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Monday, October 23, 2017

With the Heart of Honesty and Truth

With the Heart of honesty and truth
Mistakes can be forgiven,
Wrongs can be set right,
The darkness can stop
And Freedom will rein.

    I am experiencing painful torture since I woke this morning, which appears to be a punishment for verbally venting my feelings yesterday.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

A TI's Grope for Courage and Hope

  We, Targeted Individuals have been too grossly misunderstood and disbelieved, instead of validated and helped and this has to change, because it is hurting us too much, on top of all else. Due to the mind control, many of our loved ones have turn their backs on us. Since the New York Times article about Targeted Individuals, I have felt literally sickened by the direction this headed in in 2016. I'd hoped for the opposite. But we must dig deep for the courage to push on and just do the best we can, even though our stand for freedom for ourselves, and the rest of humanity, is sometimes crippled by the targeting.
   Deep in the shadows of the pain in my heart a little voice whispers, "It will happen. The sun will rise for all of humanity." I don't know if it will happen in my lifetime. But I know it will happen - humanity will be set free and all levels of victims will finally get the understanding, validation and love that has been needed for so long. And, those of us who are gone will have hopefully left something behind that can help others to see the truths and what can never be allowed to happen again.

I have been being hit hard lately, especially with the torturing of my brain.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control

   The worst part of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control is that it blocks our Hearts, our intuition, our instincts and stops the process of inner growth – preventing us (even children) from naturally maturing. The dangers in this cannot be overstated. I beg you to do everything in your power to help set humanity free. Please.
In order to attain world peace
Our Hearts must be set free

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Poem I Wrote in 2012

I don't want to be left to evil pretenses of helping hands.
I need to be comforted by those who can care to understand.
I don't want you to declare me insane for their hateful gain.
I need you to soothe my wounds instead of inflicting more pain.
I don't want you to watch from a silent distance while I die.
I need you here beside me as I pray to God and cry.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

What Happened to Them?

   Last Spring I started a list of Targeted Individuals, (TIs) out of a deep concern that, through the past few decades, they have been being abducted and forced into complete enslavement. I strongly feel that the most torturous parts of the technological targeting are often done specifically to force the victim into leaping into enslavement under the guise of it being a covert rescue. Many TIs suddenly become missing, torn from their lives and loved ones. I now believe that, with at least some of the TIs who are listed as suicides, their deaths may have been staged. I have two loved ones that appear to have been abducted.
   It hurts indescribably, the way that targeted families have been being torn apart. It appears that the ones who are less controllable and/or who become aware are torn from the rest of the family one way or the other. I have been isolated from my family and there have been repeated attempts to torture/force me into the covert "Rescue."
   What is happening to the ones they force to leap or the ones they abduct through staging their death? Where are they? What has happened to them? And what is happening to their loved ones? I believe that the abducted ones are probably completely enslaved and threatened into never returning to their loved ones - their lives as they lead them. . .or worse - brain damaged to the point of not remembering who they once were. And I feel that their loved ones, if they are not too effected by technological and pharmaceutical mind control, probably have feelings/intuitions that something is horribly wrong - feelings that prevent healthy grieving and closure. Its a horrible part of this holocaust, which is in desperate need of realization and prevention. I hope that it is not only exposed and stopped, but that those who have been enslaved are reunited with their families so that all can understand and recover.
   Sadly, this is probably not possible for some. Around the year 2013, while I was experiencing what appeared to be multiple groups zooming in to try to abduct me through a covert rescue, I was actually trying to give it the benefit of my doubt and thought there was some good behind some of it. But then I had a dream, which warned of a group of people getting me and holding me in a prison underground with other people whom they were actually eating. They were cannibals who lived in a wealthy estate. I know how gruesome this sounds. But I believe it to be true. I think that what happens to TIs who are being abducted probably depends on who gets them. If there is even the slightest chance that this is happening to human beings, it should be known and thoroughly investigated. And, like I said, I feel that it is indeed happening, but hope that it's not happening to many.

   A few years ago I had tried to get lists of Targeted Individuals, but was not able to. My concern has persisted, especially after Racheal Orbin (or Orbon) appears to have vanished and her name wiped out of my writings by those who infiltrated my computer. This feels really important to me. People should not just keep vanishing without a trace of them left behind. And their loved ones should know what happened to them. Its all just too horrible, no matter where they are or what has happened to them. So, I started making a list from youtube videos.
I am experiencing a laser shot to my heart, and then some other threatening stuff, as I write this!!!!

Youtube Link to a Few Targeted Individual Videos

Under the Guise of Help

   I had shared a bit of this in 2013, but I hope other people, especially other Targeted Individuals, will realize the full scenario, which comes from the wisdom of my own experiences.

Under the Guise of Help

   Some key parts of the targeting are perpetuated under the guise of "help," but sometimes seems to use good, unaware people (often mind control victims who think they are really helping) in the foreground of it, so be careful who you blame. However, some seem to know exactly what they are doing so be careful for yourself too.
   Before I realized that I was being targeted, and before I knew anything about the technologies that are used on us, those who targeted me had often sent their operatives to "help" me through offering jobs or friendships or places to live after they sabotaged my homes...etc. And the V2K (voice to skull) transmissions of their voices were occasionally projected into my brain as I woke, as if it was part of a dream and answers to my prayers and "help" from God. I now think that, during these times, my instincts were dulled with drugs or technological interference with my brain function or both. I trusted too much of it and it really messed up the course of my life.
   In my initial gropes for information and understanding on the web, those who target me tried to be the ones to inform me, feeding me misinformation and giving bad advise, like telling me to focus only on the gang stalking instead of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control that runs it and is the core problem...etc.
   As I grope for financial help they have aimed to be the ones to "help" me, in multiple ways. While holding me in destitution they have repeatedly cut back on financial help and then tried pushing me into getting a loan on my Poetic Publications business, which would surely lead to the loss of it if they prevented me from being able to pay back the loan...etc. I have experienced uncountable episodes of them disabling my car and then zooming in to be the ones to fix it while doing things like breaking something else or rubbing dirt into the carpet or invading my belongings or planting a tracking device...etc.
   As I cried and begged for safety and protection, they aimed to be the ones to "rescue" me. They have even repeatedly tried to force me into their covert "rescue" through torturing me and then zooming in to "help" me.
   Since I have been begging for an OVERT stand up instead of the covert "rescue," which I have sensed leads to complete enslavement, they seem to be aiming to be the ones to control the stand up through setting up my loved ones to be blamed.
   "Help" from those who target us merely adds to the confusion, chaos and pain, when allowed to happen or when its the only help that is available. My situation forces me to get financial help from any where I can and is a rough situation where it has sometimes been delivered with harassment and guilt trips, especially at strategic times. But from the start, I have defied the advise and focused primarily on proving the technological and pharmaceutical parts of the targeting, because they are what enables and controls the rest of it. I turned away from the "help" on the web to do my own research and started figuring out more. I have refused to agree to leave my life forever in the covert rescue. And, over and over again, on my primary blog, I have begged for the kind of help that can come from good and uncontrolled people - the kind that has compassion and understanding and would want to be here for us in ways that do not hurt us more. . .and I hope we get it soon.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Danger of Perpetrators Being the Ones to Expose Their Own Crimes Through Setting Up Their Victims to Be Blamed

   Back in 2012, I had posted my concern about what appeared to be leaders of this horrible holocaust aiming to be in the foreground of reporting parts of it, sometimes even copying exposure of things that have already been shared by people like myself. A serious danger in this is that, as things reach a point of people actually being caught in the crimes, they could try to set up their own victims to be blamed, perpetuating the targeting while pretending to be against it.
   I had received, what appeared to be threats, of them doing this to one of my daughters, last year as well as in the end of 2013, which appeared to be to force into joining the dark program. If the darkest leaders of this holocaust have too much control over too many things, they can just set up whomever they want to hurt. I am concerned that similar scenarios could also happen on larger scales, even in political arenas. I hope this is not allowed to gain any more ground; I hope the Heart of media and governments, around the globe, stand up to expose the technological mind control, its enslavement of humanity, and all the scams that can be performed, in order to hurt victims and their families under the guise of help.
   I am praying hard for Hearts to stand up for all the good in the world, even the unaware good that the darkness has been using in their covert operations, not to blame them, but to hold a compassionate hand out to ALL victims. Its not only those of us who have been being obviously tortured whose lives are in danger. All of humanity is and the darkness, that inflicts the pain, in many different ways, just has to be stopped. God help us all.

If Only They Knew!

   When I heard about the Vegas shooting, at the country music concert, my first gut feeling was that he was an unaware V2K victim who thought God was talking to him and may have thought that he was doing a service to help save people. Whether this is true or not, the scenario certainly is a serious danger that exists in out world. And it could be stopped by full public disclosure of the technologies, which have been being used on people. If everyone knew about the technological mind control, and the V2K part of it, they would know that IT IS NOT GOD talking to them, and that IT IS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS, and they would have the opportunity to resist it and would be able to get support from fellow human beings who would understand. I beg EVERYONE who is aware to do more to help bring public awareness to all levels of the technological targeting of human beings...etc. 

Criminal use of mind control technologies, and their V2K
applications, are more dangerous than any of the guns.
Please help expose and stop criminal use of them

P.S. I was a bit slow to post this, because I have been experiencing yet another batch of set ups, including rounds of torture. I have been overwhelmed and have been trying to focus on less gruesome things, but this had to be said. Lately they are hitting me with painful laser shots to the right side of my neck when I talk too much or say things they want to be kept secret, or talk to a puppet...etc. As I write this I am being struck with sudden pain in my torso. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

I'm scared

       I've heard it said that, in this targeting mess, "fear is the worst enemy." I guess that's true. But I feel scared. I am scared for my loved ones who have all been being targeted too, just in different ways. I am scared for my children and their babies and other babies that are being hurt. I'm scared for all the other families who have been being targeted. I'm scared for our law enforcement personnel, including the FBI and CIA, military...etc. I'm scared for America and other parts of our government. I'm scared for all of humanity. I'm scared that the dark infiltration had gained too much ground. I don't want to let fear make me fight against any of these places, who have been being hurt too, but it has. I have tried, in between rounds of crippling targeting, to hold my heart out to all of them, even those who have been used against me. I want to stay in that place, where my heart is stronger than my fear and pain. Its hard. I do the best I can. Let it go, my heart says...just let it all go - the fear and its fight. I wish my heart could reach a stronger hand out to those places where darkness has reined, so that more Light can filter in and help me to understand why their heart has not reached me. There is so much I don't understand. I want the good in America and the rest of humanity to succeed - to rise above the darkness that has had it running and hiding for too long - to stand in the Light for Freedom to be restored. I sometimes struggle to hold onto my vision of that - of things getting better and Hearts standing up and all targeted families and people saved and pulling back together to recover. Its hard to not be scared. Its hard to hold onto hope when that horrible darkness surrounds and infiltrates me and my loved ones and my country. . .and covert wars rage around the globe. Its hard. I'm scared. I'm still standing, but its a crippled stand. I'm scared. I'm still praying for all of us. But I'm scared. I'm still waiting for only good to happen for all of us. But I'm scared. I'm hurt and I'm scared and my strength has been being drained by the tortures and microwaves. I'm praying for strength.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Yearn for Freedom Chapters

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

  I feel forced to share this prematurely,
and print it as I go due to interference with it.

Dedication and Introduction

Yearn for Freedom - Chapter One

Yearn for Freedom - Chapter Two

Yearn for Freedom - Chapter Three

Yearn for Freedom - Chapter Four

Tough Time

   The past two days were torturous. And I am again being threatened with prison and the disabling of my car. They accessed my car and storage container within the past few weeks. They have been accessing email account. They are badgering me about writings...still! They did a set up with a man who was rude and mean to me.
   I cried hard this morning - so frustrated and feeling the pain of those of us who continue to be hurt and even destroyed. Feel like I finally figured out the rest of what is happening to block the Heart of humanity and have been too imprisoned to do a good job with my work. They threaten to put me in prison, but I am already there. An obvious prison would be better than this in some ways, but not in the way of me having to eat or drink only what I was given to me...etc. I hope they do not succeed with any of it anymore.

  I guess the darkness has been going after the good, and trying to make us look like the bad, since things really started coming out more in the sub medias. Its sad. I hope they do not do anymore and can not succeed with what they have already started. I still pray for all the good in the world to openly stand up for themselves and us and America and the rest of humanity.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Important Reminder

Please Read and Share this Post for the Children
Below is a new version of it plus an article from my older writings.

To Save the Children

   I was shocked to find these headlines, which read, "I think my child is Mentally ill" on top of a picture of a sad little girl who has the words "I feel sad," printed above her head. Below are a my photographs of the headlines in that magazine and my article on the subject.
   I hope those who wrote and printed this article are not offended by this. I don't know what their intentions were. Perhaps they believe what they have shared and had no ill intentions. If so, I hope they read this with their hearts and let it change their minds. . .for the sake of humanity's children.

  This ad was on page 10 of the the November, 2015 issue of the New Hampshire "Parenting" magazine. It definitely comes across as an aim to make people think that sadness is wrong or worse - that it should raise concerns about "mental illness" and even worse - that it should be medicated. Ads like this should raise red flags in all who care about children and the future health and safety of humanity, but does it? Do enough people realize what has been happening with psychiatric pharmaceuticals and technological mind control and the suppression of feelings? Obviously not. I hope all of humanity becomes aware, so that ti can stop succeeding.
   To me, this ad was a blatant reminder of the unhealthy push for false "mental illness" diagnosis, even on our little defenseless children, and it's pharmaceutical treatment, which often (if not always) suppresses feelings, prevents the healing process and blocks the child's heart. The "mental Illness" diagnosis clearly opens the door for the infliction of the types of pharmaceuticals, which aid technological mind control.
   A part of me is so upset about this that its hard to write about it. How on earth could anyone put out a message that implies something being wrong with a child for feeling sad? And who would even believe it? I guess the answer is, those who have already been controlled or brainwashed into thinking it is true. The real Truth is that. . .


A child's sadness is an indication of pain that needs encouragement to be talked out or cried out or hugged out or all of the above. Sadness a natural feeling that should not be suppressed or medicated or prevented in any way or form. There is nothing wrong with a child who feels sad.
Sadness is one of the natural emotions we were born with. We were born with the capability of feeling it for a good reason. Sadness is part of a healthy grieving process, which helps us to release our pain. When we do not allow this process of feeling and releasing our pain our hearts become blocked and this is not good for us. Actually, its harmful for natural feelings of sadness to be suppressed and blocked, instead of felt and healed, especially in children. And, according to some experts in the field of psychiatry, it can be dangerous to give children psychiatric drugs. And the danger is seriously magnified when the medicated child becomes a completely controlled victim of technological mind control.
The general holocaustal targeting has been pushing humanity toward being mechanical - into suppressing natural feelings of sadness, fear, anger...etc., instead of feeling and healing them. This blocks our hearts and prevents the healing process. All aspects of the mind control targeting have been literally destroying the heart of humanity. Children who have been medicated and controlled must be saved - set free. And the rest must remain completely free.

   Through the natural process of feeling our own feelings and thinking our own thoughts, as we experience our lives, we grow, we mature, we learn, we become wiser and more whole. This process of growth is what life is for. As we grow, our minds and hearts and spirits and souls evolve.
In my book, a lot more can be said about the value of Wisdom than that which can be said about schoolastic knowledge. Wisdom grows from direct experience. And knowledge is just memorizing other people's ideas, experiences, opinions...etc. Its good to learn from others. I'm not knocking knowledge. But Wisdom is what really fully knows.
   We all naturally acquire Wisdom as we experience our lives. But when the course of our lives are disrupted and our thoughts are not always our own and our feelings are suppressed, we become crippled and stagnant and blocked and heartless and meaningless and confused. And when we are technologically controlled by those who inflict these things upon us, we are no longer even fully alive - we become like zombies who have no individuality. This has actually been happening to people, including little children, who have not been allowed to mature! Please become aware of all aspects of the targeting of humanity and help stop it from continuing.


   I understand that there truly are people who have genuine mental problems and can function better with drugs. But I can not help but wonder how many of them, are being technologically targeted. . .and even if they aren't, how many would fully recover if they were not medicated and felt truly loved by another human being or if they had someone to care to listen and understand and offer a shoulder to cry on? How many are labeled and suppressed instead of being loved and healed? How many? And children? They just need to be loved and comforted and free.
   We must be free to think only our own thoughts. . .and to fully feel our own feelings, which enables us to heal from past pains, in order to be healthy and grow into all that we were born to be. I have strong feelings about this because it is directly connected to a large part of my work. Below is an article I wrote back in the 1990s. At that time, I was not aware of the targeting of humanity, but I was noticing the effects of it. This is for adults, because healthy, aware adults are good for their children. All children that goodness.

The Silent Epidemic
   Though most of us have heard that “it's OK to cry,” we don't seem to fully realize how incredibly important it is to allow a healthy grieving process after painful situations. We usually close our Hearts, in order to avoid feeling emotional pain. Yet, this closing of our Hearts, no matter how much or how little, is causing even more pain, because crying is what washes away the pain and allows us to feel deeper levels of love and compassion for ourselves and others.
   What I call, the "Silent Epidemic" grows and spreads each time we suppress our sadness. The Silent Epidemic is an emotional illness. I know this may sound a bit strange to some of you. But if you read the rest of this, and listen to the Wisdom in your own Heart, I’m sure you'll feel some of the Truth in what I m saying.
   Some say that sadness is "negative" or "depressing". Some go so far as to say that it's "un-spiritual" or "dark" to feel, release or express sadness! Some even think that “all we need to do is use our minds to choose joy instead," no matter how we are REALLY feeling! But my experiences show me that this avoidance of our Hearts - this suppression of our sadness, is THE very thing that actually CREATES the "negative" stuff in our world.
   I feel certain that humanity's health and well-being depends on each of us allowing the natural cleansing process of healthy grieving, because releasing our emotional pain is what opens our Hearts to deeper levels of Love, Joy and Peace.
   We habitually suppress our sadness, because feeling it can be uncomfortable and sometimes overwhelming, especially when it's not supported by the people around us. Even in the most supportive environments, it's difficult to completely embrace grief. Suppression is the easiest route to take, but certainly NOT the healthy one.
   Most of us were taught, from the day we were born, to stuff down our feelings of sadness; to "get over it", to pretend it's not there, and "put it behind us" as quickly as possible. Consequently, most of us are better at suppressing than we are at releasing our pain.
   We tend to even feel ashamed to go out in public after we've let ourselves deeply cry, because we don't want people to know we've been crying. We act as if crying is doing something wrong or shameful! We waste a lot of energy trying to avoid feeling anything but shallow imitations of joy. We stuff down our sadness with overdoses of caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, food, drugs, pharmaceuticals like anti depressants, TV, sleeping, thinking, working...etc. We tend to keep ourselves so busy and so distracted that there's no time to feel anything! And we often try to stop others from feeling their feelings, because their sadness triggers ours. And on and on and on the unhealthy cycle goes. I feel 100% certain that deeper levels of grieving/crying is an absolute necessity for the health of our Hearts, our families, our communities, our countries. . .our world.
   The "Silent Epidemic", is the widest spread, most dangerous epidemic in humanity. No joke! You may think I'm catastrophizing here. But I feel certain that I'm not. I feel that humanity is at a serious crisis point with this issue. There are far too many things that are pulling us out of our Hearts and preventing our process of personal growth. PLEASE think about this.
Sadness is not depressing! It's the suppression of it that depresses us.
   Suppressing sadness - the closing of our Hearts, appears to be the root cause of ALL the problems humanity faces on both personal and global levels. When we've suppressed too much, it blocks our Hearts - depresses us, or becomes anger that yearns to strike out.
   On the smaller scales: not allowing a natural grieving causes our Hearts to start blocking to the point where we also start losing our ability to feel deeper levels of compassion, peace, Love and joy. Greed begins attempting to fill the voids with money and possessions. Our connection to the deeper, wiser parts of ourselves and to the Highest Power, becomes more and more blocked. Is any of this sounding familiar?
   On the larger scales: severe suppression of sadness, causes Hearts to become so blocked that they begin filling up with unhealthy levels of greed, warped senses of spirituality, uncontrolled anger or hatred and a thirst for power over others. . .all of which are THE root cause of the destructive wars we experience between family members, religions, cultures, and countries. When Hearts completely block evil moves in.
   Now, I'm not suggesting that we walk around trying to cry all the time. But I AM saying that we should work at allowing the depths of our Heart's natural cleansing process - that we should allow and support a healthy grieving process far more than we now do. And I'm praying for us to take a deeper look at the damaging effects of the "NO crying/grieving allowed" messages, we deliver to our children and loved ones. I cringe every time I hear the popular Christmas song, "You better be good. You better not cry. I'm telling you why. . .Santa Clause is coming to town..."!!! I'm sure we would not even think of delivering messages like this to our children, if we knew how damaging it is. Sometimes, when I hear this song, I sing along and loudly change the words to, "You'd better cry...", because our individual Hearts need to utilize their natural cleansing process for our soul’s preservation and growth. The "Silent Epidemic" needs to be cured, in order for us to start healing our world, ESPECIALLY through the tough times we now face. It's OK to cry. It is! It really is.

Crying is like giving the Heart a shower
To wash away accumulated dirt.

We feel Love only as deeply as we allow ourselves to feel our sadness.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Important statement about my older writings about the targeting

   I wrote the following statement for my Yearn for Freedom book, which I decided is not going to replace any of my old books, because of the dark push for me to erase my past writings and possible set ups that could succeed if I did. Someone, who was in the lap top which was recently given to me, erased the statement below from my writings. I don't understand why.

 P.S. I have removed the statement from this post due to realizing that a word, which alters the meaning of something, was dropped from it. I have been having a serious problem with various types of interference with my writings.  Aside from alterations and erasing of important things, those that hound me have made it difficult for me to finish things before posting and printing them. Due to the harassment and interference with my brain (through radio waves being shot into it) I have developed the habit of starting an article by roughly writing what is on my mind and then fleshing it out afterwards. But I often feel forced to post and print it, prematurely, when they start altering things or erasing it or threatening me...etc., so that I will not lose it completely. As I worked on my Yearn for Freedom book introductions and first chapter, they replaced my files with a previous version, which erased things that I had added to it. Some of it was lost and I can not retrieve it and there is no point in sharing a crippled article, which I have already been forced to do too much of. I will repost it on my Yearn for Freedom blog when I have fixed it, but I do not know when that will be able to happen. I beg those who do this to me to please stop and let me at least do my writings without any sort of interference. www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com

Saturday, September 30, 2017

Yearn for Freedom book

     I have decided not to replace my "Targeted in America" book with this "Yearn for Freedom" title. It will, someday be its own book.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017


A gentle mist lingers
Between hills and trees,
Pretending the world is
At peace and free.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Honest Justice Can Not Be Served in An Enslaved and Unaware Society

Honest Justice Can Not Be Served in
An Enslaved and Unaware Society

Please help spread awareness that can help set humanity free

P.S. I guess a better way to word this "Fair Justice Can Not Be Served in An Enslaved and Unaware Society." Please help to stop the technological and pharmaceutical enslavement of humanity.

Please Set Humanity Free

Honest Justice Can Not Be Served in
An Enslaved and Unaware Society

Please help spread awareness that can help set humanity free

   I have been surrounded by so many dark judgements and threats or aims to misplace blame...etc., that it has left my heart and soul in a state of concern even if "help" were to finally arrive. My heart says that, surely, anyone in their right mind, who can listen to their Hearts, would know that torture victims need compassionate help, the kind that cares and understands and validates and reassures and explains and protects from further harm instead of inflicting more pain. This should go without saying, especially for those of us who are being literally tortured year after year and decade after decade. Some of us, myself included, have already been hurt too much. . .way too much. 

As for those (often our own loved ones and community members) who have been forced/drugged/threatened...etc., or unwittingly deceived, into being used against us in the covert program; It is not fair to blame anyone who is not fully informed and not completely free to use their own minds, hearts and instincts - their God given free will. Please help set them free. If they were free and aware they'd be loving and helping us in every way they can. Please let them.

As for those of us who are being hurt by the covert program and are being technologically tortured...etc. (people like me); It is not fair for anyone to judge us for our attitudes, while we are still being targeted and before we have a chance to fully recover, because we can not function properly while our brain function is being technologically interfered with and while being tortured, drugged, threatened...etc., and are often in overwhelming states of distress and pain in between rounds of heavy targeting.

P.S. There are extreme criminal parts of the targeting too - people ARE responsible for the harm they freely chose to inflict, especially if that harm does obviously criminal things like raping or drugging or killing or implanting microchips without permission, tampering with things like brakes on our vehicles...etc. But much of the harassment and deprivation of help parts of the targeting are inflicted by our unwittingly deceived or technologically enslaved loved ones and community members who are mostly the types of people who would not even consider joining such darkness of their own free will and if they were aware of what is happening. (This applies to people both inside and outside the government.) They are victims too.  They need to be set free too. If the darkest forces have their way, they could continue to manipulate things so that victims are fighting against and blaming each other, causing even more chaos and pain, under the guise of exposing the targeting...etc. And this just should not be allowed to happen. Please help inform all of humanity about the dark covert program and help stop criminal use of all types of radio wave technologies, which can manipulate minds or inflict other types of harm.

Honest Justice Can Not Be Served in
An Enslaved and Unaware Society

Please help spread awareness that can help set humanity free

Friday, September 22, 2017

Dark Set Ups That Aim to Blame Victims

[ Update; I erased the top part of this post because there appeared to be a manipulation taking place and I am not sure of what it was, after having time to think about it. ]

   Like I have said before, even if some of the real criminal puppets were caught doing something to me I do not see how it could be resolved while its all under the influence of those who target me and can use technological mind control, on all of us through the process, as well as just set up whomever they want (of their own victims or puppets) to get caught and blamed. Even in legitimate situations this could become a dark playground for those who can manipulate the situation and just create more hell for me and possibly those whom they set up. The puppets, whom they have forced into the program, and used against me, either through drugging them or through deceitful coercions to make them think it is good help, should to be informed and set free instead of blamed. And this informing needs to be done by officials and not just people like me ehom they can be convinced are just crazy.
   In order for the targeting to be honestly exposed and stopped, the technological mind control and its enslavement of citizens, would have to be exposed, even if it could not be totally stopped right away. JUST AN AWARENESS of it could drastically loosen its grip and perhaps even enable protection for some of us.
   Clearly, without the technological parts of the targeting the vast majority of this hell would not even be happening. The worst of our problems, which desperately need to be exposed and stopped, are the technological tortures of victims like myself, the technological mind control, the secret society that lures people in under the guise of it being good and then uses them as puppets to help harass or harm fellow citizens like me, the forced enslavement of some of the "puppet" victims, other parts of the lethal targeting of humanity, and the secrecy that enables the continuation of this technological holocaust.

   Please do not use me to help blame victims who have been forced/drugged/brainwashed into and/or unwittingly deceived and used in the covert program that is used against primary targets like me. To be trying to do so, under the guise of "helping" me, does not feel good to me and it is not helpful.

Surely, almost nobody, who is in their right mind and has been informed of the Truths, would be wanting to go along with any part of the covert or technological targeting.

   Again, I beg government officials and the media to publicly stand up and expose the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, and the dark covert program (secret society), so that it can lose its grip on people, even if criminal use of the technologies can not be stopped immediately. It is not fair to blame anyone who is not informed and not completely free to use their own instincts and will. Please set them free.

   It has become clear to me that I have been being so heavily tortured due to my not being very controllable and due to my refusing to be falsely labeled as "mentally ill" and put on one of the pharmaceuticals (that aid technological mind control) and, in the past few years, my refusal to join and obey the covert program, which swarms me with too much pressure and harassment and threats and demands to obey or else...etc. I do not want to join or obey. I want it to stop hurting me and everyone else whom it uses in order to harass me. I want my community members to be set free. I want my loved ones and acquaintances set free. We all should be set free and allowed to openly pull together and support and help each other through these troubled times. God help us all to be totally set free and have a chance to understand/recover.

Honest Justice Can Not Be Served in
An Enslaved and Unaware Society

Please help spread awareness that can help set humanity free

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Don't Listen to or Believe Dark Rumors...etc.

Dark slanders and rumors can only succeed when people foolishly listen to and believe them instead of casting them in the trash, and when people are not aware of the problem of covert targeting.

  In the targeting there are a lot of rumor campaigns that seem to work far too well, especially with technological mind control helping them along. I wish people would realize that this is happening to people so they can second guess what they hear or ask us about it.
   I have also received many threats about set ups, that supposedly happened in the past or threaten to happen in the future, in order to destroy my credibility...etc. These threats are used to try to make me leap into the program - into the "covert rescue" and permanently leave my life, in order to not be slandered or locked up in some way. Its been an ongoing part of the targeting that is very scary. But I do not want to give in to it. I'm sure that they already have too many threatened into obedience or silence or even complete enslavement in this way. My heart keeps telling me that the dark forces who do this to people would not be succeeding if more of us stood up and exposed what they do. Please stand up against dark rumors, threats and set ups so that they can stop succeeding.

What Does "Turn the other cheek," Mean?

    I do not believe in the popular perception of the biblical phrase, "Turn the other cheek," which I recently heard yet another time. I feel that the original meaning of this phrase must have just meant to not fight back - to not seek revenge, because this makes perfect sense and is a wise message that we all should heed. I feel that "Turn the other cheek" DOES NOT mean that we should welcome an abuser to hit us again - to let them keep on hurting us, because this is NOT a good thing to do. We are NOT supposed to be just silently letting people hurt us, because its not good for us or them. We are supposed to protect ourselves from being hurt and we are supposed to be helping each other to be safe and protected from all sorts of harm.
   In the face of any sort of assault or threat, the right thing to do is either turn our back and walk away or put up some sort of shield to protect ourselves from further harm. The shield, in many types of situations is to talk about what happened or is happening - to expose it so that it has a chance of not continuing to inflict harm through other people helping to protect us...etc.

   Sadly, in the technological targeting, most of us do not have a shield and there seems no way to get away from it. Too many victims have been enslaved and used by it against their own will and without even knowing what is happening to them. And too many of us continue being literally tortured for not being controllable enough and for not joining and obeying the program. The only shield we have is in the process of hoping to build one through standing up and telling the truth about what is happening to us (although we sometimes get tortured for doing so) and wait for officials to openly be here for us in ways that prevent further harm to us as well as our loved ones...etc. This is a horrible holocaustal situation that desperately needs a good positive end. God help us all to be totally set free and have a chance to recover, no matter which way we are being targeted.
   In my personal situation some of my writings have been my shields. Sometimes I tuck my shields into more private forums, (into emails or other things) in case I misunderstood or misperceived and/or it ends up not being needed. But it is there in case things are as bad, or worse, than they sometimes appear and I do end up needing it. There have also been times when I've taken down or hidden my shields out of fear, due to threats and tortures being inflicted upon me. But deep in my heart I have hoped that someone, somewhere, who is genuinely good, either got it or already knows and will be here for us - will fully stand up for us and America and the rest of humanity as quickly as is possible.

Monday, September 18, 2017

"We Shall All Be Free"

   The 1960s gave rise to a fight for Freedom and Peace, which appears to have built walls between "the people" and "the government." My gut feeling is that, during that time, Freedom was already being lost, in ways that few knew about, both inside and outside the government, by forces that were stronger than both sides put together, due to its secrecy and the lack of awareness.
   The following words came from a song sung by Joan Baez for people who were marching against the government. Wouldn't it be nice of these lyrics could be sung by government officials for the rest of us and by us for the government? Wouldn't it be nice if the wall could be broken by our Hearts and we could all be here for each other? This is how it should be. And I believe it is how it would be if technological mind control was not influencing too many on ALL sides of this horrible battle that grew into a silent darkness, which still hurts us all and should be stopped from doing so.

"Deep in my heart, I do believe.
We shall over come.
We shall be alright.
 We'll walk hand in hand.
We shall all be free."

For me, today, this vision of people, in my situation, standing up together for Freedom seems more impossible than ever. My heart is crying, literally, as I think of how things should be, instead of how they are.I hope things change in a good positive way, no matter how unlikely it appears.

How Many?

   This song really touched my heart when I heard it played in a church on Sunday. It's message applies now as much as then, if not more so. "How many years can some people exist before their allowed to be free? How many times can a man turn his head and pretend that he just doesn't see? How many ears must one man have before he can hear people cry? How many deaths will it take until he knows that too many people have died?"

Peter Paul and Mary - Blowing in the Wind


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Beacons Needed

     I have felt, from the start, that we need the Heart of the main stream media and government officials to fully stand up and expose all aspects of the general technological and pharmaceutical targeting, especially the mind control and its enslavement of human beings...etc., so that Freedom and Peace and safety can be restored to all. I hope many of their Hearts will soon be free to push past the dark walls of silence and become honest and compassionate public beacons for us and America and the rest of humanity.

    My personal situation, as well as that of many others, still looks too bleak, but I guess I just have to keep surviving and do the best I can, with what I have to work with, and take just one day at a time. God help us all to find the strength to hold up until real help arrives.

P.S. Am really struggling today. I got a phone call that took hope instead of delivering it. I just want to cry and wish I had the privacy to let it out properly. :-( 

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

A New Focus

      I am trying to do things that are meaningful, but not too controversial, in order to help me survive, right now. I have realized that I am too distressed and am being too closely watched to safely do much with person to person distribution of information on the targeting itself, without it possibly endangering those whom I connect with, as well as putting me in more danger. This would be different if I were not so trapped and so alone in my stand – if I had people standing with me who were already aware of the targeting. But sadly, I still stand alone. Hopefully my web writings about the targeting are allowed to reach people who can do more. I’m doing a lot more praying and am making prayer necklaces, for the time being.  www.freedomspeace.com

My Older Websites Being Blocked?

    It appears that my www.sharonpoet.com and www.sharonrosepoet.com sites have been disabled. And my www.sharonsbud.com site has been redirected, hiding what was on it. I have not done anything with these sites for a very long time and so its certainly no mistake on my part. I ask those who have done this to please restore them back to the way they were.
   There has been a push for my older work to be repeatedly wiped out, forcing me to start over, since around 2001. I need it to stop. My websites, and any other aspect of my work, should not be being interfered with in any way or form. I am not starting over again. I want what I had restored.


Saturday, September 16, 2017

Please Donate Directly To Those In Need

    Every time I am asked if I want to make a donation to a charity that is set up to help victims of disasters...etc., I say "NO. I believe in giving directly to people who are in need." And if I reach a point where I am not one of the ones who is in need, have extra money to give and feel drawn to help, that is what I'll do. I'd either go to the victims myself or have someone go for me, and see to it that, at least some of them get the help they need. If I were not being so heavily targeted I'd probably have started a website that lists victims in need and shares their stories and advertises for those who have an abundance of money to visit the site and directly give the victims of all sorts of disasters financial help. I find it extremely disturbing that some organizations get millions or billions of dollars in donations for flood or storm victims who continue to suffer, without adequate levels of help.

Please let your Hearts give DIRECTLY TO those in need.

    I feel that True help should come in ways that are needed and should go DIRECTLY TO those who need it. Money is ALWAYS the thing that is needed most, so victims can get what they need, even if one of those needs is a pack of cigarettes or a beer to help them numb overwhelming distress of their horrible situation. What is also needed most is good old fashioned CARE - the kind of CARE that does not judge or deprive or restrict.

P.S. I felt this way long before the rug was yanked out from under my feet. I know that I have been being deprived because of being heavily targeted. But it appears that many are targeted in the way of deprivation of BOTH care and adequate financial help, even during and after the supposed natural disasters that destroy their homes and neighborhoods! This just has to stop! And why the sudden vamp up in storms again? I thought there was a back off from weather modification technologies being used to harm. Please stop the covert wars.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Freedom's Peace

   I am changing my "Heart of Freedom" name to Freedom's Peace because I found another piece of jewelry that appears to have used the "Heart of Freedom" name first. Nothing comes up on web searches for "Freedom's Peace" so I'm using it. www.freedomspeace.com

Freedom's Peace Flag

 May we always strive for the Peace of Freedom

   Yesterday, I was inflicted with what felt like a painful injury to my back as I started designing this flag. But there was no injury. I think the pain was being inflicted with a laser weapon. I was up half the night in physical pain. And the pain completely stopped as I aimed to write this here.
   The day before that I experienced heavy, painful microwaving all afternoon. I am more deeply struggling to survive, on the inside, in the past year or so. I am now doing my best to focus on prayers and good things instead of the targeting. Perhaps this can save what's left of my sanity.
   All aspects of the targeting stuff has been going on for too long for me. Sometimes I feel like it is literally driving me crazy. I hope it does not succeed with inflicting any more harm, on any level, for any of us. God help us all to be totally set free and have a chance to recover.

Monday, September 11, 2017

Freedom's Peace Prayer Necklace

Freedom's Peace Prayer Necklace
Hand Crafted in the USA by Sharon Rose Poet

   Deep in the Heart of Freedom there is Peace and Love - the Freedom to think and feel and grow, and follow our Hearts above all else, in the process of becoming all that we were meant to be – the road to Peace. I hope this necklace helps remind you to always strive for Freedom’s Peace in your life as well as others.


 Send $16.00
With your name and mailing address to;
Poetic Publications - (necklace)
PO Box 383
Mont Vernon, NH 03057

Price includes shipping and handling.


   The color and size of the beads I use may vary slightly, but plan to remain in natural tones and made of glass, wood, ceramic, stone or metal. The first 75 necklaces will have two green, vintage hearts on each side of a round, beige bead. The hand made braid is 100% cotton with a knotted clasp.
 copyright with all rights reserved.      www.freedomspeace.com

P.S. Many years ago I had designed a set of jewelry, using my Heart Bud logo, but the targeting prevented me from following through on it after I'd found a silversmith to produce them for me. I can not afford to do any of that right now, but this simple braided necklace is something I can afford to do while living in my car. . .and its helping me to ignore some of the targeting and feel like I am doing something useful that can become part of my work. I think it also may be saving what is left of my sanity.
   I've been trying to find something constructive to do in my vehicle prison and had thought of making braided necklaces many times in the past couple years. I am finally doing it. On the first day of making them (The day before yesterday) painful torture of my brain began directly after I started praying and making the first necklace. The torture didn't stop until several hours later when I stopped making them and stopped praying. The next day went better. Hopefully this tiny part of my work will not be interfered with too much. Surely it is harmless enough? I hope my necklaces touch people's Hearts.

Heart of Freedom

Deep in the Heart of Freedom there is Peace and Love - the Freedom to think and feel and grow, and follow our Hearts above all else, in the process of becoming all that we were meant to be.

The Heart of Freedom
We need it back. Please help restore it.

I am now making "Heart of Freedom Prayer Necklaces. More information on them is coming soon.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Don't You Feel it Too?

Don't you feel it too?

I feel it. Don't you feel it too - 
The hearts crying and needing you
To open Freedom's lost door;
The pain, the agony, the suffering,
Beneath holocaustal crimes,
Of those who do not even know
And need your hearts and mine?
Don't you feel it too -
Their need for a kind hand?
Don't you feel it too -
Their need to understand?
Don't you feel it too -
The death of the sane?
Don't you feel it too -
The heart wrenching pain?
Don't you?


I wrote this while processing some of my feelings yesterday. Am really struggling with all that has been happening. I don't trust or understand the covert world that surrounds and hounds me. And there is too much cause for concern for myself as well as the rest of humanity. I used to feel better after venting my feelings in poems. But I didn't yesterday.

 copyright Sharon R. Poet

I honestly have not wanted to blame.
I just need to end the cruel game.
Help shouldn't hurt me more than others
What happens to my children...etc., and brothers
While I still wait for the wars to end -
For the hell to stop and you to be our friend?
I'm sorry. I truly am. Believe what I say.
I didn't want things to go this way.
Two thousand thirteen and fourteen
Extended way too far beyond mean
We paid the cost in too much lost
And its time to sooth it clean.
Oh God, it hurt. I screamed and cried,
"Stop. Please stop!" Don't wonder why.
Then hope and trust continuously slashed
Around threats to throw it in the trash.
But now I know I misunderstood -
Its the Truth to you that is "not good"?
Where are you now? Where does it show -
In plans to silence the ones who know?
You'll "say I'm crazy" if I don't bow too,
And so I'll be totally nuts of I do.
What do I do and where should I turn
In a covert world that needs to learn
How to care and be honest and direct?
What in this mess deserves my respect?
I try to find it and reach out to give.
"For better or worse" is how we forgive.
But I'm still trapped here under the threats
And genuine help hasn't reached us yet.
Fading in a prison where I don't belong.
Cast to the wolves for singing fear's song?
Where is it? I wonder - where is the good?
And why can't things go as they should?
Is it getting better or just getting worse,
Under covert covers for the darkest curse,
Where pills and radio waves aim for control
Of innocent Hearts and defenseless souls,
And victims suffer beneath false blame
Or are enslaved under a different name?
What Hearts intend to stand up tall
And stop humanity's most lethal fall?
Who can care to even understand
My grope for help with trembling hand,
For all who needed to be set free
While wars imprisoned the heart of me?
Perhaps it was all a terrible mistake
That must be realized before its too late.
My soul bleeds, but still wants to hope
For your Hearts to cast a kind, helpful rope.
But I can't change your minds or choices.
Oh please hear all the pleading voices -
Suffering souls crying, "please set us free,"
For you and them and us and me. . .
And the future of all humanity.

No Matter What

   I beg good officials to let your hearts openly be here for us, as quickly as possible, no matter what we publicly write or do not write, no matter what we say or do not say... while being trapped in this torturous public prison.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

A Quote That Says a Lot

"Bright lights cast dark shadows
when shone from only one direction."

I found this quote in a puzzle book. Says a lot doesn't it?

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Another Torturous Night

   I experienced hours of technological torture last night. it flipped from lasering of various body parts, causing pain and itching for several hours. This has been an ongoing thing, but lasted longer last night. Then painful heart attack symptoms, microwaving of my lungs and then pain in my head done one after the other for a few minutes of each. . . like I have experienced before and seems like a sort of threat, which says, "see what I can do to you if you do not conform..."  I see. I already know. And I beg you to find your Hearts.

   Am feeling very sad lately. The whole FBI thing is devastating to me. Lot of puzzle pieces clicking together in between rounds of torture. I pray for Light to shine on them and turn this around.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Freedom Can Be Free

Freedom will be free when people stop fighting
for it and start standing for it.

    Yesterday, after I saw a bumper sticker that read, "Freedom isn't free," A little voice cried from my heart, "It is free," and the thought above came to mind. It may not apply to every situation, but I feel that it applies VERY accurately to the Technological Holocaust situation.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Thank You to the Birds

    I believe in the old Native American spiritual belief of animals being symbolic of things that happen in our lives, particularly the birds. Each type of bird seems to represent people in the world that surrounds me. 

Thank God for you - precious little Doves.
We all need more of you. Your what truly loves.
Thank you to the Geese. Ravens gripe at you.
May only good shine through all that you do.
Thank you to the Eagles who, for Freedom, sing.
Oh let it lift strong currents beneath your wings.
Thank you to the Hawks for their keenest sight.
Let your Hearts sore into the glowing Light.
Thanks to all others who's Hearts can soar
To help the Light shine on this lonely shore.

More may be coming soon

Monday, August 21, 2017

Please Stop

  I beg ALL who perform covert stuff around me to PLEASE STOP.
Again, I beg ALL who are aware of me being targeted to please let your HEARTS stand up for us. If you can not help me/us in the ways that are still desperately needed, please just leave me alone - please do not do anything that can add to my confusion or distress in any way.

I of course need all levels of the technological targeting to stop as well.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Sudden Car Problem!

   The serpentine belt in my car suddenly started breaking a few days ago - the same belt that was replaced four times in 2015 as I was punished for putting a "Please stop the covet war" sign on the back of my car...etc. Am praying to be allowed to keep my vehicle functional/unsabotaged until the miracle happens, which will expose and stop the technological and covert targeting. I really need it all to be stopped. It has been going on for too long. And I need it stopped without hurting me more and especially without an abduction into enslavement or a framing/arresting or declared "mentally ill"...etc.

Lot of set ups happening lately...too much to list now. I hope for dark manipulations to not succeed in any way or form. I was yet again kicked out of a parking lot for no valid reason today.

I beg all aware government officials to not remain silent about the technological targeting, the enslavement of humanity and its covert program, which uses citizens from all walks of life. We need our freedom back. Don't you need it too?

P.S. I got my car fixed. Then had a flat tire on the 23rd of this month. 

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Call to the Doves

I beg the Heart of officials, in EVERY level of our government, as well as abroad, to openly stand up for us and yourselves and America and the rest of humanity.

   Perpetration, that has tried to be "help" for Targeted Individuals on the web, has told us to focus only on the gang stalking part of the targeting. I have not done so, because I strongly feel that this merely sets up a scenario where those who control it all, through technological mind control, can merely set up whom ever they want to have caught, particularly the loved ones of us heavily Targeted Individuals...etc. (This scenario is also a danger for all levels of law enforcement officials.) I beg every level of government to do everything in your power to bring an end to the technological enslavement of humanity that has been torturing and abducting and deceitfully recruiting and using victims both inside and outside the government. I pray for us to not be blaming each other and to instead pull together and openly stand up against the real enemy - technological and pharmaceutical mind control, its enslavement of humanity and the silence that has enabled its success for too long.

  The sad truth is that the technological enslavement of humanity has inflicted many law enforcement places as well as loved ones of heavily Targeted Individuals. This is extremely dangerous for everyone. I hope it stops. 
   My situation has gotten too horribly confusing and threatening. There appear to be multiple set ups to hurt victims even more instead of helping us. Some of these set ups appear to involve law enforcement. But then there also seems to be set ups for me to blame law enforcement so that they will not help me or so that those who are under the influence of the sadistic mind control will seek revenge! I hope it does not succeed.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Fourth Technological Holocaust Drawing

   Rays of sun peaking through puffy clouds, in this mornings sky, inspired this fourth and final "Technological Holocaust drawing. It is called Technological Holocaust - Freedom


Its A Pain

   Lot of pain in my head today, due to what I feel is radio waves being shot into my head.

The Covert Part of the Targeting is Too Confusing

    If there hits a point where I realize, without manipulation of my brain, that I have misperceived some of the cover stuff I will clarify it. But can not do much while still being targeted. Truth is important.

Friday, August 4, 2017

Please Set Humanity Free

   God, please set humanity free. Please stop all the covert wars, the enslavement of the mind and Heart of humanity and the torture of those of us who know....etc. Please deliver freedom, safety and peace to all, in ways that do not harm anyone. Please deliver awareness of what has been happening so that recovery can take place. God, please set humanity free.

God’s hands work through our Hearts. We must do our part.
May the Heart of humanity immediately stand up
and save itself from further destruction.


 P.S. There is a danger of our words being altered in videos or recordings....like what I saw someone do in a video of presidential candidates in 2016. I hope this does not happen, but there needs to be an awareness.

A Prayer I've Had on My Sites

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Attempt to Nuked Me Into An Abduction!

   Around midnight last night I experienced a severe round of microwaving that aimed to force me to leave the parking lot I was in and run to a bathroom. Then I was hit with a strong blast of microwaves and someone yelling, "GO!" when I did not comply. I did eventually have to go to a gas station and barely had the strength to walk in. I felt like I had been drugged as well. My mouth suddenly got severely dry and my limbs extremely weak. Then there was an ambulance waiting outside for me, trying to direct me into it, as I walked out of the gas station. I think they may have thought I would collapse from the microwave blast…etc., and sent an ambulance to pick me up, which is a common covert abduction maneuver. (I feel that the hospitals are heavily involved with a few types of the abductions of targeted people.)
     I have experienced these sorts of abduction attempts many times, especially through the last six months of 2013, when covert "help" zoomed in full force. They'd repeatedly hit me hard with lasers or microwaves, and/or through disabling my car and then try to pick me up, pretending that it’s a covert rescue, but I have felt certain that the tortures are done by the same people who are targeting me and using others to try to "rescue"/abduct me. I have stated, many times, that I feel it leads to complete enslavement and staged deaths…etc., and I do not understand why it is vamping up again. Please STOP! I do not want to be tortured into an abduction. I do not want to be enslaved.  Please stop.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

For Us

If there is anyone who is aware of the targeting against me or any other person, I beg you to let your Heart stand up with/for us. We need you here for us. I still believe that it is safer to openly stand up against the targeting if you are aware of it. If you can not do this please inform people who can.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Reading the Stones

  A couple days ago, I sat watching the ocean and trying to get my mind off the targeting in order to regain a bit of my balance. I fantasized about picking small ocean worn stones and building a water fountain in a garden on my own property. (I no longer own any land, but wish I did, because gardens and lily ponds...etc., were one of my joyful hobbies on the peaceful country properties I used to own.)
   I felt better as I thought about working in my fantasy garden in a private and peaceful setting. I never said anything about what I was thinking. But within a few hours there were three women showing up at that spot to pick stones right in front of me. This seemed like more than a coincidence. It seemed to be a response to my thoughts, which I am now sure can indeed be read with the technologies they use on my brain.
   I wonder if the women were completely enslaved mind control victims or puppets who obeyed a text message from their leader. Either way, they need to be set free too.

God help us all to be totally set free
and have a chance to recover

P.S. I had owned my own peaceful country homes and require that so much that I've felt lost without them since I was targeted into losing them and then into destitution that has prevented me from replacing them.

Monday, July 31, 2017

My Recent Videos

   I did not do a very good job with my new videos, which were primarily to give a quick overview of  the most obvious parts of the targeting since around 1974. I was not allowed to edit them before uploading them or to keep them private until I edited them.
   Its very disturbing that I have not been able to freely produce and edit my videos and other writings about the targeting. And its even more disturbing that some of my writings, and their dates of creation, have been altered by those who target me.
   Until I have the freedom to be more clear and concise, and have the right to freely edit out mistakes without being harassed or blocked from doing so or being too heavily targeted to do so effectively, I can only pray that you read or listen with your Hearts, look past bloops and do not make negative assumptions against me or anyone else...etc.
   Sometimes I think that I should just pull this blog and my videos down until I have the freedom to do a better job with them. But then I have the concern that this could serve those who target me if something bad were to happen to me and there was nothing left of my writings. Until I am safe and free, its seems better to leave them up, because in between their alterations and my own mistakes is information that I feel can help people to realize, and help stop, the targeting of humanity.

Play List with my recent videos on it.