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Thursday, September 29, 2011

A TI's Cry Into a Painful Silence. . .

Please read this with an open Heart and mind, because the mental and
physical well-being of humanity, as a whole, appears to be in serious danger.

   Through the past two decades I had felt confused and even ashamed of being hit with such magnitudes of difficulties in my life, so much so that I have hid some of it. (The worst of it has been happening since 1999) I'd foolishly thought I was suddenly just having extremely bad luck and was undergoing a huge spiritual challenge. Each time people, at new locations, started treating me badly, I'd think, "the world seems to be losing its Heart!...etc." I'd felt harmful energies being directed at me but had no knowledge of the microwave weapons or groups of individuals, that were physically targeting me.

This experience has been as confusing as it has been difficult!

   The remote weapon intrusions often made me physically ill. . .causing light headedness, blurred vision, slowed mental activity, dizziness, nausea, weakness, painful joints, bloating, hair loss, sharp pains in my head and abdomen, sudden lowered temp...etc. I'd continuously blamed these symptoms on the "Lupus" I was diagnosed with in 2006. (But I now believe that the Lupus was being caused by these electronic intrusions.)

   Anyway, as my writings have reflected, I've fought to heal from each round and climb back onto my feet through grieving and writing about it over and over again. . .not realizing the scope of what I've been up against, although it had been obvious that there were a few direct attempts on my life. My instincts and perceptions were being seriously dulled by the electromagnetic intrusions into my brain.

   My experiences through the past decade and more have been so difficult and confusing that each day has  been a struggle to get through. I've been forced into survival mode instead of being able to really living my life. There have been times when I've come close to giving up, times when I felt confused about the origins of powerful doses of harmful energies being directed at me and who is responsible for targeting me. There have been times when I felt like I could not handle anymore - times when I'd thought I was going crazy, times when I've felt shocked by the cruelty in those who aim to harm me, and times (like now) when I have felt too indescribably violated and terrified of what is happening. . .because there seems to be nothing I can do to stop it - no way out. I have cried out for help over and over again.

   As I realize that I am a targeted individual (ti) and that there are others who are going through a similar sequence of events, I feel both validated and horrified at the same time. It felt better not fully knowing, because denial of what I was experiencing had been one of my defenses.
   This inhumane process is happening through remote weapon attacks in conjunction with local organized stalking groups who are harassing, possibly drugging us...etc. Though there is much doubt that satellites are being used in these horrific crimes, my own personal experiences lead me to believe that they probably are.

I am in shock that this is not being immediately investigated and stopped. The mental and physical well-being of humanity, as a whole, appears to be in serious danger under this organization of  terrorists who are targeting - harming us.

I feel like a caged animal that is being slowly destroyed.
There is something horribly wrong happening here!

   Every day I pray over and over again for a way to stop this - a way to escape - a way to prevent this from continuing. Answers have not yet come to me.

I pray for the good parts of our government to protect us from further harm until these criminals are caught. Some say our government may be doing this for some sort of experiment and/or population control. . .etc. That is too horrible for me to want to believe. I cry. God help us!!!

 Please be aware that the stalkers sometimes interfere with websites that aim to inform the public about what is happening. Consequently the information on them can suddenly changed or be removed. Please just listen to the Heart of your own intuition.