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Saturday, November 17, 2018

Tears for Native American People

   Last night I was looking for songs about peace on my phone. And as I listened to the Cherokee and Lakota ones I cried, especially as I listened to "The Spirit of One" song that I share below. I suddenly felt a deep connection inside my heart and soul...not just because of the small percent of Native American blood that runs through my veins, but also because a few puzzle pieces started clicking together again. I am concerned that they are a valuable race of people whose Spirit has been being broken, in many ways, and includes technological targeting of brain and body functions, with electromagnetic frequencies/radio waves...etc. I now even wonder if my native blood is why my family appears to have been being targeted since at least the early 1970s.
   I remember going with my mother to visit the Indian reservation, in Canada, where her cousins and best childhood friend lived. This was around the early 1970s. This whole family (all the children) were born with no hair and had to wear wigs. I now wonder if this was due to technological experimentation. No other part of the family had that problem.
   In 2006, after I was diagnosed with "lupus," I had looked it up and medical reports had stated that lupus was initially found primarily in Native America women. In 2006 I had shared dreams which showed me that lupus was being created by bad people shooting bad energy at me. I now feel that the bad energy is the radio waves/electromagnetic frequencies...etc., that have been being used on unaware people. (I shared more about this in my 2011 and 2012 writings.)

   I feel that the Native American people have been being inflicted with holocaustal levels of inhumane crimes and that it must be fully realized and stopped ASAP.

   FYI; I have always considered myself Christian, because I was raised Christian. But the Native American Spirit has always been very strong in me - I have felt, since I was a young child, the sacredness and importance of the Earth and the birds and the rest of God's creatures, like the natives do. I believe in Jesus and the fact that He was born to live and teach us Love. But my Soul and Spirit actually feel more connected to many of the Native beliefs. The real God is Love and Love cares about and works through Native American's too. They count too. So do I. And the same applies to all other cultures and people whom ignorance and arrogance and heartlessness has failed to see value in. I hope that those who do the targeting are set free - free to find their Hearts again. And I hope that all their victims are set free - free to live and be unique...etc., and gain the validation and understanding that is deeply need for full recovery.

"We are all one people and it's Hope we're thinking of.
We have found the answer and the answer is Love." ~ Jana  


This video is the most touching "Love is the Answer" message I have seen.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, November 9, 2018

That's Not True

   Here is a new song I wrote yesterday. I dedicate this to all the genuine torture victims, (Targeted Individuals) who have been falsely or unwittingly labeled as "mentally ill", and to all the people who want me to go somewhere and be labeled and medicated, in order to discredit and suppress me and hide the Truth.

That's Not True
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Long ago, before I finally knew,
Each time I felt scared or blue
I'd think...
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh That's not true!
That's not true.
I was born to feel
And that's what I must do.
Sadness helps release my pain
And fear helps prevent it's gain."

When chaos made me confused
And bashings left me abused
I'd think. . .
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh. That's not true!
That's not true.
I just need time to heal
And to let the Truth be real.
I need to find some peace
And people who can Love me."

When they swarmed with covert razors
And shot my brain with hidden lasers
I'd think. . .
Maybe somethings wrong with me.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I am mentally ill.  (That's Not true.)
Maybe I need to take a pill.  (That's Not true.)
That's what they showed me
And I didn't know - I couldn't see.
Until my heart loudly told me,
"No. No. No! Uh-uh. That's not true!
That's not true.
That is what they do it for.
Throw the pills out the door.
I was born to be free
And they've been killing me!"

Now I get it - I finally see.
There is nothing wrong with me.
This is such a relief.
I'm not really mentally ill
And I don't need the pill.
I was born to feel.
I was born to heal.
I was born to be free.
I was born to be me.
Please set me free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

No Other "Side" for Me

Technological Holocaust - Confusion
   There still seems to be different sides in the covert stuff around me. And I still cannot choose sides in that confusing mess, especially since it is never clear who or what the intentions are...etc. I don't want to be on any side other than the one that openly and peacefully and compassionately stands in the Light for Freedom to finally be restored to all of us - to all of the victims and all of America and all of humanity. I wish I had people on my side. Been standing too alone for too long. More hearts should be standing up for freedom. Please let yours.

A "Trick or Treat"?

  On October seventh I had an unusual experience. The targeting had just vamped up on every level and I had just found yet another important blog post missing and was feeling frustrated and numb as I walked down a street toward my car. Then suddenly a man approached me saying "Trick or treat" and was wearing a black cape and monster mask. I tried to avoid him, especially since there was another man there with a video camera pointed at us, but he persisted and then actually shocked me by pulling money out of his bag to give me. (I guess that was the "treat" part.) The bit of financial help was desperately needed and I deeply appreciated it even though it came in such an odd way.
   The night after this happened I had a dream about me having to prove my innocence about something and something about my family, which was not clear. I cannot be sure if it is about this "trick or treat" situation, but...
   Just a couple days ago, two women in a store told me that they saw me on TV with these guys. Apparently they are sort of popular and do silly antics with people a lot. When I tried to look them up on youtube all I found was a news report, that posted just a few days before they had approached me, and was about how they are starting a new focus in a show that helps mentally ill people. This concerned me. Due to my situation I can not help but wonder if they are being used by those who want people to think I am mentally ill and/or want to harass me with the accusation, which has been done a lot...even by those who know that I'm really being targeted and clearly have control of too much.
   I found the Halloween video they had me in, and I did not see anything about the suggestion of me being mentally ill. It was actually only kind words about being kind to people and helping people. But is there more? I don't know. But I am hoping that those guys were not used to hurt me or influence others, especially not my loved ones who need to know the truth instead more of the "mental illness" cover up that they have been brainwashed with and hurt by. And I hope it will not weed into that if it hasn't already, which is why I am posting this. I want and deserve only genuinely kind, especially when it aims to help.

    I have been at a loss as to how to handle this situation, because I do not want to falsely accuse and I do not want things to get worse for me at a time when they are already too bad. It was tempting to try to find the web forum that the news said cast said the guys were setting up for discussions about "mental illness", just to post some info. But I know how unsafe the web is and how statements can be changed....etc., even when there are only good intentions in those who start it. And then there is the bashing and harassment thing that happens to me in web forums and I had more than I could take of that by around the beginning of 2013. I can't handle anymore, especially not right now. Being stranded and too at the mercy and people being used even to deprive me of help with a vehicle...etc. I'm not opening myself up to more. I'm hurt too much already.

P.S. Those who have been used to keep me suffering for over three months - depriving me of a vehicle that they promised to get to help me...etc., just happened to see the TV show with me in it and wanted to get involved to see if the guys could "help" me more. My heart cried, "If you wanted to help me you should have followed through on the car" and "your not following through on it is the reason I am trapped here and was found walking the streets looking so sad and in need of help!" The organization that appears to have intentionally withheld promised help - the car since around August 6th, (three months) is the same one that appeared to be being used in a set up to make me look "mentally ill" in the past. Is it a coincidence that they want to be involved with perpetuating the filming of me while I get help...and my brain is technologically interfered with in that process like it was at first? I don't think so. Since I heard that they were making plans to arrange this, without even asking me about it, my suspicions have justly soared. I do not want help that hurts. I want help that only genuinely cares.

Thursday, November 8, 2018

There is More in the Book of This Blog

  I recently went through yet another process of drafting this blog and putting back up only posts that focused on the primary parts of the technological targeting and enough of my personal experiences to validate other Targeted Individuals. And I left out posts that focused on the crazy confusing covert stuff that vamped up in the past five or six years. But, as I did this the targeting vamped up and there seemed to be an aim to shove me off a cliff one way or another, while most of my blog was down. So I put the whole blog back up a few days ago and....unfortunately its probably more chaotic and confusing than ever. I had edited out many things and kept running finding things and posts that had been altered or deleted by those who intrude upon my writings through library computers since mine were disabled. Unless they also changed the book, which I had made of this blog, there is a lot more in the book than there is on this blog. The book is available on Amazon. The most original earlier posts should be in edition three and fourteen and the most of the last three should be in the introduction edition.

Did they aim to crush me as I made them look better
 than they were and hoped that they'd prove to be? 

   I really want to make all of my writings better, especially since I have realized how infiltrated they have been; On this blog I want to cut out the things they changed and replace things they erased and correct things that may have been my misperceptions and fix things that I wrote while I was too heavily targeted or too upset about it all to do a good job with articulating things....etc., because some of it may be too confusing to people and I do not want to confuse or mislead anyone. But, I need to be safe and free to do it and I think need to have a better understanding of some things too. When it comes to the covert stuff, I am still confused, myself, so I can not describe it perfectly. I'm sorry this blog is such a mess. I hope I can fix it properly someday. If you read it before then please excuse me. 

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

A "Better Angels" Dedication

The lyrics in this new Barbra Streisand song "Better Angels" really speaks to me. I envision the "better angels" being the Love that works through our own Hearts. I dedicate the lyrics of  this song to all who are connected to my situation. . .my loved ones, officials, all who are used to help target or abduct me...etc. Many times I have cried out to those who are used to target me, "I am not your enemy. Those who use you are!" And full responsibility can be placed on criminal use of radio wave technologies...etc.

"Lead us to forgiveness so that we can be made whole. We are not enemies. There is no good in that. There are better Angels that surround us all and we will find a way through all our differences...listen to their call... Rise up. Its time."

Barbra Streisand - Better Angels (Official Audio)


I feel that God is shining a strong Light into the Hearts of all who are in positions that can effectively stand up and stop all the targeting and its horrid covert crap and wars and restore freedom to all of humanity. Please let it into yours.

I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

They walk to the American Border

  I hope our troops bring those people food and water and compassion and safety. I Hope the negative attitude about our borders stops. I do not understand the whole border thing in relation to our actual safety at this point in time. We are not any safer being surrounded by walls.

It seems to me that, in order for America to be truly safe, it must be set free within its borders and return to being a compassionate refuge for all who seek Freedom. And it needs a shield against space based technologies that are used to perform mind control and to inflict illnesses and to torture people...etc. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Too Many Used

   Please do not use people in order to hurt or harass or abduct me, especially not under the guise of help. Please set them free and the same for me. 

Please stop the covert game. 
Free your Hearts of shame.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Still Trapped

   I am still trapped in a parking lot. Its been three months. The last time this happened this long (for four months in 2016) I had sent permission letters in order to be released. What will it take this time? I am deeply concerned that no matter what I do or do not do, at this point, the outcome may not be good for me. I have serious, legitimate concern for my safety right now. God, please set them and us free.

Monday, November 5, 2018

Like a Fish Out of Water

    I feel like a fish out of water - barely able to breath and not able to freely think and feel and do my work and be with free loved ones and own my own peaceful country home and work in my gardens and do my pottery and be the natural me. I should be free. We all should be.

"What the World Needs..."

    An old classic by the beautiful voice of Barbara Streisand; "What the world needs now is Love... No not just for some, but for everyone. . . We all need what the world needs. All we need is Love."
   This is a message that I deeply believe in. Sadly many of us are not free to fully Love and some of us are not even safe enough to Love. We all need to both give and receive Love, and our Hearts must be Free to do both. The Heart of Humanity must be set free from technological and pharmaceutical control, in order to truly Love and let Love grow. We need Love and all that enables and supports it. I need it too. We should all be free to Love.

I wish we were all free to Love

Barbara Streisand - What the World Needs Now is Love Sweet Love

I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, November 1, 2018

To save the Birds

   I’ve had a deep personal connection with birds. There appears to be a push for me to hide what happens with the birds and I. And what keeps coming to mind is that since those who target me are fully aware of how birds have often flown in to help me be aware of people’s intentions it is best that good people know about this as well. I'm sure that those who target/watch/hurt us had witnessed a rather large miracle type bird experience that I had in the early to mid1990s, and this is probably why there were no birds at the next home I'd owned - the one I was forced to move to after the NH DOT took the one I was in at that time. (A friend of mine had witnessed the bird thing and later ended up with an aneurism and had forgotten who I was!) I had shared this 1990s bird experience in my Into the Light book in 2010 and I now wonder if I was tortured into taking it down, due to this being in it. Why does anyone not want other people to know about the birds? I'm not sure, but I think that wider spread knowledge of it would help the good people so that the bad cannot use it to their advantage.
   I'm sure that I am not the only person who has this unusual (or just unrecognized) bird connection...and all of our lives may be in serious danger as is that of the birds. But it is not only us who need ALL aspects of the targeting to completely stop. The rest of humanity and all of nature needs it too. And it should be done ASAP. I think it would be done by now if enough officials knew that things carrying on this way is not good for anyone or anything except the sadistic/satanic ones. Please help bring it all to an end - please help save the birds and us and humanity through preventing criminal use of all sort of ground and space based radio wave technologies.

   Below is a video of a 2011 report of massive amounts of birds suddenly dieing and falling from the sky. I feel that this has been being caused by criminal use of microwave weapons - ground or space based. The first reports I saw of this sort of thing were in 2005. Please help specialists to realize the REAL problem and help stop criminal use of all sorts of radio wave technologies, for the sake of the birds as well as humans and all other living things. (This part was erased from this post)

(Channel four News) 100s dead birds fall from sky in US and Sweden

 Criminal use of the radio wave technologies has been a threat to all living things for too long.
Please help stop it from continuing. Please help expose and stop the real problem.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, October 31, 2018

Projected Dream and Mind Control

   I experienced a lot of mind control connected with the recent dream about a white van. It appears to have been projected and that those who projected it wanted me to post it on this blog. I had kept thinking that I'd forgotten to write it down when I didn't really...and it was like an animated picture and not like a real dream...etc.
   It appears that they wanted others to see the dream posted here. There were a lot of hits on the blog after I'd posted it. This sort of thing has happened a lot. I took these two posts down. But the damage is probably already done. I hope there are good officials who are aware of what is happening to me and surely to others as well.

Remembering Could Save my Life

I can excuse and even fully forgive, but I do not want
to forget, because remembering could save my life.

Monday, October 29, 2018

Lady Liberty by Barbara Streisand

I like the lyrics to this song.

"Lady Liberty Lift your lamp of hope a little higher
Burn that flame of freedom just a little brighter...
Show us how to stand and feel a little prouder.
As the anthem plays lets sing a little louder,
The real danger lies in the sound of silence..."

 Lady Liberty by Barbara Streisand


I had felt that Barbra Streisand had been being targeted. But her beautifully gifted voice was definitely set free for her new 2018 album, Walls. I hope her mind and heart are free too. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, October 28, 2018

The Synagogue Shooting

  I was in a small cafe last night when I saw the news cast about the gruesome shooting in a synagogue in Pennsylvania and I cried. Its just too horrible that this has been happening. Obviously not enough people are realizing and exposing and stopping the real problem, which I feel sure is technological mind control. More should be speaking out to expose and stop it.
   The guy who did this synagogue shooting even had the drooping around his right eye, which I feel is a sign of a severe round of technological mind control. (I've seen it in many victims.) These victims actually are often not the ones who are the worse criminals, - some are victims and those who control them who are more responsible. And criminal use of ground and space based technologies is also responsible.
   A horrible part of the technological mind control programming is about forcing victims into vengeance and prejudice...etc., against their will and sometimes convincing them that they are fighting for freedom - to save their own or other people's lives. Please help expose and stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control so people can start helping each other instead of being tortured into judging and blaming and hurting each other.

And please remember that 

Vengeance can not cure vengeance.
But Freedom and Love can.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Deprivation of Medicine

   They did it again! I had found another strong and natural ginger drink and now its been removed from the shelves in the store I was getting it from. At first they moved it to a different location. But now its gone and I asked them to bring it back, but I do not know if it will do any good. This has been happening to me, with many products that I either need for my health or that I like a lot, since around 2005. I am also trapped in a situation that prevents me from obtaining other things I need for my health. Its not good for me to stay in one place and be forced to frequent the same stores, especially when medicinal or healthy items are needed.

Update Nov 7, 2018; Today, for the first time in three months, I found sage stalked in one of the stores I have to use. I think its because I'd posted this here and they want to make it look like it was not happening. This sort of thing happens a lot - if I realize it or say something about they back off and pretend it was not happening. But it was. As for the ginger, I persisted with asking for it at the other store. At first they pretended they were not even aware of the product's existence and then they said that a man forgot to order it and that it will be coming back. The fact that they use store managers to help target people, even with lacing products sometimes, is horrible.

My Declaration About Covert Help

   I feel extremely uncomfortable with covert stuff and covert messaging. I always have and still do, irregardless of who is doing it or for what reason. This is not against anything or anyone, its just the way I feel, and for good reason. Aside from it all being extremely confusing, at a time when I have been desperate for the opposite, those who have ill intentions and do the targeting and seek revenge on me are covert and everything else (IF there really is anything else that is not into torturing, controlling and using and hurting) just blends in with the bad from my vantage point...etc. I have been being beat up with it all for so long that I desperately need it all to completely stop. I've felt this way from the start. I have received covert threats and dreams that insinuate intentions to deprive me of help or to set up (frame) either a loved one or I if I do not obey and conform and join the covert stuff or leap out of my life into the enslavement "home." There have been many covert attempts to set me up for reasons to have me arrested, like trying to make me run through security doors (in order to get help) during times of desperation...etc. I have also been physically tortured for not being happy with the covert hell that surrounds me, and for begging officials to stand up, more times than I can count. And none of this can feel good to me, in any way or form, irregardless of who is or is not actually doing it. I don't trust any of it. And I still want it all to stop.    I have been waiting for good* officials to openly stand up and be here for me/us, irregardless of what organization they are with, (as long as there are not too many jurisdiction issues and they have an awareness of all aspects of the targeting) but it appears that none have this intention. And I have some serious concerns, at this point, because I've had precognitive dreams forewarning of me being lured to official places with aims to either physically kill me (in a tunnel collapse) or to inject me with something or to completely enslave me - kill me spiritually and emotionally or to fabricate a reason to have me arrested and imprisoned. And I do not want any of these things to happen to me. I do not want to be hurt anymore.

    Since around 2003 - (Since I started reporting something wrong) I have had many confusing experiences with various levels of officials - from local through presidents...etc., especially in the past several years with the FBI and Senator Shaheen and President Obama, whom had all responded to my reports in various ways. (Some of my experiences with the FBI have been very disturbing and I have lost valuable trust in everything. I hope it can someday be restored.) I have been waiting and hoping for all levels of officials to be here for me/us with good, honest explanations that can help me to feel better about it all and assure me that their intentions were good and that they are on the side of regaining freedom, although some of them (especially on the lower levels) seem to have lost their freedom and are victims too. But this has obviously not happened yet and I do not know if any of them really intend for it to, although it has been being promised for about five years. Some seem to have ill/vengeful intentions toward me and I hope this honestly proves to be untrue but I need to know the real Truth. Is real help ever really going to be here for us? I hope so. ( I was painfully tortured after posting this.)
    However, I don't want to blame good officials who have good intentions and have not been able to be here for me in the ways that I need them to be. I don't even want to blame those who have been controlled or enslaved and not able to follow their own Hearts and instincts, and have hurt me in various ways. I just want it all to stop. I know this whole situation has been extremely difficult for everyone and has been hurting everyone to some degree. I wish things were different for all of us, but none of it has been my choice. I wish we were all free. I wish this hell would end now and that our Hearts could be here for each other. My heart feels for you. It really does, no matter what.

   My loved ones have been being more deeply enslaved in the past few years and they are not safe for me to turn to either. Its all just too sad. I have been groping for hope for me, but sometimes have a hard time finding it. Everywhere I look there is either confusing cryptic covert stuff with questionable intentions or controlled people (puppets) whom they use or suffering victims who are not aware that their brain or body functions are being technologically interfered with or clueless/unaware people or vengeful mind control victims...and I can't stand it. I can't stand the way the world is right now. It shouldn't be this way. It just shouldn't. And my only consolation, right now, is that I know the real God is shining a giant Light for the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from further destruction. Please let that Light into your Heart. I have been letting in the Light, but some days it works better than others, depending on how drugged or tortured I am.

   When the good covertly blend in with the bad it creates a confusing sort of hell that has often been the worse part of the targeting for me. Most of the time it seems like the criminals just want me to trust them and think they are good and that its all about getting me to join and obey and be used, while my loved ones continue to be hurt or enslaved, instead of all of us being helped...etc. ALL of becomes too confusing and I can never be sure of the real intentions. I don't trust covert and I don't ever want to. I don't want to be tortured and threatened into joining the covert program, like they have been trying to do to me, I want good* officials to be here for me/us.

*Good is those whose Hearts and instincts are in tact and are not controlled by those who do the targeting. Many who are controlled are good people also, but they just are not free enough to be a safe source of help. And organizations that are too infiltrated to be a safe source of NON-covert help are not necessarily bad either - they just need their freedom restored also.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, October 26, 2018

The Targeting of Families

    I think they target whole families, since at least the 1970s, and do different things to different members depending on their personality. The oldest child or children seem to get more controlled, in order to be used against siblings. And the ones with more Heart seem to get the long term torture...etc. In targeted families, due to the mind control programming, there is a lot of discord and competition and jealousy and neglect and blocking of compassion...etc., especially at strategic times - when the opposite is deeply needed. I have noticed that rounds of severe, negative mind control creates a drooping above the right eye of the victim. It comes and goes, but in one victim I know of it became permanent nerve damage.

God help us all to be totally set free
And have a chance to recover

News Broadcasts of Increase of Anger in Society

  According to a recent news report President Trump is blaming the media for the increases in societal anger and the media is blaming Trump. And I wish they would all realize and expose and help to stop the REAL problem - Technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

Please help stop technological and pharmaceutical mind control from continuing to inflict discord and destruction in America as well as the rest of humanity. Please.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Presence of Danger

   My situation has worsened and I beg you to help pray for my safety and freedom as well as that for all of America and the rest of humanity. Please also do everything in your power to stop criminal use of technologies...etc., that have been being used to torture or enslave humanity.

Please set the poor enslaved ravens free
So they can't be used against you and me.

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

For the Heart of Humanity

   Since around the time when I first started realizing the scope of the technological and pharmaceutical targeting...etc., I've yearned to hold a better focus on exposing the overall situation that has been harming most of humanity in various ways. I'm sorry that I have not done a very good job with this, due to the targeting and its various effects on me. I have often felt too scared or too tortured or too frustrated and this has been evident in parts of this blog. I have tried to fix them, many times, but have not done a very good job of it. Please ignore the parts of my writings that contained too much discord and let the core of my other messages reach your Hearts. One of my primary messages has been this. . .

   The mind control part of the targeting has aimed to pit people against each other and has been doing this on scales that range from pitting loved ones and community members against each other to pitting common citizens and governments against each other and pitting countries against each other.  In my heart I can not see how fighting and blaming can help end the horrible targeting situation, because it has gotten too big and has had ill effects on too many, both inside and outside governments around the globe. So, again, I beg all government officials, especially those who are in high positions, to immediately do everything in your power to stop criminal use of both ground and space based technologies that have been used for mind control...etc. And I beg all human beings, both inside and outside the governments, to let go of the fights and let go of the discord, no matter what you read or hear, and let your Hearts reach out to your fellow human beings and deliver desperately needed validation, compassion, understanding and comfort, especially to victims of all kinds, which is almost everyone at this point. Please let go of the fight and let Love win. Help the Heart of humanity to stand up and save itself from further destruction. Be a part of that Heart. 

Please Help set Humanity Free
And return it to the Love
It was meant to be.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, October 19, 2018

Horses Lasered?

   There were a couple horses fenced in on a road I often walked on in the past couple months. A beautiful bay and chestnut pair who had come up to the fence to see me every time I walked by. I always stopped to talk to them and they would just stand there and listen and sometimes even try to follow me as I left. They were starting to feel like my buddies.  But then their behaviors suddenly changed and the bay one started stomping its foot and shaking its head or bucking when I came near.  I am certain that those target and watch me were lasering them to disrupt our unions. Poor things! I know how they feel. I don't stop to talk to them anymore. :-(

I think they can also effect the brains of animals in some of the same ways that they can with humans.  They need their freedom back too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. Yesterday I had a precognitive dream which showed me experiencing severe levels of psychological harassment/torture while the rest of my belongings are being stolen from a motel that someone puts me in. I hope this does not have a chance to happen.

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Important Video

I made this video in 2015. It has been being erased from this blog. I hope it stays here now. Please listen to it with your Heart and help stop criminal use of pharmaceuticals and radio wave technologies.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, October 7, 2018

Sinéad O'Connor - Famine

   This video puts out impactful messages that can be applied to all types of targeting all over the world. It talks of the need to face the truths of the targeting and that knowledge and understanding and grieving need to happen in order for healing to take place. The video ends with forgiveness. My heart deeply believes in this healing process and feels that our whole world is in desperate need of it. (I still feel that Senead is a Targeted Individual and is not really just "mentally ill.")

Sinéad O'Connor - Famine

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Important Post Deleated!

On January 11, 2012 I had posted a list of "Symptoms" of microwave targeting and they have erased that whole post from this blog! I also found a couple other things missing. And I can not check it all. Perhaps someday I will have the freedom to reconstruct the important things. Until then I am at the mercy...and so is all of my writings.

Monday, September 24, 2018

Please Understand Our Crippled Stands for Freedom

Victims who try to stand up for freedom from technological mind control are NOT the bad guys even though our stands are sometimes crippled by interference with our brain function and even though our ignorance may sometimes blame the wrong people or governments or technologies.

Saturday, September 22, 2018

A New Prayer

This was inspired (or a re-writing of) by the popular "Our Father...." Catholic prayer.

Dear God of Love and Light,
Honored be Thy Love;
They Light come - Thy will be done
n Earth as it is in Heaven;
Give us, forever, our daily needs;
Forgive our sins and help us forgive
those who trespassed against us;
Deliver us from dark temptations,
greed, vengeance, wars and
thirsts for power over others;
Lead us into compassionate Peace;
Protect us with Your Love and
Light forever.... Amen.

Thursday, September 6, 2018

About This Blog

Please read the About page of my primary blog. There are times when it has been being erased or blocked and it explains a lot. So, I have pasted some of it here too.

About this Blog

   This blog started out being a fight for my life in 2011. Then, as I realized more about the targeting, it grew into a fumbling stand for freedom for myself and my loved ones and my country and the rest of humanity. In between my ramblings on this blog are realizations that I hope will help all of us to regain freedom from all levels of the targeting.
   As I wrote and researched I realized that the problem I am faced with extends far beyond me and into my family and communities and country and the rest of humanity. The torturous targettings are just a small part of a huge, horrible, global holocaust that also utilizes technological mind control on a defenseless and unaware populous. I strongly feel that more people must quickly become aware of the mind control part of it, especially those who are in positions where they have the power to stop criminal use of both space and ground based technologies that can emit and direct radio waves…as well as stop the distribution the pharmaceuticals, which aid the technological mind control.
   In my dealings with my loved ones I have realized that they have been being targeted too, especially with mind control. Some have been being brainwashed into blind disbelief or into being used to target me under the guise of it being to help me in various ways, like to help me get labeled as “mentally ill” and put on disability. And real help has been being withheld in order to force me to do this. Sadly, some of my loved ones have been completely enslaved. This whole situation seems to be getting worse in the past few years.
   In my many dealings with various levels of law enforcement (from local through federal and international) I have either experienced or sensed similar things to what has been happening in my family and communities. People from all walks of life appear to be being targeted in various ways, especially with the technological mind control and deceptions. This is an extremely difficult situation for everyone. So, the blame cannot be put on our families or on “the government” or any person or organization that has been being targeted in the way of being controlled and used by sadistic/satanic criminals who sometimes seem to want their unaware victims to be blamed in order to inflict discord between family members and between citizens and government and between countries…etc.
   There are obviously some people, especially the leaders of this holocaust, who are aware and are free and willing participants of cruel and lethal targetings of fellow human beings as well as the aim to enslave and control humanity, but I think there are very few of these sorts of criminals in this situation and that they hide behind the scenes of the masses of people whom they control or deceive and use. Most people would not even consider being part of such darkness – most people would not willingly enslave or control or torture fellow human beings. But too many people have lost their own free will, through being either completely enslaved or drugged, technologically brainwashed and used by criminals to harm or harass harmless and innocent victims under the guise of it being help…etc. And I feel that there are uncountable amounts of unaware mind control victims, both inside and outside the Government, whose minds have been being influenced at times when important decisions or realizations must be made…etc. This whole situation, from the mildest forms of mind control to the tortures and the complete enslavement of human beings is grossly inhumane holocaustal situation that must be more fully realized and completely exposed and stopped as quickly as possible. Freedom must be quickly gained for everyone – for all of us torture victims and all mind control victims and all enslaved victims and all of America and all of humanity. Please do everything in your power to help regain total freedom from all that controls and harms humanity.
    The posts that I have tried to retain on this blog are the ones that I feel are most important to me - things that can prove that the targeting is indeed happening and enough of my personal experiences to validate other Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals. Some of what I had posted really should not have been publicly shared, for the sake of my safety and possibly that of others. Some of it had been too much of a fight against what was being done to me, instead of a 'stand for' all of us. (But the past two years of it are on my other blog - www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com )Each time I tried to let go of that fight they vamped up the targeting into terrifying levels, but I have been becoming more determined as I noticed this. I have been too overwhelmed to do this all perfectly.
  I'd hoped to edit this blog in a safe place and on a safe computer and after I have had a bit of recovery time and a bit more understanding of the covert stuff, but it looks like that is not going to happen. So there is still no guarantee that what is shown on this blog will be the way I wrote it and the way my heart wants it to be, especially since I am still working on infiltrated library computers since the spring of 2016. It is still sometimes being interfered with. I can not check it all and I may not realize the importance of some posts due to being unaware of the manipulations. Perhaps someday I will have the freedom to reconstruct all of the important things. Until then this is the best I can do.
    This blog, from the start, has been being manipulated by those who target me. It even started with what may have been a perpetration push to make me feel that my life would be saved through going public with my day to day experiences. There are times when it seems like they are doing certain things in the targeting just to make me write about it on my blog...etc. There have been times when they have altered my blog posts, through changing or erasing or moving things, even changing dates of posts. There have been times when they have interfered through interfering with my brain function and through torturing me and setting me in too much physical pain while I am trying to write.
   And I have made many of my own mistakes as I struggled to figure things out and write about them while still being targeted, sometimes literally painfully tortured. I often did not articulate things very well and sometimes made the wrong assumptions...etc. It has been a horrible struggle for me to even try to figure it all out and keep up with the alterations they have been doing to my writings. Hopefully what is left here is all of the parts that are most important and can help us to regain freedom from all levels of the targeting as well as help validate other Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals. More is on www.targetedinamerica.com
     As for my own personal experiences; There is more in my Yearn for Freedom and Targeted in America books, as well as in previously published books of this blog - from edition three to edition fourteen, which came before what is the current "Introduction" edition. It is my hope that at least some of the officials, whom I have been in contact with through the past 15 years, are fully aware and will be here for me/us as soon as they can. If the proper officials are ever able to be here for me, and if they need original forms of this blog, they can be made available. I hope that what I have left of it is not stolen or altered anymore than it already has been. And I, of course, hope that what is left of my writings and I are not confiscated by ill intending people.
   The targeting has been so manipulative and so torturous and has continued for so long, that I deeply yearn for it all to immediately end in a way that delivers peace and freedom for all of us. I wish with all my heart, that the Heart of good, aware officials in America, the UN and in other countries would publicly stand up for all types of victims (while exposing the pharmaceutical and technological mind control and technological tortures....etc.). . . delivering needed compassion and validation...etc., to victims and needed understanding to all others. . . starting the ball rolling for this hell to finally come to an end now.

   As I wrote the original posts I sometimes blasted things out in fear or frustration, especially when I was being technologically tortured. There have also been times when I have been either extremely overwhelmed or technological mind control has affected me and I have not articulated things very well. I have also probably misperceived the confusing covert stuff more then I may realize. I have tried to fix things as I go, especially in the past few years, but they are still not even close to perfect. I have not had the freedom to do a very good job with edits of my blog posts, I have made a lot of mistakes, and there have been times when my writings have been infiltrated and parts of them either changed or erased by those who target me, so please excuse anything that seems off or repetitive or too rambling…etc. I hope you will read them with your Heart and listen closely to your own instincts.

I do not share very much about my personal experiences with the targeting, because my way of surviving it has been to ignore as much of it as I can. And I also tend to get tortured more severely when I write about what is being done to me. I have been suffering indescribably, but they want people to think that I am either just fine or just “mentally ill.” I don’t know if I will ever share all of it. Much of it is just too painful and I am in desperate need of it all ending so I can start privately processing my feelings and start recovering from it all.

There is more condense writings about my personal experiences with the targeting in my Targeted in America book and in my Yearn for Freedom book. Both are available on Amazon until I have the freedom to bring them both together under the Yearn for Freedom title.

There may be important parts missing from these writings. There are those who want to hide important parts of the targeting and have sometimes infiltrated my computers and writings. An example of this is how they have tried to wipe out quotes from other people that can help prove the targeting as well as the mention of other genuine Targeted Individuals. There has also been those who seem to be into plagiarizing my insights and realizations and writings. It seems to be part of an insane “information war.” I do not mind if my realizations about the targeting of humanity are shared by others. I do not need credit for them. I want them to be shared, because more people need to know what is happening. But I do not want my writings or ideas or realizations to be stolen by criminals who steal credit for them and I do not want them erased from my writings. Hopefully, my most important blog posts remain intact so that my readers can have the information too. My personal writings – my experiences and poetry and little phrases…etc. I retain with all rights reserved. Nobody has any right to them.

If there are ever good officials who decide to be here for me, and if they need the full versions of my blog writings…etc., they can be produce from my emails and publishing site and storage devices and www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com...etc. This may also be important to do if anything worse happens to me or I vanish…which I pray does not happen. Although some of my writings have been infiltrated, hopefully not all of it has been.

Read more on this page

Around the late 1980s Professor Antony C. Sutton said, “Psychotronics is the long range modification or manipulation of behavior by electronic, specifically radio means. In other words you use electromagnetic energy – radio wave transmissions to effect human behavior. . . You are merging radio engineering and parapsychology . . You can create a passive behavior. You can make people go to sleep. You can create narcotic effect. . . You can make people alert. You can make them misconstrue – misunderstand things. Each has a specific – very precise frequency. We know what these frequencies are. We know the behavior modification that can be brought about. . . You can induce medical effect – you can induce heart attacks, at a distance, with certain frequencies. . . We know you can modify behavior through beaming radio waves on specific frequencies at a distance. I think what they did in the 1970s was experimentation. I think what they are doing today is not experimentation. . . The West Germans issued their diplomats with protective devices about ten years ago. . . ”

Antony C. Sutton - Psychotronic Weapons and Behavior Modification

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Still Stranded!

    I am still stranded in a parking lot!

   I have let go of most of the posts I wrote in the past few days. I am so distressed that I probably should not be writing much of anything right now anyway, as is the case with a lot of this blog. I am extremely distressed about my car and phone suddenly breaking down and what may happen to me next.
   The heat on top of the technological targeting is difficult...etc. I am praying they do not succeed with making me pass out or anything else that could enable them to have me shoved into an ambulance and carted off to be enslaved. There have been threats to make me "black out"...etc.

Please pray for me...and for all of humanity to finally
be set free of ALL LEVELS of the targeting and 
receive the validation and understanding and
Love and support that is needed for recovery.

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Message From my heart

    My heart still strongly feels that, There is a desperate need for good officials to be openly standing up for us and America and Humanity in ways that deliver compassion and validation for the victims and understanding for everyone else... so that people (from all walks of life) can start pulling together to help each other and support each other and love each other...etc.
   Every day there have been more hearts and spirits and souls and bodies being either broken or destroyed, by the covert and technological targeting...etc., in a world that mostly does not understand and is not allowed to care for the victims! This has been happening for too long and it should be going the other way.  It should be being stopped.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets
hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a
STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

    Through horrible levels of covert messaging stuff, seeming to come from various sources, my head has been spinning and my soul has been aching for a normal NON-covert world. I have done my best to ignore it, but some of it is impossible to ignore. Sometimes my desperation wants to believe that there is something good behind some of it. And its at these times when my heart loudly whispers, "If its not openly standing in the Light do not trust it." And I am listening to that advise, because not doing so means remaining trapped in the confusion of trying to decipher what the cryptic messages  mean and the uncertainty of who is behind them and what their intentions are...etc., which is too much to deal with on top of all else I must endure. Its just really too much.

Monday, August 27, 2018

I Wish I Could Talk Directly to Good Officials

  I wish I could talk (face to face) with genuine good officials, who want total freedom from all aspects of the targeting for us and America and all of humanity, and are aware of my situation through the past few years...etc., and that they would be completely honest with me so that I can gain the understanding and reassurance that has been desperately needed for too many, long, excruciating and confusing years now.

   I wish I were not being held stranded in a parking lot, help being withheld until I agree to various things that are delivered through completely untrustworthy covert messaging...etc. I am in a horrible distressing situation even with just my car being disabled and this shouldn't be used as an axe over my head, but it is! Who is doing this to me? And where's the good?

Book Altered in Library Computer and/or USB Storage Device

   I recently tried to do an update on my Ramblings of a Targeted Individual book and had uploaded  the back up one onto my publishing site. . . and then aimed to make a few changes today and found that the contents were altered, a lot of the recent blog posts erased and I do not know what else. This is so horribly frustrating. And now the book is being blocked from being published. This is discouraging, because I had hoped to update and make a few positive changes to the primary book on Amazon, but do not dare to now. But there are sure to have been some alterations to that one as well. When I had recently done updates for the back up book, I found that someone had erased a post about my having difficulty with and not trusting covert messaging stuff.
   I do not know what other alterations have been done to my writings. This has all been so horribly violating - the infiltration of my writings on top of what has been being done to me, which prevents me from doing what I want with them as well...etc. And then there is always the threat of not getting help if my writings are not approved of...etc. This has become one of the most horrible parts of the targeting and has been happening severely since around the end of 2014.

I feel totally trapped. It feels like both my writings and I are being held hostage after disabling my car and holding me trapped in a parking lot and wiping out info I had stored on my phone... and I do not know the intentions of those who are doing this to me, but none of this can even begin to feel good to me. Is anyone on my side? Does anyone truly care about me and others who are being tortured and hurt...etc. Is anyone in my situation on the side of regaining complete freedom from all aspects of the targeting, especially that which is doing the worst of it - space based technologies and pharmaceuticals...etc?

Saturday, August 25, 2018

Criminal Use of Space Based Technologies Must Be Realized and Stopped

   Criminal use of space based technologies, which can emit and direct radio waves, as well as watch victims is the most dangerous thing that humanity has ever been faced with, especially since they can be used to inflict illnesses and mind control...etc. NOTHING good can come from pretending that space based technologies are not being used against humanity! And Freedom and safety and people pulling together to help each other, and stopping it from continuing can come from more people realizing that it is really happening. Please help spread awareness, especially to government officials who can take steps to stop all aspects of it from continuing.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, August 24, 2018

Its All True

   Sometimes I think that they hit me with round after round of severe torture and threats and harassment, in order to wear me down and break my spirit and heart. Sometimes I think that its all an experiment - that they watch me and monitor my brain and reactions as they make me suffer and test me and interfere with my brain function and vamp up the technological tortures at strategic times. Sometimes I think that they vamp up technological torture on me, in order to force me to leap out of my life and into silence or complete enslavement. Sometimes I think that most of humanity is already under the influence of technological mind control and that too many condone this and do not want it to be exposed and stopped. . .and that too many are not aware that it is destroying the Heart of humanity. Sometimes I think that there are good/uncontrolled officials who are fully aware and are doing all that they can to help restore our desperately needed Freedom and will be here for us as quickly as they can. And I feel that all of these things are True, because they are.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


Still Stranded

   I am still stranded in a parking lot. I have had to tow my car twice, but am still not in a good place. Its just not good for me to be this stranded and being kept even more imprisoned and at the mercy of whatever.

Wednesday, August 15, 2018

Loss of Phone and Car Accessed

Yearn for Freedom
I am still stranded with a broken down vehicle/home in a parking lot. Since the 8th I have experienced a chain of dangerous and threatening stuff. Too much to fully explain at this time. But my car was accessed again on the 8th while I walked 6 miles to and from a library in order to pay important bills. This was proven to me by the fact that they did it during a rain storm and through the passenger door, which left a strap that was attached to the door, outside and soaking wet.  
   On the night of the 11th my phone suddenly stopped functioning, causing the loss of hundreds of saved text messages and pictures and other data...etc. More loss of evidence, which I feel is not a coincidence! (I have also noticed that many of my email contacts have recently vanished.)

Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Please Help Bring Public Awareness to Technological Mind Control

   The technological mind control parts of the targeting are too horribly destructive on unaware victims. Please help bring public awareness. www.targetedinamerica.com/mindcont.html

Vehicle/home Disabled

  My car suddenly just stopped running, two days ago, after a red truck zoomed up behind me (crowding me) and then sped past me while swerving into me as if to say that it was shoving me off the road. (Red symbolizes anger in the covert stuff.) I am again stranded in a parking lot!

I am really concerned about will happen to me.
Please pray for me to remain safe and to NOT be abducted or harmed in any way.

Concern for my Daughters

  I have stayed painfully distant from my daughters since around the end of 2011. Most of the reason for this has been with the hope of them being less effected by the targeting. But did it protect them from the less obvious parts of it? I wonder if my keeping distant may have been a mistake, because they have been deeply struggling with what has happened to all of us as well as other difficulties.
   However, I have felt that my daughters would have to become aware of the targeting and officials would have to be here for us, in order for things to get better and for recovery to take place and this is very true. I have been waiting an excruciatingly long time for this too happen. Through all these years we are all still hurting and suffering in various ways, all of us too deprived of each other's love and understanding and support...etc. It all hurts so much its beyond words. I know that we are not the only ones, but we count too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

Right is Right

The right thing to do can not be wrong, 
Because the wrong thing is never right,
And something has to be right.

Saturday, July 21, 2018

Please Stop the Covert War

   This is a simplified version of my 2015 video. I beg all who are involved and all government officials, especially leaders of our governments and military, to please help stop the covert wars and be here for us. Please help stop all forms of technological and pharmaceutical targeting and hold a Heart out to those who have been hurt and those who are suffering and those who are being tortured.

Friday, July 20, 2018

Painful Torture

   Torture of my brain and laser shots to other parts of my body vamped up to very painful levels yesterday afternoon and is still hard to bear.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, July 16, 2018

They Try to Guilt Trip Us Into Enslavement!

    Much of the technological torture parts of the targeting (against myself as well as others) appears to be set up to force me to feel guilty about living my life and to force me to leap out of my life and into enslavement with those who target us, under the guise of it being a covert "rescue." (I think that, sometimes targetings of other people are even fabricated, through puppets, in order to make me feel like people are being hurt if I do not leave and that what they do to them is my fault.) This has repeatedly happened to me, in various ways, including a V2K message in 2006, which said, "Your children will be alright if you leave." These are extremely threatening and bullying types of tactics that we should NEVER obey and let succeed. . .and that should not be allowed to continue.
   My heart keeps reminding me that we should NOT choose to leave our lives, that we should NOT continue to be forced into the covert "rescue" where we vanish or are enslaved, and that more people (especially officials) should be standing up for us, in order to stop the sadistic targeting and the forced enslavement of primary victims like myself from freely continuing.

   They have me basically backed up against a wall and I may not have a choice once they get me into a shelter or other facility where they can easily abduct me. I hope they do not succeed, but my situation has become extremely dangerous since they started more seriously sabotaging my vehicle, which is still my only home and all that protects me from an easy abduction.
   I feel that too many victims have already vanished from their lives and this should all be exposed an  stopped as quickly as possible. . .the lost or enslaved victims returned to their lives where they can recover. . .and us torture victims getting the understanding and support and protection we need.

The Welfare Budget Problem

 Much of the Welfare expense problem can be fixed by exposing and stopping all forms of covert and technological targeting and its multitude of negative effects on victims who are intentionally shoved into poverty and forced to get government assistance, in order to survive.

   I just read a news article about President Trump wanting to stop the food stamp (EBT cards or Snap) program and only give poor people boxes of food. There could be a danger in this for heavily targeted people, unless there is strict security around the boxed food, because those of us who have been being covertly and technologically targeted, and literally forced into poverty, are in danger of being infected with drugs, chemicals or parasites through food sources. I have sensed, and experienced this horrible reality already happening in some food pantries and homeless shelters, as well as even in some grocery stores and restaurants that heavy targets frequent. I hope poor people, especially those who are victims of covert targeting, can continue having a help with a free choice of food in places that are less apt to be used for contamination. And I hope we regain Freedom from all that hurts us and sabotages our work and shoves us into poverty, so that we do not even have to get government help with food or anything else.
    I would not have ever needed government help with food if I were not being targeted and were free to do my work without any sort of interference. There is a serious problem with heavily targeted people being intentionally shoved into, and held in, a state of destitution and then forced onto welfare, which seems to be one of the aims of the targeting. Many of our loved ones are also targeted and prevented from helping us, forcing the government to foot the bill. If we were free to work and help each other the welfare lines would greatly diminish.

I beg government officials to please expose and stop the covert and technological targeting, which prevents healthy people from doing their jobs and getting help from loved ones.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, July 13, 2018

What's the Plan for Me?

    I feel too trapped and too vulnerable. My concern has grown considerably since obvious invasions of my car and writings
   And my concern has hit the ceiling since I had the dream about officials covertly bringing/luring me to a place where a group of us were forced into a tunnel that ended up collapsing and killing those of us who walked through it... and since they tried taking away my valid ID - drivers license and I found that my birth certificate had been altered and I was not allowed to retrieve my lost bank account, which is desperately needed for my safety and health...etc.
   These things on top of the current sabotaging of my car/home and manipulations that have been done to my writings...etc.,  makes my whole situation more terrifying than ever. I do not know what is going to happen to me, but its all appearing like it intends to be the opposite of the help I have been waiting for since my first reports to various officials. Things seem to be getting worse instead of better and I hope they aren't, but it looks like they are. I have been telling myself that "Time will tell" for years now, but its been telling bad things lately. I need good things to be happening. I need things to be getting better for myself and everyone else. I need a good solid Light shining at the end of the tunnel and I need to be at the end of this torturous tunnel.

Unhealthy Denial

   This has all been so hard that I sometimes cope through flipping into denial. I recently did this through convincing myself that all the targeting is stopping and all I have to do is get back onto my feet, somehow. I'd even recently written some of this denial into a post where I asked for financial help, in order to recover and get back onto my feet and continue my work...etc. This concerns me, because its a demonstration of how I just can't handle anymore. Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy, which I guess would serve those who target me, but it would not be good for me. I am concerned about every level of my health. I have been trapped in this situation for too long and it has been getting too threatening.
   The Truth is that I desperately need substantial amounts of financial help, in order to just keep surviving - in order to do what I can to protect myself and save what is left of my heart and my spirit and my mind and my body and my soul and my work. This needs to happen, along with the targeting being acknowledged and stopped and officials being here for all of us, before I can even start recovering myself or anything else.
   So, I should be asking for help for my survival, so that I can at least be trying to do things that can  prevent things from continuing to get worse. Please help me to survive, until the desperately needed miracle of all of the hell ending happens, if it is allowed for me. And then, after that, I'll need help recovering and getting back onto my own feet. Please help me to survive...etc.

Sharon R. Poet
PO Box 383
Mont Vernon, NH 03057

Concern About This Blog and it's Book

   I am deeply concerned about this blog and its book and the fact that it appears to have been being altered in ways that include the changing of dates on posts. (I'd mentioned this a couple years ago, but am not sure if its still in the blog, since I have periodically found key things erased.) I have thought about taking the whole blog down until I have the freedom to comb through it and fix it all, but I'd also have to have a better understanding of the manipulations in the covert stuff. I am concerned that, if I took it down, it could have a bad outcome, because the exposing of certain parts of the targeting seems to stop it from succeeding or continuing...etc. But I am also concerned about the blog and book  remaining up, without being fixed, because I wonder if their manipulation in them could include set ups to use against me, in some way. Not knowing what their intentions are, or what the manipulations are, and being too trapped to do much of anything about it, is very difficult. There could be bad outcomes either way - whether I take it down or leave it up, and this is frustrating.
   I wish this whole situation were not so confusing and manipulative and threatening for me and that I had the required freedoms and more understanding of the covert stuff and what is happening with officials in my situation and if anyone intends to be here for me...etc., and that I could comb through my blog with my heart and with absolutely no negative interference of any kind.

Email Concern

There have been several times, including recently, when it seems like someone else is sending emails from my account. This seems to happen around the time when I have sent emails, which I rarely do.

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Too Threatening

    I wish I were not trapped in this situation that is too threatening to me, and my loved ones, and has forced me into a fight for my own survival instead of my being able to focus primarily on the bigger picture....etc. All these years of being trapped in this, and being pounded on, has hurt me and has been tearing away my heart and my trust and my hope and my objectivity...etc. This shouldn't be happening! It just shouldn't. I need it all to stop.
    My heart and my mind and my body and my spirit and my soul need to be free from all that tortures or harms or interferes or controls...etc. And they should be.

   And please stop trying to convince me that this problem exists because I do not "take care" - because I do not leap out of my life and into the enslavement hell. The Truth is that my situation is so threatening because there is no one standing up with me. I have needed a group of genuine hearts to be here with me and lessen the threat for myself as well as others. The problem is not because I do not leap and hide, its because I am isolated and nobody is standing with me. A critical problem, with this whole situation, is that not enough people, who are aware and can genuinely care, are standing up for humanity. More Hearts should be standing up, not less!

For the Good

I wish all the "good" would openly stand
up for Freedom with honesty and Heart,
and not hide in the "home" that's dark
And uses victims to feed the sharks.

   Those who torture and enslave humanity want us to believe that we have to leap out of our lives and hide in the dark in order for the hell to end and in order to be safe, and it uses many victims, in order to lure people into that dark enslavement "home." But the Truth, which I feel through the core of my heart and soul, is that it is safer to stand in the Light - to openly stand up for Freedom and enable the Love and understanding and comfort and support that is desperately needed and should be happening for all the victims everywhere, especially those who are not aware.

Wipe Out the Wars

May Light and Peace and Heart and Hope
and Freedom grow and wipe out the wars.

Monday, July 9, 2018

For my Daughters

 Youtube Playlist for my Daughters; 

    I dedicate these songs to my daughters. Around the end of 2011, as the targeting tore us from each other, my heart broke in a way that it never has before. I wanted things to go in the opposite direction from what was forced upon us. I wanted us to get the proper kinds of help so that things could get better instead of worse - I wanted us to stand together and be here for each other and I wanted our love be our strength...etc. I wish I'd had the strength to crash through the painful tortures, that were being inflicted upon me during that time, and through the brainwashings that prevented my children from realizing what was happening. I wish my heart could have stood stronger for all of us. But I now realize that we never stood a chance against all that manipulated and interfered. I wish we were free to love each other.
   To me, our Love for each other is a memory, that I carry in the deepest depths of my heart, until it is free to bloom again. I just don't know if it will have the chance to in this lifetime, and this hurts indescribably.
    Tears yearned to sneak out of my heart, this morning, as I listened to "I have Nothing" by Whitney Houston today. I thought of my daughters and how I felt in 2011, when my heart wanted to cry, "I don't want to have to go where you don't follow. Don't make me closed one more door. I don't want to hurt anymore. Stay in my arms if you dare. Or must I imagine you there? Don't walk away from me. I have nothing if I don't have you. Your Love I remember forever."

Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing


 Most of these songs can apply to my other loved ones as well, to those who are both inside and outside of my family. Sadly, there does not seem to be many of us left and those of us who remain are not as whole as we used to be. But somewhere, beneath all the dark manipulations and destruction and turmoil, our Hearts are still connected.

Somewhere, beneath all the dark manipulations and
destruction and turmoil, our Hearts are still connected.