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My New "Yearn for Freedom" Blog;
www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Symptoms of Mind Control Targeting

Radio wave mind control can be virtually unnoticeable but has the devastating effect of interfering with (or blocking) our natural process of personal and spiritual growth. . .as well as the loss of our freedom to think and feel in the ways that we need to. The ramifications of allowing this to continue can not be over stated!

In other parts of the technological and covert targeting, heavily targeted individuals can experience symptoms that range from periods of unusual stress, mental confusion, forgetfulness, unusual or repetitive thoughts and mood swings, giddiness, immune system problems, diminished hearing and eye sight, body bloating, dehydration, unusual head and body aches, diminished eye sight and hearing and blocked emotions. . .to symptoms that mimic schizophrenia, nervous breakdowns, brain damage, blindness, paralysis...etc. (Severe victims can be forced into things like lethal shootings at schools or navy yards.) Long term experiment cases can also have unusual tooth decay, ridges on finger nails, chains of unusual medial problems, unusual dry scalp, unusual discord between family members...etc.

This list of symptoms are some of the ones I have either experienced or witnessed in other victims. (A few of them are those that I have only heard about) It appears that most heavily Targeted Individuals only have some of these symptoms. We are often targeted in different ways so there may also be symptoms that I do not listed here. Symptoms may come on suddenly and then disappear as quickly. . .or may slowly increase and continue almost constantly. There are many variables. I hear that it depends on which program we are on.

* Stunted Personal and Spiritual Growth: A serious hindrance to our natural process of growing and evolving into all that we were born to be.

* High Pitched Ringing in Ears: Can be so faint that victims may not even notice.

Mental Numbness; that can become so severe that it is difficult to focus, make decisions and think clearly.

* Brain Farts: (gotta hold onto my sense of humor!) Intrusions into our brains can cause interrupted thoughts or speech, dizziness, forgetfulness, mental fatigue...etc.

* Forced Speech: Saying things and not knowing why you said them. . .a "where did that come from" sort of feeling. Sometimes even sudden episodes of gibberish talk - making no sense (rare)

* Obsessions: Sudden unusual obsessions (either for or against someone or something - often as cravings for unhealthy food or drugs or alcohol or coffee...etc.)

* Memory loss: This can range from short bouts of memory loss to severe permanent complete loss of memory. Can also be in the form of mental blocks in certain areas or in regards to certain subjects.

* Nausea: Can range from short mild episodes to severe vomiting.

* Unusual Dreams with Unusual Messages: Psychotronic weapons are reported to be able to project voices, as well as visual effects, into our brains. . .in the form of dreams. I have experienced a lot of this. And had thought it was my own dreams until I learned that I was targeted and began realizing the difference between projected dreams and my own dreams.

* Nerve Irritation or Damage: Periods of altered depth perception, eye sight and hearing. . .also numbness in lips, face or right arm, unusual head aches, bouts of small sharp pains shooting into head, deep pain behind right eye and eye brow, pain down back right side of head, muscle or nerve twitching in eyes or other parts of face, burning sensation in mouth, aching teeth and swollen gums...etc.

* Coordination Problems: Sudden bouts of malfunctions in coordination and depth perception.

* Symptoms that Mimic Mental Illness: Victims can experience sudden mood swings and feel anxious - like they know something horrible is happening to them, but can not figure out what it is. Victims and/or their loved ones can easily assume it is a "mental illness" due to lack of awareness of remote mind control technologies. Also, when we explain our experiences with covert harassment groups it can sound like paranoia to unaware people. And, sadly, some doctors are more than happy to prescribe medications that are NOT needed and WILL aid the complete success of technological mind control.

* Misdiagnosis: Falsely labeling Targeted Individuals as "mentally ill" is one of the worst parts of this, because it forces 'help' in ways that are NOT needed and completely prevents help in the ways that are DESPERATELY needed.

V2K (Voice to Skull) - voices that are technologically projected are reported to be common in Targeted Individuals. Although I've not experienced this, in the same ways most others have, I fully believe that it is happening. The technologically projected voices/messages can also be directed at people who are near us, in order to make them think we are saying foul things...etc. (This appears to have been done to me on an uncountable number of occasions.)

* Seizures: Sudden seizures for no apparent reason.

* Neurological Problems: Sudden unexplainable neurological problems, which can range from mild numbness in various parts of body. . .to sudden brain damage with severe altercations to speech, motor skills and memory.

* Personality Change: Slow or sudden altered belief systems, taste, desires, preferences, values, morals ...etc.

* Mood Swings: Unusual episodes of depression, anger, anxiety, crying, laughing...etc. (possibly misdiagnosed as "bipolar...")

* Heat Flashes: Sudden rushes of heat in head.

* Sensing Being Watched; And we are being watched, but very remotely.

* Stunted Personal and Spiritual Growth: A serious hindrance to our natural process of growing and evolving into all that we were born to be.

Primary Targeted Individuals can also experience extremely painful and obvious remote electronic tortures to any part of the body - sudden, medically unexplainable inflictions of pain...etc. Find a more on www.targetedinamerica.com

PLEASE DO ALL THAT YOU CAN TO HELP STOP THESE CRIMES FROM CONTINUING.

We are unheard victims lost beneath their lies.
We are the tortured ones put on a list to die.
We are rising wounded begging for your aide
Becoming specks of dust in an evil charade.

P.S. My writings continue to be altered and interfered with. The "Symptoms of Targeting" link on my website had been being altered, so am placing it here as well and am still restoring it. Those who target us are also somehow duplicating pages of my blog and possibly web site - arranging it so that their fake and altered pages are the ones that the public sees at least some of the time. It also appears that my titles are suddenly being heavily used by web stalkers, especially the "Technological Holocaust" one. Basically, they are doing all they can to prevent my writings from being seen by the public.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Destruction of FREE Choice = Destruction of FREE WILL = Too Wrong to Succeed


This post is primarily for the perpetrators of this holocaust. Everyone else please read the following link so you can understand this blog entry: www.targetedinamerica.com

Humanity's Right to FREE WILL Can Not Be Interfered With Without Serious Consequences, Which Will Restore It.

As I watch humanity being crushed by criminal use of remote mind control technologies, my heart has hurt indescribably. (Not to mention what is happening to me!) Its like watching a herd of sheep being lead into slaughter houses. . .only the sheep are people - good decent people. Sometimes my pain has run so deep that it folds into shocked numbness. . .until recently - until I began to reach beyond my own hopeless situation and look at the bigger picture until I could See more clearly.

As humanity blindly sits at the greatest crossroad in history - the largest battle between the forces of Light and dark. . .the dark forces seem to have forgotten that the usual universal rules still apply.

Throughout history, when the dark forces robbed a person of their FREE WILL they could not succeed with their aim, because in order to pull a person onto the dark side, that person has to FREELY choose that direction and NOT be forced in any way. They can be enticed, but NOT FORCED - not intruded upon, not invaded. . .and not deceived, because lies and deceptions take away FREE educated CHOICE which is what FREE WILL is about.

What is now happening, through the deceitful and criminal use of all sorts of mind control tactics and is a gross violation of human rights - the dark forces are over stepping their boundaries so severely that they are sure to instigate their own failure.

There is a HUGE difference between "enticing" a person and forcing a person or disabling a person's FREE WILL. "Enticing" is an exterior beckoning force. Forcing is an invasive interference or destruction of FREE WILL. . .like physically grabbing a person and forcing them or drugging them or torturing them or shooting radio waves into a people's brains until they are so fried that they numbly say or follow almost anything.

The real TRUTH is that forcing people into choices that they would not make on their own, is NOT allowing FREE WILL and is a gross violation of universal law as well as our basic human rights. (The same applies to preventing people from going in chosen directions, which has repeatedly happened to me.)

What is now happening is not natural, not normal,
not meant to be, and is a criminal assault on an
unsuspecting and defenseless populous.

On the milder scales: When radio stations, movies and TV programs are loaded with subliminal messaging and other intentionally harmful mind control tactics, WITHOUT informing the public of exactly what is in them and what effect it could have on us - without offering the choice of exposure or not. . .it is a gross violation of a persons RIGHT to CHOOSE - a person's right to utilize their own FREE WILL.

On the largest scales: The same laws apply to remote mind control technologies. . .even if their only use were to be aimed at whole communities, states or countries, in order to numb our minds - to prevent us from thinking clearly and making good choices, it is a severe violation that strips away our right to FREELY choose. Remote mind control is also being more intricately applied to individuals and families, since before the 1970s, in ways that often rip away most of our FREE WILL, blocks our HEARTS and prevents the growth of our souls!

So much destruction is being inflicted with the criminal use of microwave technologies that its difficult to describe and face and would take many books to fully cover. But please believe that this atrocity is indeed happening, has been happening for many decades.

But the bottom line here is. . .that the good news is. . .that this is all too horribly wrong to be allowed to continue for much longer. We may not see an end to it in our lifetimes, but that end WILL come and the HEART of humanity WILL BE FREE once again. It will.

Humanity's Right to FREE WILL Can Not Be Interfered With Without Serious Consequences. . .Which Will Restore It.

There is HOPE

www.targetedinamerica.com
www.targeted11.blogspot.com


Monday, January 28, 2013

Love is the Weapon We Need

Love is the weapon which can deflect
Controlling darkness criminals project

   As humanity gets slammed with remote mind control technologies, and criminal efforts to rip us from our Hearts and families, we are being called to listen to and follow our own Hearts above our minds and all that gets projected into them.
   It is critical that we embrace the depths of our own Hearts and work at healing the unresolved issues, which block them. . .so that we can open to deeper levels of Love, and the technological targeting often prevents this process. We are in deep need of freedom from it and more Love for ourselves, our families, our communities. . .our troubled world, in order to override the damaging effects of being targeted with mind control technologies.


Let the "Heart Bud" Touch Your Heart:
This is the web version of The Personal Journal


Please Let Love Win
Click Here to Let Your Heart be Touched
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www.technologicalholocaust.blogspot.com

Friday, January 25, 2013

Out of the Dark and "Into the Light"


Out of the Dark and "Into the Light" 
Can Be Freely Downloaded:
http://www.poeticpublications.com/booklight.html

 There is a possibility that this book has been altered by those who target me. Although recent interference has been primarily to html codes and search engine tags on my blogs and web pages, more may still be done. And I can not keep combing through all of my writings. I can't find out who's accessing my websites, because my "stats" keep being disabled. I am sorry for the inconvenience, but there is nothing I can do about it until a miracle delivers protection from these crimes.


Two days ago, when I first received a demand (from my sister) insisting that I remove my writings from the web, which shifted to threats to again publicly declare me as "mentally ill" if I do not remove or alter parts of my "Into the Light" book, I felt like my heart had been stabbed at a time when I deeply needed the opposite. Among other things, I thought this attack may have been instigated by a recent change to my writings, because I have been having difficulty with those who target me altering and interfering with my writings. As the cruel email attack continued my protective walls flew up and I closed a door. But then I let my heart review the book - checking to see if it had been altered and trying to look at certain parts of it from her perspective. I did not fully read the whole book, and have not compared it to the saved originals, because I do not have access to them at this time. But the parts I did look at do not appear to have been altered.

  When I wrote this book, I was not thinking of any sort of outcome or other people's reactions...etc. I was deeply in my heart and using my pen as a tool to help me face some of the most difficult times in my life as I struggled to understand why I was being targeted. In that process I literally wrote my heart out. This book is my most uncensored heart felt batch of writing. My tears still linger between its lines and pages. The honesty I wrote it with makes me look worse than anyone else I mention in it, because I dove into deep levels of exposing and judging myself at a time when I did not know if I'd live through that month. . .and did not know that I was a "Targeted Individual" and the full scope of what that meant; at a time when I could not understand the capabilities of the microwave / psychotropic weapons and organized gang stalking groups that were/are influencing my family members as well as myself. 

The intro to this book, which I wrote early last year, speaks for itself.

As for my sister's threat/demand for me to change parts of it or remove it from the web: I have written over and over again. . .that we must follow our hearts above all else, especially above the darkness that aims to rip us apart. I have failed over and over again to fully follow my own advice - to FULLY follow my own heart under the suppression of the targeting. But with this book, I MUST let my heart win. I can not change it or hide it. It is too late for that anyway. I am truly sorry if it offends or hurts anyone. I pray that it will be used as a tool for healing and growing. I did not realize the technological parts of the targeting when I wrote this book. Since I have realized it, I believe that my family members are mind control victims, especially this sister that has been used to try to have me declared as "mentally ill" and "evil." I hope that we can BOTH someday be free from the targeting and let our love for each other rise above the walls it has raised between us.

 I ask that those who read this book please find the heart to refrain from any sort of judgment of anyone whom I mention in it. This isn't about pointing fingers - its about exposing lethal targetings that have deeply hurt me as well as everyone I have been close to. We ALL need to be protected from further harm.


Exposing the targeting is more important than the 
issues it raises in victims who have taken part in it.






I made a promise to God that my life's experiences would be a public example of my process of healing and growing. This is what the core of my old writings are about. I know that I have failed in many ways, but I can not completely turn my back on this promise.

As for the controversial writings that involve my father: I can honestly say that the dreams I had trusted, which showed my father being inappropriate when I was a young child, were most likely projected into my mind by the psychotronic weapons that I believe my whole family has been being targeted with. This is most likely the case and its what I also prefer to believe. However, I have not had the free and peaceful time I would need, in order to dig into the deeper Truths and perfect or write out the sequel to this book. Someday I hope to be able to, because this is not the only possible discrepancy and I need to clear the air on a lot of things for my own sake as well. However I'd need the targeting to stop and then a period of recovery before this can happen.

 I understand how parts of this book can upset those who can not understand my healing process or my pain filled desperate drive to understand why I am being targeted and why some of my own family members suddenly began driving against me with painful levels of mental abuse. I can understand that those who do not want to look at their own behaviors may remain enraged, although I wish they'd choose the other way. If I write about you in this book, it is most likely because your behaviors touched my heart in a way that hurt me. . .and pretending that the pain is not there or that it didn't happen is not going to make it go away. On the contrary - it merely compounds the problem.

Exposing the dark turns it toward the Light and offers it a chance to heal.

In our judgmental, law suit crazed world, where justice now seems to serve criminal perpetrators more than victims. . .people have become afraid to be genuine; afraid to speak out and hold each other accountable for harmful behaviors so that healthy shame can trigger a refrain; afraid to expose and shine a Light into the dark closets that hold us back and prevent healthy growth. . .afraid to feel and let Love heal instead of letting darkness grow. I pray for humanity to start heading in the other direction.

We all make mistakes and its through admitting those mistakes that we heal and grow from them. Humanity has become so used to hiding shameful things that we don't have a chance to let healthy levels of shame prevent them from continuing and growing throughout humanity. Hiding hurtful behaviors continues hurting ALL of us and feeds the darkness. Exposing them offers everyone concerned a chance to heal and grow. . .and it helps to prevent the same behaviors in others through the concern of being shamed if nothing else.

I do not do this lightly. I understand the risk I am running here. I understand that the hatred in those who choose to feed the dark may continue attacking or use this to inflict more pain upon me. I understand that those who target me may instigate any sort of hell they can raise with it. I understand that those who target me, whether it is through my sister or not, may make me suffer even more than I already do. But I hope that it turns into the other direction - I hope it helps us ALL to grow more deeply into our own HEARTS, because without heart. . .the dark wins. . .and that just can not happen.
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Sister, your attack ripped into my heart and left me feeling so concerned for Dad that I felt a need to post this. I pray that you find your heart enough to stop wanting to create more problems for me, at a time like this. . .especially when you use/hurt dad in order to do it. If you must bring the two paragraphs, (which you ended up saying were what your attack was all about) to his attention, please find the heart to also perceive them correctly and show him the intro so he can understand the TRUTH. Please stop trying to cause trouble. NONE of us need this. Please look in the mirror and heal enough to stop projecting your own behaviors onto me instead of facing what has been happening to you through many decades. And please start honoring your own gifts - the ones you have always had, so that you can stop wanting to posses and destroy mine. Please know that I love you. . .no matter what. I just can not keep my head on your chopping block. Please throw out the chopping block and. . . find your heart.

Dad, I love you. Please believe that I am deeply sorry that we have had to experience all of this. I know it must have been as confusing to you as it has been to me. I wish I could help you to see that we are all victims of microwave targeting. I wish that things had taken a different course. I guess, at this point I can only hope that you eventually forgive me as well as yourself.  Please know that I love you. . .no matter what. My writings are to help us all.



P.S. When/if I am ever free from targeting, and have peace and privacy, I will be able to more completely comb through ALL of my writings and be more focused on things that may be offensive. (I certainly do not want to offend anyone who has not been involved in the targeting me.) But until then, please understand that  I am still being targeted and am doing the best I can to expose it and get help to us under indescribably difficult conditions. I'm not doing it perfectly. And I can not keep up with the infiltrations and alterations. But my intentions are to help all of us through exposing the crimes with the hope for protection to arrive.

The "Symptoms of Targeting" link on "TargetedinAmerica" has been restored and also added to this blog

Thursday, January 24, 2013

"Men Behind Hitler" Triggers A Memory:

Men Behind Hitler - A German Warning to the World
by Bernard Schreiber: http://www.toolan.com/hitler/index.html

   In "Men Behind Hitler" German researcher, Bernhard Schreiber exposes a shadowy aspect of psychiatry, which surrounded what we think of as only Hitler's holocaust. In this book Bernhard says, "Hitler was an evil man. . . but in blaming Hitler for all the evils one is overlooking a considerable number of those who are truly responsible, people who are being allowed to pursue their course to similar ends all over again - nothing to stop them. The Nazis may have been disbanded, but the psychiatrists still linger on among us. Maybe this is the secret weapon Goebbels boasted about which would lead to the rebirth of the Reich - not a super-bomb and not a death ray, but a blueprint for a psychiatric slave state."

As I read this, I felt in my heart, that the "secret weapon" is the microwave weapons, which are performing mass murders through inflicting illnesses like Lupus, leukemia, tumorous cancers...etc., on an unsuspecting populous since even before the 1970s.

My Resurfaced Memory: I worked at a mental health facility for a few years and was shocked by the amount of normal children who were being falsely labeled with things like ADHD or ADD in, what I had THOUGHT was, an effort to attain more federal funding for the "child intervention program." Even more disturbing were the mood altering drugs (like Prozac) that were fed to healthy children. But there now seems to be even more to this than I had thought.
   I painstakingly watched a bright healthy 2 year boy get destroyed by the drugs that our lead psychiatrist was prescribing. In my efforts to save this client I had a conference with the Dr. . .and because she could not dispute the fact that he was NOT in need of mood altering medications, her excuse for continuing to drug him was, "If we keep him sedated his mother will abuse him less." And there was nothing I could do about it.
   I quit this part time job in 1999 and in the next few years a co-worker told me that this child "is now institutionalized" and has serious mental and physical health problems, including unusual sudden obesity. This had disturbed me then, and it now disturbs me even more, because I feel that he may be only one of countless numbers of little innocent lives that are being slowly and cruelly destroyed, under the mask of mental health help.
   I wonder how many drugs are being prescribed under false labels - drugs that intentionally contain substances which aid a secret eugenics movement that is said to have begun long before Hitler's public demonstration of such barbaric crimes against humanity. (My ridiculed push to not want my own children to be vaccinated and to use herbs instead of pharmaceuticals, in the late 1980s, is finally being justified.)

Although unlawful sterilization, lethal drugs and vaccinations and remote microwave weapons secretly performing murders. . .are almost too horrible to face. . .the mood altering pharmaceuticals, (like antidepressants) that are being pushed on humanity under the mask of mental health help, may be the worst of it, because they enable the success of mind control.
   I feel that the ramifications of turning the other cheek and allowing these technologies to continue destroying the heart of humanity is far worse than our body's death - A human being involuntarily drugged and controlled with technologies strips away our freedom and prevents our soul's natural growth process. This is the type of death that we may wish we did not have to live through. This is too horribly wrong. My heart wants to scream until enough of humanity has heard. This is not just hurting humanity - its destroying the heart of humanity and aiming to turn us into machines that are controlled by sadists. This appears to be a holocaust of a magnitude that sores beyond Hitler's.  This is all so cruel and horrible that it is difficult to face without slipping into shocked overwhelm. But we MUST face this and do all that we can to stop it. We just must. Please help expose and stop these crimes.

We are in the middle of the world's worst holocaust - a Technological Holocaust - a secret war against innocent lives and unsuspecting minds. The danger in this is immeasurable! Please become aware and help pass the word.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Another Cryptic Threat?


The following link is to a 4 page article which focuses primarily on bringing public awareness to the history of remote Mind Control Technologies and their use on us since at least the 1970s. Please print and share it.
http://www.targetedinamerica.com/thmindcontrol.pdf




   I just got a series of attacking emails, which may contain a threat, and appear to be from my estranged sister although it is a different email address! Those who target me are stirring up all sorts of trouble right now. Its one attack after another. . .with a heavy focus on preventing my writings from being viewed on the web!
Please note that these emails degrade me with words, that I can not write here, and demand that I remove my writings from the web or she will start a blog to make people think I am a liar and am just "mentally ill" and even goes so far as to insinuate that my writings could "kill" my father. . .and asks me if I "want to" "kill dad" by keeping my writings on the web. This is the first attack that is so directly vicious since this same sister slandered me in 2005.
    My answer to these threats: I am not able to make changes to my old writings at this time. And I will NOT wipe my writings off the web, in order to accommodate hate and its drive against me. If this is a cryptic threat, from those who target me, which asks for me to either hide my writings or they will kill my father. . .I will NOT enable such criminal behaviors - I will NOT remove my writings from the web. . .and in my heart I KNOW that I am NOT responsible for what you do.
   Members of my family are not all that is in danger here - ALL OF HUMANITY is in grave danger if we do not spread awareness of the technologies that are being used on us, as quickly as possible. . .and there is no hope for ANY of humanity if we let these criminals continue and sucumb to the threatening. . .or trying to tack a "mentally ill" label on those of us who can attest to what is happening.

 Later; The emails first insinuated that I had just recently written something against my father, which I did NOT do. At first I did not know what she was talking about or where she'd read it, because she just suddenly attacked  - degrading and cursing. . .without explaining. I figured that more of my writings had been altered, (which still may be the case) although she later emailed that the attack was about something in the book I wrote in Feb 2010 - something that had nothing to do with her. . .and was so grossly misperceived that there seems to be more to this. It appears that this WAS from my sister.

   The introduction of  this book, (which I wrote around a year ago) explains that the book had been written under extreme duress - during a winter when I was living in my car, while being heavily gang stalked, and did not know how much longer I would be alive. I also state that, because it was written prior to my realizing that I was also being targeted with remote microwave weapons - mind control technologies. . .I may have misperceived some of my own experiences. In my heart and mind, this along with the fact that I have been publicly warning people that my writings are being altered, makes this attack completely unjustified. 
    I can not effectively defend myself against the projected perceptions of those who are not able to understand my situation or my right to also have my own feelings and perceptions, no matter how right or wrong they may be. I believe that this sister is a victim of mind control who is being used, in order to stir up trouble for me and interfere with my writings. Because of  her doing this at a time when I am also being intensely targeted with other efforts to interfere with my writings, I believe that the criminals who target me have instigated her sudden attacks.

I believe that my sister is a long term victim of remote mind control technologies, and may even be one of those who have been technologically interfering with my writings since 2005. And there seems no hope for this situation, that she instigates in my family, taking a change for the good instead of continuing to make things even worse for me. Does this mean that I have to let go of the minuscule remnants of hope I had for my family of origin to realize what is happening and help me in the ways that I desperately need help right now? It appears so. . .and I can not hold back the tears. I wish she'd just find her heart. I did not realize that I even had any hope left, until it just got shattered. Sometimes I feel sadder for them, because their pain will run much deeper than mine, when they realize that they were used by criminals who aim to destroy me. But right now I am feeling more sad for myself, because, through all these years of hell, and in my deepest hours of need, they have had each other and I have had no body. 

God, please help us all.

FYI: Those who target me have also repeatedly threatened to kill my daughters and have tried to blame me for what they are doing to me - they say that its my fault that they target me - that it would not be happening if I were not writing, although I was being heavily targeted many YEARS before I began figuring it out and writing about it. This is confusing - its like they abuse people and then blame their victims for what THEY do.

PM: Am getting heavy microwaves, blurred vision and a lot of pain in joints. 


P.S.S. 1-25-13: I later let my heart review the book through my poetic publications website - checking to see if it had been altered and trying to look at certain parts of it from my family's perspective. I did not fully read the whole book, and have not compared it to the saved originals, because I do not have access to them at this time. But the parts I did look at do not appear to have been altered.

  When I wrote this book, I was not thinking of any sort of outcome or other people's reactions...etc. I was deeply in my heart and using my pen as a tool to help me face some of the most difficult times in my life as I struggled to understand why I was being targeted by what appeared to be members of some sort of satanic occult. In that process I literally wrote my heart out. This book is my most uncensored heart felt batch of writing. It is also partly fiction,  but my tears still linger between its lines and pages. The honesty I wrote it with makes me look worse than anyone else I mention in it, because I dove into deep levels of exposing and judging myself at a time when I did not know if I'd live through that month and did not know that I was a "Targeted Individual" and the full scope of what that meant - at a time when I could not understand the capabilities of the microwave / psychotropic weapons and organized gang stalking groups that were/are influencing my family members as well as myself. 

The intro to this book, which I wrote early last year, speaks for itself.

As for my sister's threat/demand for me to change parts of it or remove it from the web: I have written over and over again. . .that we must follow our hearts above all else, especially above the darkness that aims to rip us apart. I have failed over and over again to fully follow my own advice - to FULLY follow my own heart. But with this book, I MUST let my heart win. I can not change it or hide it. It is too late for that anyway. I am truly sorry if it offends or hurts anyone. I pray that it will be used as a tool for healing and growing. And I hope that those who read it will find the heart to refrain from any sort of judgment of anyone whom I mention in it.

I made a promise to God that my life's experiences would be a public example of this process of healing and growing. This is what the core of my old writings are about. I know that I have failed in many ways, but I can not completely turn my back on this promise.

As for the controversial experience that involves my father: I can honestly say that the dreams I had trusted, (in 2004) which showed my father being inappropriate when I was a very young child, may have been projected into my mind by the microwave/psychotronic weapons that I believe my whole family has been being targeted with. . .and that his drive to keep me from my own siblings after I started looking into my childhood (since the mid 1990s) may have also been manipulated by outside forces. This is most likely the case and its what I also prefer to believe. However I have not had the free and peaceful time I would need, in order to dig into the deeper Truths and write out the sequel to this book. Someday I hope to be able to, because this is not the only possible discrepancy and I need to clear the air on a lot of things for my own sake as well.

 I understand how parts of this book can upset those who can not understand my healing process at a time when I felt that my life would soon be over. . .or my pain filled drive to understand why I am being targeted and why two of my own family members suddenly began driving against me with painful levels of mental abuse. I can understand that those who do not want to look at their own behaviors may remain enraged, although I wish they'd choose the other way. The Truth is that we are ALL responsible for our own actions and their outcomes. If I write about you in this book, it is most likely because your behaviors touched my heart in a way that hurt me. . .and pretending that the pain is not there or that it didn't happen is not going to make it go away. On the contrary - it merely compounds the problem.

In our judgmental, law suit crazed, spiritually warped world, where justice sometimes seems to serve criminals more than victims. . .people have become afraid to be genuine - afraid to speak out and hold each other accountable for harmful behaviors so that healthy shame can trigger a refrain - afraid to expose and shine a Light into the dark closets that hold us back and prevent healthy growth. . .afraid to feel and let Love heal instead of letting darkness grow. I pray for humanity to start heading in the other direction.

We all make mistakes and its through admitting those mistakes that we heal and grow from them. Humanity has become so used to hiding shameful things that we never have a chance to let healthy levels of shame prevent them from continuing and growing (like a festering mold) throughout humanity. Hiding hurtful behaviors hurts ALL of us and feeds the darkness. Exposing them offers everyone concerned a chance to heal and grow. . .and it helps to prevent the same behaviors in others.

I do not do this lightly. I understand the risk I am running here. I understand that the hatred in those who choose to feed the dark may continue attacking or use this to inflict more pain. I understand that those who target me may instigate any sort of hell they can raise with it. I understand that those who target me, whether it is through my sister or not, may make me suffer even more than I already do. But I hope that it turns into the other direction - I hope it helps us ALL to grow more deeply into our own HEARTS, because without heart. . .the dark wins. . .and that just can not happen.

Sisiter, your attack ripped into my heart and left me feeling so concerned for Dad that I felt a need to post this. I pray that you find your heart enough to stop wanting to create more problems for me, at a time like this. . .especially when you use/hurt dad in order to do it. If you must bring the two paragraphs, (which you ended up saying were what your attack was all about) to his attention, please find the heart to also perceive them correctly and show him the intro so he can understand the TRUTH. Please stop trying to cause trouble. NONE of us need this. Please look in the mirror and heal enough to stop projecting your own behaviors onto me instead of facing what has been happening to you through many decades. And please start honoring your own gifts - the ones you have always had, so that you can stop wanting to posses and destroy mine. Please know that I love you. . .no matter what. I just can not keep my head on your chopping block. Please throw out the chopping block and. . .please follow your heart instead of what controls you.

Dad, I love you. Please believe that I am deeply sorry that we have had to experience all of this. I know it must have been as confusing to you as it has been to me. I wish I could help you to see what has been happening to our family - that we have been being targeted. I have always wished that things had taken a different course. I guess, at this point I can only hope that you eventually forgive me as well as yourself. . .although I feel that this will not happen in my lifetime.  Please always remember that I love you. . .no matter what.

 There is a possibility that this book has been altered by those who target me. Although recent interference has been primarily to html codes and search engine tags on my blogs and web pages, more may still be done. And I can not keep combing through all of my writings. I can't find out who's accessing my websites, because my "stats" keep being disabled (probably from within Go Daddy) so that I can not get any recent information about traffic on my sites. I am sorry for the inconvenience, but there is nothing I can do about it until a miracle delivers enough money for me to protect myself and my writings.

P.S.    My physical health is not well. I am taking herbal supplements and dandelion root, which I bought during my last job, but I'm almost out of them. I feel like my obsessive drive to help us is what is keeping me going right now. I believe that my sister's attacks against me are fueled by mind control technologies, which she is not aware of. . .and that she is just one of the many people whom this is happening to. 
   Victims of mind control are not being allowed to be who they are or to resolve their issues in their own way or to grow and heal...etc. I wish this could be exposed. ALL of humanity is in SERIOUS trouble if this is allowed to continue and grow.



Monday, January 14, 2013

Technological Holocaust - New Paper on Mind Control

The following 4 page article focuses primarily on bringing public awareness to the history of remote Mind Control Technologies and their use on us since at least the 1970s. Please feel free to print it out and share it as long as no changes are made to it.

Technological Holocaust - Mind Control Steals Hope
http://www.targetedinamerica.com/thmindcontrol.pdf

Click here to let your heart be touched by some of the work
I was doing before the worst of the targeting began. 
www.poeticpublications.com

I appreciate the offers to live with other "Targeted Individuals." Unfortunately, I have been targeted for so long and lured to so many places, by perpetrators who pretend to be functional TIs, and seem to have mastered the art of masking their True intentions, while drugging me and blasting my brain with microwaves. . .that I dare not run the risk of being drugged and raped or God knows what else again. And I can not live with non TIs because that tends to turn them into targets. Please believe that I have already repeatedly tried every avenue. Every place I turn to ends up being extremely temporary due to being surrounded by the chaos of gang stalkers and remote mind control manipulations, which, when involving other people, can be worse than just living in a car by myself.


Sunday, January 13, 2013

Technological Holocaust Blog

Please download and share this newly revised 4 page news paper:

  After I made the previous blog entry about my original "Technological Holocaust" blog - www.targeted11.blogspot.com it was invaded - it's March 15, 2012 date color was changed so that it could not be viewed and this page had been altered and blocked from view. (I do not know if there were other changes.) Why is this being done? Why do the criminals who target me not want people to know about the date of this blog or the "Technological Holocaust" paper that it grew from? I wonder if this is more of the plagiarazing stuff going on.
   Since 2005, Those who target me/us think they are hurting me by making a best selling book, using ideas and names from my writings and doing the same with one of my songs, which they take full credit for. But I can honestly say that what bothers me most is not losing credit for my own creations. The part of this that bothers me most is the state of our world due to such dishonesty - the way that greedy, plagiarizing thieves are being followed and honored as they lead humanity into the destructive darkness that we are ALL being hurt by. This is just too wrong. I hope we all quickly gain the WISDOM to only follow our own HEARTS.



Sunday, January 6, 2013

Again. . .Please See

PLEASE do all that you can to end the lethal targeting of Primary Targeted Individuals, and the manipulating of our family's minds with remotely used mind control technologies.

Long term TIs (like me) have been cast away by families that have become so mind controlled that they leave us with the choice of either agreeing to a false, nonprofessional "mentally ill" assumption and forced institutionalization. . .or. . .complete abandonment - sometimes even leaving us homeless and dangerously vulnerable to sadistic targeting, including electronic torture. Our suffering is immeasurable! This whole process is so cruel and barbaric that it goes beyond inhumane! We are in desperate need of your awareness, your prayers and your help.

Please print and share this paper:
http://www.targetedinamerica.com/technologicalholocaust.pdf

Criminal targeting with microwave weapons, as well as remote mind control technologies, is a crisis that has been having ill effects on people for decades now!!! Please help expose it and bring it to an end. If you doubt that such technologies exist, or that such a crisis is happening, please let your heart do some research and PLEASE do not blindly judge or label a Targeted Individual - please care to at least have us tested for microchips, cell structure damage, radiation...etc., instead of making us have to prove our sanity (which is an impossible task with those who do not realize what is happening) on top of everything else that we are being hit with. PLEASE LISTEN TO AND FOLLOW ONLY YOUR HEARTS.

Quote by Jim Kieth:"Brain-computer radio communication has long been considered impossible by the majority of people and has consequently been relegated to science-fiction, but the fact is that the technology had been developed into reality by at least the 1960s, during which time the initial experiments were being performed on unwitting subjects."

The Russian Woodpecker: experiments in global mind control: In April 1953, CIA Allen Dulles gave a lecture at Princeton University, detailing Soviet developments in the field of mind control. He stated they were out to control the mind of free men, both individually and collectively. . . Dulles proclaimed that the Cold War was moving into a new era of psychological warfare, which Dulles characterised as the battle for men’s minds. “We might call it in its new form brain warfare. . .In the 1970s, some of this “secret war for our mind” was exposed. . ." http://www.philipcoppens.com/woodpecker.html

A History of Mind Control - Tim Rifat: "The 1970s brought a darker side to the story, with the news that the Russians were microwaving the US embassy in Moscow. One third of the staff eventually died of cancer from this microwave irradiation." http://www.whale.to/b/rifat.html

Quote by (the late) Jim Kieth: "Brain-computer radio communication has long been considered impossible by the majority of people and has consequently been relegated to science-fiction, but the fact is that the technology had been developed into reality by at least the 1960s, during which time the initial experiments were being performed on unwitting subjects." Read more on, http://www.illuminati-news.com/remote-mctechnology.htm


In 1976 Time Magazine said, "Last month the U.S. confirmed that for some 15 years the Soviet Union has been beaming microwaves at the hulking nine-story U.S. embassy..." More on this link: http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,911755,00.html

Please also read updated pages on my site:
www.targetedinamerica.com

1-2-12: The "Mind Control" page on my website was altered - the title and search words all jumbled up and some sort of code added to the page. It appears that my computer is again being accessed and that web links to my blog are sometimes being interfered with also. PLEASE print out all the scientific info on the links above - and all other pertinent scientific data on the history of remote mind control, ASAP. Also please print out this blog for me...in case it is wiped out or altered again. Thank you.

P.S. I have written, several times, that my medical records appear to have been tampered with, and it keeps getting erased - I have added new things to my story. It appears that my original "Technological Holocaust" blog - www.targeted11.blogspot.com continues being interfered with and blocked from people's view even in search engines. After the posting of my "Technological Holocaust" paper into this blog I created the back up - www.technologicalholocaust.blogspot.com and then shifted to my own website - www.targetedinamerica.com when it also met with technical difficulties too often. What I've been through to keep getting the word out is unbelievable, let alone all else. The interference has been almost constant.

Today's technology seems to offer no secure boundaries from criminals who are more high tech than the rest of us. There is serious danger in falling into the trap of fully depending on internet and cell phone technologies for the storage of important information...etc.

PLEASE PRINT OUT PERTINENT INFORMATION.

Friday, January 4, 2013

A Chip for a Tonsil?

I remember a Dr. telling my mother that her six children had to have their tonsils removed around the 1960s. I remember us being taken, one by one, to the small hospital across from the Hillsborough County Farm, in Goffstown, NH to have it done.

I remember my sister suddenly getting some nerve or muscle damage in her eye. . .and them calling it a "lazy eye", although it suddenly happened. I remember my little brother suddenly forgetting how to read around 8th or 9th grade...and all of us wondering how he could have gotten that far in school without knowing how to read. . .and none of us realizing that he HAD known how to read and had suddenly and mysteriously forgotten some of the process. I remember. . .

Were we micro chipped when our tonsils were removed? Simple tests would show the Truth - and find either remaining chips or recent incisions. I say recent incisions, because around 2010, I woke with a weird sore throat and blood trickling down the back of my throat. It felt like my throat had been cut while I was asleep, but that didn't make any sense to me at the time. Now. . .I wonder. Are they inconspicuously removing larger, more detectable microchips that were used on people in the 1960s or 1970s? If so, there will be evidence of recent incisions, and the memory of a sudden unexplainable sore throat, in those whom they have been removed from.

It is a sure thing that mine is not the only family this has happened to. Did you have your tonsils removed in the late 1960s or 1970s, in the Goffstown, New Hampshire area? Would you want to know if you are, or were, walking around with a microchip, which enabled you to be used for technological mind control experimentation?

FYI: It is said that micro chips are no longer needed for more advanced remote mind control technologies to be successful. Can you care to think about what this means for humanity's future if these crimes are not quickly stopped?

www.targetedinamerica.com

Please realize what is happening, because all of humanity is in SERIOUS danger with advanced mind control technologies no longer needing microchips for successful intrusions. This Truly is a Technological Holocaust.

P.S. The hospital this took place in has been since torn down. . .and was on the same grounds as the previous Hillsborough County Nursing Home, which I worked at and felt microwaved at, around 1974.