in the back right side of my head.


Friday, December 19, 2014

Dr. Paul Joseph Geobbels's Mystery Weapon?

In a book called, "THE MEN BEHIND HITLER - A German warning to the world," Bernhard Schreiber exposed the field of psychiatry as being connected to an ongoing holocaust. He wrote, "Hitler was an evil man and no one would want to assert that he was not responsible for the things that happened in Germany, but in blaming Hitler for all the evils one is overlooking a considerable number of those who are truly responsible, people who are being allowed to pursue their course to similar ends all over again - nothing to stop them."
   In another part of his book, which appears to have been erased, Schreiber had spoken of Dr. Paul Joseph Goebbels bragging, in 1944 - after Hitler's Reich had fallen, about a secret weapon - a "death ray" that would lead to the "rebirth of the Reich."  The fact that this statement was erased has great significance, because it shows us what is being hidden.
   However Schreiber's conclusion, where he tried to figure out what the weapon was, remains at the end of his book. He wrote, "The Nazis may have been disbanded, but the psychiatrists still linger on among us. Maybe this is the secret weapon Goebbels boasted about which would lead to the rebirth of the Reich - not a super-bomb and not a death ray, but a blueprint for a psychiatric slave state."

    My instincts are telling me that this mystery weapon, which Geobbels boasted of in 1944, is microwave weapons that are capable of  inflicting a “psychiatric slave state" through shooting beams of radio waves into the brains of human beings, especially when pharmaceuticals are added to the equation. . .as I have been saying all along. Microwave weapons are also capable of inconspicuous murder. According to British General Barre Trower, microwave weapons can remotely inflict terminal illnesses like leukemia, diabetes, cancer...etc., at the flick of a switch. And I have believed, since 2006, that Lupus is caused by energy being directed at people. Again. . . I now believe that that energy is microwaves.

Please read the full article

P.S. As for the mental health field (Which I have worked in). . .I have felt something horribly wrong with the pushing of pharmaceuticals  instead of offering encouragement for people to face and recover from issues...etc. This book may be an interesting one to read... The Manufacture of Madness: A Comparative Study of the Inquisition and the Mental Health Movement by Thomas Stephen Szasz 
   I was lasered when I found Dr. Szasz's "Myth of Mental Illness". It must have significance to those who target me/us.