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Saturday, October 19, 2019

An Unusually Obvious Library Computer Infiltration

   This morning a librarian puppet had a computer pass put aside for me and then my emails were all wiped out of my email account when I opened it. Then they had a puppet say, "you have to be careful what you write." after it was done. I had been pulling together this little article for my Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom when they



Plight of Torture Victims

We have been unheard victims lost beneath lies.
We have been the fading ones put on a list to die.
We have been the rising wounded begging for aide,
While becoming specks of dust in an evil charade.

And this must change.

   There are different types of Targeted Individuals (Tis). I can only speak for those of us who are long term victims of covert harassment, criminal use of satellite surveillance, tortures inflicted with laser (or microwave) weapon systems...etc., because this is what I've experienced. (I call us “Torture Victims.”)
   Long term Torture Victims have been being hurt in ways that most of you probably cannot even imagine could be happening. So, I beg you to stretch your imagination and read with your Heart, because we need your understanding and compassion. This is just a very quick over view of our plight.

   In general, the targeting starts out so inconspicuously that we do not even realize that we are being watched and targeted. Those who target us watch us and manipulate our lives in various ways.
When we are less controllable than most people, which all of us naturally seem to be, the targeting vamps up and we can think we are just having a lot of bad luck during chains of targeting that include the instigation of "accidents" and various types of losses of loved ones.
   If we start figuring out that something is not right - if we become a threat to the secrecy of the program the targeting vamps up even more. They hold us under constant satellite surveillance and aim to isolate us from all possible sources of help. They shove us into destitution through sabotaging our relationships, homes, vehicles, businesses, bank accounts...etc. Aside from the painful technological tortures and covert harassment, the long list of things done to us includes intentional inflictions of illness, intentional inflictions of odd types of parasites, periods of being drugged and brainwashed, intentional deprivation of things we love or need or want most, intentional interference with our brain function at strategic times, intentional deprivation of Love and care, slander of our character or work, framings and it can even get as bad as intentionally orchestrated rapes and thefts and the destruction of our personal property.
   Our community members are used to harass us or spread false rumors about us...etc. Even some of our own loved ones have been used against us - either through being brainwashed into thinking that we are not really being targeted and are just "mentally ill" and should be institutionalized or through them being recruited or enslaved into the program to help harass us...etc. Our loved ones are often victims too, especially of the technological mind control part of the targeting.
   Once they have isolated us from all sources of help they actually want us to know that we are being targeted, because they have set things up so that when we tell people about various parts of the targeting we appear “crazy” to all who are not aware of what they can do. People who are brainwashed tend to instantly and blindly disbelieve us, and assume that we are mentally ill, without even checking into other possibilities. . .heaping even more pain and distress onto what we already carry.

No problem ever got solved by misdiagnosing it,
but it can get a lot worse through misdiagnosing it.

   As we struggle to get validation or help with stopping the targeting we can run into extremely infiltrated and sometimes dangerous web forums that are used to perpetuate the targeting or to abduct and enslave or get rid of victims who have become aware of the targeting. There has been a strong aim to abduct and get rid of all types of genuine Targeted Individuals who are a threat to the secrecy of the dark program. And this has been being done under the guise of it being a covert "rescue." I'm sure this deceptive "rescue" has worked on many victims because they can use genuinely good people in the foreground of this process, sometimes even our own enslaved loved ones. And they sometimes put a victim through horrible levels of physical torture and life threatening situations in order to force them into leaping and agreeing to leave their lives, "forever."
   The prevention of genuine help being here for us has even included the covert targeting of, or the sly enslavement and controlling of, or the inconspicuous murdering of receptive people whom we have turned to for help, including officials. These targetings have succeeded primarily due to a lack of awareness of them. The lives of long term Torture Victims leaves a long trail of many other sorts of victims. Complete awareness of, and prevention of the success of, ALL levels of the targeting must happen quickly.

 The answer is NOT to rip the victim out of their own lives - it is to rip the targeting out of the victim's life and out of the lives of their loved ones and out of the lives of all who should be able to be sources of help.

Criminal use of all types of radio wave technologies must be stopped as quickly as possible, especially those that can inflict physical illnesses and interfere with natural brain function...etc.

   There should be complete public awareness of all aspects of the targeting so that aware Torture Victims can start getting the validation, understanding, compassion and support that they should have, so that all other types of victims can realize what has been happening to them and get the same, and so that the rest of humanity can understand and care be free of the targeting as well.

   My gut feeling is that most victims of this technological holocaust are not aware of being targeted and, on top of the technological tortures and covert harassment, they struggle with thinking that there is something wrong with them or that they are bad or that it is their “Karma” or they start blaming the wrong people...etc.The targeting forces victims to lose trust in themselves and their loved ones and their fellow human beings, which in itself is horribly destructive. It also aims to make victims feel completely unloved. This has been tearing targeted families apart.
Healthy and genuine victims have been being shoved into institutions or toward other parts of a field of psychiatry that is HEAVILY involved in the targeting and has been being used to commit holocaustal levels of crimes against humanity in multiple ways.

I don't want to be left to evil pretenses of helping hands.
I need to be comforted by those who can care to understand.
I don't want to be declared insane for their hateful gain.
I need you to soothe my wounds instead of inflicting more pain.
I don't want you to watch from a silent distance while I slowly die.
I need you to stand here beside me as I pray to God and cry.

I understand how difficult it is to believe that this is really happening to people, but it is. What is happening to us is as inhumane as inhumane can possibly get. We are suffering indescribably - we are suffering in ways that no human being should EVER have to endure. Please realize the Truth and care to help freedom to be restored to us well as the rest of humanity. There is more my Yearn for Freedom Book and the Return of Wisdom part of this book.

Friday, October 11, 2019

I Count Too.

I do.

A Hawk's Revenge?



Yesterday morning, before the chain of harassment a the library, I had seen a hawk flying for the right to the left. When I see this the targeting usually vamps up to horrible torture levels and its is surely about vengeance.    Yesterday I had also been swarmed with buses and other stuff that made it obviously another round of  trying to get me to agree to blindly join and follow the covert program. I said no and even explained my distrust of anything covert. Last night, as my brain continued being lasered, I angrily scolded them for their behaviors and then horrible painful torture and fear of being brain damaged kept me up half the night.

    Apparently someone thought I made them "look bad" in my Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom book. I don't know who but this was certainly not my intentions with anyone - on the contrary - I remained extremely objective and did not even get into details of my personal experiences with any officials. But I was honest and I did not follow covert orders, issued through librarians by an unknown person with unknown intentions, to erase parts about drugs being found in water, to erase my names from it and to put no copyright and no mailing address and to erase my mention of how the Ramblings of a Targeted Individual Books have important things in them and should not be removed from the web to be fixed until I am safe...etc. Today I found three pages missing from the pdf  of the book, which I'd put on the web. Was due to things they erased from it in library computers? Probably. I re-uploaded it into both the web and my publishing site, with a new note in the back. Hopefully it remains as I wrote it, although they have forced it to remain unfinished, at this point.

Today I'm still hurting a bit and feel weak and exhausted and sad and so discouraged and disappointed that they did this to me again - hurt me and attacked me instead of understanding my distrust, and instead of accepting my wish to not join or be used by an unknown person with unknown intentions and who has repeatedly demonstrated vengeful torturous ways, that even included another threat to disable my car while they tortured me with a laser weapon last night. Apparently if I join them and be an obedient puppet they will stop torturing me and give me an RV. Who would trust that? And this seems to be the hawks - the FBI STILL doing this to me after years me saying no already! Is it the hawks or someone who wants me to think its them? Whom ever it was last night started the painful torture after a set up that appears to be them wanting me to blame local police.

P.S. In the past week they suddenly started monetary deprivation as well, in the form of again having the Share program deny me help to pay for my phone and some food, which they usually do.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, October 10, 2019

Published Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom

   Like all else that I have done while being targeted and having no protection from it and no peaceful place to work in, its not what it should be or could be if I were not in this situation. But its done as good as I can do it under these conditions.

Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom


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Harassment at Library

 They are obviously trying to trigger me and make me react negatively today.

   Today there was a vamp up in the usual harassment at the library I have been frequenting in the past two weeks. When I walked in a librarian confronted me and said other librarians had complained about me taking breaks for too long while reserving a computer. (Puppets had been rushing in to try to use the computer I use, even though other computers were available.) Today one of the puppets (not sure if it was a librarian one or not) completely shut down and wiped my stuff off of the computer I was using after I took ONLY a five min break and had locked the screen, which is an option so that people CAN take a break and not have the computer taken over. A puppet also left trash at the spot I go to on break today - a usual harassment thing. They were lasering my brain into anger as they did all these things to harassed me.

I came to the conclusion that I could not finish my Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom book and ended the project early - and published it as it was. They seem to have a long standing pattern of actually backing off and letting me do new projects up until I am almost done and then they rushing in to sabotage. Foolish of me to even try under these conditions and at a public place where there is no peace...etc. But I want to do my work and waiting for help to come so I can continue it has proven to be futile. I should be able to do something other than just sitting in a car in parking lots being tortured, which shouldn't even be happening at all!!!

   I was able to update and fix some of the things they did to sabotage my work website this morning...

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Attempt to Deprive me of Food

They recently manipulated documents in efforts to prevent me from continuing to receive food stamp benefits, which I really need in order to survive. I am not sure if this happened at the bank with the wrong statements printed out or swapped after that. But it seemed to be at the bank.

My Hair has been falling out

Lately I am experiencing another round of what appears to be my hair slowly falling out due to being hit with heavy doses of radiation. I have less than half of my usual thickness of hair, at this point. 

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

Looking Out

Looking Out and Back Again

I was looking back and looking out
Beyond my life's un-sorted mess,
For the children and all the world
That needs our hearts to bless.
Then it broke and it dried
My rounds of un-shed tears.
The shock of death and unkindness
Returned to me lost years.
My love for them remains.
I know they are controlled.
It wasn’t them – their love for me
Because it would have showed.
Again I look into that ditch
My heart and pain can see.
How? How do I save them?
How do I set them free?

I wrote this as I worked on Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom 

Monday, October 7, 2019

Another Death

 
The death, of my youngest daughter's father in law happened "sooner than expected" three days ago.  A couple years ago or so, I'd seen ravens swarming above the area he lived. Then knew he was a target when I later heard of him becoming ill. His death, at this time - after threats and vamp ups in the targeting on me, is probably not a coincidence, especially since a tactic of the dark ones is to attack a loved one or someone close to a loved one.
   My daughter said that he died at home surrounded by his loved ones and this is consoling because it means that must  now truly be in a FAR better place and not a victim of the enslavement and staged death after an abduction from a hospital. I'm glad he is free and his suffering is over, but he should have had more time here with his health in tact. It was not his time to go. And this is horribly sad for him and everyone who was close to him.
   I wish so much that I could be there for my daughter at this time, without even the chance of the targeting vamping up and making things worse for her or me. It is just too wrong that this can not happen and that the targeting has kept us apart for so long.
 


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, October 5, 2019

To Save the Children

   I have been being hit pretty hard as I work on my Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom. Today my neck has been painfully lasered and my brain is being hit so hard with whatever they do to slow down mental activity, that I feel retarded. I have also found several changes being made to my writings.

To Save the Children

Thursday, October 3, 2019

Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom

The last vamp up in the targeting, which appears to have included yet another aim to abduct me, started directly after I decided to return to and finish the project that the article below is part of.

Wisdom's Beacon for Freedom

Tuesday, October 1, 2019

May they be hurt no more.

It appears that I recently received more threats against my children, primarily my oldest daughter. That puppet, whom they sent into a store to act like a crude terrorist, had also said, "You too.....curly hair" as he left. I'm praying for safety for her and my other daughter and all others who have already been hurt by the targeting. May they be hurt no more.


Calling All Hearts
Last updated in 2019

    Most people are aware that radio waves can be shot, from space, down to their homes, businesses or whole communities for the purpose of internet access. But most people have not been aware that these technologies can be criminally used – that condensed beams of radio waves (microwaves) can also be shot into human beings, disrupting brain and body functions in ways that range from mild to lethal. I understand how difficult the information below may be for some people to believe, but please give it the benefit if your doubt. This is not a "theory" - it is a reality that has been having negative effects on most of humanity and humanity's awareness will help restore freedom and enable recovery to begin.
    Among many other things, certain types of radio waves shot into the human brain can inflict physical pain, mental numbness, confusion, unusual mood swings, forgetfulness, sleeplessness, brain-washings, human enslavement...etc. It is the root cause of most of the mental numbness, heartlessness, "mental illness", terrors and wars that now plague our world. Radio waves shot into other parts of the human body can cause physical pain, fatigue, autoimmune diseases - lupus, cancers, lung inflictions, thyroid problems, heart attacks, brain damage...etc.
   Masses of people, including children, have been being intentionally harmed or controlled, in various ways, through the past several decades. The suffering has been immense. This has already hit holocaust levels and must be stopped as quickly as possible, especially for the sake of our children - humanity's future. Criminal use of ground and space based technologies that emit and direct radio waves, and their aiding pharmaceuticals, is the most dangerous thing humanity has ever been face with and it must be stopped as quickly as possible.

President John F. Kennedy exposed part of this crisis when he said, “Today no war has been declared - and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack... we are opposed, around the world, by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarily on covert means… [This is] a challenge that confronts us in unaccustomed ways in every sphere of human activity."
    There is documented scientific proof that experiments, on the effects of radio waves (microwaves or scaler waves...etc.), being shot into the human body, began around the early 1900s by scientists like Nicola Tesla who ended up inventing the X-ray machine. Other uses of these types of technologies have been creating a holocaustal situation in humanity since then.
   Hints of the technological targeting leaked into the mainstream media, in the 1970s, when part of MKULTRA and Russia’s microwaving of the American Embassy were reported, but not much has been reported since then.
   The late Philip Coppens reported that "In April 1953, CIA Allen Dulles gave a lecture at Princeton University, detailing Soviet developments in the field of mind control. He stated they were out to control the mind of free men, both individually and collectively. . . Dulles proclaimed that the Cold War was moving into a new era of psychological warfare, which Dulles characterized as the battle for men's minds. "We might call it in its new form brain warfare.” "
      Veteran Author, Jim Keith had stated that, "Brain-computer radio communication has long been considered impossible by the majority of people and has consequently been relegated to science-fiction, but the fact is that the technology had been developed into reality by at least the 1960s…”  

   Technological mind control has been found to be most effective on people who are taking certain types of pharmaceuticals, like the antidepressants that have been being heavily pushed upon humanity. These types of pharmaceuticals were reported, in the main stream media in 2008, to have been found in at least 24 USA public drinking water supplies as well as in bottled water. The pharmaceuticals have been blocking people's senses and feelings, rendering masses of people unable to access their own instincts and intuition as well as extremely important feelings like compassion for themselves and others, and enables more success with technological mind control. It is vitally important, especially in children, that feelings and senses are not interfered with or blocked, because it is through embracing our feelings that we are able to grow into healthy and whole human beings. And it is through following our instincts that we are able to safely navigate our way through our lives.

   As this problem is faced, and people aim to restore freedom, it is vitally important that we refrain from all types of violence and be VERY careful to not misplace blame. Most of humanity has already been enslaved in varying degrees and must be set free as quickly as possible and part of the general mind control programing has already brainwashed many people into mis-judging instead of understanding, misperceiving instead of sensing, seeking revenge instead of peaceful resolution, hating instead of caring...etc. It has been pitting victims, loved ones, organizations, citizens and governments, countries...etc., against each other. Already, in a dark pretense to end this crisis, innocent people or organizations and victims have been being set up to be blamed, perpetuating the destruction. This must not continue this way! This must be stopped. The hell can't end through raising more hell. Victims cannot be helped through being hurt more.

GENUINE freedom can and should be gained through
 compassion and understanding and awareness and people,
 organizations, countries pulling together to help each 
other instead of fighting against each other. 

   Those who are fully responsible for this crisis are those who started it and have been hiding far behind the scenes and everyone whom they have used through either deceit or mind control are victims too. We must look with compassion toward even those have been used to hurt us. The wars must stop. They just have to.

Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for the
 HEART of humanity to rise into a strong, PEACEFUL, stand for Freedom.

    In another part of this crisis there is a secret society that has had people fighting in covert wars "for freedom", while actually being used to help destroy freedom. It appears that some members have been deceived into thinking it is a good thing. Other members are completely enslaved mind control victims, some of which whose deaths have been staged. They also use unaware people, who are not members - performing mind control on them at strategic times. The people whom they use are mostly (if not all) mind control victims to some degree. And they have been being used to surveil and harass, and even technologically torture their fellow human beings, especially those who have realized what has been happening but do not have enough support.

   In 2019 CBS news reported people being targeted in the U.S. Embassy in Cuba. The report said that they, "suffered serious brain injuries causing impaired vision and memory loss among other persistent symptoms. Now, we've learned that at least 15 American officials in China suffered unexplained brain trauma soon after."
    It was good to see part of the technological types of targeting come out into the main stream media, but we need it all out. This has not only been happening to officials in foreign countries, its been happening to common citizens who have been being assumed to be just "mentally ill". I'm surprised that New York times did not make this connection after the Cuba incident, because they did an article on torture victims - "Targeted Individuals" in 2015. Perhaps its yet to come.

    I beg citizens of the world, including government officials to please give this information the benefit of your doubt. Please copy and share this paper with as many people as possible. Gather loved ones and neighbors into supportive groups, stay calm and act peacefully. Do all that you can to help stop criminal use of radio wave technologies and the pharmaceuticals that aid technological mind control. Avoid the covert program/secret society and openly stand up for freedom. Follow your own Hearts and instincts above all else - hopefully they are intact. Pray or wish for and do all that you can to implement the restoration of our Freedom and safety.

Attention Officials; There may be modes of technological “protection” that have been a sly enslavement. And there may be filters, which bypass the low frequencies used for mind control, built into radio wave detection and blocking technologies. I hope this is investigated.

Find more information in my sixth edition of, "Technological Holocaust" on Amazon.
(The one with a white cover, which can also be freely downloaded by anyone who honestly cannot afford it on
www.poeticpublications.co)

This information is based on things I’ve either witnessed, experienced or sensed since the 1970s. I am Sharon Rose Poet. I was previously known as Sharon LaBree and Sharon Buck. My pen name was Namatari Neachi, which was also my legal name for several years. My mailing address is Sharon R. Poet PO Box 383, Mont Vernon, NH 03057.

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Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Lone Soldier

I have felt like a lone soldier in a war, fighting to keep the strength and courage I need to keep standing and keep my heart in tact, while being pelted with various types of bullets.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
 and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Defy Satanic Forces

They want control,
Lets set us Free.
They want wars,
Lets live in Peace. 
They want hate,
Lets live in Love.
They want the dark,
Lets turn on the Light.

Monday, September 23, 2019

Compassion Grew as Trust Faded

 After realizing the massive scope of the pharmaceutical and technological mind control, and the varied levels of the enslavement of humanity (both inside and outside the government) I began losing trust in human beings, but started feeling more compassion for all who are used by those who target me, especially those who are unaware mind control victims and those who are completely enslaved. They are victims too. They need their freedom restored too.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Terrifying Public Verbal Attack

   After putting up yesterday's posts I was warned of a dark danger by two ravens repeatedly screeching in the trees outside a library. Later, after I was in a grocery store when a man came in and started VERY LOUDLY yelling and repeating things like, "F___K!" "SHUT UP!" "F____K" "F____K" "STOP IT!" "F___K YOU!" "F____K" "F____K" And then the often expressed,  "YOU TOO!"  His voice and attitude was extremely intimidating and threatening. It was the kind of angry demonstration that made me (and probably many other people as well) wonder if the next step was going to be him pulling a gun to start shooting people. Its was really bad. Someone called the police and then three cruisers came screeching into the parking lot as I was walking out of the store. I feel certain that this was a covert attack on me although he appeared to be yelling at other people, which is the way the covert messaging stuff happens through puppets that are used. But they obviously  terrorized other people too, which is horrible.
   Just before this happened I was upset and was experiencing yet another painful laser weapon attack due to my crying after talking to those who can hear me in my car, about wanting all the targeting and covert stuff to end. The targeting has had a pattern of vamping up these types of verbal attacks, which they know upset me, when I am already down or hurting. This one was the worse though.
   Due to the timing of this attack I wonder if they wanted me to have a negative reaction and either crumble emotionally or react with anger or have a real heart attack. I kept calm, almost froze, while it was happening. It felt like I almost did have a heart attack after it was over - my heart was racing as I climbed into my car and for a while after. But I did angrily give them hell both then and this morning, in the supposed privacy of my car where I know they can hear me, for sending a belligerent terroristic-type puppet into that store...etc.

This happened at the Goffstown, NH Hannaford around six PM on the twenty second of September 2019

P.S. As I wrote this they had a puppet sit next me - a puppet who has, in the past, also behaved in ways that were angry and belligerent. Thus far all she's done is say "shit" and a lot of intentionally loud sighing types of noises. I hope to leave before she blows up again, or so they don't have her blow up again. Then it appears they had her rush out after I wrote this PS.

   I hope this rampage does not continue. I've already been hurt too much. This, and all other aspects of the targeting, just should NOT be continuing. I think its too distract me, as has often happened. Just before this round started I was planning to pull together a new edition of my Yearn for Freedom book so that I can add more of my personal experiences with the technological types of targeting in it. I believe the validation is needed for other victims. I have not explained nearly enough, due to being targeted too heavily and tortured at strategic times. And this vamp up may be to make sure it stays that way. I hope it does not continue.I can't do much of anything on infiltrated computers anyway. Its just my yearn to get back to my work and follow my heart and do what I fee I should be doing. Its nothing new that I can't, which just makes me yearn to even more. Hopefully they will not torture the yearning out of me.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in puppet rage
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Reason for Covert Targeting Being Depicted in "Fiction" Movies and Books

They appear to want to brain-wash those of us who are aware of the targeting and the rest of the public into thinking that the targeting is all fiction, is not really happening and only comes from fiction movies and books.

 They have heavily pushed me to watch the popular fiction movies that depict the VERY REAL  targeting. But I have sensed, all along, that this would not be a good thing for me to do. I now feel that I know why this instinct kicked in so strong that I actually have not watched any of the moves. After I refused to watch the movies and they could not change my mind, suddenly the Hannaford food store started a book share program in their store - displaying bins and book cases full of books with only suggested donations for payment, basically making them free for me to read. Covert messaging had suggested I read the books. The targeting has been so horrible that I was looking for distractions - periods of escape in the past two years and began picking up these books to read. The technological torture has consistently backed off while I read the books they leave for me at Hannaford, encouraging me to read more in order to have breaks from the torture. I read. They had repeatedly left books of those same movies in the Hannaford book cases. I did not read any of them. But I have read many others and have found it amazing that almost all of the books I read either depicted various parts of the targeting or were VERY OBVIOUSLY sadistic aims to influence people in negative ways and to repeatedly promote products that are part of the targeting, like "coffee" and psychiatric drugs and heartlessness, and they repeatedly tack the "mentally illness" label on symptoms that, in reality, are actually caused by the technological and pharmaceutical targeting....etc.

    I have also experienced repeated attempts to make me wipe out all of my past writings about the targeting and do just one new book about it and I now feel that this is VERY connected to the drive for me to watch the movies and read certain books. These attempts have included technological brain-washings.
   Doing new books to replace my old ones makes sense to me when I think about how much I have realized since I started writing about the targeting and how much my original writings have been being altered and interfered with my those who target me - I naturally think that it would be good to pull my writings all together in a new updated book, so its been hard to resist. I probably would be doing it if I were not being so heavily targeted and if I had not been feeling pressured by perpetration to do it - making it obvious that it would be the wrong thing to do.

   There is not a doubt in my mind that the aim to have my past writings wiped out and them trying to make me watch or read their fiction depictions of the targeting has been so that they can brainwash me, as well as others, into thinking its all fiction - that I got the idea from movies and have just lost touch with reality. I am deeply concerned that this may have happened (or be planned to happen on a large scale) with other genuine and long term targets like myself as well as our loved ones and acquaintances and the general public who reads our writings. (Have the masses of already  abducted/rescued Targeted Individuals been brainwashed into thinking it was all fiction? I hope not. I hope this horrible deception is stopped and the Truth becomes known by all.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, September 22, 2019

Harassment About Animal Abuse

   I was born with a gift of being able to connect to animals with my heart. Before reaching about 15 years old a few people had even thought of me as a bit of "horse whisperer." This was in the late 1960s and  early 1970s. Since I've realized the targeting and started looking back, and also since I started noticing the horrible chains of harassment that accuses me of animal abuse...etc., many puzzle pieces have been clicking together.
   The sadistic covert targeting aims to deprive their primary victims of all that they love, whether its pets or family or products used...etc. But they also take this a few steps further and try to make a good person feel like they are bad...or a healthy person feel like there is something wrong with them mentally or psychologically. This is done in multiple ways, including periods of drugging and brainwashing victims. They even totally fabricate things, like what I shared about what they did to me after the Allstead, NH flood had wiped out my neighborhood.
    With the animal stuff, the harassment about cats flipped into dogs and had been constantly running ads about animal abuse on my computers and on TV, while having puppets surround me with their pets. This harassment has been so sever that I noticed it long before I knew what it was about. Then through intuition and a few memories it started to became obvious.
   One example of the cat thing they hold over my head to make me feel bad happened around 1990. My neighbors pets used to visit my house a lot. I had noticed the cat in the widow inside our shed one day. I figured that someone must have not known she'd walked in and then they left and closed the door - locking her in there.I, or course just had to go let her out. But, oddly, I forgot about it. It was about two days later when I was doing the dishes and looked out the window and saw her in the window again. I was mortified. How could I have forgotten to let her out? I ran out and opened the door and called my neighbor to let them know that she had been in the shed and was heading home. I had felt horrible about forgetting, and I also felt confused, because I actually was not a forgetful type of person, especially about important things like this. I now feel that the forgetting about the cat in the shed was a direct result of technological mind control, because I have both experienced and witnessed the unnatural type of suddenly forgetting important things, at strategic times as part of the targeting... and then later the harassment makes it obvious that it was to make the victims feel bad or some other sort of manipulation. This really does a number on people who are not aware of the mind control or are not aware of even being targeted. I know, because for decades I was not aware.

    I believe that they killed the dog that my children and I had in Andover, NH. The vet had said that her spline had twisted - an extremely rare thing that they did not know the cause of. (I now feel it was probably done with a laser weapon.) The vet had told me that if I had brought her in a couple days earlier he could have saved her - blaming me for her death. I took this hard and beat myself up for not noticing that she was sick until it was too late. I now feel sure that the Vet's blame and my dog's death, was intentionally orchestrated by those who target me, in order to make me feel guilty and grief stricken...and they still plague me about this as well as many other things that THEY did to me. The recent round of them surrounding me with a lot of puppets with dogs was also accompanied with an unusual amount of dead animals in the roads I travel. It is related? Probably.
    I feel certain that my oldest daughter's dog was horribly tortured, in the way of being inflicted with ceisures and aggression and one illness after the other and loss of bowel control at strategic times, just to disrupt our lives (mostly my daughter's life). She loved animals too. Is she now being harassed and made to feel bad about getting angry with her dog Paddy, although her anger was often justified and surely magnified by the mind control that was being performed on her as well? And is she still being made to feel bad about getting rid of Paddy and not being able to love him better and keep him longer than two or so years of hell she was put through with him? Probably. NONE of it was her fault and ALL of it was orchestrated and manipulated by those who target us. They have a pattern of blaming the victim for  things they have done/manipulated and even things that they have fabricated. Its all just too horribly wrong and should not be allowed to continue.

More may be coming soon


Like I have said before, if they'd had their way they would have people, (including myself!) thinking that I am the opposite of what I really am - thinking that I am hateful, vengeful, evil, a lesbian, a pedophile, a prostitute, a murderer, child abuser, a child killer, evil...and now also a pet abuser...etc. - all the things that would mortify me and shame me due to my nature being the complete opposite of these things. And this is the aim - to mortify and shame and tear down things like self-love and self-confidence and self-trust. And it works well when we are not aware. I deeply feel for people who are not aware of the mind control and the fact that they are even being covertly targeted. I feel for them so much that it hurts unbearably at times. I was one of them for a long time. Now, I am so glad that I know and that this knowing takes away their power over me in many ways. I wish all other victims knew what they do. It also helps that I know myself - that with every fiber of my heart and soul, I know that I am the type of person who would not want to hurt anyone, although it is because of this that they have targeted me so horribly.

The aim with a lot of parts of the targeting appears to be multiple things. Aside from tearing away at a victim's self trust and their confidence in their own goodness, some of it is to frame/set up and slander and blackmail victims into leaving their lives forever or into joining the program. I'm sure this has worked well with deflating and enslaving masses of victims who were not aware enough - especially not aware enough of the key aspects of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control...etc., which is horribly sad.

 P.S. I have also gotten severe levels of covert harassment/abuse connected with my having an abortion. The fact that masses of people, who were holding infants, were coming near me, since I had the abortion, was baffling to me even before I knew I was being targeted. Now I know it was all part of the targeting - to make me feel guilty and ashamed and like a child murderer. I feel that early term abortion is OK with God and is better than the alternative in many situations. They can't make me feel bad about having and abortion, especially since I realized the control they have over my life and my children. They have no power over me with this either.

P.S.S. They have also tried to make me feel responsible for the death of our the cat my daughter's and I had in the 1980s. I woke one morning to find him missing and a few clumps of his hair left in the middle of our yard. This was painful loss for my children and I. At the time we all assumed that a coyote had gotten him, but I now wonder if those who target us killed our beloved cat and then did their usual habit of blaming the primary victim (me) for what they did or instigated.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Bad Injection

    Like I've said before, I have had several dreams warning of some sort of injection that is extremely dangerous for me. But I feel that I am not nearly the only one in danger of this. I feel that it may also  be a danger for the rest of humanity, especially heavily targeted families and individuals, and that it may even be done under the common 'guise of help' with things like flu shots.
   I had never wanted or gotten flu shots, long before I knew of the targeting, because I felt/intuited that they can be harmful. I had advised my children and others to not get flu shots since the late 1980s. But this has not saved us all from the danger.
   My oldest daughter was pressured into getting a flu shot, after obtaining and doing well in a job in a hospital, and I suspect that the one they gave her may have been one of the bad ones, because what I now realize was mind control being performed on her, appeared to get a lot worse after she got the flu shot. This had massively ill effects on her life and interfered with her relationship with me as well as others. I love her and pray for her freedom and recovery.

  I'm sure that some injections, like flu shots, are good for people. But I feel that not ALL of them are good and some are lethal to the most important parts of us. Among other things, I suspect that the bad injection effects brain function in ways that enable more complete technological mind control, through dulling (possibly even destroying) senses like intuition, instincts, conscience, compassion...etc. If this is really happening, on either a small or large scale in humanity, it should be completely stopped ASAP, as should the technological mind control and the other pharmaceuticals that aid its success.

P.S. So many people, in all walks of life, seem so controlled that its hard for me to believe that this sort of thing is not happening on a VERY large scale and in mnay different ways and to different degrees with various people, which also explains the drugs, which aid mind control, being found in drinking water. I don't think its just happening in heavily targeted families like mine. I still feel that all of humanity is in serious danger due to being enslaved. This must be stopped ASAP and victims who have been hurt shoudl know what has happened to them to they can recover.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

No Matter What

Even if there really is some good in the covert stuff it blends in with the bad and...

I don't want to join the bad in order to get the good.

 I wish the good would be fully here for us, no matter what.

Saturday, September 21, 2019

I Don't Want to be Hurt Anymore

 I don't want to be hurt anymore, 
especially not 'under the guise of help.'

   I'm experiencing another round of heavy microwaving/torture as well as belligerent, degrading  puppet harassment. The painful radiation/microwaving, in various forms, has been happening more than usual in the past few months. This morning I experienced severe screeching raven warnings at a semi peaceful place I've been parking during the day. I am in pain.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, September 20, 2019

New Descriptions for my Books

    I finally dared to go into the publishing site (Amozon's KDP) that my books were shoved into, in order to fix some of the descriptions, and...  The date on posts (in this blog) that I've been writing new descriptions on (mostly completed on the 16th), have been being changed to the current days date each time I open the post!!! This has happened before on this blog and it also used to happen with files on my computers. It appears to have only happened when I wrote new things - not when I work on previously published things. The updates of my book descriptions, on Amazon, appear to being delayed as well. I don't know if its just appearing that way due to those who target me creating false web pages, because I have also experienced them flashing up false web pages. It may be that they are just trying to disturb me and are not setting up for yet another plagiarizing. Either way I wish it would all stop.

New Description for my Yearn for Freedom book  After I realized that I was being covertly targeted I began looking back over about five decades of odd chains of events and it was like shining a Light into the dark corners of a locked closet. I began realizing that most (if not all) of the "accidents"...etc., were not "just life happening" or "just coincidence" or my "karma" or because there was "something wrong with me" or because I am "bad" or any of the other false or damaging excuses that we and others tend to use when we are not aware of covert targeting. Through this process of looking back a Light also shone on many of my prophetic dreams, as well as things I'd witnessed happening to other victims.
  I quickly realized that I was not nearly the only person who has been being hurt by the targeting. My loved ones and acquaintances have also been harmed and manipulated in various ways - most (if not all) have been either brainwashed or enslaved or killed...etc. I also realized that this horrible situation has been raging through most (if not all) of humanity in various ways and to varying degrees, through  many decades now, and is already a horrible holocaustal crisis that must be completely stopped as quickly as possible, and awareness to be delivered so that recovery can begin.

   This book is my second aim to document the most obvious things, which appear to have been part of the targeting. This is not nearly all of it, but it is the best I can do at this time, due to computer infiltrations and heavy vamp ups in the targeting preventing me from freely continuing to add to it.  I hope this book helps to expose and stop all levels of the targeting of humanity. And I hope it helps to validate other long term targeted individuals and families and others whose understanding and support is needed by all victims.

   Aside from obvious events, there is a hidden core of the targeting of humanity... Space based technologies, like satellites, are well known to have the capability of shooting radio waves (microwaves) down to people's homes and businesses for internet access. But more than this has been happening with these types of technologies. Criminal use of them enables the shooting of beams of radio waves directly into a person's brain or body, affecting people in ways that range from mental numbness to sever brain washings and from mild to lethal physical illnesses. (This can be done to individuals as well as whole communities...etc. The brainwashing part of this is greatly aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, the same ones that 2008 news reports stated were being found in public and bottled drinking water.
   All of the targeting and harming and controlling and suppressing of humanity must be globally realized and completely stopped as quickly as possible so that freedom can be restored and recovery can take place.  The technologies and pharmaceuticals, that have been being used on humanity, has been literally destroying the Heart of humanity, blocking natural feelings, instincts, compassion, intuition...etc. Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for our HEARTS to rise into a PEACEFUL stand for humanity's safety and Freedom.

 Find more information in my books; Technological Holocaust, The Heart Bud and also my Targeted in America book which was my first aim to document the most obvious parts of the targeting.  www.targetedinamerica.com


New description for most recent edition of my Technological Holocaust book;  This book hopes to help bring public awareness to the root cause of most of the problems we are now faced with in our troubled world, with hope for Freedom to be restored for all of humanity, for all types of victims and the rest of humanity to receive the validation, understanding and compassion that is needed for recovery and for Peace and Heart to take over the places where there has been confusion, fear, chaos, terror and covert wars...etc.
  Space based technologies, like satellites, are well known to have the capability of shooting radio waves (microwaves) down to people's homes and businesses for internet access. But more than this has been happening with these types of technologies. Criminal use of them enables the shooting of beams of radio waves directly into a person's brain or body, affecting people in ways that range from mental numbness to sever brain washings and from mild to lethal physical illnesses. (This can be done to individuals as well as whole communities...etc. The brainwashing part of this is greatly aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, the same ones that 2008 news reports stated were being found in public and bottled drinking water.
   There is a satanic type of operation that has been literally brainwashing and controlling or deceitfully recruiting masses of people from all walks of life, both inside and outside governments. Members of the program range from victims of complete enslavement (some of their deaths staged) to those who join, in order to fight for Freedom, while actually being used to help destroy Freedom. Masses of these people, as well as others, are unaware mind control victims who are either used and/or manipulated by the program. If only they knew!

   On this subject, President JFK said ~ "Today no war has been declared, and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack. Those who make themselves our enemy are advancing around the globe. . . No war ever posed a greater threat to our security. . .for we are opposed, around the world, by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarily on covert means for expanding its sphere of influence - on infiltration instead of invasion, in subversion instead of elections, on intimidation, instead of free choice, on guerrillas by night, instead of armies by day. . .its preparations are concealed, not published. Its mistakes are buried, not headlined. Its dissenters are silenced, not praised. . .  This is a time of peace and peril, which knows no precedent in history. It is the unprecedented nature of this challenge that also gives rise to your second obligation. . ." (more is inside the book.)

    All of the targeting and harming and controlling and suppressing of humanity must be globally realized and completely stopped as quickly as possible.  The technologies and pharmaceuticals that have been being used on humanity has been literally destroying the Heart of humanity, blocking natural feelings, instincts, compassion, intuition...etc. Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for our HEARTS to rise into a PEACEFUL stand for humanity's safety and Freedom.

More information can be found in my books; The Heart Bud, Yearn for Freedom...etc. Also find more on www.targetedinamerica.com. If you honestly can not afford to buy this book you can freely downloaded it on http://www.targetedinamerica.com/bookth7.pdf. Please help spread the word.


New description for most recent edition of my Targeted in America book;  This book was my first attempt to record around five decades of experiences, which I now realize were due to being covertly targeted.

  After I realized that I was being covertly targeted I began looking back over about five decades of odd chains of events and "accidents"...etc., and now know that it was not "just life" or "just coincidence" or my "karma" or any of the other excuses that we tend to use when we are not aware of the targeting. This book is my second aim to document the most obvious things, that I can recall at this point in time, which appear to have been part of the targeting.

  As I faced the targeting I also began to realize that I was not nearly the only one being hurt by it - that my loved ones have also been being targeted in various ways, (some brainwashed or enslaved or killed or abducted) and that this horrible holocaustal type of situation also harms and/or effects most (if not all) of humanity in various ways.

   I am a Targeted Individual who has been being targeted by a covert operation, which utilizes satellite surveillance systems in conjunction with microwave weapons, laser weapons, psychotronic weapons, pharmaceuticals (which aid technological mind control) chemical warfare, parasite infestations, covert psychological harassment...etc. My fight for our lives is also a stand for humanity's Freedom and recovery, crippled though it sometimes has been. There is a desperate need for all of humanity to be set free and I hope this book, as well as my other books, help to restore freedom as well as the awareness that is needed for recovery. Hopefully soon, our freedom will be regained and recovery can begin.

   I had aimed to replace this book with my Yearn for Freedom book. But have not been able to complete this process due to computer infiltrations and vamp ups in the targeting. This book contains things that the Yearn for Freedom one don't. Ans the Yearn for Freedom book contains more recent memories of past events.

   Find more information in my books; Technological Holocaust, The Heart Bud. And on www.targetedinamerica.com  More of my personal testimony is in my Ramblings of a Targeted Individual book and continues in my Yearn for Freedom book. Please look them up on Amazon.


New description for my first Technological Holocaust book; I wrote this book as I was in the process of figuring out the scope of covert and technological targeting, which is the root cause of most of the problems we are now faced with in our troubled world. My newer edition of this same title has more accurate and up-to-date information. But this edition remains available, because it contains other things. Due to computer infiltrations and heavy targeting I have not been able to completely consolidate it into my newer editions and my only copy of this book was stolen from my car, leading me to believe it contains something that those who target me do not want shared. (I hope it remained the same in both of the  publishing sites its been in since 2013.)
   Space based technologies, like satellites, are well known to have the capability of shooting radio waves (microwaves) down to people's homes and businesses for internet access. But more than this has been happening with these types of technologies. Criminal use of them enables the shooting of beams of radio waves directly into a person's brain or body, affecting people in ways that range from mental numbness to sever brain washings and from mild to lethal physical illnesses. (This can be done to individuals as well as whole communities...etc. The brainwashing part of this is greatly aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, the same ones that 2008 news reports stated were being found in public and bottled drinking water.
  There is a satanic type of operation that has been literally brainwashing and controlling or deceitfully recruiting masses of people from all walks of life, both inside and outside governments. Members of the program range from victims of complete enslavement (some of their deaths staged) to those who join, in order to fight for Freedom, while actually being used to help destroy Freedom. Masses of these people, as well as others, are unaware mind control victims who are either used and/or manipulated by the program. If only they knew!

   On this subject, President JFK said ~ "Today no war has been declared, and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack. Those who make themselves our enemy are advancing around the globe. . . No war ever posed a greater threat to our security. . .for we are opposed, around the world, by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarily on covert means for expanding its sphere of influence - on infiltration instead of invasion, in subversion instead of elections, on intimidation, instead of free choice, on guerrillas by night, instead of armies by day. . .its preparations are concealed, not published. Its mistakes are buried, not headlined. Its dissenters are silenced, not praised. . .  This is a time of peace and peril, which knows no precedent in history. It is the unprecedented nature of this challenge that also gives rise to your second obligation. . ." (more is inside the book.)

    All of this must be more fully realized and completely stopped as quickly as possible.  The technologies and pharmaceuticals that have been being used on humanity has been literally destroying the Heart of humanity, blocking natural feelings, instincts, compassion, intuition...etc. Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for our HEARTS to rise into a PEACEFUL stand for humanity's safety and Freedom.

More information can be found in my books; The Heart Bud, Yearn for Freedom...etc. Also find more on www.targetedinamerica.com. If you honestly can not afford to buy this book you can freely downloaded it on http://www.targetedinamerica.com/bookth7.pdf. Please help spread the word.



copyrighted with all rights reserved. I do not mind if caring people freely share things I've written, that are direct information about the targeting, in order to help expose and stop the targeting, but not those people who do it to steal my creations or take credit for it...etc. The blocking of my writings/work by those steal it and/or take credit for is just too horribly wrong and should stop.


Monday, September 16, 2019

Nuking Drops Body Temp

After I posted about my arm being hurt by radiation the pain started subsiding and a vamp up in one of the other types of radiation began again. This other type causes pain, extreme fatigue and my body temp dropping below normal. My temp dropped to 96 (point something) on Friday and was around 97 through the weekend and is probably about that right now. A body temp around 96 has made me feel like I am on the verge of passing out. I don't feel very well and I feel scared. I know I have survived the multitudes of other rounds, but I am deeply concerned about long term effects as well as them forcing me into a hospital through making me go unconscious...etc. And I should not have to tolerate this at all.  I want to be free of all levels of the targeting. Why is this not over yet? Why?

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

The Threatening Sign?

   I recently noticed a large sign posted at the business of the family of one of the deceased victims of the targeting. This family is probably enslaved and the sign is probably not a coincidence and probably has a double meaning, as does much of the covert messaging stuff. The sign says, "JOIN US FOR JULIA'S BENEFIT." My heart sank when I noticed it and realized that my even driving that way lately was probably a mind control move. In recent weeks they had also kept having puppets mention Julia's name. This all appears to be yet another round of threats to follow through on the framing of my daughter if I do not give up and leave my life forever - sell my soul to the devil - leap into complete enslavement with those who target us all...etc.
   I can not even  consider complying because, like I have said before, I do not believe that my loved ones or anyone else will truly be OK if these crimes - the framing and blackmailing...etc., are allowed to continue succeeding. We need and should have the heart of good, decent, aware officials here for us, not allowing any of it to continue or succeed with hurting any of us in any way. I do not want to blame officials who have not been able to be here for us, but the fact that they have not been able to be has remained excruciating beyond words, especially since last year when I realized what the framing of Julia appears to be about and the way that things have been going makes it appear that there are no such officials who have the freedom or ability to be here for us. Surely they would be already if their were. Surely those who already know realize how much we are being hurt in multitudes of ways. Hope has been difficult to keep, but I still have it for not only us but for the multitudes of other victims who have experienced similar things.

God, help us all to be totally set free and have a 
chance to recover and live our lives in peace.

Monday, September 9, 2019

Painful Radiation

The periodic radiating of my neck and shoulders, in the past couple months or so, feels like it has been causing damage. It has been causing pain that radiates down my left arm even when they are not doing it, lately.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, September 5, 2019

My Words Changed in Youtube Video

   The last time I tried to comb through some of my videos I realized that my words were changed in one of them. Those who target me and infiltrate my computers as well as library computers, had cut out parts of my plea to officials, which I had recorded in 2015. I had addressed "leaders of our nations" and they had changed it to leader of our nation, as if I was addressing only Obama. This was after I had gotten the email from Obama in 2015. Were they trying to make it look like I was blaming Obama?  Or was it something else? Exactly what the manipulation was for I am not sure of, but I am sure it was not good. I can not remember which video they did this in, but wonder if it is the one they just had deleted from my account.
   I have also found other important parts of some of my videos cut out and there have probably been things done that I am not aware of. Between their alterations to my videos, their interference with my brain function while I recorded them and my own nervousness in front of a camera, none of them ended up being even close to what I wanted them to be. It feels horrible that they can just do whatever they want with my videos and there seems nothing I can do about it and there has been no one here for me to help stop them from continuing and succeeding with these manipulations as well as all other parts of the targeting. It should not be this way. Its just too wrong. I have removed most of the videos - all but one. I'd thought of transcribing this video today, but with the infiltration in the library computers they could just change the words I type as well, which makes it futile. They have done the same types of manipulations with some of my writings. This is all so frustrating its beyond words.
   Below is the video I am keeping public and I hope it shows people that I am a real person and it hopefully will portray my true personality although I am not fully natural in it due to being targeted and watched and being nervousness while recording it. It also appears that an important part of this video  was cut out as well - the part where I cry and say that the Heart of humanity is the most important thing...


My Work and the Mind Control Obstacle


https://youtu.be/rxljJxhKxTE

P.S. Last night I had a dream which showed me trying to get rid of THEIR crap, but that it kept bubbling up and growing instead of going away. It also showed me on the edge of a deadly drop off and them gathering behind me. It keeps looking like the bad are winning. But I am still praying for this to not happen.

Wednesday, September 4, 2019

Youtube Removed One of my Videos

Youtube didn't just block my video from public view, they deleted it from my account completely! They said they found it had "hate" speech in it, but it didn't at all! They sent an email saying, "As you may know, our Community Guidelines describe which content we allow – and don’t allow – on YouTube. Your video Human Enslavement in a Technological Holocaust was flagged to us for review. Upon review, we’ve determined that it violates our guidelines and we’ve removed it from YouTube."

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Intentional and Unnatural Damage Done in the Bahamas?

 
  Looks like Bahama was the primary target with Dorian...etc. A news report said, "It is highly unusual for a storm of Dorian’s magnitude to halt and hover over land," as it did in the Bahamas through Labor Day. I do not think its hovering there was natural or that all the damage done was only due to the storm. Please help stop criminal use of weather modification technologies.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, August 29, 2019

Hurricane Dorian

  The "Labor Day" time was nagging at me and I think this may have been an intuition about something bad happening around this time. I just found a report about Hurricane Dorian and wonder if this is what it was about. I feel sad for the people, in and around Florida, who will be hurt by it. I wonder why weather modification technologies are not being used to direct Dorian onto a less damaging path. I hope this will not be another intentional storm slam that is used to mask other damages/targetings done in the process. God! When will the hell finally end?

P.S. Thoughts are not how my intuition usually works. I feel that the repeated thought of "Labor Day" may not have been intuition and may have been a thought planted with technological mind control, as part of the threatening and trying to make me feel like they create disasters to avenge my stand against the targeting.

Like a Fish Out of Water



I have been struggling to tolerate yet another round of microwaves vamping up in conjunction with certain types of thoughts, particularly thoughts about the targeting. This is extremely difficult. Even when it is not at torture levels it feels like my brain is underwater or like it and my heart are like a fish out of water, unable to get sustenance. I wish it would stop. I wish I were free. I wish we all were free.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Other Childhood Memories

     I had planned to write a book about my best childhood memories and other life experiences, as well as lessons learned...etc., after I had completed my Embracing Feelings (Now Embracing Sadness) book and work, which had only expressed the childhood tough times, which I'd faced in the late 1980s. The targeting has prevented me from doing this new book. However, I still have the cherished memories and a few of them came out in lyrics to this beginning stage of a new song, a while back.


The Other Childhood Memories
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Rides in the bucket of Dad's old tractor,
Beans on a campfire and lots of laughter.
Mom and I sitting by a peaceful stream
Talking about things we used to dream.
Pulling boards off Dad's sawmill.
Riding sleds down a slow hill.
Throwing bails of hay onto the truck.
Learning to shift and getting it stuck.
Back to the fireplace to get warm
After walking through a cold storm.
The funny faces, when I was sad,
Under the crooked hat on my Dad.
Penny candy at Pierce's after church.
Picking bark off an old white birch.
Playing kickball on the back lawn.
Catching fireflies that glowed 'til dawn.
Kneeling to pray at the edge of my bed,
Believing God heard every word I said.
Soaring way up high into the sky
When I thought that I could fly.
Eating warm tomatoes out in the garden.
Waiting for maple candy to cool and harden.
Mom canning the cukes, beets and greens
I'm sure to wash them all real clean.
Picking blue berries for home made pie.
Dumping leftovers into the pig sty.
Savored bites of Dad's great fudge -
Too good for anyone to judge.
The scent of lilacs drifting in my window.
Rides to the beach and circle 9 show.
Running through cornstalks that grew tall
Staying barefooted until late fall.
Mom's foot stomps to put my shoes on
As I giggle and run across the lawn.
Baking with Mom on Christmas eve.
Waiting for buds to turn into leaves.
Racing my friend - my horse and I,
Through woods roads in June and July.
Turning my poems into a sad song.
Staying awake all night long.
Caring for Nanna after her stroke
And sweet Jo-Jo who rarely spoke.
Racing my car through the center of town
Peeling donuts around and around.
Waiting and waiting for time to go faster
Under the wings of miss R's pastor.
Playing football with my friend.
Days I wished would never end.

   Its a shame that the good times faded as my family was targeted and some members even enslaved. But I still have the memories and I hold them close to my heart hoping I always will.

Monday, August 26, 2019

Horrible Microwaving and Another Confrontation

    Updated on the 27th after the worst of the nuking had stopped;

   Yesterday morning; after being woken by people hanging out near my car/bedroom, and hit with microwaves to the point of terrible pain, weakness and nausea, I headed for a gas station, thinking that they were probably hitting me so hard to prevent me from holding my sign for financial help near a church.  At the gas station I was loudly confronted by a police officer inside the store. He said he'd gotten a call, from the church I was asking for help near last Sunday, and that they did not want me "on their property" "panhandling" as people went "into the church", but that I could go inside to the service. The way he said it implied that I was doing something like standing at the door begging people for help as they entered the church, which is not at all what had happened there and the church had already told me and I had already respected that. I do not know if the way he put this across to me was what the  church told him I was or if it is what he assumed or if it was what he was told to say to me by someone else, but it was a severe twisting of the Truth to make it look like I was doing something wrong. I told him that I'd already gotten that message loud and clear through being shot with laser and microwave weapons, but did not elaborate on the other reasons why I already knew not to go back there and I did not correct the untruths, because I was being hurt too severely at the time and it was all I could to stay coherent.

 Those reasons being the raven I saw screeching on the roof of the church, warning me of a danger there, a few days ago and the behaviors of some of the church members.

   And the Truth is that the church leaders not wanting me asking people for help on their property was already said to me over a month ago when I was on their property standing near the end for their driveway holding a sign begging for financial help, that people could see as they drove away from the church. After members of the church told me I couldn't be on their property asking for help I respected that and did not do it again. Out of respect for their already expressed wishes I had not been on the church's property last Sunday - (the only other time I had done this there.) And I did not think they'd have an issue with me being off their property - on the side of the road, by the stop sign to their driveway, holding a sign for people to see as they left the church, but it appears that they did have an issue with this too.

   This morning those who target me were clearly trying to trigger me again while they were inflicting me with horrible pain and nausea, having a police officer humiliate me with a public confrontation about something, which I've had an issue with in the past. And also the twisting of the truth of my behaviors, which I was still stewing about the library recently doing. There was no need for this complaint against me. It was clearly just to harass me. And the timing of it was like kicking me when I was already almost on the ground and clearly seems to have been a set up to make me react negatively. I'm glad I didn't.

They also were making me fall asleep in my car yesterday, with the heavy microwaving. And today I found my money pouch, which I keep things in under my clothes, was left unzipped again. It appears they accessed it. I do not know yet if anything is missing or swapped...etc. I may never know what they were doing this time, as is usually the case.

P.S. The church wanting me to go inside and eat or drink something they prepare for me was heavily and repeatedly pushed on both times I went there and I did not feel safe with it. I had always felt a distant danger there, as is the same in other places that targets can go for help (both inside and outside the government), because they have been infiltrated by a darkness that often lurks in the background and is not even obvious to people who are used by it for various things like what is thought to be a safe covert rescue. Would that darkness have used some of these church members to drug me and knock me out and abduct me and put me into the hands of those who target me and my loved ones, or to lace my food with something else that would have a ill effect on me? Most likely and it certainly was not worth the risk. Last week when I saw the raven warning there I felt pangs of guilt for a short time, wondering if the danger is zooming in there because I went there last Sunday. But then the guilt went away as I realized what I had already known, that it was already there and was rising up to a more obvious degree after not being able to lure me in to eat or drink...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Cry for the Heart of Humanity

 It is heart wrenching - the ways that the pharmaceutical and technological mind control, as well as technological tortures, have been literally destroying the Heart of humanity... torturing or controlling and even completely enslaving masses of people...etc. This is evident in the state of the world. I keep praying for Freedom for all of us, but more than that is desperately needed. We need more Hearts realizing the full scope of what has been happening and doing all that they can to help to stop it from continuing. Please be one of those Hearts...all of you who read this. Please.

God's hands work through our Hearts
We must do our part

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Puppet Yapping

   I have been working on puzzles in libraries lately, which helps me to take my mind off of things that roll around in my head and find no solution. But it doesn't help much when the microwaves vamp up on my brain and they have their puppets start yapping at me with covert messaging. However I have been trying to drown them out and keep my focus on only the puzzle through talking to myself about the puzzle. This may make me look crazy, or whatever, but it helps me.
   The yapping has been severe at times, as usual, and I wrote the following poem several days ago about it.

Puppet Yapping
copyright Sharon R. Poet

Puppets yapping
I don't want to hear
Puppet threats
I don't want to fear
On and on and on
Relentless it goes
Crashing down my wall
Which surely shows
Stop. Please stop
Repeatedly I cry
But it pours like rain
From their dark sky
puppet yapping
Oh, God please
Set them free
And do the same
For me.


P.S. The talking to myself was so low that no one could here me, unless they sent someone to sit really close to me, which they were doing at strategic times. And the library had suddenly gathered a bunch of new puzzles for me right after I had announced that I did not want to continue doing them and I felt like I was being brainwashed into being obsessed with continuing to go there to do puzzles. It appears they wanted to keep me there and keep badgering me until they got a negative reaction from me. But all I did was periodically say things like, "Please be quiet" or made a "SH" sound during SOME of the obviously loud and intrusive rounds of covert harassment. Actually, in comparison the amount of badgering and harassing that was delivered to me there I rarely even said. "Please be quiet" or "SH". Most of the harassment was being done by the librarians (as usual) who refused to stop and seemed to even got worse and louder when they knew it was bothering me. In the end, the day after I posted this poem about them and left them a copy of it, they did a little set up with someone walking right up behind me to start loudly talking to someone else, blatantly instigating my "sh" sound...and then they confronted me and tried to make me wrong for the wrong that they were doing to me. To them it is now wrong to remind people to be quiet in a library that is now deemed "not a quiet" environment. The librarian even went so far as to say that my "SH" was offensive to people. This is a typical targeting tactic - perpetration puppets projecting their own rude and inconsiderate and offensive behaviors onto the victim and blaming the victim after they are caught or exposed or confronted about the wrong that THEY are doing.

Out of consideration for others, people should automatically be quiet in libraries, especially when they are near someone who is there quietly working on something. This is just common courtesy. 
   But, now that libraries have become tools for covert harassment, it is has become OK to be rude and loud and inconsiderate and it has become wrong for the victims of this to expect or ask for such consideration. It should not be this way and it is shocking that it has become this way.

   This was at the Stratham, NH library, the same place (most likely) where they invaded my car to put crap on my pillow. I think its all a vengeance thing due to my confronting those librarians as well as others, in the deeper past, about following a criminal program that was threatening and harassing me. Instead of stopping they got worse and more manipulative and started set ups to try to make me react negatively. I'm glad I didn't and that they even had to really twist the truth and lie and deem libraries non quiet environments to make me look like the one in the wrong. (They have actually done this to me at four different libraries!)
   It really does do no good to confront the perp puppets, which is why I resorted to just ignoring most of it and, for the most part, only saying "please be quiet" or "SH", which should be understandable and acceptable things to do in libraries. But, they think I am supposed to let them harass me, walking right up to me or near me as they started loudly talking, saying things that only I would know are part of the covert harassment...etc. Actually I think it upset them that I did not demonstrate a belligerent reaction during one of those times when their leaders were lasering my brain while librarians or otehr puppets  were harassing me.