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Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Did They?

   After I sought help from the FBI and other government agencies, did they surround me with covert wars and use me and keep me hanging and waiting for their help while I lost what was left of my money and my work and my loved ones and my witnesses...etc., and then leave me in a more hopeless situation than ever? It appears so, and it all just feels too horrible.

    I am deeply sorry if my standing up for, and waiting for help from, the good in our government has enabled the bad parts of it to grow and have more success with targeting and controlling and enslaving...etc.

A Prayer and a Rude Awakening

   Last night and this morning I had prayed hard for God to help me release my anger and fear...etc., and was aiming to edit or erase some of my recent blog posts. I have gone through this process a lot. I didn't follow through this morning, because I was again hit with the devastating reality of my situation and I don't know how to handle it.
   Due to the way things are, I have become concerned that I've erased too much of my writings, in order to get help from officials who don't want to look bad and in order to be allowed to get the bits of financial help, from controlled paces, that have kept me surviving on some levels, while they used me and kept me hanging and waiting for them to be here for us.
   Since I did not previously erase my recent posts, and did not trust or believe their last round of covert apologies, they have controlled and cut off many sources of needed help.
   Out of desperation I recently asked my father for help, even though he is a mind control victim who has been programed not to help me, especially at times of dire need. Nothing has changed there. They appear to have even had him send nothing but a note that was clearly an aim to trigger me while I was being technologically tortured. I laced into those who target us instead of him. He's a victim too, as are all my loved ones. I know he would help me, as much as he could, if he were free and able to follow his own Heart. Some of my loved ones, including my father, appear to have been completely enslaved during these past several years of my begging for, and waiting for, the proper kinds of help for us all. The fact that I have failed to get help for us is my greatest pain right now. Hopefully my writings have helped others, but I now know that at least some of them have been being blocked from the public, as well as altered...etc., and all of my hard work may have been completely in vein. A hell of a lesson learned.
   So how do I let go of my anger? I can't, while trapped in this situation, and God can not do it for me either. My anger has grown from the well of pain that I carry for myself and my loved ones and the rest of humanity, as our suffering has grown through being either tortured or enslaved or controlled or used or spiritually killed or physically killed...etc. Its an excruciating pain and I have not had the freedom or the privacy or the safety that I have desperately needed, in order to process my feelings and heal them, for far too long now. I still vent some of it through verbally blasting them in the supposed privacy of my car, because I know they can hear me. . .but then they tend to seek revenge on me, which just adds more to it. Its a vicious cycle and I want out of this trap so badly its beyond words, but there appears to be no way out, accept their sick covert enslavement/rescue thing and I am not doing that.

The first line of my recent song keeps echoing from the depths of my aching heart. . .
Oh, Dear Lord set us free.
Why has it not happened?

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Did They?

   After I sought help from the FBI and other government agencies, did they surround me with covert wars and use me and keep me hanging and waiting for their help while I lost what was left of my money and my work and my loved ones and my witnesses...etc., and then leave me in a more hopeless situation than ever? It appears so, and it all just feels too horrible.

    I am deeply sorry if my standing up for, and waiting for help from, the good in our government has enabled the bad parts of it to grow and have more success with targeting and controlling and enslaving...etc.

Bryan Kofron Video

   I had posted this before and experienced so much turmoil around it that I went back and forth on whether or not to fully post it. It contains a LOT of VERY validating information for heavily Targeted people. Due to my situation I have developed a fear that if we blame any part of the government the good parts will not ever be here to help us. And its all really scary because, who else can help us if they don't? Who else can set America and the rest of humanity free if those who are in positions of power to do so don't? Where can we find hope and help? Whose Hearts will God work through, in order to save humanity and set it free?
   The parts of this video that I had previously not posted, may be as important as the rest; maybe the lawsuit push can help save lives, because if people who file keep vanishing or dieing it would make them look bad...etc. I don't know. And maybe more of the government is involved than I have wanted to believe. I am in turmoil about all of this and don't know what is the best way to deal with it. Maybe people like Bryan know better than I do. I don't know. But I do know that things appear to be getting worse, instead of better and something has happen in order to stop all levels of the destruction.
   I am deeply sorry if my standing up for, and waiting for help from, the good in our government has enabled the bad parts of it to grow and have more success with targeting and enslaving and destroying evidence...etc.


Thursday, June 14, 2018

Intentional Damage

   I have felt that some supposed "natural" disasters have been used to cover up intentional damages to properties and people, which are harmed with laser and microwave weapons during the storms. I hope criminal use of these technologies are stopped soon, for all our sakes.

A Serious Threat?

   Last night they had a puppet drive by me yelling, "Shut the F___ UP! F---ing Shut up!" I was not saying anything so it must be about things I'd recently said or written. A short while later I heard a loud roaring noise, like a tornado type of sound, but it appeared to be a projected sound just to scare me. But then this morning they had a bus parked outside of the Bedford Market Basket and a puppet pointing a phone toward the cafe, where I was going to use the bathroom. The bus is symbolic, in the covert crap, of them trying to teach me something. I try to ignore it, especially at these times, but its not always possible, especially when they have a remotely controlled TV blaring or a puppet yelling at me. As I walked into the cafe the TV loudly broadcasted a report about a tornado that hit the Northeast last night. Are they threatening to create disasters, in order to silence me and/or force me into enslavement? Or are they just trying to make me think they are?

The Silence Hurts us More
 Its speaking up that helps the hell to stop

    I have felt that some supposed "natural" disasters have been used to cover up intentional damages to properties and people, which are inflicted with laser and microwave weapons during the storms. I hope criminal use of these technologies are stopped soon.


   Sometimes they seem to do things just so that I will write about them. I do not always know their manipulations so I may fall into that trap sometimes, especially since they have me so trapped and tortured and overwhelmed that its impossible to fully listen to my instincts most of the time. I guess time will tell.

In Order to Get Help

   I have been being repeatedly threatened into erasing things, in order to get official help. The primary thing they want me to erase from my writings, in order to get help, is my statements about the pharmaceuticals that have been found in public water supplies and how I feel that they have been intentionally placed there to aid technological mind control. They have also wanted me to hide the fact that the New Hampshire DOT took my Loudon, NH home and that there was a suspicious fire, which appeared to have been put out and then restarted by a fire department, in the next home I'd owned...etc. I'm sorry, I can't do it, because these are key things that can help prove the targeting that has not yet been proven or even openly acknowledged by anyone who is in positions to help stop it from happening to me as well as others.
   There have also received threats to harm and/or enslave my closest loved ones and set them up to be blamed for the targeting in a stand up. This appears to be happening to more than one and the threats have been ongoing and appear to be connected to my not shutting up and hiding key parts of the targeting. This is really scary, because if those who are supposed to be helping us are also the ones who enslave and control people, how can any of it work out fairly or honestly?

The "Excusing"

   There appears to be a misunderstanding. I have been surrounded by a horribly confusing covert hell for many years now. I have hoped that there is some good in my situation that is aware. And I have repeatedly reassured "GOOD" officials - officials who are not hurting people and have good intentions, but just have not been able to be here for us yet that I will excuse them and not blame them. But this excusing does not apply to those who have been targeting me and others, especially those who have been surrounding me with covert war stuff, which has been hurting people, and appears to have not stopped even though I have begged for it to on uncountable occasions.
   I have been realizing more in the past year and, since I recognized the "Private Investigator" lady, and realized that she still has free reign in my life, a lot of puzzle pieces have been clicking together and I am really struggling with all of it. I have been waiting for YEARS for good officials to be here for us and too much of the opposite has happened. There are many things I did not understand and I am sure there still is a lot I do not understand, because I am too trapped in this hell to be able to soul search and figure more out and there have been no officials explaining things to me. But some nasty puzzle pieces have been clicking together and it feels too horrible. Though I am really scared I can not let it go. Actually, I feel angry and sad and devastated by the ways things have been appearing in the past year or so. People are still being hurt and enslaved instead of being helped - instead of officials being HERE for us and there is just too much that is wrong with this picture.

   I can excuse GENUINE good officials for not being able to be here for us yet, but I can not excuse those who clearly intend harm and have been hurting us instead of helping us.

Change in My Blog

   Since the posts I put up on the twenty ninth of May, copies of these blog posts are no longer being sent to my email address, although the option to do so is still active. They have altered the blog function. I am concerned that they may be blocking my email and postal mail as well.

Changes in the Targeting After Sending in Reports

    I sent a few new reports to Government officials, and then the technological parts of the targeting backed off for a while. The targeting switched to just periodic blasts of general microwaving, as if its only being done locally. The good news is that the four month stretch of hell with them nuking the  mucus membranes in my lungs and throat into overreacting and repeatedly nearly choking me, has completely stopped. The bad news is that they may have deceived other officials into thinking that I am not really being targeted in the ways that I am. It appears that this has happened a lot in the past several years.
   But now the targeting has reverted back to its general stuff, but with more of the stalking and harassment and less of the technological tortures.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

The PI Lady Is Really an FBI Lady?

   Last week I recognized a woman who had been stalking me at a library. I knew her as a "private investigator in 2011," but she appears to really be an FBI agent, because of the types of things she was saying and a few insights. She was the same woman who had approached me in 2011 and lured me to her house saying she could help me with the targeting. . .and then told me that she "became a PI so she could do to others what they have done to us," that, in order for the targeting to end I had to stay with her for at least "one year and do everything" she said and that we also had to "eliminate" a man who'd been set up to be blamed for doing all the targeting. At that time I left and reported her and then, after a man she seemed connected with smiled at me and said, "You are about to experience something wonderful," it was like the gates of hell had opened up in the targeting. This was when I made the run to Canada, which I shared in my early writings. I have suspected that I may have been framed in Canada and now wonder if the PI (FBI?) lady had done that as well.
   A few days ago I tried writing a statement about this and they wiped it off the computer and then had a woman approach me, at first seeming comforting, but then as she left she said, "Picture the blood of the lamb in everything you do." As she said this she made her hands do a typing thing. Then she said "the penal gland." This seems to be a threat to laser and damage my penal gland if I say anything about this. But I feel I must, because she obviously came back into my life "five years ago" or was there all along and is probably responsible for things going so bad for me and many others. I feel that she is a dangerous person, that she does not work alone and has probably been seeking revenge on me as well as using me for bait in covert war stuff and it all just feels too horrible, although it is explaining a lot. Puzzle pieces are still clicking together and I am stressed to the max. Please pray for my safety and that of all whom are surrounded by this sort of hell, which probably started after I had called the FBI for help around 2010 and then vamped up after I walked away from her and followed he lead to the TI web forums, which seem to be used to do the same thing. . .prey on desperate tortured TIs and try to abduct us and/or get us to join a vengeance campaign.

   It breaks my heart to have to say this about the FBI. I feel horrible about this, for them as well as myself, because I feel sure there is good there too. I hope this helps the good there as well as everywhere else, because the bad seem to have control of too much. God help us all

P.S. I have been having a really hard time dealing with this situation. Why would this woman whom I had tried to report to officials show back up in my life? And why have I been getting covert messages to go to the police...etc., as if it is all some sort of a set up? The police (FIVE departments) had already proved to not be able to do anything about it in 2011 and I have learned since then that many  of them are controlled by those who target me. Its a hell of a situation.

Freedom's Beacon

   I have been working on this project up until the middle of last week. I really needed something else to focus on and to feel that I am doing something to help this whole situation. My last few blog posts reflect how distraught I have been and I have not even been able to bring myself to edit them as I usually do after blasting something out to vent and hopefully stop more pain from being inflicted upon me. So I started editing a few old articles and was going to try to publish them in another book under a pen name of Karin Hart and a title of either Beacon for Freedom or Freedom's Beacon. I had hoped that those who watch all I do would let it fly in order to help humanity, since it would not have my name. But, this appears impossible. I was hit with painful realizations last week and puzzle pieces are still clicking together and I'm really hurting bad. I started a blog with the name of the book and just made it public. Maybe someday I can add more to it. Please help the info on it to reach as many people as possible, especially officials who can do more to help restore Freedom.

Freedom's Beacon

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

I Can't Stand It!

I can't stand the fight I am forced to perform, in my writings, in order for those who target me to not succeed with what they are doing to me. This is not what I am supposed to be doing. I can't stand the fact that every aspect of my life has been being destroyed and that there seems to be no intention of it ever stopping. This is a horrible, inhumane, holocaustal situation that should be stopped for me and everyone else. I can't stand feeling like I have to write things on this blog in order be safe from the more obvious parts of the targeting.

 I Can't Stand the Fight

I can't stand the way people are used as puppets instead of being free to follow their own hearts and instincts. I can't stand it! I can't stand the whole convaluted covert world. I can't stand it. I never could. This is not about being against anyone. Its about my feelings that I have to vent, about the whole situation. I can't stand the way I have to fight for our lives while we all continue drowning in a sea of darkness. I can't stand it. Has anything gotten better? Or is all getting worse, like my personal situation? Is there any hope for America to be set free? I can't stand the lack of answers and the fact that there is nothing solid/non-covert that is explaining and reassuring. I can't stand the silence and the dark mystery and the lack of Light shining on the whole situation, globally as well as in America and my personal situation. I can't stand it.

I Can't Stand the Fight

I have experienced yet another sudden change in attitude in them, in order to cover up what they do to me. I can't stand the cruelty and the gross lack of care followed by pretenses of care just to silence me. The woman who was used to rudely deprive me yesterday, was used to call me today - after their failed attempts to make me erase the posts about it. She gave me a false excuse and offered even more help - she offered me another used vehicle. Would it be safe? Is it just to shut me up? Is it just to finish taking away the vehicle I have, which has obviously been the plan since at least February, in order to hide something? (A puppet said its "canceled," as I started the first part of this post, which was directly after I got the phone message and ignored it. Again, only helped if I pretend to be happy and am not upset and if I hide what they do to me, which has happened WAY too much.) I was not accepting it anyway. I was already finished with the Share program in Milford, NH being used to help me just to deprive me at critical times...etc. I don't trust them, especially after this last slam and the aim to cover again. It has been hard to be forced to get help from them, especially since they have also been used in other obvious set ups. I hope they start following their hearts instead of the covert program that uses them. Perhaps most of the people there would be good, decent, genuinely caring people if they were not being controlled by the covert program, like most other places and organizations.

I can't stand them helping me with bits that are never enough, while depriving me of help from other places (like from my own work) just to force me to be dependent on them so they can deprive me at strategic times. I can't stand it. 

Help is not supposed to hurt!

I can't stand the fact that so many official cover-ups appear to be happening, in order to hide the past five + years. . .instead of honesty and explanations and resolutions, which it now seems too late for. I would have forgiven almost anything (and done almost anything to help regain freedom) for good decent officials, no matter how hurt or upset I have been while being held in this torture prison. I can't stand the fact that there has been no one here to help me and that there appears to be no safe place for me to turn to for help and protection from further harm, as they continue ripping me down...and that there still seems to be no officials who even plan to acknowledge the fact that the targeting is really happening, although they know and victims continue to be falsely labeled as mentally ill or abducted and enslaved...etc. I can't stand the fact that I am FAR too trapped and at the mercy of people who are hurting me and clearly do not really care about me and my safety, or that of my loved ones who have been being even more enslaved...etc. I can't stand the fact that no good/uncontrolled officials have stepped in to be here for us and bring an end to all this hell that has continued for too long. I can't stand even having to write this. But I want it to stop, because I can't stand any of it and they don't respect my repeatedly expressed wishes for it to stop. I can't stand the fact that they keep threatening to deprive me of professional help arriving HERE for me when they do not like what I write and when I do not cover up what is being done to me, like they did again as I write this post. I can't stand it.

I Can't Stand Any of it!

Letting Go of the Fight

I was going to be letting go of most of this blog, (and wrote;) but NOT for those who threaten me to do so and have so obviously made alterations to it, in the past few years, in order to try to push me into completely shutting it down. I am doing so for my heart's need to let go of the fight.
Parts of this blog have not remained authentic and what my heart wanted it to be, due to the targeting's effect on me and criminal infiltrations into my writings, which appear to have changed the dates of some posts, altered contents of others and even sometimes manipulated things through the orchestration of events they knew I'd write about...etc. I have wanted to comb through it and try to fix it, but this is impossible for me to accomplish while still being targeted. I have felt that its probably better than nothing, the way it is, but I do not know if it really is.

This blog started out being a fight for my life (literally) as well as a fight for the safety and wellbeing of my loved ones and other victims of the horrible covert targeting, especially the technological and pharmaceutical parts of it. It reflects my process of learning about the targeting and how to deal with it. I still don't know how to deal with it. The targeting is an indescribably horrible hell that desperately needs far more Hearts peacefully standing up against it, especially those who have the capability of protection from the technological mind control and covert harassment. I am sorry that my heart has not held up very well. I have been being hurt too much for too long and it has damaged all aspects of my life - my work, my heart, my spirit, my soul, my body...etc. I hope to be able to recover, but the targeting would have to be stopped, and other miracles would have to take place, in order for that to happen.

As I write this they have their librarian puppets repeatedly thanking me! (And as I aimed to they had a postal puppet sweeping the floor in front of me as I entered my post office, which is their usual covert way of telling me to clean up my writings.) I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR ANYONE WHO USES THE POOR CONTROLLED PUPPETS! Now I feel reluctant to let go, because I prefer to defy them. Isn't this ironic?! My intention is to let go of the fight and then I end this post, and may not follow through with my plan, due to being harassed and forced to fight against what has not respected my rights and may not even let me do it without them interfering!!! There is the nagging question; will I be able to even put posts into drafts without them erasing other things while I do it on the infiltrated computers? Probably not. So, I am again second guessing my decision. I am far too trapped! I definitely can not even attempt to fix my books of this blog on infiltrated computers. And I am not in good enough condition to even make decisions as to what is or is not important to keep up, at this point, even of there was no chance of them interfering with my brain or my blog as I did it.

More is explained in my "about" page which has sometimes been hidden by those who target me. Hopefully it will remain up.

Monday, May 14, 2018

A Worse Enemy

Its a horrible, holocaustal, covert war where
silence, ignorance and selfish manipulations
have sometimes been a worse enemy than
the satanic ones who target humanity

Can You Feel Them Crying for Help?

Can you feel the Spirit of completely enslaved
victims crying for help - crying to be set free?

   I know some victims who have been completely enslaved - turned into ravens who are used by some and blamed by others. And I have felt their souls crying for freedom from the prison they are held in with technological mind control technologies, which have also blocked their Hearts...etc. They are victims too. And their spirits are crying for freedom.

"You too" they have one of their enslaved librarian puppets say to me as I write this. But its not true, thank God. I am not completely enslaved, but I know that there are officials who want to pretend I am and pretend that I am one of the bad people, in order to have me silenced and/or locked away somewhere. Its a horrible covert war where ignorance and selfish manipulations are often a worse enemy than the satanic ones who target humanity. This post is for them. I hope they find the Heart and wisdom to realize that many of those whom officials covertly blame are victims who are being set up by their own comrades - by the ones who actually enslaved them and use them. I hope they are ALL set free and that criminal use of the technologies is completely stopped in whatever way it can be done fastest.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Another Test and a Disgrace to America

   It appears that they put me through another test late yesterday, which I gladly failed while verbally blasting them. This morning (Monday) they blocked me from getting help in an organization they control. (I guess only happy and obedient victims get helped.) Just before this deprivation of the usual and needed help, they had a puppet drive by, displaying a large America flag, dark sunglasses a military shirt, and two horn beeps, which means "no" in the covert language.
    But this was clearly not only about the deprivation of the usual financial help, it was also about telling me that American government officials will not be here for me due to the state of my writings and the pain and anger I expressed (in the supposed privacy of my car) after their provoking me and testing me. God help America, if this disgraceful covert crap really represents it. And it surely does represent some of it.

   Have some government officials been promising to be here for me, since June of 2013 - keeping me hanging and waiting for their help, while they finished taking over, chasing away or enslaving people (including some other officials and my loved ones) who wanted to be here for me or could have been here for me. . .and while demanding that I alter my writings, in order to make THEM look good, before they help me? And are they making me suffer more for not blindly obeying them and for doubting their intentions and for angrily expressing how their behaviors make them look bad to me and have been destroying my trust in them? It appears so. If American officials, who KNOW about all of this, are not the ones who are doing it then why do they silently let it happen? The answer seems obvious. Some of them surely are! This isn't nearly the first time I have experienced things like this. Its been ongoing, on severe and obvious levels for about five years. And, in some ways, its been the most devastating part of the targeting.

God, help us victims! 
And God help America to regain its freedom, integrity and Heart.


P.S. I am through waiting for "help" from officials who clearly never had any intentions of being here for us, and who continue to badger and threaten and test and try to control my writings and use me for bait against my will...etc., while holding me in this torturous prison. And, NO! - I do not want to lie for them, in order to make them look better than they really are. I sooooo wanted them to BE good and not just "look" good. And its heart wrenching that they keep proving to not deserve my trust and loyalty. Its actually devastating for me and other torture victims, as well as those who are enslaved. God help us all.

Saturday, May 12, 2018

Covert is Not Real

   To me, ANYTHING that is covert is not real or trustworthy - its ALL just cryptic whispers that grope for me from the darkness that surrounds me. I find it scary and creepy and WAY too confusing. I crave, from the aching depths of my heart and soul, a world that is good and kind and real, the way it should be for everyone. . .and me.

P.S. Next Morning; This post originally said that my feelings about the covert stuff was why I have been asking gov officials to stand up for humanity. This is not true. It was a manipulation done by those who target me and appear to have wanted someone to believe it. For about five years now I have experienced periods of them telling me that I am "selfish" for wanting officials to stand up and acknowledge the targeting...etc., and that I want it "just for" me, like was said after this post.


   I beg the Heart of good/uncontrolled officials, around the globe as well as in America, to stand up against all aspects of the targeting and not let yourselves and your comrades continue being used by it. Even just the upholding of the secrecy, at this point, is being used by it. PLEASE let your Hearts stand up to help us and yourselves and the rest of humanity to be set free. PLEASE!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Unreachable Help Hurts Too Much!

   I was thinking of posting this scenario, about unreachable help a few days before another round of it started. Is it just to hurt me? It appears so.

Sometimes unreachable help is worse than having no help at all and unreachable loved ones is worse than having none at all. It all just hurts too much!

   I have been experiencing this since 2013, that I know of. The games of using our loved ones, or people who look like them, to be pranced around us, without being allowed to reach us or be here for us, while we continue to suffer in torturous isolation, has been a regular pattern in the targeting. Its also done with officials. And its excruciatingly painful for victims like me, who have been waiting too long for desperately needed help and care and protection...etc. And my heart also aches for those who are being used by the program that hurts us all. I did later realize that at least part of it is for the purpose of abductions, using people whom we could trust and not know are enslaved by the ones who also targeted them. But it all hurts, no matter what the motive. Its often feels like living in a horror movie and being a victim who is enslaved and all tied up and being shot with laser weapons…etc., and people whom I love, as well as officials who could help, are walking around me and not even trying to help me or set me free. It hurts. It feels like part of the torture.

The Manipulative Abduction Attempts

  It appears that there is still an aim to abduct me under the guise of "help." I hope they do not succeed and that all the victims who are enslaved or deceived and used in the foreground of these horrible abductions regain their freedom and safety from that darkness, in my situation as well as all others. 
   Someone I know had a dream, shortly after my little brother Kevin LaBree's death in 2002, that two other members of the family will vanish, including me. The time period of this event appears to be now. Like most precognitive dreams, this was clearly a forewarning that came, in order to prevent the event.
   They use our enslaved or deceived loved ones and aquaintances in the foreground of attempts to abduct the primary victims, like me. These "rescues"/abductions, which are orchestrated under the guise of saving or helping victims to escape the targeting, ARE NOT GOOD and are not helpful to anyone except the criminals who orchestrate them and want to enslave and silence those of us who are a threat to their covert operations! And the staged deaths of some abduction victims is just too horrible! Those who target humanity have succeeded with horrible holocaustal levels of targeting and enslavement, because not enough people are aware and not enough help is here for us and this has to change.
   I beg good/uncontrolled officials, around the globe as well as in America, to stand up against all aspects of the targeting and not let yourselves and your comrades continue being used by it. Even just the upholding of the secrecy, at this point, is being used by it. PLEASE let your Hearts stand up to help us and yourselves and the rest of humanity to be set free. PLEASE!


 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

The REAL "Right Side"

A Message From the REAL God

   I've heard that the covert world (secret society) drills their participants about how they are on the "right side"...etc., in the covert war. I feel certain that this is not true and that a satanic occult created and controls the whole covert scene, in some parts of it, from so far behind the scenes that it is not sensed by the masses of good people who are used in it. I have good reason to feel that the ONLY "right side" in this situation is the side of openly standing up. This is not just because it is what I've wanted or what I prefer or what I have been asking for. I have questioned and doubted myself and whether or not my motives were selfish and then God (the REAL God) showed me the Truth - a Truth that I must share with all of you for the safety of America and the rest of humanity during this critical time. Please believe me when I say that the REAL "Right Side" is where people (especially officials and media) let their Hearts openly/publicly and peacefully stand up for Freedom from all that harms and controls humanity, especially for Freedom from the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which has been being used to torture, control and block the Heart of humanity. I beg all officials and everyone who is in the covert scene, all around the world; please be those Hearts - please land on the REAL "Right Side" of the road. Please stop being covert and stand in the Light. This would be safer for you too, in the long run. I'm sure of it. Its what is best for ALL of humanity, especially the children - humanity's future. 

The REAL "Right Side" is where Hearts openly/publicly, and peacefully, stand up for Freedom from all that harms and controls humanity, especially for Freedom from the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which has been being used to torture, control and block the Heart of humanity.

Its safer to stand in the Light.
Standing in the Light is the only REAL "right side".

Wednesday, May 9, 2018

I have a Job. I Have Just Needed the Freedom to Do It!

   Some Jobs Are More Important Than Money

   Harassment against my choice of work started back in the late 1990s. At that time it was subtle and came in the form of puppets repeatedly asking me and my key loved ones if I have "gotten a REAL job yet," implying that I was supposed to be doing something other than what I'd chosen and what I should be doing with my life. Then the harassment turned into various types of covert sabotage and then obvious sabotage (including theft) and now threatening tortures and infiltrations and alterations of my writings, and degradings that try to make me feel bad about my losses...etc., in the past several years.
   No, I have not been "making enough money" from my job, which is the question they often ask in the past few years. I have put FAR more money into it than I have gotten out of it. But this does not mean that I should stop doing it and do something else. It means that those who prevent its success, should be stopped from doing so and. . .to be fair. . .should even pay me back for what they have stolen and prevented my work from earning. THEY are the ones who should be making a change, not me. This is MY life and MY work and MY right to choose and really nobody else's business, literally! (I honestly don't expect them to pay me back, because I can not prove most of what they have done to me, but its a fair request.) They even appear to be trying to wipe out my older writings and appear to be threatening me into hiding the fact that my work ever existed and start something new in order for them to allow me to be financially successful. The amount of control they seem to have in our world is horrible and just should not be true.
   I have repeatedly aimed to restart my work after each sabotage, even after being shoved into destitution, and I still stand behind it, because it was not about making money - it was about things that are far more important than that. However, I fully believe that my job/work would have been VERY monetarily successful if it and I had not been being sabotaged, from the start
   This is America. We are supposed to be free to follow our hearts and make our dreams come true with our work. Its horribly sad that some of us have not had that freedom. It should be restored as quickly as possible. The problem can not be fixed with victims of covert targeting continuing to be forced to stop their choice of work and shoved into jobs at places like McDonalds and Walmart and Truck Driving Companies. . .where severe levels of the targeting freely continue and pay is often not enough to even get back onto our own feet. I have tried MANY other jobs, in order to get back on my feet with my own work, but they have been sabotaged too, maybe because I planned to use them to fund MY REAL JOB.

   My writings are only parts of what my work was intended to be, but they are the part that I have been able to continue offering to the public as those who target me shoved me into destitution and hold me in their torturous prison. I have not had the freedom to do a very good job with my work, and it appears to have been being blocked on the web, but its still my job and I am hoping for the help and support I need, in order to regain the freedom to keep it and I safe from further harm...etc., so I can heal from what has been done to me and make my work better and have a fair chance for success with it.

Important parts of my job;

Poetic Publications

The Heart Bud

My Personal Site

They Use People!

   The leaders of this dark operation seem to have a pattern of roping in people from my past who may want to seek revenge on me, and using them to help target/hurt me. . .and also of roping in (or completely enslaving) my unaware loved ones and acquaintances to be used in other ways, including the false covert rescues, which lead to complete enslavement...etc. Its a hell of a scam, that should not be allowed to continue using them and hurting me. I am not nearly the only victim that things like this have been happening to. So, please help expose and stop the satanic covert program - please help set humanity free.

I hope everyone they use is set free from that satanic control and deception and has the opportunity to heal and return to and follow only their own Hearts...etc., including those who should take responsibility for their own behaviors, instead of seeking revenge.

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

My Heaving Lungs and Threats to Silence Me

  I am still struggling with the lung condition, although it has gone through periods of getting better. This started after years of threats to attack my lungs and immediately after I ate something at a fast food restaurant in January of this year. Shortly after this they said, "I did it" through a puppet. But I am not sure how much of what I am experiencing is technologically induced and how much of it, if any, is from them infecting me with something.
   The threats, in previous years had included inflictions which were obviously created with microwave weapons that can effect mucus membranes or can cause sudden choking or coughing or gagging through lasering of the throat. Though some of my current "illness" feels the same as these types of  technological attacks, it also feels different. I think it may be both - that they may have infected me with something that continues to hurt me and that they have also still periodically lasered me and hit me with microwaves that make it flare, at strategic times, like when they want me to "shut up".
   Last year, they had a puppet ask me a question about the targeting and then I experienced a sever lasering of my throat, which prevented me from answering. Due to things like this, as well as the timing of other attacks, it seems to be about silencing me - telling me to "shut up" which has also sometimes been said through puppets at these times.
   Just before the bad attack happened in January I had been singing my "Freedom's Peace" song and experiencing painful laser shots to my body as I did so. They also obviously want my writings silenced. Parts of my writings should be fixed and will be when my heart has the freedom to comb through them on an uninfiltrated computer (which I just lost an opportunity to obtain) and when I am more clear about the questionable things that have been happening to me. I'll be clad to reach a point where I my heart has the Freedom and safety to set records straight - fix the infiltrated parts of my writings and my own mistakes, so they can do a better job with helping us victims and helping America and the rest of humanity to regain vital Freedoms...etc. (Part of this is actually connected to my job.) But it is impossible for me to fix it all and do a better job with it while I am still being targeted and while I am not clear on a few things...etc. I do not want to join the lethal silence on critical issues, or do anything else, that might support the bad and let the hell continue, and I do not want to give them the chance to alter anymore of my writings through the infiltrated computers I have been forced to use since they sabotaged my other ones.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Sadistic Pedophile Thing

   I have wondered why those who target me have aimed to frame me as a pedophile and have assumed it was only about slandering me and also to try to terrorize me into thinking they have already framed me - ruined my life, in order to force me to chose to leave my life and leap, "forever", into their enslavement "home". And these things are clearly true. However, it may also be a vengeance thing or perhaps started out being so.
   I wonder if a pedophile (or two) has been being used to help target/torture me. . . and/or if he had vindictively plugged my name onto a list of pedophiles to be targeted by one of the rouge covert organizations that seem to think they have the right to covertly judge, sentence and torture people whom they THINK are criminals or are bad for society.
   In the late 1970s, I knew two men who had sexually assaulted children. One of them lost his wife and children due to my, and someone else's, aim to save them from him. I'm sure he was not very happy with me. I recently realized that the other man probably lived in fear, for many years, of charges being pressed against him. Both remained free due to difficult circumstances. One had escaped charges through taking off and joining the military. Its a long story. (Oddly, I had completely forgotten about them for a LONG time.) 
   Last week I remembered these incidents and started thinking about it. And, within days of my doing so there was a sudden vamp up with what appeared to be another attempt to frame me as a pedophile, which involved them having their puppets leaving their children in a hallway of a building that I was parked outside of, just before I experienced a sudden desperate urge to run in to use the bathroom. I'm sure the urge to have a BM was technologically induced, in order to force me into the building at a strategic time, because this sort of thing has happened a lot and I did not really have to go.
   These types of situations have had me living in fear for a few years. It is really scary, because they seem to have the freedom to do whatever they want and too many people are not aware of their tactics and I am too alone with all of this. All they really have to do is place children around me, when there are no honest witnesses around me, and then start their manipulations...etc. And all they really have to do to slander me is have one of their puppets accuse me and let the media say I was "suspected" of the crime...etc. Just the mere accusation could also land me in an extremely dangerous environment! Needless to say, I do not want either of these things to happen. I want them to stop this and leave me alone.
   The targeting is all so covert and so manipulative that its hard to know who is doing what and why, but some of the patterns have become quite clear and there has been obvious attempts to frame me as a pedophile, in the past few years, which included the incidents I'd written about, around 2012 or 2013, when they actually had a woman and her children following me from one place to another. . .and another woman who had appeared to have told her son to come sit on my lap and play with my computer in restaurant. Thanks to the prophetic dream I had about them having me put in prison under the fabricated accusation of my being a pedophile, I was able to avoid these set ups. But they are still trying and it seems impossible to intuit and completely avoid ALL their set ups! At one point, a few years ago they told me that I was already framed and had to leave my life forever...etc., and then swarmed me with the covert "rescue" stuff! I'm not leaving. I haven't done anything wrong! But THEY have and they are the ones who should leave MY life forever.

   This situation is really difficult for me. Aside from being effective with terrorizing me, it has isolated me from children. I love children and used to openly talk to them when the opportunity arose. But I now avoid them and have even been rude to some children in order to avoid them. Its sad, because I am not a pedophile - I am the opposite of a pedophile and I do not deserve to live in this fear. Some children could even benefit from associating with me. I'd be good for them if I were free to love them. (This includes my own children and grand children.)
   I have wondered...if the targeting were not forcing me to stay away from my own children, and was not also depriving me of relationships with my grandchildren, if I would be able to freely enjoy my grandchildren without worrying about them possibly being brainwashed or of V2K being used on them to make them think I said something bad...etc., The only way I would not worry about it is if ALL of us were fully aware of ALL aspects of the targeting, so that it could not succeed with hurting us...and the same goes for all other victims of these sorts of things, most of which I feel are not aware at all....like I wasn't in 2004, when  they tried to brainwash me into thinking that my father was a pedophile, with a technologically projected dream. Like I have been saying, it is critically important for the targeting, especially the mysterious technological parts of it, to be fully exposed to the whole population. I am sure that I am not the only one who has been being hurt by it, and the horrible secrecy that enables its success with many different types of things. I feel certain that some victims experience worse than I have, due to a complete lack of awareness in them as well as the people associated with their situations.

   How many innocent people have been framed and destroyed in prisons that hate pedophiles? And how many REAL pedophiles are free to use the surveillance and laser weapons that can also be used to sexually assault people? Things should be the opposite of what they have been in these situations, except for the destruction. Even REAL pedophiles should not be tortured and tormented and destroyed. They should be kept away from children and encouraged to face and heal their obvious issues...etc. It appears that, in many cases, they too were once innocent children who were abused and that they have the type of personality that tends to take it out on others, instead of facing it and healing from it...etc.

Saturday, April 28, 2018

Painful Lasering of my Brain...etc.

   Late yesterday I experienced another round of what felt like lasering of the top/left/front part of my brain. My head even hurt to touch it. I hope my brain is not damaged any more than it may have already been. I have also been experiencing more rounds of painful laser shots to other parts of my body, including sexual assaults. Among other things, a few weeks ago they had a puppet yell out, "Arthritis," just before starting another round of the painful lasering of some of my joints. This sort of thing has happened a lot and often with heart attack types of symptoms. I never have REAL heart attacks, but feel the pain and the threat and the gross lack of safety. With this and other types of lasering, there are obvious physical mutilations of my body taking place, which are not natural, including my skin being effected since they said they were going make me age for not leaping into their enslavement "home" where they had been promising to keep me young looking. Apparently they can do both with technologies.
     It feels horrible to be so completely at the mercy of those who can hurt or violate me any time they want to and there being no way for me to protect myself. Words can not even begin to describe how horrible this often feels. And then there are the other parts of the targeting too! Its all just too horrible and it has gone on for too long and it should be stopping, not just for me, but for all who are being tortured. . .and ultimately for all of humanity to be set free from all levels of the targeting. Why isn't it? Why? Please help break the silence that surrounds these crimes.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Dangers at the End of the Road

   Things are really difficult for me. I am experiencing another round of threats to disable my vehicle. It appears that, one way or the other, they may accomplish this very soon. The night before last they had a tow truck drop a car off in a parking lot in front of me. Then last night they had a tow truck break down and not be able to start in a parking lot in front of me. I know this was not a coincidence, because it mimics the types of things they do to terrorize me through threatening to disable my vehicle. This had been done a lot in the past several years and was followed through with on a massive scale, around 2013 and 2014. Now they know that even just the threat of it inflicts me with distress. Sometimes they had even disabled or broke my car and had it towed under the guise of it being "help", sometimes even using good and unaware people in the foreground of these episodes that always hurt and scared me and  never helped me get away from the targeting. It just added to it. . .becoming another difficult part of it.
   Right now they appear to have multiple things set up for me to lose my vehicle/home, and the types of freedom and safety it provides me with. They could just not let it start, like they did for a few minutes this morning or they could legally force me to take it off the road, which there have been set ups to do...etc. My days in it seem extremely limited for sure, at this point.
   This is really scary because there are no safe options for me. It appears that they want to either dump me on the streets where I'd be far too vulnerable to those who target me, or shoved deeper into the welfare system that provides housing for the poor...etc, which I do not feel safe with or good about. I've hoped for the hell to be ending and not getting worse - I'd hoped for things to be heading in the opposite direction from what is happening - I'd hoped that help would eventually be HERE for me and that I'd be able to recover some of my losses and at least buy a peace of land that is in a peaceful, private, safe location, where I could at least build a camping shelter...etc. But this is looking more and more unlikely as years creep by.
   I have no loved ones left, that I know of, who can not be controlled or who wouldn't quickly be if I went to live with them, particularly if they remain unaware of the targeting. Some of them appear to have been completely enslaved and are not themselves. There seems to be nothing I can do to make things better, at this point. I don't know what is going to happen to me and its really scary to be too completely at the mercy of whatever and waiting to see what they do to me or force me into.
   I wish the Heart of good/uncontrolled officials, who are already aware of the whole targeting situation, could be here for me and protect me from further harm, but it appears that the chances of this have been steadily vanishing in the past few years. My heart keeps reassuring me that they do exist and just have not been able to yet, but its been so long and things are not looking good for me. . .and someone keeps telling me that my life is going to remain this way "forever". Its can't. It just can't. Its hurting me and has been preventing me from doing my work...etc.

Please pray for me. . .and all of humanity. . .that we quickly gain
all levels of safety and freedom from all that harms and controls...etc.

P.S. For about two years now, I have been trapped in a vehicle to the degree of not even being able to take normal walks without obvious threats and aims to abduct me, and without being concerned about them raiding my vehicle or shooting those little dart types of things, or ticks into my body, which has happened to me. This has all been extremely difficult. I have been desperately groping for answers - to figure out what I can do to keep surviving. A week or so ago I planned to go up the coast of Maine to a place where I may have been able to take long walks in more peace (without being swarmed by vehicles anyway) and be able to leave my car under a security camera, but had realized, a few days ago, that this would most likely not be safe, due to the threat of them possibly creating a tidal wave if I go too far up the coast of Maine. I think I already avoided this tidal wave situation, which I'd had a precognitive dream about, but am not completely sure that they would not try again, in certain areas. There seems nothing I can do to try to regain my physical strength and inner balance, at this point. I am too trapped. Although this is horrible, things could get even worse, in some ways, if I did not have the freedoms that a vehicle provides me with - if I was forced to stay in a stationary place, it could be worse in some ways although better in other ways. There seems no good answer to my dilemma, without the proper kinds of help and protection that obviously are still not available for me.

P.S. 5/8/2018; There is also another place I was going to go to in Maine, but it now appears that the recent threats to disable my vehicle applied to if I left New Hampshire.

Attempt to Block My Phone

   Before the 20th of this month there was a charge to my phone that would have prevented it from renewing and continuing to function if I had not caught it on time. Then, after I caught it and fixed it, a charge was drummed up to still prevent it from renewing. Was this to prevent someone from reaching me or was it yet another attempt to make me lose my phone number or possibly part of another aim to force me to get another phone - a "smartphone"? I don't want another phone, especially not the ones that the satanic covert program uses, and I should be able to keep my phone number, which is in many of my publications.
   I have been forced, many times in the past, to lose or change my phone numbers and I have been fighting to not let them do this anymore. But every now and then they sneak in something like this month and I do not know for sure what the reasons behind it are. Maybe just to harass me and make things difficult, which works. I want it to stop.

Thursday, April 19, 2018



Another stormy day in a winter
That's too reluctant to leave.
We impatiently await the Spring
They tucked up it's sleeve. 

I wrote this about a week ago.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

To Silence my Singing?

   I have been hit hard with attacks on my throat and lungs and sinuses since the beginning of January. The reasons could be many but it also started shortly after I started playing and singing one of my new songs more often more fluently. They started with painful laser shots to my body as I sang. And then I started getting sick in ways that prevented my singing. I am not doing very well on any level. And I feel scared of the ways this seems to be headed. But I am still praying for a miracle and protection from further harm of all kinds.

My Freedom's Peace song is the one they had an issue with; https://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2017/11/yearn-for-freedoms-peace.html I hope I can sing it again, someday.

Is There Something in Certain Vitamins Which Aids Technological Mind Control?

    I know a targeted woman who had odd symptoms around her monthly cycles and was advised, by a doctor, to take a certain type of vitamins. Her symptoms went away when she took the vitamins but she changed in ways that now seem to me like she became more controlled. So, I can not help but wonder of her symptoms were technologically generated and if the prescribed vitamins had something in them to aid technological mind control.

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Birth Certificate Changed In City Hall?

   While I recently tried to find my money I noticed a misspelling of my name on my birth certificate. (An N was typed in as an M in one of my name changes)
   Today I went to the City Hall where I was born and the clerk there told me that my last two name changes were not even on my birth certificate in her computer system. She then looked for the physical file and could NOT find it. "It must have been misfiled" she said. She was a bit sarcastic, trying to tell me that "name changes do not just appear on a birth certificate" without me reporting them and bringing in the proper paperwork...etc. But I had brought in the proper paperwork and HAD gotten a copy of my birth certificate WITH the name changes on it in 2007 and then again in 2011. Between 2007 and 2011 my married name (Sharon Buck) had been wiped off of my birth certificate. And between 2011 and now BOTH of my legal name changes had been wiped off of my birth certificate in their system. Why?
   She called Concord who came up with the same thing at first. Then I showed her the copy of my birth certificate, which they gave me in 2011, and then, after she told Concord (two times) that I had produced a copy WITH the name changes on it, they were able to find a physical file that affirmed the name changes. Before I left she said its all fixed in the system, including returning the M to an N. But I am still finding this all really disturbing. How can important, legal birth certificate information get wiped out and files get lost? What would have happened if I had not produced the last copy that THEY had given me through their system? Is it because I am being targeted? What were the intentions behind it? Is it part of the abduction process and its aims to wipe out our existence or was it all really just an honest mistake or is someone fabricating these things and using puppets in official places just to harass me?
   Even if that was really fixed, and stays fixed, there is still the problem of my Buck name being wiped out. She told me it was never on my birth certificate, but it really was and how would she even know it wasn't since NONE of my names were even in her system? While I talked to her a security guard came to talk to people next to me, and loudly said, "Its crazy" just like they did at the DOT during the problems with my replacing my VALID license. I looked at him and said, "Me too," but I was not in the mood to laugh at my own joke like I usually do.

Lost Bank Account!

   I recently checked on my lost bank account and found that Fleet Bank did not keep records and underwent a merger in 2005, which complicates things even further. They said that the money should have gone to the state I live in after it being assumed that it was abandoned. But it does not appear to be in any of the states I lived in either. One clerk told me that it could be under a different name if there was a spelling error, which is like looking for a needle in a haystack. But it was not listed under my social security number either, and how could both have been misspelled in their system?
   This is really discouraging, because, since I remembered my back-up bank account, I had hoped to get at least this bit of my money back and perhaps be able to buy a piece of land and build a camping shelter. Even just a humble place of my own, in a peaceful setting, could have felt like heaven to me right now. Do I have to let go of that hope too? It appears so.

P.S. During this process I did find a typing mistake in a name on my birth certificate, but found nothing under that spelling either.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Free Download of my Yearn for Freedom book

   Since things aren't going well for me I feel I should also offer this book for free. But please do not freely download it unless you honestly can not afford to buy it.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

I'm Sorry. I Can't.

   For many years now, I have gotten different types of threats due to things in my writings, which exposes key parts of the targeting. I can not erase from my writings anything that can prove the targeting, which has not yet been proven. And I can not even consider erasing anything connected to the pharmaceutical and technological mind control and the enslavement of human beings - the destruction of the Heart and Soul of humanity, which my life's work had aimed to remedy. Asking me to do this is like asking me to defy the real God and join the evil forces. I can not do it of my own free will and I hope it does not happen any other way.

I believe that those who try to force me into the lethal silence are those who perform the targeting. I hope that officials can be here before too many more of us are silenced in any of the ways that it has been being done.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Dream of My Death Due to Something About Water

   Over a decade ago I had a dream that I die due to something connected with water or my saying something about water. And I now think that it is probably about my exposing the 2008 news reports about drugs being found in public drinking water supplies and the dream I had, around the year 2000, about dark people putting something harmful in a public water supply. . .and my sharing my feelings that this is all connected to the technological mind control, which is aided by certain chemicals and/or pharmaceuticals.
   But this is just one of the many courses this could take and it does not have to be this way. The deaths in my old dreams, I am learning, may not always be about physical death and may be about the damage that is being done to the minds of people who are completely enslaved. I hope that my brain and heart and instincts and intuition are not damaged anymore than they already have been, because I want to recover from what they have done to me. I also hope that they do not physically kill me. I do not want to die before my time or at the hands of the criminals who are targeting me. I feel that my personal situation could and should be going a different way, but that depends upon others people's choices. So what do I do? I can not erase from my writings anything that can prove the targeting, which has not yet been proven, especially anything connected to the pharmaceutical and technological mind control and the enslavement of human beings - the destruction of the Heart and Soul of humanity, which my life's work had aimed to remedy. Asking me to do this is like asking me to defy the real God and join the evil forces. I can not do it of my own free will and I hope it does not happen any other way.
    I believe in standing up for what we feel is right, especially when it exposes, and aims to stop, things that are damaging and/or destroying the most important parts of people, especially little defenseless children - the future of humanity. How can any of us live with ourselves if we chose to fall silent about these things, which is akin to joining the criminals who torture and harm us.
  I believe in the following phrase, although (to me) has nothing to with being Christian or not and everything to do with caring about ourselves and others. MLK wrote it about segregation, but it fits the psychological and spiritual destructions that have been being inflicted upon humanity with ALL levels of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

“If physical death is the price that some must pay to free their children from a permanent life of psychological death, then nothing could be more Christian.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr.

However, I feel that, in this movement for Freedom from technological mind control...etc., the pioneers, like Jim Keith and Jerry E. Smith, already stood and were taken down and that its now time for the survival of the brave Hearts who dare to openly stand up against it. We may not ALL survive. People, like me, who are too isolated and have no protection or support of loved ones are too vulnerable. But others, especially officials and main stream media, could safely stand up. I had a dream about people deciding to stand up and that they did not get hurt for doing so. I believe in that dream. The time for this to happen for me is probably passed, but its not passed for others or the rest of humanity. Please let your Hearts stand for humanity's Freedom and all who are suffering.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

MLK Quotes

  Today, on the anniversary of Martin Luther King's murder, I searched for important things he said and found many that can be applied to the crisis that too many are being hurt by. I do not believe in all that MLK said, but believe in the following quotes and the need for more people to let their Hearts break the lethal silence and unite in Peaceful stands for the regaining of our Freedom. 

“Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will.”

“A man has not begun to live until he can rise above the narrow confines of his own individual concerns to the broader concerns of all of humanity.”

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

“In the end we will remember not the words of our enemies but the silence of our friends.” 

“The ultimate tragedy is not the oppression and cruelty by the bad people, but the silence over that by the good.”

“Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for Freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hate.“

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only Love can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only Love can do that.”

“Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.”

“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional Love will have the final word.”

“Man must evolve, for all of human conflict, a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is Love.”

“The time is always right to do what is right.”

“A right delayed is a right denied.”

“The true measure of a man is not how he behaves in moments of comfort and convenience, but how he stands at times of controversy and challenge.”

“Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed.”

“We must learn that to expect God to do everything while we do nothing is not faith.” 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, April 3, 2018

Still Sick

   I'm sure I look like I just have a cold or flu, but I have been being hit hard with microwaves and periodic painful tortures of my brain since last Wednesday morning.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, April 2, 2018

Gun Control

   I still feel that the general ownership of guns is NOT the problem. I feel that most, if not all, of the shootings, are really part of an evil covert targeting of humanity and America. I strongly feel that many, if not all, of the unusual problems we are faced with, including the shootings and the belief that the problem will be solved if guns are taken away from everyone, are directly due to technological mind control, which should be being exposed and stopped.
   I feel that the space and ground based technologies, which have been being used on humanity for mind control, are the most dangerous weapons that human beings have ever owned, especially since they hurt us in ways that are not obvious and in ways that damage, block or destroy our hearts and instincts and spirits and natural perceptions...etc., and can brainwash people into doing things that they would not do on their own accord. And then there is the pharmaceutical part. The combination of technological mind control, and its aiding pharmaceuticals, is the most lethal weapon humanity has ever owned. This is the weapon that should be immediately removed from the hands of EVERYONE who could use it to harm or manipulate human beings...etc.

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

P.S. I do feel that there should be more restrictions, like ones that prevent children from carrying guns around...etc. and more focus on protection at schools and more awareness of the mind control happening and its effect on people so that people can be pulling together to support each other and possible severe mind control victims until it can be completely stopped.
   There is a problem with people who are labeled as "mentally ill" not being allowed to own guns, because many genuinely targeted and harassed victims have been being falsely labeled as mentally ill, instead of helped, and this is just yet another unfair destruction of their rights. I am sure that there are some genuinely mentally ill people who could be a danger to themselves or others, of their own free will. But, due to what I have witnessed and experienced, I feel that MOST people, who have been labeled as mentally ill are not really ill and that the false label has been imposed upon them, in order to administer the pharmaceuticals, which aid technological mind control...etc. These people are victims of crimes and they should not be losing more freedoms and rights, they should be regaining the ones that have already been stolen from them.

The Opioid Epidemic

   I can not help but feel that the opioid epidemic is a direct result of the covert targeting of humanity. The general technological mind control programing actually pushes people toward unhealthy addictions through actual brain washings. I have experienced and witnessed this happening to people. And the more specific mind control can make individuals forget taking a dose and then take it again...etc. Technological mind control is more effective on people who are taking mind and emotion numbing drugs, and so these people can be more easily forced into suicide as well. I feel that the deaths are probably just one part of an evil eugenics based targeting of humanity. I strongly feel that the CORE PROBLEM, with the opioid epidemic, as well as many of the other problems we are faced with, is technological mind control, which should be being exposed and stopped.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

I Got My License Back, But. . .

   I got my second new license and it now has the gold star in the corner, which deems it as "valid" as the one they took from me to begin with. However, this one has a little defect in the coloration on the top back side of it, and I have wondered if that is just a less conspicuous way of flagging me as a possible danger or criminal...etc. Its probably just me being too suspicious, due to what happened. I hope so anyway.
   I am not the one who should be restricted or stopped in any way or form. (There has already been too much of that in my life.) Its those who target me who should be stopped so I can be free. . .and the same should apply for every other torture victim. We are not the ones who are the criminals and we should not be treated as such.

No More Threats Please!

   I do not want to be shoved into a desperate place, due to my vehicle being disabled, (or any other excuse) just to be forced into a covert abduction. Attempts of this, and threats of this, have happened a lot since June of 2013. And I am now experiencing yet another round of threats to do this to me. It could also make me lose what little is left of my belongings! I hope they do not succeed or even try. I've been through too much. I deserve the opposite - kind, compassionate help that relieves my distress, instead of adding to it...etc. I don't know what I am going to do at the end of this month, when my car becomes uninspected, like they also threatened to do, before doing it. This is all horribly distressing on top of the vamp up in all levels of the targeting in past few days.

   I am also getting death threats in the form of another round of an unusual amount of dead animals left in roads I frequent. I hope they remain empty.

There is Proof!

     There is solid physical proof of the enslavement of human beings and the technological part of the  targeting of families and Targeted Individuals. All we need is officials acknowledging that the targeting is indeed happening and honest medical people to run a few simple tests and/or take a few easy Xrays. There are large, and VERY detectable microchips in at least some long term victims. Medical tests can prove the brain damage that has been done to many children and adults. There are empty graves of abducted and completely enslaved victims... and there are chains of events and physical damages that are caused by the general technological targeting...etc. We just need officials to be here for us, and to use the OBVIOUS physical parts of the evidence to help stop ALL of the targeting from continuing. . .BEFORE more of the evidence (including us) is destroyed. This should be happening, instead of us having to prove our sanity, in a profession that is used to discredit us and take away what little is left of our freedoms, on top of everything else. . .and instead of us continuing to be abducted and enslaved or psychologically destroyed or physically killed...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

For the Children

 I cringe when I think of the damage that certain types of pharmaceuticals, which were reported to have been found in drinking water in 2008, has been doing to our children. I feel that there is also some damaging pharmaceuticals that are being pushed upon children for various types of "illnesses." And then there's the technological mind control part that is made too easy after the pharmaceuticals are administered. Its all just too horrible - innocent and defenseless minds and hearts being damaged or suppressed. I hope its all exposed and completely stopped soon. Please do everything in your power to help set humanity free. Please!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, March 30, 2018

More Vamp Ups!

   Recently, I went to a government building and passed out my Calling all Hearts paper and have experienced heavy swarms since then. I didn't ask for help for myself. I guess I should have. I certainly need it, but I need it from people who are already aware and will not assume that I am just "mentally ill," because I have already been through too much and need the opposite.
   I was heavily targeted the past few times that I had only PLANNED to pass out some of these papers. I blew through that wall and spontaneously did a batch of it anyway. I guess I took another chance due to it appearing like its close to the end of the road for the tiny bit of freedom that having a vehicle gives me. They appear to be forcing me to take it off the road in the end of April. I don't know how I'll survive without a vehicle and don't know how I'll be able to keep what little is left of my infiltrated belongings and writings. I am too much at the mercy of those who target me. I do not know what I'll do at the end of April. It seems like there is nothing I can do, about my personal situation, but if I can help more people to be aware, of the general problem, there may be more hope for the rest of humanity. Please help print and pass out this paper; http://www.poeticpublications.com/callinghearts5.pdf

P.S. 4-2-2018; Heavy technological and covert harassment vamp up since Wednesday morning. It also appears that I have been hit with some sort of chemical that is making me ill again, but some (if not all) of it may be being technologically induced. I am experiencing periods of painful torture of my brain, especially in the top left part of my brain, which appear to be being disguised under the appearance of my having something like a flue or cold.  As I write this the torture of this part of my brain is starting again!

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, March 26, 2018

The Vulture!

    A vulture landed next to me in a parking lot yesterday! This felt like a bad sign. I prayed for protection from harm. And then the targeting vamped into yet another round of painful blasts to my head and sexual assaults that inflicted pain, burning and bleeding skin last night and this morning.
   This morning I turned down a road that I usually take, and saw a woman on the side of the road angrily facing a police officer as two other cars pulled away and an ambulance approached the scene. Was it street theater? Was it yet another threat to have me institutionalized?

 Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, March 24, 2018

"I Had a Dream My Life Would Be So Different From This Hell I'm Living"

    I am sure that all of us long term Torture Victims - Targeted Individuals can relate to much of this song - the pain and the lost dreams and lost loved ones, "As they tear your hope apart and turn your dream to shame.... I Had a Dream My Life Would Be So Different From This Hell I'm Living" But we must hold onto hope and faith until the Light shines for us, difficult though it often is.

Anne Hathaway - I Dreamed a Dream


The Tear

That tear rolling down your face;
Don't wipe it away. Just let it stay
For all of the human race.

   I sat thinking, this morning, about this horrible thing that is happening to humanity, the technological and pharmaceutical mind control, which has been blocking people's Hearts, and the enslavement of humanity and the tortures against those of us who are less controllable or who refuse to join the evil secret society - covert program. . .and my heart ached for all of us, for those who are enslaved in the program and those of us who are being tortured and others who have not stood up to stop it from continuing. As a tear rolled down my cheek I thought of the above part of a poem I wrote long ago. I didn't wipe the tear away.
   And then my heart was hit with a laser weapon as ravens swooped in screeching. It hurt, but not nearly as much as the inner pain I feel for the harm that has been being inflicted upon too many of us.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, March 23, 2018

I Give Up

  I just can not do a good enough job with the exposing and reporting of this stuff while still being targeted, and after all that I have been through. I guess if there is not going to be help from the Heart of officials who already know, after all that I have already written and sent out, through all these years, there is not much hope for any of us.

P.S. For the sake of my own health I should be just focusing on my own feelings and surviving, at this point, although I am not free enough to fully do this either.